Actually I like you very much

When Rascal walked out of the battle room, his entire face was black.

It was too embarrassing to lose.

During the post-match interview, the reporters asked tricky questions.

"What do you think of this failure?"

"I heard that the ER-WIT department signed a betting agreement with the headquarters. If you lose this qualifier, you will not have the chance to compete this year. Is it true?"

"Before you boasted that Haikou would defeat A&S, but now that you haven't achieved it, how do you plan to live up to the fans' expectations?"

"Have you ever thought about why you lost this time? Is it because you didn't have enough training time?"

"Rascal said before that three sets of plans were made for A&S, but they haven't come into play at all today. What kind of plans were originally made?"

"I want to ask Rascal, what was his mentality when he said those words on Weibo before? How do you plan to solve it now?"

Questions came one after another, and the reporters wanted to turn their microphones to the front, but ER couldn't answer a word.A team of five people sat in front of the interview table and looked at each other, surrounded by a group of reporters holding up their cameras to take pictures, and the flash was extremely dazzling.

E-sports is always an industry based on performance. If you can win, there will be people advocating it no matter what means. But if you lose, these people who originally advocated will instantly switch roles. The more they brag, the harder they scold.

After this game, the ER team's online reputation plummeted, and there was a lot of scolding.What pushed the scolding to a climax was a post that suddenly appeared on the forum one night.

An anonymous ID sent out a series of data one after another, listing the fact that the ER team has exploded their opponents with rhythm since their debut.

This bad behavior has started a few years ago, SAT is considered good, at least it has survived rounds of cyber violence, and there are still many small teams that cannot withstand this unwarranted disaster, so they disbanded directly.

The ER team's rhythmic cyber violence has been discussed by many netizens in the early morning, but there is no evidence. Even if someone mentions it, it will be suppressed by the idiot fans. If the discussion is not enough, it will be easy to suppress the public relations. .

Now, this post is directly on the real hammer, IP, login records, the interval between speeches, and even two marketing accounts with a large number of fans in the circle are actually accounts raised by the ER club. Responsible for the quiet rhythm.

The fans were instantly furious for chasing the team and the game with true feelings, but being tricked by someone.

Starting with this post, some people have sent out Rascal's personal black material one after another - PUA female fans.

The poster claimed that he was one of the girls who were PUA. Together with several other victimized girls, he sorted out a series of real hammers, chat records, consumption records, voice, including video, with conclusive evidence and strict logic.

The audio of the girl's tearful voice made this matter completely out of the circle.

At this point, Rascal's already collapsed general character design has completely collapsed.

In the era of entertainment until death, some people want to use the direction of the Internet to occupy the high ground of public opinion, and they will definitely be backlashed by it.

ER has been acting like a tortoise, never responding, apologizing or showing up when things come to light. It wasn't until the PUA incident got out that ER finally wanted to calm down. First, it said that the girl was spreading rumors, and then directly posted a lawyer's letter, and then took advantage of the situation to edit the highlights of the ER team's game. , told the public with a very sad gesture that the captain Rascal who led ER to victory is about to retire.

They wanted to use this to sell a wave of feelings, but they didn't expect that what the girls released was only the first wave of evidence. Seeing ER's response, they directly dumped the video, head, face, and voice, and it was Rascal himself.

As soon as the video was released, the comment area of ​​the ER team was captured instantly, and the clip that was supposed to sell feelings turned into a battlefield, almost one-sided scolding.

[Retire, scumbag, how do you want to sell your feelings? 】

[What does it mean to lead ER to victory?Is it to scold all other opponents away? 】

[I just found out that I was used as a knife by ER before? 】

[Get out, what are you trying to attract attention here, ER get out of the e-sports circle! ! 】

[The circle is so smoky, dare to post the previous video now? 】

[Did your opponent, who was scolded and collapsed by your tempo, agree?Are you still eating human blood steamed buns? ? 】

Rascal's retired live broadcast room was also flooded with abuse, and the room management didn't have time to delete the silence.

The retirement ceremony ended hastily, and Rascal ended his e-sports career in embarrassment amidst a lot of scolding.

In such a situation, ER had no choice but to abandon the car to protect the handsome man, change the manager, announce the next captain of the ER team, and promise to give fans a different ER.

Even so, the statement and public relations came too late, missed the best time, and the handling method was ordinary, which could not change the public's impression of the ER team. With a previous black history, no matter what method ER used to clean it up, it was useless.Not only that, netizens even judged every game of the ER team with a stricter eye, and if there was a slight mistake on the field, they would be picked up by black fans and ridiculed.

The ridicule is like a snowball, more and more, bigger and bigger, the mentality of the rest of the ER team collapsed, every game is like clocking in for work, going through more than an hour on the field, working hard, not daring to make mistakes, not seeking for nothing But ask for nothing.

Can't win, can't afford to lose, no grades.

Such a team is destined to end.

At this moment, Jiang Xunxing didn't think that so many things would happen to the ER team later.

He was alone in the team lounge.

The others went to participate in the post-match interview, but Jiang Xunxing didn't want to go, so Xiang Wan agreed and told him that he could rest for a while.

The peripheral bag was placed on the sofa. They were so excited just after the game, Lihuai and the others kicked the gaming chairs into a mess and piled them in the middle of the lounge. It was a mess.

Jiang Xunxing placed the gaming chairs one by one, picked a position, and adjusted the height of the lumbar cushion.

He thought a lot.

Thinking of Rascal's shocked and angry eyes when he walked off the stage.

Think of the game that he was so worried about.

Thinking of Xiang Wan, thinking of A&S, thinking of SAT.

Think of Sikong.

The heart twitched violently.

Some people have said that when the person you like leaves the world, the heart will become his tombstone forever, and the heart will be empty forever, filled with all the memories you have experienced with that person forever, which cannot be forgotten or wiped out.

Jiang Xunxing also thought this was the case, so he never dared to agree to Xiang Wan.

He was worried that if he couldn't get out, he would unconsciously regard Xiang Wan as Sikong's shadow.

He didn't want that.

Jiang Xunxing leaned back, and the back of the chair bent back a little with his movements.

The phone is vibrating.

Jiang Xunxing received another private message from the girl. There were several messages, probably because of the Internet, and now they popped up all of a sudden.

-Pluto, the game just now was so exciting, everyone in A&S is so handsome.

-I didn't understand why my man chased games all the time before, but now I understand.

-I seem to have found a little blood, I can't say what it feels like, but it looks good.

-The two boys sitting next to me almost got down on their knees when they screamed at the end.

- Then, I remembered him.

-He used to do the same thing. He could twitch while watching a game in front of the computer, and even sent me videos of the dormitory, the college male dormitory, all shouting xx awesome.

- so happy.

- And then, I remembered what he said before, when you feel confused, you can either calm down and think clearly, or keep walking, and you can always find something different.

- Now that I think about it, it doesn't seem so difficult.

- Some people can find ground-breaking hope from despair, and some people can find sustenance from the arrogance of others.

-Thank you for being my tree hole all this time.

- cool boy.

After Jiang Xunxing read the news, he found that the girl had changed her name. It used to be Cai Wen Chicken Leg Fort, maybe it was the couple's name with her boyfriend, but just now, it was changed to Elpis.

Elpis, goddess of hope.

Quite artistic conception.

Jiang Xunxing got up and walked towards the stadium.

The competition ended, the venue was emptied, and the audience left, only the girl was left alone. She was still in her seat, as if crying. A young staff member not far away was debating whether to come forward to remind her girl.

Jiang Xunxing patted the staff on the shoulder, signaling him to go out first, and he will take care of it here. The staff saw that he was a contestant who had just participated in the competition, and Xin Dao knew him, so he didn't ask any more, saying that he was at the door, and there was a You can call him whenever you need to.

Jiang Xunxing nodded.

There were footsteps in her ears, and someone gradually approached. The girl thought it was the staff who were coming to clear the scene, rubbed her eyes hard, and tried to swallow her tears back: "Sorry, I'll go out right away."

"No hurry." The voice was very low, soft and cold, and someone handed her a tissue.

The girl took the tissue, and only then did she see the person in front of her clearly. His eyes were dark and his expression was very pale. He was a cool boy.

"Will it be better after crying?" Jiang Xunxing asked. He probably knew why the girl was crying, and he didn't get out of the memories. It's normal to want to cry.

The girl grinned slightly, never expecting that Pluto would appear in front of him, and after a while, she forced a smile: "Yeah."

Jiang Xunxing sat down next to the girl and said, "You don't have to laugh, the tears are not dry yet."

The lights were already dimmed, and there were only a few lights left. When the girl heard these words, she suddenly felt her heart collapse, as if she had been hit, and she cried even harder, unable to stop her tears.

Jiang Xunxing handed her some more papers.

The girl didn't cause trouble to the staff, she quickly adjusted her mood after crying, the tears stopped falling, but her nose and eyes were still red.

Jiang Xunxing took out another mask, the girl sniffled, said "thank you", took the mask and put it on.

"Let's go." Jiang Xunxing said.

The staff had already locked the main door, leaving only the small door on the right. The light of the emergency exit was on.

"You... saw it?" She was referring to the words she sent to Jiang Xunxing.

Jiang Xunxing let out a "hmm".

The girl paused for a moment, not knowing what to say: "I'm sorry to trouble you."

"No." Jiang Xunxing said, "I can be used as a tree hole in the future, but I probably won't come back. Just be good."

Walking to the passageway with the girl, there were too many fans outside, so Jiang Xunxing didn't go any further.

He knew the girl's story, but he didn't know the girl's name, so he had to call her "Chicken Leg Fort".

It took the girl a long time to realize that Jiang Xunxing was calling her.

It is more or less embarrassing for others to call this name. Jiang Xunxing did not change his face, and his voice was so serious that it seemed that someone really called the name "Drumstick Fortress". Don't eat it."

"Psychological problems will be fine."

"Life by yourself, hope and sustenance are given by yourself."

That's all he can say. In some respects, he is quite similar to the girl. He probably knows what she wants to hear. As a tree hole, he should do what the tree hole should do. Just listen and don't interfere with others.After talking, Jiang Xunxing didn't stop much, and waved away.

The post-match interview was over, and Xiang Wan sent a message asking where Jiang Xunxing was. Jiang Xunxing asked him to go back to the hotel first and take a walk outside by himself.

The road conditions in Q City are relatively complicated. There can be several roads from the stadium to the hotel, on and off the bridge.

Walking on the overpass, it leads to a park, a rubber road, there is no one at this point, Jiang Xunxing is walking on the red path alone, the wind is warm passing by, the sun is sunny, and the clouds in the sky are framed with gold.

Jiang Xunxing recalled what he had just told the girl, and felt that he was a bit too pretentious.

Live by yourself, hope and sustenance are given by yourself.

Put it lightly.

It took him a long time to figure this out.

Regarding the past, he has too many things that cannot be left behind.The meaning of living by oneself is not to forget Sikong, but to forget everything in the past.

As Xiang Wan said, the past has become a part of him.

He has to admit that Sikong will always be in his heart, as the past, as a memory, as his captain, as the captain of everyone in SAT—this is a fact, and he doesn't need to force himself to forget it.

And he only realized it the moment he walked out of the battle room.

He is Jiang Xunxing, but not the Jiang Xunxing two years ago.

Memories will stay, but time will not.

Whether it is him, Pamir, Coco, Dawei, or Gaoyu, they are all changing in time.

He was nostalgic for SAT, he liked Sikong, and he quarreled with Sikong.

Sikong said, when you see the letter, let's make up.

Then make up.

If this is the best ending between them, he should listen to Sikong.

He should be reconciled with himself, with the past.

Jiang City and C City are separated by 780 kilometers.

In the past, Jiang Xunxing was in City C, on the SAT team, and was still in high school.

Now Jiang Xunxing lives in Jiangcheng, is admitted to University A, and joins the A&S team.

——I like Xiangwan.

[I only accompany you for this journey of your life. 】

[At this moment, I am going back the same way, and you are flying away. 】

Jiang Xunxing wants to go back to the hotel quickly.

Another gust of wind blew by, blowing the blades to collide, rustling, and mottled the ground.

[Jiang Xunxing, go forward, don't look back. 】

The wind was like a hand, pushing gently on his back, and he walked faster and faster, and at a certain moment he started to run.

The hotel is not far from the venue, it only takes 10 minutes to drive. Even if Jiang Xunxing trotted all the way, it still took a long time. When he came back, Xiangwan had already arrived, and he was pregnant with grapefruits and red pomelo, and went to the restaurant downstairs to pack dinner for a while.

Xiang Wan opened the door and saw Jiang Xunxing resting his knees on his hands, breathing calmly, with beads of sweat hanging from his forehead.

"How did you run back?"

Xiang Wan wanted to draw two tissues, but Jiang Xunxing suddenly grabbed his arm and pushed him behind the door.

A pair of hot lips pressed over with chaotic breathing.

The kiss came so suddenly that Xiang Wan didn't have time to react, let alone think about the meaning of the kiss. He could only do his best to find his breath amidst the unsettling touch.

He pulled Jiang Xunxing's shoulder away, ended the sudden kiss, and said worriedly, "Xunxun, what's wrong with you?"

Jiang Xunxing's chest rose and fell, he was still panting slightly, and his heart was beating fast.

He bowed his head.

He was shorter than Xiang Wan, and when he lowered his head, his forehead rested on Xiang Wan's shoulder, and then rubbed against him again.

Maintaining this posture, Jiang Xunxing said, "I liked the captain."

Xiang Wan stroked his back gently: "Yes, I know."

Jiang Xunxing asked again: "Do you not mind?"

Xiang Wan paused for a moment, probably after thinking for a while, before slowly saying, "It's a lie to say I don't mind."

"But I think, between people, there is never a relationship between who owns who or who squeezes out who."

"Just like I have former teammates, and I will keep in touch with them now, but as my current teammates, will you let me break off with them?"

"It's the same from another angle."

"What I care about is not what happened between you and him in the past, whether you liked him, what is going on now, and what will happen in the future."

"I'm still very possessive. I regret that I met you late, but I hope that now and in the future, I will be the only one by your side."

When Xiang Wan spoke, he was smiling, with soft eyes and a soft voice.

Jiang Xunxing leaned on his shoulder, and what he saw was a hairy head.

He thought of Jiang Xunxing on the field. Under the spotlight, the young man had a slender and fair neck, and his eyes were shone with a thin layer of light.

Jiang Xunxing.

He said the name silently in his heart.

Xiang Wan gently touched the back of Jiang Xunxing's neck, and rubbed her fingertips on the raised spine: "Keep the memories, and I will fill in the rest for you."

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ps. I only accompany you for this journey of your life.At this moment, I will return the same way, and you will fly away.Citing the Internet, the source is unknown, invaded and deleted.I said it before~~

Thank you so much everyone for being here!

I love you so much!