Love Rival is so cute [Rebirth GL]

——Yang Zixi opened his eyes wide, carefully recalling what happened at that moment just now.

Yan Haiqing stood up and rushed towards himself.

Yan Haiqing passed through himself.

Yan Haiqing fell to the ground.

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If I read correctly, did Yan Haiqing want to strangle her neck just now?

Yan Haiqing, she...wanted to kill me? !

Yang Zixi clutched his neck and turned his head dully.She looked at Yan Haiqing in disbelief, her lips trembling, and a chill rose up her spine.

Yan Haiqing also looked at her, with paranoid flames burning in his eyes, and he finally became less calm and self-possessed.

The two looked at each other in silence, one was stunned, the other fierce.

Her chest was heaving violently, she stared at Yang Zixi viciously and laughed loudly: "Yes, you are a fake, obviously it is just something that can be confirmed by reaching out, why am I still hesitating? What am I still longing for?" ? There is no such thing as a guardian spirit...I watched your body cremated with my own eyes, how can I still hope that you will love me?"

Yan Haiqing raised his hands, looked at his own hands carefully, and smiled foolishly: "Only things that can be touched by my hands are real."

Yang Zixi squatted down and tried to support Yan Haiqing, but her hand passed straight through the other person's body, matching Yan Haiqing's last sentence, like a silent and indifferent sentence: 【You are not from the same world. 】The psychiatrist took Yan Haiqing's arm and said, "Sorry, I didn't expect your reaction to be so violent..."

Teacher Xu helped Yan Haiqing to the sofa again, and brought another cup of hot water, then said softly, "Would you like to tell me what happened?"

Yan Haiqing closed his eyes and leaned on the sofa, neither looking at Teacher Xu nor Yang Zixi.Her expression was very ups and downs, as if a fierce struggle was going on in her mind.

Standing in the consultation room, Yang Zixi felt at a loss for the first time.In the past, she thought it was a dream, that no one could see her, and she proclaimed herself king in her dream, patrolling the counselors, and she was not ashamed at all for prying eyes.But now she developed a strong sense of not belonging, as if even existence itself was too much.

This is someone else's room, someone else's world.

She wanted to keep getting closer to Yan Haiqing, but what could she do after getting closer?Give a hug or a slap?

She wanted to get close to Teacher Xu and let the only third person present confirm her existence.But this is something that does not require practice to know the result.

Yan Haiqing's chest kept rising and falling, he closed his eyes and leaned back on the sofa to sort out his emotions.She took a few deep breaths, and finally suppressed all the abnormal fluctuations.

She kept telling herself in her heart: Yang Zixi doesn't exist, it's just her own illusion.

After repeating this silently several times, she made sure that she would not be disturbed by hallucinations, then opened her eyes to look at Dr. Xu, and said, "Ms. Xu, she just said that she likes me."

Dr. Xu still smiled gently and calmly, and said, "Yes."

Yan Haiqing made up his mind to ignore Yang Zixi, so he continued to confide in Dr. Xu: "She said she liked me, but my first reaction was to kill her..."

Yan Haiqing raised her hand and showed it to Dr. Xu. She fell too hard just now, and her hand was red and swollen.

Yang Zixi couldn't help stretching out his hand, and slowly covered the scar.She felt the same way, and even her heart ached.Even if Yan Haiqing was injured because he wanted to strangle her to death, she couldn't help feeling sorry for Yan Haiqing.

Two hands clasped in the void, Yang Zixi tried hard not to let each other's hands overlap, making the illusion of touching.

Yan Haiqing saw Yang Zixi's movements, his hands trembled, but he didn't withdraw in the end.She can't show weakness to the hallucinations, and she has to pretend that she doesn't see anything the hallucinations do.

Doctor Xu asked, "Why do you want to kill her? Don't you like her?"

Yan Haiqing said: "I wanted many things in my life, and I got them all, money, power, and revenge. Only feelings can't be forced, so I never extravagantly ask for feelings, I don't want feelings. The only person I have ever loved It's Yang Zixi, but she left so early, I have no way to ask her for affection."

Yan Haiqing smiled wryly, and said: "I was young at that time, and I thought it was enough to see her happy. I helped her identify the marriage partner, and I snatched her fiancé away. Who knew she was so affectionate and committed suicide just like that. During that period, I didn't live very well, and I was so absorbed in my work that I could numb myself.

"Actually, she is weak and stupid. It's fine if she can't see through scumbags, but she even paid for herself. But I love her like this, and I want her to be happy... I have thought countless times, if I can get back If you come, I will just snatch her away, pretend to be pitiful and weak, pretend to be kind, you can always get her love? She is such a person, as long as you look at her pitifully, she will have no principles.

"Later I realized that it was meaningless to assume that it was meaningless. It was meaningless to leave when someone left, to miss her, or to put her in my little palace. She would not love me, and would not give me Love.

"She said she likes me, it just means that I'm still longing for love." Yan Haiqing smiled mockingly, and said, "Things like feelings, things like love... should have been thrown away a long time ago, shouldn't they?"

Dr. Xu shook his head slightly, and said: "Emotional needs are one of the most basic needs of human beings. Forcibly suppressing this need is not good for your health. You have such hallucinations, it is your subconscious mind warning you that you can't go on like this gone."

After Dr. Xu finished speaking, she paused. She had been doing psychological counseling for Yan Haiqing for several years. She knew how Yan Haiqing got here and why he treated emotions like nothing.

Therefore, it is also clear that Yan Haiqing will not agree with these words.

Yan Haiqing really smiled contemptuously, and said: "She fell in love with me in high school in my dream, and the liking she said now doesn't refer to me at all. According to what you said, my subconscious mind doesn't think she would like me like this .Yang Zixi 'should' like me who is kind, fragile, naive and sensitive, but I still don't deserve love right now?"

Yang Zixi retorted subconsciously: "I'm not...!"

Yan Haiqing's eyes flicked across Yang Zixi's face, without staying even for a moment, but Yang Zixi was still stunned.

Asking herself, she really doesn't like Yan Haiqing who doesn't care about anything, but she still likes the one in high school.This Yan Haiqing's edges and corners are too obvious, Yang Zixi has a feeling that he has nothing to hide, as if his every word and deed are being ridiculed.

Even if he can't understand every weakness and childishness in himself, Yan Haiqing still named this feeling "love".

Name this feeling of wanting to strangle yourself "love".

Yang Zixi paused, the words came to her lips, and changed another sentence: "I didn't jump off the cliff because of Lu Yangwen, I fell down by accident." She covered her neck and asked another question with a complicated mood: "You Do you really want to kill me?"

Yan Haiqing explained, and didn't know whether to treat Yang Zixi or Dr. Xu: "I hate that kind of weakness. If I were like you like me, I wouldn't be able to live like this, and I wouldn't be able to get so many things. Let me do it for the so-called 'love'." 'To become me like that, I can't accept it. Where is the utopia in the dream, it's just my self-destruction for the sake of illusory love. "

Yan Haiqing shook his head, and sincerely said to Dr. Xu: "This is also the reason why I came to you. I want to get rid of the hallucinations. I don't want to paralyze myself."

Yang Zixi felt that he had been drenched in a large basin of ice from head to toe, and his body and soul were terribly cold.

She clearly knew that Yan Haiqing was telling the truth, and she could understand why Yan Haiqing thought so.After all, character is shaped by experience.In the previous life, Yan Haiqing suffered so many blows one after another, it is understandable that he became like this in order to stand up in a short time.

She just didn't expect that Yan Haiqing would want to kill herself so decisively and truly.If I didn't have this physique, would I really be strangled to death?Yang Zixi was afraid for a while.

... No, let's not talk about me, does Yan Haiqing really want to kill herself?

This Yan Haiqing has his own world view, and he will not change it for anyone.She holds a strict theory of emotional futility, and even believes that loving and being loved are signs of weakness.

"In the dream, Yang Zixi protected me very well, like a hen guarding its cubs. I was paralyzed and corroded in the hotbed, and I was so happy that I didn't notice it." Yan Haiqing looked at Dr. Xu and said, "Teacher Xu, Does this mean that I subconsciously want that kind of 'love'? Is it my instinct to be weak? Then it's better not to have such an instinct. But I can't control the dream, so I came to you, I don't know if you can Can't you help me with this?"

Dr. Xu pondered for a moment and said something, but Yang Zixi didn't hear anything, and there was only one thing in his mind: Yan Haiqing didn't like him.

You can't choose in life, and you can't start over.Human beings are always eager to regret medicine, "if only so so so".

But Yan Haiqing experienced another possibility in the dream, even if he treats her well, she doesn't want it.

If her Yan Haiqing was given a chance to choose, would she still choose herself?Will you still choose to like yourself, be friends with yourself, be a lover...?

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"boom!"

Everyone looked at the source of the sound. Yang Zixi lifted the table in front of him and stood straight in the center of the quiet examination room, with a pale face and heaving chest.

I don't know what Dr. Xu said, or Yan Haiqing's desire to not see him was too strong, so he was really blocked by Yan Haiqing.

This time Yang Zixi knew that Yan Haiqing really couldn't see her.Either pretending to be indifferent, not deliberately ignoring, or really not seeing.

Yang Zixi knew this because in the dream she gradually couldn't breathe, the suffocation enveloped her whole body, she was so uncomfortable that she was about to die.

Yan Haiqing couldn't pinch himself, so did he use another method?

Maybe she really died in the dream, so she came back to reality all of a sudden?

... No, maybe she died in reality, but the dream is still going on.

"Student, what's the matter?" The invigilator walked over with his hands behind his back, and said, "The monthly exam is now."

Yang Zixi looked at the invigilator upon hearing the words, but his eyes were dizzy, and even the ceiling was shaking, as if it was about to fall.

The other person's face is very strange, the right eye is enlarged, the left eye is shrunk, the nose is crooked, and the whole is completely different.

Yang Zixi opened his mouth to say "I'm sorry", but in the next second he saw the continuously enlarged ground.

At the last second when he closed his eyes, Yang Zixi thought: Ah, it turns out that fainting doesn't hurt that much.