gay

Ding Wan didn't want to embarrass Liang Jun too much, he finally withdrew his gaze and said calmly, "I'm going back."

Huang Ya is a big fool who thinks she's smart.

At least that's how he looked in Ding Wan's eyes.

She grabbed Ding Wan's sleeve and asked him: "Do you really hate Liang Jun?"

"No." Ding Wan looked back at her and said, "For me, at this age, I am so lucky to see someone who is destined not to accompany me to the end."

Huang Ya was surprised: "then do you hate me?"

"I feel sorry for you."

Just as Huang Ya was about to continue talking, she was dragged back by Liang Jun. He said coldly, "don't you want to buy a CD? Let's go in. "

Huang Ya was still looking at Ding Wan when she was taken away, with strange confusion in her eyes.

Ding Wan continued to walk forward, and Li Ji followed him at a distance of one step. He walked faster and faster, and Li Ji followed him tighter and tighter. Ding Wan quickly got off the elevator and rushed to the outside of the square before stopping.

Li Ji rushed up to see him crying expressionlessly.

Li Ji opened his mouth, his throat was blocked badly, Ding Wan said calmly, "I'm not joking."

"I'm gay. We've been together for five years. Can you imagine, in our circle, it's not easy to be together for five years, but he finally got married, with my cousin."

Ding Wan knew he wasn't crying because he didn't feel any sore nose or heartache.

It's just that the tears are a bit hypocritical and disobedient.

The relationship of five years is gone, after all, it is time to pay homage.

Li Ji said, "Can I hug you?"

Ding Wan smiled through his tears and said, "Impossible."

Li Ji was stunned, and retracted his outstretched hand, but he couldn't find the point of his smile no matter what.

Ding Wan wiped his wet face, looked at him with a smile again, and asked, "Are you too?"

Li Ji nodded, then shook his head again, "I don't know... isn't there a sense in the circle?"

"I haven't." Ding Wan lowered his head, "Maybe I'm not a competent homosexual."

"...This word is strange." Li Ji smiled absent-mindedly on his face, tightened and relaxed his fingers, secretly pumped himself up several times, and then asked dryly: "Do you want, do you want..."

"What do you want?" Ding Wan watched him scratch his ears to avoid his sight, and smiled again: "What are you doing, do you treat me like a jackal?"

Li Ji followed with a laugh, his eyes fell on Ding Wan's face, and he said slowly and carefully, "Would you like to follow me..."

"Li Ji!" Someone slapped him on the shoulder suddenly, and Li Ji was frightened all of a sudden. When he turned around and saw Da Mao's face, he immediately became angry and slapped his watermelon head with his backhand: " What the hell are you doing? People are scary and people are scared to death, don't you know?"

Da Mao looked aggrieved and almost cried: "Who the hell is scaring someone..."

Huang Jing came up to take Da Mao away, the dumb man hung a cigarette on Yi Nizi's waist, and asked, "What's going on? Who is this? Didn't you go to find your girlfriend?"

Li Ji looked like he had eaten shit, and Huang Jing also said, "That's right, didn't your girlfriend get beaten up? Why don't you go and see?"

Look at your uncle.Li Ji was so annoying, he just wanted to drive them away when he heard Ding Wan say: "Then go do your work first, I'm going back."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and left. Li Ji caught up with the first two steps, "No... Are you far away, I'll see you off."

"It's okay." Ding Wan waved his hand, "Let's go see your girlfriend first."

"I..." When can I ask you out again.

Seeing his figure go farther and farther, Li Ji felt that he couldn't even breathe. He turned his head with a frown, and heard the mute say: "Then who is it?"

"None of your business." Li Ji gritted his teeth and said, "I'm going back."

"By the way? Who hit your girlfriend? Do you want to help?"

Li Ji walked like the wind, without turning his head, he was quite disgusted with these words: "If I want to beat someone, can I use you?"

The mute clicked his tongue and said, "There's something wrong with this kid."

Huang Jing stroked his chin and hummed meaningfully.

Da Mao felt that he was going to have a concussion when he took pictures of Li Ji, "When was it a little bit! It's very!!"

"Who was the one talking to Li Ji just now?"

"It looks familiar."

"do not know."

……

The hotel where he lived was not close to the square, and he had to pass a large arch bridge. Ding Wan went up against the cold wind, lying on the top and looking at the dark river below, and laughed a little self-deprecatingly.

He thought Li Ji was going to confess to him just now, but it turns out that he has a girlfriend.

Li Ji drove the car out of the parking lot and chased Ding Wan on the way home. He didn't see anyone until he reached his door. He sat disappointed for a while, and had to turn around and leave.

Ding Wan blew the cold wind on the bridge for a while, and went back to the hotel to sleep. In the middle of the night, he felt that his throat was blocked by something. He got up and boiled some hot water with a kettle. Started having nightmares.

When he woke up again, it was already dawn. Ding Wan looked at the time, but after all he endured the discomfort all over his body and crawled up.

Normally, his dad would have gotten up by this time to go to the square to exercise, while his mother would go to the vegetable market at this time. He was going to sneak back and take out his ID card before making plans.

When he got off the car 100 meters away from home, Ding Wan put on his mask, and when he got back to the door, he pushed the door and it squeaked, but it was unlocked.

Pushing open the door and entering, Ding Wan found the key from under the floor mat in front of the door. Ding Wan opened the door swiftly. He found familiar old furniture, a few masks and a sword for fun on the wall. There was a tape recorder by the window, and his father could hold it for an afternoon if he had nothing to do, and when he was in the mood, he could even babble a few words.

Ding Wan didn't care about being sad, ran upstairs and entered his room, dug out a bunch of documents, put them in his travel bag, and stuffed them together with a few clothes that he could wear. Just ran into his father who pushed the door in.

Ding Wan was stunned, and his father had already picked up the broom behind the door and rushed over: "Little brat, let me see where you are going this time!"

Ding Wan was frightened, turned around and rushed back into the room again, and locked the door against the doorknob. When it was over, he was afraid that his father would find the key outside, so he pulled the writing desk over with great fanfare.

Normally, it would take a lot of energy to move this desk.But when people are in a hurry, they have unlimited potential, and Ding Wan felt a little dizzy when he pulled this big thing over to hold it against the door.

Lie on the desk and listened silently for a while, my ears were filled with the sound of my own heartbeat and his father turning the key, guessing that the door could not be opened all the time, his father's breath was long and heavy in anger.

After a while, Ding Wan called out: "Dad."

His dad yelled outside: "Don't call me dad!! I don't have a son like you!!"

Ding Wan said: "I don't have feelings for women, Dad, if you really don't want to see me, then let me out."

"Come out! My leg will be broken by you!"

"You knock on my leg, I won't go out."

"How can you be so despicable!!"

"In the past, those who sang operas were still low-ranking."

Although his mouth was firm, Ding Wan's heart felt like a knife was stirring, and he was extremely uncomfortable. He said with red eyes: "If you don't let me out, I will jump off the second floor."

"Jump if you have the guts! I can't kill you!!"

Ding Wan gritted his teeth, turned his head and jumped out of the window on the second floor.

There was a crunching sound from his leg, and his nerves immediately felt a sharp pain, and Ding Wan's cold sweat broke out on the spot.

Barely propped himself up and got up, he heard the sound of his father rushing down the stairs, Ding Wan took a breath, and ran out the door with a limp.His dad ran downstairs and saw him get in a taxi and leave.

Ding Wan sat on the back seat of the car with his legs crossed. The driver in front looked at him in the rearview mirror and asked, "Going to the hospital?"

"No." Ding Wan said with a pale face, "Go to XX Hotel."

Ding Wan got out of the car, refused the enthusiastic driver's support, walked slowly into the narrow alley while leaning on the wall, his mind was full of unending thoughts.

No one can force him, not even his father.

He just likes men, and he just wants to be with men. The man who will accompany him to the end of his life must be a man with a sense of responsibility. That man used to be Liang Jun, but now this position is vacant, regardless of that man now Wherever he is, even if it is always empty, he will never marry a woman and have children.

Ding Wan went back to his room with great difficulty. His feet hurt so badly. He opened the door and inserted the key card. He just took off his travel bag, and before he reached the bed, he lay down on the ground and passed out.

It wasn't long before he woke up again, probably because he felt pain in his shoulders and buttocks when he fainted, no one was in the room, and no one noticed him.Ding Wan silently got up and moved to the side of the bed, threw a body that was hardly his own on it, and fell asleep again in agony.

Waking up from time to time all day long, Ding Wan didn't know what time it was when he regained consciousness again. As soon as he closed his eyes, he felt his eyelids were hot. Ding Wan clearly realized that he had a high fever.

He lay there quietly, not wanting to move, his nose was so congested, and his legs ached when he moved, and after nearly two hours of being so dazed, Ding Wan slowly turned over.

It was a bit difficult to turn over, and I was panting after lying down.Ding Wan touched his head subconsciously. His hair was sticky. He thought it was sweat, but he wiped his face inadvertently and realized it was blood.

The wound on the head was open.Ding Wan was a little dazed. The discomfort in his body and the sadness in his heart made him extremely fragile. When he was exhausted, he felt that it would be good to just die like this.

Later, he thought again, if he died like this, why would Liang Jun think that he committed suicide out of love?

For a man who betrayed himself, is it worth it?

Of course not worth it!

He cheered up and got up again, leaned against the head of the bed and looked at his legs, gritted his teeth and took off his shoes, covered in cold sweat again.

The legs were swollen and shiny, the trouser legs were swollen, and the strangled legs were stuffy and hot,

He frowned uncomfortably, the corners of his eyes were burning red, and when he was about to call the front desk, his phone rang suddenly.

Li Ji sent Ding Wan good night last night. He waited all night without any response. In the morning, he sent good morning without giving up. After waiting all day, he also received no reply. Just after eight o'clock, he sent another good night. , to nearly nine o'clock still did not get any news.

Li Ji was disappointed and at the same time looked down on himself, and suddenly realized that there was no way for him to wait all this time. How do you say it?Get close to him if you like, fuck him if you love him.Wait and see what kind of a man?

So he dialed the phone on impulse, waiting anxiously for the other party to answer, Li Ji was nervous while spurning his own nervousness.

The time of tens of seconds was stretched infinitely.

When it was finally connected, Li Ji almost burst into tears of gratitude.

"Xiao, Xiaowan..."

"Li... Ji?" Ding Wan's voice was so hoarse that he could barely hear him: "Can you... help me..."