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Dear Yutong:

Hello there.

By the time you read this letter, it is estimated that I have already left the country.

I am not writing this letter to accuse you and auntie, let alone to condemn you.I just wanted to say goodbye to you.After all, I haven't had a good conversation with you in so much time before.

Actually, I should be the one to say I'm sorry.The appearance of my mother and I ruined your originally happy family. This is something that will never be forgiven. I don't want to argue about who comes first in the relationship between adults.Emotions that arise outside the constraints of the law are wrong.Wrong is wrong, so I can understand what you and auntie are doing.

Do you think I'm lying when you read this?Even though you did those things to me and my mother, I still understand you. To be honest, anyone who reads it will find it incredible, right?

But this is my real thought.

I never blamed you and auntie.

I wanted to talk to you many times, but I was afraid of scaring you. Not only that, but I also became very nervous when facing you.Because in fact, I think you and Auntie are very kind people. After all, the outside world says Auntie is a strong woman, right? People with such nicknames did not kill us all. Although my mother and I had a hard time, But I still live very well in this city, healthy and healthy, and have not been harassed.

So Auntie just hopes that my mother and I can stay away from your life, right?

Because I figured this out, I am afraid to communicate with you, and I am afraid that my selfishness will push you further.But on the other hand, I really want to have some contact with you, so I don't mind what you do.On the contrary, sometimes I think, this means that you still have my brother in your heart, right?

Xiaotong, you probably still care about me, right?

Am I a despicable older brother who thinks this way?

You don't need to tell me the answer, I probably know it in my heart.

I was indeed a very mean brother.

Since I was a child, I have known that you are my half-brother.At that time, I didn’t understand some major principles. I only knew that I liked my father very much, but my father rarely had time to visit me and my mother. I always asked my mother why. At first she was unwilling to tell me, but later After being entangled with me for a long time, she said to me impatiently, because my father had to go to accompany my brother.

My mother had an ugly expression when she said it, she must be in pain.But I was different at that time, I only had one thought in my mind, I have a younger brother.

What is my brother like?

As far as I can remember, when I was young, I didn’t have many friends because I moved a lot.So after learning that I have a younger brother, I am really happy. I often fantasize about your appearance. I think, you should be a very, very cute kind of child, white and soft, and you will never be mischievous or mischievous. Will yell like some kids do.

Later, I finally saw you in the new kindergarten. You are exactly as I imagined. You are really super cute. You sit quietly and draw pictures like a little angel.

You won't understand my mood at that time, in fact, I don't remember much myself.How does the child feel?I only know that I am so happy, happier than when my father took me to eat KFC for the first time.I was looking for a chance to play with you after class, and my mother told me that I must never tell you that I am your brother.But I really want to hear you call me brother, so I let you call me big brother.

You called me "Big Brother! Big Brother!" and gave me your favorite chocolate. My heart almost melted like chocolate.My childhood memories have become all about you.

Until my aunt discovered my existence.

The day my mother was about to move again, I cried very hard. I begged her not to take me away. I asked him why my aunt found me, so I must leave?

I will not hurt you.

I will never hurt you.

My mother said no.She told me with a cold face that if I still want to see my father, I can't see my brother and we have to go.

Why?At that time, I really couldn't figure it out.

I want a dad, and I want a brother.I want it all.

But I had no choice, so I was taken away, and taken to a place far away from you, until I transferred to Baicheng Middle School.

Alas, I wrote too much all of a sudden, and I almost ran out of letter paper.Haha, it seems that I am actually very long-winded, right?I still have a lot of things I want to say to you, but people always have a lot of helpless things, so I said I understand you and auntie, but I am really not lying to you.

I'm going to leave by plane tomorrow. In fact, if possible, I really want to hand this letter to you with my own hands.

But I still dare not, because of my timidity, I always miss many opportunities.

So I'm going to mail this letter to you, and I'll wrap it in two envelopes so you don't throw it away as soon as you see it's from me! (smile)

OK, I'm off to pack my things.

I really hope that I can return to China as soon as possible. When I am more mature, maybe I can tell you my thoughts. Then I will personally apologize to you. If possible, can you please accept me? How about calling me "brother" too?

Goodbye.

Shu Yang

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