torture to the end

Shen Chen accompanied Han Jingyu to the hospital for an injection. The doctor treated Han Jingyu's large wound, and Shen Chen stood beside Han Jingyu.

Han Jingyu's face turned pale, his clothes were unbuttoned, and the exposed half of his arm was wrapped with a snow-white bandage.There was a tooth mark on his neck, the tooth mark was very deep, and the surrounding skin turned blue.

When the doctor vaccinated Han Jingyu against rabies, he asked him where he was bitten by a dog. After all, most of the dogs in this city are pet dogs, so it can be seen from a glance that the trauma was caused by a ferocious large dog. seen.

Han Jingyu lowered his head and didn't say a word to the doctor's question, but Shen Chen echoed the doctor's words without embarrassment.

After the injection, the two of them drove home, neither of them said a word on the way, Shen Chen was concentrating on driving, Han Jingyu sneaked a few glances at him, pursed his lips and lowered his eyelashes.

Shen Chen's lips were strangely red, which did not match his clear facial features. Han Jingyu recalled the scene that happened not long ago, and felt a little thirsty in his throat.

Shen Chen's lips, Shen Chen's teeth, Shen Chen's tongue, and Shen Chen's eyes.

Shen Chen, who was driving, turned his head, there was a rare lack of smile on his face, and he didn't say a word when he saw Han Jingyu looking at him, he just took a light glance and then looked away.

Han Jingyu froze all over.

The car was parked in the underground parking lot. Shen Chen got out of the car and left. Han Jingyu couldn't walk fast. He was bitten between his legs several times. The wounds were all in extremely hidden locations. Now as long as he moves a little more, the wounds will be piercing. the pain.

Shen Chen stood at the door waiting for him, and when Han Jingyu came to the door, Shen Chen closed the door and went upstairs by himself.There were still bloody bandages scattered on the sofa, and the alcohol on the table evaporated because the lid was forgotten, and the whole room smelled of alcohol. Han Jingyu stood at the door, watching Shen Chen's back gradually disappear.

Han Jingyu was a little at a loss, he didn't know why it happened like this, obviously...obviously...

Shen Chen went upstairs and locked himself in the room. He was sick, and the sickness was psychological, and he knew it.

He can't see the bloody torture scenes, those scenes are like keys, which will open his psychological cage and release something terrible.That thing should be a monster, taking pleasure in hurting people... It's just...

Shen Chen sat on the bed with his forehead pressed. He was not a kind person in the first place. It should be said that he tried his best to pretend to be a kind person.

But this love can't withstand any teasing, blood teasing...

Shen Chen is not frigid, he is just relatively indifferent to this aspect. When facing Han Jingyu's hugs and kisses, he can only try his best to cooperate, but once he comes into contact with certain scenes that can provoke his dark side , he will enter a state of dominance, abuser.

This is a kind of mental illness, which he had been vaguely aware of since he was a child. Later, he tried hard to suppress the dark side that hurt the people around him, but it was always in vain.

Shen's mother once encountered Shen Chen's illness. At that time, their family kept a lot of animals, all of which were stray animals picked up by Shen Chen and Han Jingyu from various places. Han's mother did not allow Han Jingyu to adopt them, so Shen Chen kept them in his own yard. Shen Chen was only 12 years old at the time of the onset. Shen's mother watched Shen Chen strangle the picked animals one by one. It was raining heavily outside that day, and Shen Chen was fighting with others outside for Han Jingyu. In the first grade, Shen Chen was crushed by three people, watching Han Jingyu being dragged by his collar and bumped into the concrete floor, Shen Chen led Han Jingyu back, sent him back, and then pinched all the animals in the yard one by one. die.

This is probably a very scary scene. It was pouring rain outside. Shen's mother stood at the door, watching Shen Chen strangle a full-term yellow dog to death with an iron chain, Shen's mother did not dare to go up Taking a step forward, seeing Shen Chen standing up from the ground and smiling at her, he even took a step back in fright.

That should be when Shen Chen was first discovered to be abnormal.

After all, Shen's mother is Shen Chen's biological mother. Even if she found out the tyranny in Shen Chen's bones, she tried her best to correct him and guide him. Sure enough, under Shen's mother's guidance, Shen Chen had compassion for the young life and stopped doing those things. Regarding the cruelty, when Shen's mother breathed a sigh of relief, Shen Chen fell ill again.The school teacher said that Shen Chen almost pushed a classmate down from the fourth floor. The terrified mother Shen rushed to the school and saw Shen Chen sitting side by side with Han Jingyu. At that time, Han Jingyu was still thin and small, not tall Shen Chen was half as tall, Shen Chen held his hand, and hid most of his short body behind him. When Shen's mother came, Han Jingyu, who was hiding behind Shen Chen, poked his head to look. It was just this scene that called Shen's mother A chilling conjecture arose.

That scene was so profound that even Shen's mother could describe it as if she was haunted by evil spirits.

Han Jingyu is the evil spirit hiding behind Shen Chen, leading Shen Chen to hell step by step.Mother Shen was sure of this, so she both loathed and feared Han Jingyu.

Han Jingyu didn't know Shen's mother hated him, he just had a vague feeling that Shen's mother didn't like him, and he seldom talked to Shen's mother, and even if he did, it was all unfamiliar words, as if he was just acting A scene of harmony and music that Shen Chen likes.

After all, he is just a child, so he shouldn't do too bad things.Mother Shen still thought so at the time.It was Shen Chen who made him completely afraid of Han Jingyu. When Shen Chen was with Han Jingyu, he was an untimely bomb. Can send Shen Chen abroad.

At that time, Shen Chen was still a child who could compromise with Shen's mother in everything. He was more precocious and surly than his peers. At that time, he was unwilling to admit that he was sick, and he was unwilling to obey Shen's mother. Going abroad, Shen's mother, in every possible way, did the most deceitful thing in her life-she fed Shen Chen sleeping pills, and then cut herself with a bloody knife. Throw it by Shen Chen's hand.

This is really a very crazy decision, and a very white lie.

Shen Chen woke up and was scared to cry by the blood on his hands, and crawled to Shen's mother with hands and feet, calling her name.

This scene should have a very deep impression on Shen Chen. Shen's mother used this method to make Shen Chen realize that he was different from everyone else, and it also made him feel a strong sense of self-loathing and closure after realizing this. Chen should be very attached to Shen's mother, so he had a nervous breakdown after waking up, called 120 to send Shen's mother to the hospital, and then locked himself in a cabinet.

Shen Chen stayed in the cabinet for three days. When Shen's mother came back, she saw Han Jingyu squatting at the door of her house. Shen's mother was still very weak at that time, which made her next deceitful words even more convincing.She told Han Jingyu that Shen Chen had traveled abroad for several months.Han Jingyu listened to her words in a daze, then responded with a vague answer, nodded and left.

At that time, Han Jingyu was still very young, only nine years old, and his whole body was thin and thin, with thin arms and legs, like a malnourished little girl.

Shen's mother found Shen Chen in the cabinet. Shen Chen hid in the cabinet for three days without eating or drinking, and his lips were dry with white skin. Dead eyes.

At that time, even when Shen Chen was the craziest, he knew that when Shen's mother saw it, he turned his hands away, and then pursed his lips and smiled shyly.This is probably a child's nature, even if a child with this nature tortured and killed a lost animal in front of his mother, his hands were still stained with warm blood.

Shen Chen threw himself into Shen's mother's arms, crying bitterly.

In the days that followed, there were only Shen Chen and Shen's mother in the whole house. The door of Shen's house was locked with iron chains. Han Jingyu always stayed here for a while after school every day, as if thinking why Shen Chen hadn't come back yet. up?

After Shen Chen thought that he had hurt Shen's mother, he gradually discovered other abnormal sides of himself. He became timid and dared not speak loudly when talking to others. He was afraid that others would find out that he was sick and make him Sent to prison and locked up.At that time, Shen Chen was still very young, he didn't know right or wrong, he only knew that he was different from others, and this difference would make him hurt the people closest to him.He instinctively wanted to reverse his abnormality.

During this period of time, he cut off contact with Han Jingyu, locked himself in the cabinet every day, and stared at the darkness in a daze.

Shen's mother said, if you promise not to hurt others in the future, you can go out and go to school with your peers.

Shen Chen thought for a long time before nodding.

Sure enough, he wasn't hurting those poor animals, he became timid and weak, and his classmates didn't like him, only Han Jingyu was by his side.

Shen's mother also said, you have to make others like you, otherwise others will find that you are not a normal person.

Shen Chen didn't want to be treated as an outlier. He tried his best to be a lovable child, and he succeeded. He was already very popular with the teachers, but because of his change, the cowardly classmates who hated him also began to slow down. Slowly fell in love with him.After all, he will never hold a grudge, never grab what is in your hand, and never confront you tit for tat.That's enough, Shen Chen was probably already an adult at that time, he suppressed everything he wanted to do, and then he would think about everything he did, whether others would like it after doing it.

That was a shackle, and now it has become an instinct.Shen Chen's instinct is to live for others.

Later, Shen's mother asked Shen Chen to go abroad. I don't know what Shen Chen was thinking at that time. He finally chose to go abroad, silently, not even Han Jingyu said a word.

After leaving Han Jingyu, Shen Chen really became more obedient. He would often call back to greet his mother, and Shen's mother was also trying her best to blur the existence of Han Jingyu. Shen Chen's existence has become an unclear shadow... Is it really a shadow?

Sitting on the bed, Shen Chen felt more and more anxious, and it was this anxiety that made him bite Han Jingyu's body.

Shen Chen bit Han Jingyu. He didn't realize it. He only knew that every inch of his skin mixed with the sweet scent of blood was tempting him. It didn't matter whether it was serious or not. When Han Jingyu was covered with scars, his first reaction was not pity but Sadism... is simply a pervert!

Shen Chen probably fell into deep self-loathing at this moment, he kept denying another dark self, as if this could make that self disappear.

When Shen Chen was abroad, he also consulted a famous psychiatrist. The doctor gave him the result that he could not be cured. This was not a split personality caused by psychological reasons, but a deformed personality that was distorted after being stimulated, that is, Said that the self that Shen Chen desperately denies now that hurts the people around him is the real him.And the self that everyone likes is the real illusory disguise.

"Knock Knock-"

The sudden knock on the door made Shen Chen even more restless.

Han Jingyu called Shen Chen's name at the door, and Shen Chen walked to the door lightly, and then leaned against the door panel to listen to Han Jingyu's voice.

Perhaps, he shouldn't have seen Han Jingyu, but at this moment, when he couldn't help denying himself, he especially wanted to hear Han Jingyu's voice, that voice full of attachment.Only in this way can he know that he is still alive, not just a shell.

"Shen Chen——Shen Chen—"

Shen Chen lowered his eyelashes, quietly listening to Han Jingyu's voice.

"I'm sorry..." Han Jingyu has probably never seen such a cold Shen Chen, as if the Shen Chen who kissed him at the beginning did not exist, after waking up from the magnificent dream, he only saw Shen Chen's back.Shen Chen who eagerly kissed him and asked him for it was an illusion. What did Shen Chen say at that time?

Oh, he said, "Let's go to the hospital for an injection first."

That was also perhaps the time when Han Jingyu felt the most ashamed. He was lying on the sofa naked, and Shen Chen stood in front of him without even looking at him.

Han Jingyu couldn't stand up, his legs were full of bite wounds, he knew that these were branded by Shen Chen's lips and teeth, so even the pain was accompanied by sweetness, Shen Chen probably couldn't bear it, turned his head to help him, When Han Jingyu stood up, he backed away in a panic.

At that time, Han Jingyu was in a terrible state. He only saw Shen Chen's back, but he couldn't explain how he felt in his heart. He lowered his head, picked up his pants and clothes, and put them on his body.

Shen Chen turned his head and walked outside, Han Jingyu followed behind Shen Chen.Then, there was silence again.

Han Jingyu is probably really a very cowardly person in front of Shen Chen. He is attached to Shen Chen, but he has a deep inferiority complex.This sense of inferiority made him humble and inexplicable.

And what about Shen Chen?What was Shen Chen, who was full of self-loathing, thinking at that time?He only saw himself pressing on Han Jingyu's body, biting his neck. There was also a wound on Han Jingyu's neck, and he was biting on that wound. It was crazy and absurd. He felt that his mouth was full of sticky Han Jingyu held him with both arms, and tried to raise his head as if offering sacrifices.

Great panic.

Shen Chen probably also likes Han Jingyu, so when he saw Han Jingyu smiling, his first reaction was to run away, yes, far away.When he was ill, he should stay away from those close to him. The scene of Shen's mother falling into a pool of blood was too unforgettable, so until now, Shen Chen still has lingering fears when he recalls it.If he allowed himself to continue, would Han Jingyu die?

Shen Chen didn't dare to look at Han Jingyu again, he was panting desperately, trying to expel those crazy thoughts from his mind.

Now Han Jingyu is standing at the door, separated by a door, but Han Jingyu is like a child, his voice is choked, "I'm sorry... I shouldn't go out, I'm sorry..."

Han Jingyu will only blame himself for all the mistakes.He remembered that Shen Chen had told him not to go out, but today he went out, so Shen Chen was angry.

Hearing Han Jingyu's apology, Shen Chen felt inexplicably uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry..." Han Jingyu seemed to only be able to say these three words now.

Shen Chen finally spoke. He still remembered Han Jingyu's injuries, but he didn't dare to go out. He locked himself in the room because he was afraid that he would do something to hurt Han Jingyu. "Go back and rest."

When Han Jingyu heard Shen Chen's words, he immediately patted on the door as if agreeing, "Shen Chen, don't be angry with me, I will never go out again, I will stay in the room well..."

Shen Chen was amused and sad at the same time, he just said it casually at the time, he didn't want Han Jingyu to see Han Mu's current appearance, and he also didn't want others to see Shen Chen... But that was just a casual remark.

"Don't think too much, go back and have a good night's rest, huh?"

Hearing these words, Han Jingyu also knew that Shen Chen would not open the door again, so he let out a 'hmm'.

Both of them are very low self-esteem people, one has low self-esteem in the bone, and the other has low self-esteem in the eyes of the other.

After hearing the sound of footsteps going away, Shen Chen seemed relieved. He lay back on the bed, staring at the lit lamp in a daze.In a few days, when Han Jingyu's injury heals, he won't... won't be afraid anymore, right?

The next day, Shen Chen got up very early. He seemed to have decided to avoid Han Jingyu for a while. Before dawn, he washed up and was ready to go out. Before leaving, he subconsciously wanted to take a look at Han Jingyu's room. He put it back when he pressed the doorknob. He was already afraid of the stimulation of wounds and blood, especially when those two things would prompt him to do things that would hurt Han Jingyu.

At noon, Shen Chen, who had recovered from the tedious work, received a call. It was a call for takeaway. When he was not at home because of work, he ordered takeaway for Han Jingyu, even when he had time in the morning , He would cook for Han Jingyu himself for breakfast, but today he was in a hurry, as if he had escaped, so he didn't prepare breakfast.The delivery man told Shen Chen that no one came out to answer the doorbell, and Shen Chen gave Han Jingyu his phone number, which was his previous phone number. He ate, Han Jingyu replied, and at night, another food delivery company called Shen Chen, but they all rang the doorbell and no one came down to answer.

Shen Chen sent a text message to Han Jingyu again. He felt a little angry that Han Jingyu didn't know how to take care of himself when he was sick. In this anger, Shen Chen returned home. There were two takeaway boxes at the door, and the food inside was cold. Yes, usually, Han Jingyu would come down to pick it up, and then throw the lunch box into the garbage bag after eating, and put it by the door.

In other words, Han Jingyu didn't eat for a day.

Han Jingyu has a stomach problem, and Shen Chen knows it. He didn't prepare breakfast for Han Jingyu in the morning, so he felt uncomfortable all the time. Now seeing two cold lunch boxes at the door, he was annoyed and forgot about avoiding Han Jingyu these days .

He rushed to Han Jingyu's room. Han Jingyu curled up against the wall as if he was still sleeping. They used to sleep together. Shen Chen hugged him tightly. Last night Han Jingyu slept alone. Into this sleeping position.

Han Jingyu's body was tightly wrapped with a quilt, and he couldn't smell the bloody smell like poisonous incense, so Shen Chen didn't dare to go in.

He felt that he should keep a distance from Han Jingyu. He didn't care what he looked like in front of others, but he was afraid of losing control in front of Han Jingyu.Standing at the door, Shen Chen looked at Han Jingyu and lost the courage to rush up just now.

Han Jingyu opened his eyes at this moment.

Shen Chen took a step back unconsciously, and then his face darkened again, staring at Han Jingyu.

Han Jingyu sat up wrapped in a quilt, as if afraid of the cold.

"Why don't you eat?" Shen Chen asked.

Han Jingyu seemed a little happy when he heard Shen Chen's words, but he didn't say a word, just sat on the bed and smiled.

Han Jingyu's smile is very delicate, and it makes people's heart ache.

Standing at the door, Shen Chen rarely showed a smile on his face, as if annoyed with Han Jingyu, "You have a stomach problem, why don't you eat?"

Han Jingyu sat on the bed and looked at him, "Come here, I'll tell you."

Han Jingyu's voice was calm, which matched his sick face at the moment.

Shen Chen didn't dare to step forward.Maybe the disease won't flare up again?Shen Chen didn't dare to have such a fluke.There is only one Han Jingyu that Shen Chen wants, without this one, there will be no more.

Shen Chen didn't dare to tell Han Jingyu what he was afraid of, the idea that he was not a normal person was deeply rooted, and even at this moment he had a suspicion—is the Shen Chen that Han Jingyu likes and is attached to, the real him? ?

Shen Chen just stood at the door, then he took a step back, closed the door and backed out.

Why was he so afraid of Han Jingyu that he didn't dare take any chances?

Han Jingyu watched Shen Chen retreat, then lowered his eyes and smiled again, and lay down again hugging the quilt.He wasn't angry with Shen Chen, he was just... just...

The next day, Han Jingyu didn't eat, and the food delivery person still called Shen Chen. There was already some irritation in his voice, and Shen Chen hung up the phone silently.

On the third day... nothing changed in the room, Han Jingyu seemed to have just stayed in the room like this, didn't even take a sip of water, he wanted to lock himself up and lock himself up.

Shen Chen was so angry that his heart ached.

If things go on like this, it probably wasn't Shen Chen who killed Han Jingyu, Han Jingyu himself was going to torture himself to death. On the evening of the third day, Shen Chen asked for leave and rushed back. Han Jingyu was still sleeping in the room with the curtains drawn tightly. It was dark inside, and Shen Chen had an illusion at that moment, as if Han Jingyu was his pet kept in the cage.But he locked himself up.

Shen Chen's heart hurts because he was angry, and when he saw Han Jingyu's dim eyes, the pain changed.

"Can't you take good care of yourself and save me some time?!" That was probably the most severe time for Shen Chen in front of Han Jingyu. There was no smile on his face, and his breathing was a little rough due to the fast running.

Han Jingyu still said to Shen Chen, "Come here, and I'll tell you."

Shen Chen walked over.

Now, even if he suddenly fell ill and did something to hurt Han Jingyu, it would only advance Han Jingyu's death.Han Jingyu is going to die after all, if he is still tossing his body like this.

When Han Jingyu saw Shen Chen approaching, he finally had some light in his eyes.He has been hungry for a few days, Shen Chen told him several times through the door, and sent him countless text messages, but it was useless.

Now that Shen Chen was standing beside him, Han Jingyu's humbleness appeared even more from a top-down perspective.

Shen Chen smelled the faint smell of blood again, and the sense of thirst that made him panic rose again, and he turned his head away from Han Jingyu.

Han Jingyu said to him, "You don't like me going out, so I locked myself up."

Shen Chen's whole body froze, and then he heard the sound of chains colliding.

He didn't even bother to avoid the thick bloody smell. He turned his head and saw Han Jingyu sitting on the bed with the quilt lifted. On his leg was a rusty iron chain. There was a dog in the yard, that dog died later, and Shen Chen never raised it again, so the iron chain was left unused.Han Jingyu didn't know where to find the iron chain and locked it on his leg.

Han Jingyu didn't wear any clothes, but his chest was bandaged, and the tooth marks on his legs had scabbed over. He looked like a poor lunatic.

Under Shen Chen's shocked gaze, Han Jingyu bent his lips and smiled, sickly, suppressing a feeling of madness, he said to Shen Chen, "You don't want me to go out, and I will never go out again, so... ...don't be mad at me again, okay?"

Shen Chen was speechless.

The iron chain was only about three meters long, and Han Jingyu locked himself in the room, not to mention picking up takeaways, he couldn't even get out of this room.

"Are you crazy?!" Shen Chen couldn't care about anything else, he rushed to the bedside, looked at the rusty iron chain, "This iron chain has no key, you lock yourself..."

Shen Chen couldn't continue, Han Jingyu just looked at him like this.It's really an attachment that completely surrenders itself, it's really a desperate madness.

"I gave you my life."

"Madman!" Seeing Han Jingyu's appearance, Shen Chen almost woke him up with his outstretched hand.

Han Jingyu rushed forward regardless, he was really crazy, no one has ever loved someone so much, such a pathological love.

Shen Chen was tightly hugged by Han Jingyu's neck. Han Jingyu's body was weak, but the strength that erupted at this moment was terrifying.

"If you don't love me, I'll die... I have no one else..." The wound caused by Han Jingyu's violent action opened again, and it was obviously scabbed, but now bright red blood oozes out.

Shen Chen's lip was bitten by Han Jingyu, his posture was too fierce, as if he wanted to swallow Shen Chen into his stomach.

There was a bloody smell in his mouth, Shen Chen listened to Han Jingyu whispering into his ears between kisses, and said very softly, "I love you, and you will die too."