torture to the end

When Han Jingyu woke up, it was already bright outside, and the thick floor-to-ceiling curtains blocked the light from the outside, and he could only see the pattern of overlapping petals on the curtains from the sunlight.

Han Jingyu supported the edge of the bed and sat up. He even struggled to sit up now, and he was too weak.

The floor is covered with a wooden floor, and your feet won't feel cold when you step on it. Han Jingyu stood up holding the cabinet beside the bed. There were some blue ropes scattered on the cabinet. The blood on the ropes had been washed off. It was that It was a very eye-catching blue, and there were tassels on both sides of the rope. Han Jingyu flinched unconsciously when he saw the rope.Humans are born with a fear of pain.

The room is full of rich aromas, because the door is closed tightly, the aromas infected by the essence cannot permeate out, and accumulate in the room, so strong that it is almost suffocating.

Han Jingyu's mind was still groggy, he slept in the room for an unknown amount of time, and woke up from his lethargy tormented by the heart-rending pain in his fragile stomach.

There was no one else in the room except him, so Han Jingyu opened the door and walked outside barefoot.

The curtains on the balcony were all drawn, and Han Jingyu walked to the water dispenser, only a few steps away, and he had to lean on the wall to stand still.

"Gudong—gudong—"

Han Jingyu took a glass of water from the glass, and poured it into his stomach with his head raised. The cold feeling just rightly suppressed the surging pain in his stomach.

The water in the water dispenser was still bubbling upwards, and Han Jingyu suddenly remembered the dog. He hadn’t been out of that room for a long time, and every time he woke up, he would always be faced with Shen Chen’s smile, but he But he also remembered that there was a dog that still needed his care.Even if he can't even take care of himself now.

"Xiaobai." Han Jingyu barked, and according to the habit of that stupid dog, he would soon run over wagging his tail.

But not this time.

Han Jingyu walked to the balcony, that stupid dog always likes to run to sunny places, "Xiaobai—"

The curtain was lifted, and the sudden strong light made Han Jingyu almost unable to stand.

There is nothing on the balcony, only those beautiful ropes with tassels hanging on the hangers outside the window, shaking like prayer ropes full of trees when the wind blows.

Han Jingyu was inexplicably flustered. The feeling of being alone made him terrified. He must have gotten used to this kind of loneliness...Han Jingyu's teeth were chattering, and he turned his head to search in various rooms.

This house is not big, there are only four rooms in total, when Han Jingyu found it, tears almost burst into tears.

No no……

The physical pain left him vulnerable only to tears.

Why, why not?

……

Shen Chen was very tired these two days. He searched outside for a dog for three days. That night he promised Shen's mother to go back, but because of the loss of this stupid dog, he searched outside like a headless chicken. three days.

This dog belongs to Han Jingyu, whether Shen Chen likes it or not, Shen Chen always hopes that Han Jingyu's things belong to him.

Shen Chen went to the newspaper office. Although there were no photos of the dog, people always called him these days because of the rich rewards. This is the fourth person Shen Chen met today. He drove from the city center to Jiangxia and turned back. It took two hours all the way, especially when the last dog he saw was uglier and dirtier than Han Jingyu's, Shen Chen's complexion was really bad.

It was a female student who called Shen Chen for the first time. Her dog was brought back from the relief station. It was a black-haired native dog, which was very similar to what was described in the newspaper. She called Shen Chen, and Shen Chen I went to see her once, but of course it wasn't the one Shen Chen was looking for. Shen Chen had a good temper at the time.He always looks so easy to get along with when he smiles.

The female student returned to school and called Shen Chen again. Today, Shen Chen drove to Jiangxia to look for her with a glimmer of hope. In the end, the female student showed him a mixed-race Samoyed and asked with a smile. Shen Chen called, she didn't know that Shen Chen had just come from Han Jingyu's side, if it wasn't for this stupid dog, Shen Chen would not want to spend extra time on anyone irrelevant, especially when this girl was still hugging her. When the purpose is not pure.

The girl and her classmates were sitting timidly in the milk tea shop and watching him, whispering and talking irrelevant things at the same time.

When Shen Chen saw that the dog's behavior was likely to be cast aside by many people, he directly poured the milk tea in his hand on the girl's face, turned around and was about to leave.The girl who reacted screamed, and her classmates rushed forward to stop Shen Chen, and then there were all kinds of crying.

Shen Chen didn't want to mention the aftermath method anymore, this was probably the most outrageous thing he did in front of others, until he sat in the car, his face was still gloomy.

The female student whom he poured milk tea on stood outside the car window, calling him crazy with a group of girls.

Neuropathy?This is really a compliment to Shen Chen.When Shen Chen drove back, he received a call from Shen's mother again. He promised to go back three days ago, but in the end he didn't go back. Shen's mother cried at the end. Shen Chen stood at the door and opened the door, listening to Shen's mother The accusations, but also to suppress the impetuousness of the heart, and comfort with a warm voice.

After opening the door, Shen Chen was changing his shoes at the entrance, still answering Shen's mother's words, his voice was deliberately lowered a lot, as if he was afraid of disturbing anyone.

After changing his shoes, Shen Chen stood at the door, settled the matter in a few words, then turned off his mobile phone and put it on the coffee table in the living room.

The whole room was empty, and there was no sense of popularity, but the expression on Shen Chen's face gradually relaxed, and he even adjusted his smile in front of the mirror nailed to the door.

This is home, and some unnecessary things can be thrown away.

Shen Chen's heart is probably not the most stubborn ice at this moment, he walked through the corridor, stopped at the closed door, and then pushed the door open with the most gentle smile.

Han Jingyu, who had been sleeping in the room for a long time, stood up at this moment, without any clothes on, and stood naked in front of the window covered by the curtains. From Shen Chen's perspective, he could only see Han Jingyu's thin back. The shoulder blades are like a butterfly fluttering its wings.

"Jing Yu." Shen Chen's voice became softer, as if mellow nectar was brewing.

Han Jingyu turned around slowly, he had become terribly thin, and his eyes were covered with a layer of gray mist.

Shen Chen only felt that Han Jingyu was a little strange now.

"Shen Chen." Han Jingyu called out, his voice was very soft and superficial.

Shen Chen walked in, "Well, I'm here."

Han Jingyu didn't speak any more, Shen Chen walked over and stretched out his arms to hold Han Jingyu in his arms. Now Han Jingyu was so weak that he couldn't break free in his arms.

Shen Chen hugged him, and the impetuousness in his heart was comforted by Han Jingyu's body. He closed his eyes unconsciously, buried his head in Han Jingyu's temples, "When did you wake up?"

"It's been a while."

There was no clock, no electrical appliances in this room, and it was impossible to estimate the passage of time.

The two hugged quietly for a while, and Han Jingyu suddenly opened his mouth and asked, "Where have you been?"

"Oh, deal with something." Shen Chen answered casually, the hot air from his lips lingering around Han Jingyu's ear, "Did you miss me?"

Han Jingyu's eyelashes drooped, showing a very quiet smile, "Yeah."

Shen Chen's eyes became more affectionate, his arms wrapped around Han Jingyu's waist, and his lips were pressed against Han Jingyu's temples, "Jingyu..."

Before he finished speaking, Han Jingyu suddenly interrupted him, "Shen Chen, do you... like me like this?"

Shen Chen was taken aback for a moment, and then a muffled laugh passed from the vibrating vocal cords to Han Jingyu's cheeks.

"My blood, my pain, what I look like now, do you like it?" Han Jingyu hasn't thought about himself this way for a long time, he slept for too long, as if he had fallen into a big dream since he met Shen Chen, This is a nightmare from which I cannot wake up.

Shen Chen's lips moved down and landed on Han Jingyu's neck. Han Jingyu's neck was covered with shocking bite marks, one after another, with dark brown scabs all over his neck, as if sewn on with rough thread A poor puppet.

Shen Chen said, "I like it."

Han Jingyu laughed so hard that he was about to cry again.this dream...

Shen Chen didn't bite down on this bite. He already had more means to leave countless scars on this body that he liked, but now he just wanted to hug Han Jingyu. Really too tired, this tiredness made him sleepy, and made him eager to confess something, "Jingyu."

"……Um?"

"I want to tell you..." Shen Chen felt that he should pull out his bloody heart from his black ribs and show it to his lover. His lover loved him so much, so he didn't even There is no need to keep any secrets, "I love you." Han Jingyu's whole body shook in his arms, Shen Chen pressed against Han Jingyu's cheek, his arms hugged him more and more eagerly, he wanted to show all of himself to someone People see, "My love will hurt you, because I'm sick, I'm sick and crazy."

Han Jingyu listened quietly, but Shen Chen didn't open his eyes, so he could only judge by the movements of the person in his arms that he was still listening calmly.

Shen Chen felt the wound on Han Jingyu's neck with his lips, "Does it hurt?"

"pain."

"My love can only hurt you over and over again, because I probably..." Amused by the next word he wanted to say, Shen Chen really showed a smile, "It's a lunatic." Shen Chen's arms were almost closed It's about to turn into a shackle, "A normal person will never be as obsessed with blood and sadism as I am."

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Han Jingyu's tears fell on his feet.

"I am a lunatic, and I will hurt the love around me at any time." Shen Chen's tone was also a little sad. From the scene when he saw Shen's mother lying in a pool of blood, he knew that he was not a normal person, he was terminally ill, There is no cure, "I love you..."

It should be very sweet words.

Han Jingyu has been waiting for a long time, and now it's finally here.

In fact, he has known for a long time that Shen Chen is sick. He has suffered too much pain from Shen Chen, from body to spirit, obviously he can sustain it... Do you want to ask?

Where did the dog go?No no no.

The dog didn't go anywhere, it just stayed with him and Shen Chen in this room.always there.

"Shen Chen, if I die, will you be sad?"

Shen Chen is really thinking seriously, but everyone has only one life, so how can he estimate whether this person's death will affect him or not?Shen Chen thought about it seriously for a while, and then came up with an answer that he thought was so, "No, because you died by my side, and you will still love me until your death—right?"

Han Jingyu only felt that the burden on his heart was lifted overnight, and he actually felt a little relief from it.

Maybe that's how it should be.

He loves Shen Chen, and Shen Chen loves him, which is his perfection.No more is needed at all, nothing is needed anymore.Everything he does may be superfluous and unnecessary.

Where did that dog go?Han Jingyu didn't want to ask, Shen Chen could always give him a soothing answer, he didn't want to ask further, and got an answer that might make him sad.Han Jingyu is also probably the most vulnerable person in the world, his life and death are decided so easily, as if he never put his own life seriously.

Han Jingyu took Shen Chen's hand, intertwined his fingers, and felt a little lingering inside, "Come with me."

Shen Chen was dragged by him all the way to the living room. There were two colorful tropical fish swimming quietly in the fish tank in the living room. Han Jingyu let go of Shen Chen's hand, moved a chair from the western dining table, and stepped on it with the back of the chair. up.

Shen Chen looked at him quietly.

Han Jingyu stepped on the high chair naked+naked, he smiled at Shen Chen, this smile was [-]% similar to his childish appearance before, as if he had been waiting here all this time.

"I love you, you love me, this is the most fulfilling thing in my life." Han Jingyu's eyes were all crystal clear, he couldn't even notice his tears, and the fine water was printed in the fish tank. The blue light that came out was like broken glass, "There is no need to be more perfect. Shen Chen."

Shen Chen raised his head and smiled at him, "Well, I'm here."

"I love you too."

"The most beautiful look I can show you is probably this moment."

Han Jingyu's legs were so white that they were almost transparent. He stepped into the fish tank, and then stretched out his other leg. His hands that were supporting the fish tank were released, and he sank into the blue water.

The water overflowed with dampness, and a few drops splashed on Shen Chen's face.

Shen Chen has been watching silently.Maybe, maybe...

Han Jingyu sank into the fish tank, his body was submerged in transparent water, but he did not struggle as hard as any drowning person. On the contrary, he was very peaceful, with his eyes open, facing the water in the blue fish tank. Shen Chen smiled.

His most beautiful form is his death.

Shen Chen stretched out his hand, and Han Jingyu also stretched out his hand. The fish tank separated the hands of the two, as if they were holding each other, but they seemed to be unable to hold each other forever.

The pitch-black hair spread out in the blue water, and strings of air bubbles swayed up.

Perhaps, this is the best ending, right?

—I love you, so I am willing to die for you.

——I love you, so I am willing to watch you die.

Shen Chen is still thinking at this moment, if the person he loves is dead, can his love be eternal because of death?If so, it shouldn't hurt.

Han Jingyu knocked on the glass, he said, "I love you." Then he waved his hand lightly, his eyes narrowed, in a very naive and very weak gesture, "Goodbye——"

His voice burst into a series of bubbles.