torture to the end

"Knock Knock-"

He Qingchen jumped up from the bed and opened the door, the joy that he couldn't hide was still on his face.

Standing at the door, Han Jingyu's expression was indifferent, and this indifference revealed a strong sense of alienation.He Qingchen was taken aback when he saw Han Jingyu who looked like this. When he first met, Han Jingyu looked like this.Like a piece of ice, but also like a sharp knife, even the eyes can hurt people.

Han Jingyu handed him the things in his hand, turned his head and left.

When He Qingchen saw Han Jingyu like this, he couldn't say a word.Watching Han Jingyu enter the room, the dog limped behind him.

Very negative, very sad appearance.

He Qingchen grabbed the medicine that Han Jingyu handed him, and he couldn't tell what it was like...

Shen Chen is a very talented person, no one can deny this.

He is young, handsome, and has a gentle temper. He does not have the aggressive spirit of the younger generation, but is restrained and low-key to reassure those who are close to him.He was born with this kind of soothing power, even if he didn't show any expression, when others saw his gentle face, they would feel that he would show a trace of laughter the next moment.

A simple white dress with rolled-up sleeves, revealing fair arms and a string of round Buddhist bead bracelets.

The woman who changed into a nurse's uniform has a good face and figure, and she can tell at a glance that she is the kind of woman who is very cultivated and knowledgeable.The two of them were sitting in the western restaurant. Now is definitely not the time to eat, nor did they come here with the intention of eating.While the two were waiting for the food to be served, they were also waiting for the other to speak first.

Shen Chen's brows and eyes have already grown, and every inch and every inch is properly formed. When you look at him, you will feel that he is beautiful, but you can't tell what is the most beautiful about him.The woman looked at him for a while, but finally she lowered her eyes shyly to cover it up.

"Leilin." Shen Chen never made it difficult for the women he got along with.

Lailin raised her eyelashes tremblingly.Obviously the two have been together for a while, and Shen Chen is so gentle, but she always feels uneasy when she sees this man.

"My mother asked us to get married, I want to discuss it with you first." Shen Chen put both arms on the table and clasped his hands in a questioning tone.

But he didn't need to say anything else. Lailin knew what he was going to say when she saw his slightly sorry expression. Although she was very disappointed, her expression was still very considerate, "Men, you must take care of your career first. Aunt Han is really in a hurry." She smiled softly, "Do whatever you want, and when you want to settle down, we will get married."

Shen Chen seemed to be very grateful to her for understanding.

Lailin lowered her head and looked at her white fingers.She was a little disappointed, and it showed on her expression.

"Well, let's get engaged first." Shen Chen said.

When Lailin heard what he said, she couldn't help pursing her lips into a smile.

Apart from the atmosphere, there is really nothing to admire in the western restaurant. Shen Chen has never liked it. He used to prefer to plunge into the food stalls on the street after school with Han Jingyu, but now that person is gone, he also Growing up, all the past in those years seemed like a dream.Except for the occasional sigh when I think of it, there are no other traces.He began to get used to eating in such a place, deceiving his stomach, deceiving his expression, and communicating perfectly.

The way the two eat is very standard, like a performance.Lailin's eating method is very delicate and smooth, and it can be seen that she often goes to such places.Shen Chen has already cultivated the so-called dining etiquette during his time abroad, and his movements are even more elegant than Lailin.

After the two of them finished their meal, Shen Chen sent Lailin back to the hospital in a very gentlemanly manner. Lailin was on duty, so she naturally wanted to go back now.When she parted from Shen Chen, she was satisfied and a little bit frustrated. Shen Chen was very good and couldn't find any faults. It was because he was so good that there seemed to be an abyss between the two of them.

After Shen Chen sent Lailin away, he didn't drive back to the company either.He suddenly thought of Han Jingyu again today, which made him dig out his past memories from the corner covered in cobweb dust.He parked the car in an area of ​​the development zone that had not yet been decorated with buildings and neon lights. Only the demolished low-rise bungalows exposed the red and white bricks and tiles and fell to the ground.Shen Chen opened the car window and took out a cigarette from his pocket.

He is not addicted to cigarettes, and even hates those who smoke, but he has to use cigarettes to soothe his thoughts at certain moments.He is a very self-controlled person. He always carries only one cigarette in his pocket. He doesn't smoke often, but he can't quit. When he is in urgent need of calmness, he only smokes one cigarette and lights it up.

Shen Chen never thought that Han Jingyu would suddenly disappear one day, just like two years ago he didn't know what he would do without Han Jingyu in his life.

In fact, anyone can live without anyone.He is still living a good life, starting a company, earning money, buying a car, dating a girlfriend, just waiting to get married and have children, so his life is in a hurry.

He has followed the established track all his life, and he has never deviated from every step. If there is any deviation, it is Han Jingyu, an anomaly.Now that odd number has disappeared, he is still the perfect Shen Chen, loved by everyone, even he himself wants to fall in love with his own mask.

Shen Chen smoked, and his throat felt a little uncomfortable, which was caused by staying in the car for too long.He got off the station and came out. He looked up at the seventy-eight bungalows that had been demolished. Before long, new buildings would be built here, and no one would be able to see the ruins of the past.

He hadn't thought of Han Jingyu for a long time, but today he suddenly saw a shadow, and the memories of the past were like a tide.

Shen Chen sometimes wondered, did he value this little bamboo horse too much?After Han Jingyu disappeared, he was indeed negative for a while, irritable and irritable, and locked himself in the room. After only a week, he walked out of the room, as if he had figured it out.In this world, anyone can live without anyone, and Han Jingyu will leave him one day. He can take care of his entire childhood, but he cannot guard his whole life.

When Shen Chen went back to the countryside with his mother, he prayed for a string of Buddhist beads in the Buddhist hall. He brought it for fun, so he didn't care whether he believed it or not.He just wanted to give himself a thought, even if, even if Han Jingyu no longer appeared, he could use this thought to pray that his future road would be smoother.What else can he do?He can't do anything.

Everyone lives in peace.Then resign to fate.

Shen Chen couldn't forgive Han's mother, that woman had never been responsible, no matter what Han Jingyu said, she was still his childhood friend, he couldn't accept his mother repeatedly helping that woman who only knew how to ask and shirk responsibility.Childhood friend, Shen Chen's mouth is full of bitterness when he thinks of these four words.He has passed his childhood, and his former friends are scattered all over the world, only Han Jingyu is the only one, and he still misses him so much.

He has grown up so big, and met many people of all kinds, those who love to cry, those who are irritable, and those who are similar to Han Jingyu.It's just similar, Han Jingyu only has that one, he took care of Han Jingyu growing up, the two of them were entangled with each other almost all their childhoods, their names have been imprinted in their bones, but this flesh and blood will eventually be gouged out.

The pain that can't be experienced in growing up, such a hypocritical word, but with the word "lost" gouges out his flesh and blood together.

He has seen and missed the way Han Jingyu hid behind him so many years ago, the way Han Jingyu confronted him many years ago, and the way Han Jingyu cried bitterly so many years ago.He experienced Han Jingyu's growing pains, but he also missed half of Han Jingyu's youth.

There are too many miserable people in the world, but Shen Chen only saw Han Jingyu, and only this one, which made him confused and at a loss.

His life has been put on the track, and there can be no deviation. This is a shackle, and he knows it, but the shackles have tightened him, and every inch is rooted in his bones and thoughts. His nature was trampled to death.He may have lost his nature.

The Buddhist beads on his wrist were very rough, and the face of the Buddha image carved on it had been rubbed smooth by his fingertips.Shen Chen lowered his eyes and glanced at it, then suddenly smiled erratically.

If there are gods and Buddhas, then Han Jingyu can be favored by the gods.All these years, he has done everything so smoothly. His talent is one aspect, but opportunities account for more. He even wonders whether his current smooth life has taken advantage of Han Jingyu's luck. The current luck is prosperous.If this is the case, it is really cruel.

Shen Chen thought, if his wish could come true, then he would rather not have such flashy things now, in exchange for Han Jingyu's peace and joy in the rest of his life.

He obviously didn't believe this, and Han Jingyu was wandering outside, and he couldn't help holding this ridiculous wish.

Han Jingyu was his flesh and blood, he thought he had already gouged out this flesh and blood, but now thinking about it, it was a heart-piercing pain.Han Jingyu is too childlike, as if stuck in time, never growing up, until now, sometimes when Shen Chen dreams back, he can vaguely see the little Han Jingyu wiping his tears with the back of his hand and calling him name.It's really a dream.

All he can do is to hold a modest wish, and then continue to live a stable life of his own.

What would it be like if we saw Han Jingyu again?Such a thought suddenly popped up in Shen Chen's thousands of thoughts.

Thousands of words are like sticking in the throat.

He thought, what he wanted most was to see Han Jingyu when he was old, so that they would have enough life to remember after death, and they would not have to just remember each other, tell their own stories, their own lives.He dare not see Han Jingyu again now, Han Jingyu is an odd number in his life, as long as he gets in touch with Han Jingyu, Shen Chen will no longer be Shen Chen.

Han Jingyu can see the real Shen Chen, and Shen Chen is also willing to present his real self in front of him.This kind of feeling like peeling the skin off, tearing his mask off his face with blood, and the feeling of losing this protective color made Shen Chen afraid, and it also made him tremble with excitement.Shen Chen who is alive now is not himself.

There was a second-floor building in the distance, and the residents inside had already moved out. The demolishers used machinery to knock down the entire building, and large pieces of bricks and stones rolled down. In a blink of an eye, a building collapsed.

Shen Chen turned his head and saw this scene, this almost destroyed scene made him look dazed for a moment.

Is Han Jingyu just a fortress that overturned in his life?Now that this barrier has been overturned, maybe he should build a new city on this barrier and lock up his heart and soul.until all are out of sight.

Thinking of this, Shen Chen suddenly raised a trace of a smile, raised his hand and kissed the Buddha beads, and his expression was that dazed look again.

"I'm just showing you."

What others see is always the fake 'he'.

The author has something to say:

Actually it looks like this...

The whale is the white lotus in Shen Chen's heart, the kind that cannot bear to be profaned.

Shen Chen is the holy light in the eyes of whales (what kind of nonsense is that!), the kind who dare not approach.

The two are in a two-way secret love, Whale dare not ask Shen Chen, but he is too afraid that the relationship between the two will be broken, so he hesitates so much.After all, the only warmth in Whale's memory is Shen Chen.

Shen Chen feels very delicate towards Han Jingyu, and it's hard to say that he wants to make sauces and sauces.Well, the stupid author's Chinese teacher died early, and he didn't express clearly. As for what you think of these two people, please read the following article and let the stupid author lie down first!