masculinity

I boarded the flight back to China with a sense of loss and melancholy, and my mood fluctuated all the way. I knew that after I returned to China, I would not remember anyone, and I had to be alone, and I couldn’t even see a friend.

"It's okay, I'm a man, I can live a good life." I can only comfort my lonely life in this way. I am not afraid. I still have 10 yuan on me. I will rent a similar house in Beijing and find a A job, so stable in this world.

I want to give myself a little more space for personal freedom, and think carefully about what kind of path I want in the future.

I got off the plane and looked up at the sky above Beijing. There were many scattered white clouds hanging in the blue sky. I have always heard that the smog in Beijing is very serious. Subconsciously, I have serious doubts about the air quality in Beijing, but now I see that there is no such thing. The evil in the rumors made me feel a little happy.

I dragged my suitcase out of the terminal building, watched the people and cars passing by on the bustling avenues of Greater Beijing, and said in my heart, "I'm back, Lin Xi, work hard! Tomorrow will be better!"

I hooked my lips and smiled, as if my future was not far in front of me and opened my hands towards me, waiting for my arrival, and then embraced my dream.

A week later.

I submitted a lot of resumes on the Internet, and finally received a lot of interview calls from companies. At the beginning, I rarely received such calls. I have been waiting for almost three days, and there is still no news. I thought there was no hope. Well, let's find it offline.

Hey!Unexpectedly, two days later, there will be a steady stream of calls coming in. Although there are many job requirements in the calls that are different from my intentions, I am not worried.

I am very happy. At least someone has seen my resume and affirmed my academic experience. This is the first time I have paid so much attention to my resume when I left school and entered the society. When I was studying, I hardly looked at it when I was looking for a part-time job outside. For the resume, you only need to prove that I am still a student and submit relevant certificates.

Among the many resumes, there is a company called "Foreign Language City" that provides foreign language training. Although it is not related to the major I studied abroad, because I have not completed the corresponding studies, I just got a diploma. Or choose an industry that you are more familiar with.

The time I stayed abroad was not too short, and I was still sure of my knowledge of foreign languages, so I chose to come to the Foreign Language City as a foreign teacher's assistant and help substitute classes by the way.

Because of my fluent oral English and a good diploma from studying abroad, I naturally passed the interview smoothly. I should read it as I go, and I can’t be a foreign language teacher all the time in the future. I have to think about it just to make a living. I just borrow this Opportunity to get acquainted and reacquainted with this new place.

In this city where most of the people are drifting north, I can't find a sense of familiarity and dependence. I don't feel the pressure from work here, but I always feel so lonely.

Just like I am a foreigner who comes to China, I am full of curiosity and hope for this place, and the freshness is full of every place in my life, and everything is a new start.

Unknowingly, I have been living in Beijing for a month, and I am familiar with the living habits here, and gradually have my own social circle, good friends, and good roommates.

His name is Chi Xu, and he is also working as an assistant in Foreign Language City. He is a college student who graduated from Beijing Foreign Languages. It just so happened that the house I was renting was quite big. He hadn’t found a house yet. The house I rent also has a room, so that someone can share a little for me.

When I heard his name, my first reaction was Chi Cheng.Chi Xu doesn't have any relationship with Chi Cheng, does he?Naturally, there was such a question in my heart, and when I wanted to ask him, I was interrupted by Chi Xu's words.

"It's really hard to come to Beijing alone, I admire you, Lin Xi."

Chi Xu looked at me with a look of admiration. He was a little younger than me. In my eyes, he was like a younger brother. Chi Xu belonged to that kind of small and fresh boy. He said that he was preparing for an internship, so he was here this winter vacation. When I came out to look for a job, his major was business management or something. I was puzzled and asked, "Then why are you here for foreign language training?"

"You think my major is what I want to learn? My old man asked me to learn it!" Chi Xu looked at me with an innocent look.

I couldn't help being amused by his expression, "Just be content, work hard, try to get an internship certificate, and graduate smoothly!" I relied on the old man to encourage Chi Xu.

Chi Xu laughed like Chi Cheng, really, even though I thought so, I always felt that it shouldn't be, isn't Chi Cheng's family rich?If Chi Xu was his younger brother, why not go abroad to study, after all, his family's conditions are so good.

But Chi Xu doesn't look like a kid from a rich family at all in my opinion. He has good living habits, doesn't spend money casually, and is very considerate.

I should be thinking too much, why do I always think of that man, so strange?What's wrong with me recently?I'm all back home now.I am far away from Canada, and I agreed to forget those people and those things...

"Lin Xi, so you are an overseas student? You are so awesome!"

One morning, Chi Xu yelled my name in the living room, and I woke up from the dream instantly. Since I stayed up late last night to prepare lesson plans and teaching materials, I managed to sleep late, but was disturbed by Chi Xu.

I walked out of the bedroom, squinted my eyes and looked at Chi Xu standing in the living room, and asked, "Eh? Why are you yelling so early in the morning?"

"Lin Xi, there is your courier, and why didn't you tell me that you are a returnee?"

Chi Xu seems to have grasped what he is interested in, and has been pulling me to ask things, asking me what are the characteristics of Canada, what is interesting, and how is it there?

I gave him a blank look and said, "Quiet, wait until I unpack the express delivery."

"Oh, well, then you unpack the express first." Chi Xu blinked expectantly.

I saw the courier, I was confused, what? !Don't be kidding me, okay?Bai Yiyi died in childbirth, and then she wants to entrust her child to me, or has it been approved by the relevant Canadian authorities? !

So here comes the problem!Who is Bai Yiyi?Why not give the child to his own father to raise, I really don't understand, and then the express mail has a phone number, I dialed the number immediately, and there was a gentle female voice speaking English on the other end of the phone.

"Hello, who are you?"

"Hi, I'm Mr. Lin, Lin Xi, I have received your custody authorization letter, and I want to know more about the situation."

I looked at the express mail in my hand seriously, while communicating with the person on the other end of the phone, I finally got it!

Bai Yiyi is my friend. She married a man and was pregnant. Later, because of her first delivery, the situation was difficult. As a result, Bai Yiyi died during the delivery and gave birth to a son.

That man ungratefully abandoned the poor mother and son. The doctor was looking for someone on Bai Yiyi's cell phone, but found that there was only one person's name in the phone book, Lin Xi!

Yes, it's me, I wonder, how did they find me, I know I have amnesia, but my phone has changed?

"Because the incident is a bit big, we went to the embassy to check your information. You were still in Canada a month ago, so we wanted to entrust your child to you for custody. At that time, we knew that you had graduated and obtained the corresponding certificate. Bachelor's degree, capable of raising this child, and his family education will be fine."

Damn mental retardation, just because of this, just hand over the child to me casually, is it really okay to be so casual?What if I, Lin Xi, are a child kidnapper?

"Now that you have returned to your country, the express mail we sent you is mainly to ask for your opinion. If you can raise the child, we will send the child to your country smoothly. If you don't want to raise the child, we will deal with it accordingly. "

The woman on the phone spoke very formally, neither humble nor overbearing, I interrupted, "If I don't want to, what will you do?"

I wonder what they will do if I don't want to foster?I won't put my child in foster care with anyone, or throw her directly into an orphanage...

It was really placed in an orphanage, waiting for someone to adopt. I refused this way of handling, and finally accepted the custody authorization letter with sympathy and helplessness.

The other party said that the child will be sent to Beijing within a week, and I will be notified in advance to pick up the airport...

This is the rhythm of being a happy father. It's funny. I'm still single, and I'm about to start raising children. It's like a father's story!I'm also looking forward to the little biracial guy with the handle.

After I hung up the phone, I realized that Chi Xu was still sitting next to me. My face turned dark at that moment. I thought what I said just now. Looking at Chi Xu's expression, I think he heard it all. What should I do?

"What did you hear just now?" I asked Chi Xu tentatively.

"No, I just heard that you are going to adopt a child." Chi Xu replied with a smile, I knew he was lying, and I heard it.

"It was the child of a friend of mine. She died of dystocia and had no relatives, so I had no choice but to..." I had a long explanation with Chi Xu, and finally he reluctantly accepted my explanation.

"Well, how will you go to work in the future? The child is only a few months old?" Chi Xu asked me a key question. I wanted to die after hearing that. That's right, if I have a child, what should I do at work?

"Hey, I've already agreed, let's talk about it when the time comes." I feel like I was cheated by the woman on the phone. Is this fate?

I think of the girl named Bai Yiyi, it seems that I have an unusual relationship with her, because only my phone number is stored in her mobile phone, which makes me think carefully...

"By the way, Chi Xu, you have to keep it a secret for me, and don't let the company know that I'm going to adopt a child." I worriedly told Chi Xu, I was afraid that he would accidentally slip up in the company.

Then my job will not be guaranteed. Now I have to prepare money for raising children, so work is very important. Don't be fired, otherwise I will not be able to support myself, and the money Chiba Lishu lent me will also be spent Ten to twenty thousand.