Dedicated to life

"Are you nervous?" Standing under the plaque of Prince Yu's Mansion, Ling Mojin did not let go of Yu Qingge's hand, and asked Yu Qingge beside her in a soft tone.

Ling Mojin doesn't care about anything anymore, the shackles of etiquette, gender boundaries, and identities, all obstacles she broke through one by one on the night she wanted Yu Qingge, and she was making sure that she would never let her go again. When talking about Yu Qingge, she no longer cared about any consequences. Just like what Yu Qingge thought, Ling Mojin was originally an extremely indifferent person. Such a person is not emotional. Once emotional, then He will not leave any escape route for himself.

But Yu Qingge is different. She has always been the active party. She loves crazily, for a long time, and loves desperately, but she also attaches great importance to her family. This can be seen from her feelings for Yu Feng and She is afraid of facing Jiang Ziyi. It can be seen from these two points. If Jiang Ziyi said something else today, or even repented of what he said that day, Yu Qingge would not compromise, but she would definitely feel it. Pity.

"You are not nervous, why am I nervous?" Yu Qingge replied with a smile, but she did not look relaxed, after all, it was her mother, even though she had a brief conversation with Ling Mojin when she was unconscious, She even acquiesced in her affection with Ling Mojin, but now she really wants to present her hidden affection for many years in front of her mother. It would be a lie to say that she is not nervous, she just doesn't want Ling Mojin to worry.

"Go in." Ling Mojin tightened her hands so that Yu Qingge could feel the strength he gave her. Now that this is the case, what are you afraid of?

When the two walked to the outer hall, they saw Jiang Ziyi wiping Yu Feng's tablet. Maybe she was too focused, maybe she didn't want to interrupt, she didn't turn around, and Ling Mojin and Yu Qingge didn't say a word either. Remind her, but stand there quietly waiting for her.

"Are you back?" Jiang Ziyi asked suddenly, still not turning around, her voice was so faint that no emotion could be heard.

"Yes, mother, I'm back, with her." Yu Qingge wanted to just say that she was back, but suddenly thought of today's purpose, so she added "with her", she knew her mother would understand her mean.

Jiang Ziyi turned around and saw the two tightly clenched hands. There was no wave in her eyes. Ling Mojin was wearing ordinary clothes today, without that superior posture. She suddenly understood what Ling Mojin meant. Mo Jin came here not as the supreme ruler of a country, but as a person who loves his daughter.

"Qingge, come with me to see the flowers and plants that your father planted before he was alive. You haven't returned for a long time, so you probably don't know if they are still alive." Jiang Ziyi smiled at Yu Qingge and stretched out her hand.

Yu Qingge glanced at Ling Mojin, saw her nod her head slightly, and walked towards her mother, but Jiang Ziyi wanted to shake her head because of her reluctance to Ling Mojin, but she didn't show the slightest bit on her face. But I was thinking in my heart that it turned out that the girl couldn't help her mother, and she forgot her mother when she had a daughter-in-law.

"What? You don't even want to talk to your mother now? You can't be apart for a while?" Jiang Ziyi pretended to reprimand her, but what she said made Yu Qingge's face turn red.

"Mother..." Yu Qingge blushed and said, and finally showed the posture she should have in front of her mother, no longer being so cautious, handed her hand to Jiang Ziyi, and followed Ling Mojin's gentle gaze Leading Jiang Ziyi to the back garden.

Yu Feng had a deep relationship with Jiang Ziyi before he was alive, and knew that she loved still lifes such as flowers and plants. Every time he went out on an expedition or passed a certain place, he would bring back a few famous local flowers and plants back home. Next time, I will bring some more to fill up the small flower garden. Therefore, the back garden of Prince Yu's Mansion is divided into many small flower gardens, filled with various flowers and plants.

Jiang Ziyi let go of Yu Qingge's hand, and walked slowly forward on her own, Yu Qingge didn't speak, but quietly followed behind her, she already knew the purpose of her visit today, and at this moment took the initiative to take the If you come here, you must have something to say.

"People say that most men in the world are ruthless, but your father has nothing to do with these two words. Even though he is in a high position, he does not have the conduct of a corrupt official. On the contrary, he is clean and honest, and his affection for me has been the same for decades. Day." Jiang Ziyi stretched out his hand and lightly touched the petals of a flower, his tone seemed to be talking to himself, but he was speaking to Yu Qingge.

"Yu Qingge, you have the shadow of your father now. You dare to go to battle against the enemy. I don't believe that Ling Mojin allowed you to go." She called Yu Qingge's name, her tone was a bit reprimanded, showing faint anger. She originally wanted to call Ling Mojin "Queen Dowager", but she thought about it before speaking. The relationship between the daughter, this "Queen Mother" is really beyond words.

Jiang Ziyi still knows what kind of temperament her daughter has. Just like her father, she will do anything for the survival of the country at all costs, but Yu Qingge has gone to the next level. She will give up her life for love and do her best. Lost had to go to the border to fight against the enemy, so Ling Mojin would definitely not agree with her feelings for her now, it must have been decided by Yu Qingge without authorization.

She was very opposed to Yu Feng's teaching the art of war and martial arts to her daughter. How could a daughter's family learn the skills of those men?Even if Yu Qingge is very talented, he still wants to marry after all, but he can't stand Yu Feng's love for Yu Qingge and Yu Qingge's persistence, and finally let Yu Qingge learn it, and even learn the skills , that martial arts is comparable to that of Yu Feng's deputy general back then, Li Luo, who is now the general of Zhen Guo.

"Mother, if these things happen again, I will still do it." Yu Qingge said frankly, it seems that after hearing Jiang Ziyi's words in the outer hall, she guessed that Jiang Ziyi had treated her a little bit. With Ling Mojin's attitude, this is why she dares to be so calm. Whether it's her love for Ling Mojin or going to the border to fight against the enemy without authorization, if she had to choose these again, she would still do it.

"Why do you think that I will agree with you to be together?" Jiang Ziyi admired her response without being humble or overbearing at the moment, but she didn't show it on her face. The relationship between her and Ling Mojin is not suitable for this era, and even she thinks so , There should not be such feelings between women and women. They violate the ethics, identity, gender, these are the obstacles between them.

But Yu Qingge is her own daughter after all, she did not hesitate to commit suicide because of this relationship, how much affection must it be to make her go down so cruelly?

As soon as the words fell, Yu Qingge knelt down on her knees. The path in the back garden was paved with round pebbles. Although it was not sharp, it was also uneven. She knelt down without hesitation, as if she didn't notice it. As painful as it was, his eyes were still looking directly at Jiang Ziyi.

"Qingge... What are you doing?" Jiang Ziyi was startled by her actions, and reached out to help her up. You must know that apart from minor injuries in martial arts training, Yu Qingge spent the rest of her life with Yu Feng. They all wished to hold her in the palm of their hand and protect her, not to mention kneeling, even Mo Haoxuan's father who occasionally went to the palace to see Mo Haoxuan when he was young, was exempted from courtesy. The emperor's own flesh and blood is much more.

"Mother." Yu Qingge didn't stand up following Jiang Ziyi's movements, but took Jiang Ziyi's hand instead, "I don't expect you to agree, I just want to tell you that I have practiced martial arts with my father since I was eight years old. The art of war, I beg you to teach me how to play short Xiao, everything I do is to be able to stand side by side with her, to become a person who understands her, and to be able to protect the territory for her, my life is no longer living for myself."

Jiang Ziyi listened quietly without interrupting her, probably Jiang Ziyi also wanted to know how much Yu Qingge had paid for Ling Mojin.

"When I first started learning martial arts, I felt very tired. Every time I saw new bruises on my body, I thought of giving up. I was so sad, I would think of her that Uncle Mo saw on the day of his wedding, and I didn't realize that kind of sadness until I grew up, it was heartache, reluctance, I didn't want to give up any way to get in touch with her, I don't want to give up any chance to love her."

Yu Qingge seemed to think of herself when she was young, with a faint smile on her lips, thinking of her own thoughts many years ago, thinking of how she finally got her wish now, thinking of her persistence of living only for one person in this life In the end, Ling Mojin didn't let herself feel the pain of gaining and losing again, she responded to herself, she fell in love with herself.

"When I was named a princess, I wanted to see if she was happy, but when I knew her heart was still as lonely as it was ten years ago, I couldn't control my behavior, I thought Get close to her, I want to melt her, I want to accompany her, I want to fall in love with her, and spend this life with her." Yu Qingge's voice is full of affection for Ling Mojin, to Ling Mojin, Yu Qingge is poison , but to Yu Qingge, isn't Ling Mojin a poison?

Knowing that there is an insurmountable status between her and her, but knowing that she is still as cold as ten years ago, even more so, it is timely. At that moment, he made up his mind to touch this fairy who is not stained with mortals. , I want to let her know what it means to be moved, what is moved, and the source of everything comes from the love that I can't control, and I don't want her to be lonely for a lifetime.

"Mother, unless I lose my life, this love will never be broken." Yu Qingge finally talked about the point of this trip. Her knees have gone from numbness and pain to now she has no intuition, but she feels that this kneeling She should have lived up to what she should do as a woman. She didn't marry a good man, let alone be able to raise her husband and children. She loved that woman selfishly, but she didn't regret it.

If you can't love her, even if Yu Qingge has a noble status and inexhaustible glory and wealth, she will not be complete in this life, and those things outside her body are not as good as being in love with Ling Mojin.

"If it weren't for your suicide and Ling Mojin's regicide, no matter how deep your affection is, I would never agree, but Yu Qingge, you have identified my weakness, you are my daughter, I want you to be happy, not to see you sad, or even to take your own life seriously." Jiang Ziyi said softly, and reached out to lift Yu Qingge up again, this time she exerted strength in her hands, letting Yu Qingge couldn't refuse.

"If two people try their best to be together, even if they don't care about their lives, I don't think there is anything that can stop them. I don't understand why women have such feelings, but I understand love." Jiang Ziyi lightly Caressing Yu Qingge's face, her daughter has endured much more than what Yu Feng endured back then. Yu Feng and herself are at least in love between men and women, no matter how many obstacles there are, it is not as much as Yu Qingge and Ling Mojin , now that they have finally come over, how can I do the thing of breaking them up again?

No matter whether Jiang Ziyi regrets bringing Yu Qingge into the palace ten years ago and letting her see Ling Mojin, no matter whether this relationship was wrong at the beginning, no matter whether her current decision violated what a mother should go At this moment, Jiang Ziyi chooses to accept the relationship between Ling Mojin and Yu Qingge. In her opinion, compared to Yu Qingge's happiness and well-being, even a big mistake is not important in front of her. She just wants her daughter to be happy.

"Mother, you..." Yu Qingge heard the understanding and relaxation in Jiang Ziyi's words, she called Jiang Ziyi hesitantly, at this moment she felt that all her anxiety had completely dissipated, although she would not give up, But she hopes to get her mother's understanding, she wants her mother to recognize her feelings, and she wants to have no worries with Ling Mojin.

"Go and find her, she should be in your room at this moment." Jiang Ziyi smiled and turned Yu Qingge's body back to the direction when she turned her body back. She had already acquiesced in their relationship, but it's rare that they are willing to face her. Looking at her daughter's cautious appearance for fear that she would not agree, why bother?This is no longer a trick.

"In my room?" Yu Qingge asked suspiciously.

"I have already told Uncle Li that if you come, take her to your room. Could it be that you let her wait in the outer hall?" Jiang Ziyi was still smiling, but reached out to touch Yu Qingge. This is the action she always does every time she agrees to the unreasonable demands Yu Qingge made since she was a child. It means that even if she knows that what Yu Qingge is going to do is wrong, she still agrees. She wants her daughter to be happy.

Feeling Jiang Ziyi's kindness, Yu Qingge was pushed back by Jiang Ziyi, tears finally flowed down, she whispered: "Mother, thank you..."

Jiang Ziyi who was behind her didn't answer, but Yu Qingge knew that she would definitely be able to hear the family love that blood is thicker than water, how could she not know her love for him?Her current love is even more fused with the love left by her deceased father. All tolerance and understanding are to make herself happy.

Mother, I was so afraid that you would stop me, I was afraid that you would feel pain for what I did, I admit that I was selfish and desperate for this relationship, but I have no way out, thank you for understanding me so much, Thank you for accepting our feelings, thank you for not being our last obstacle.

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Remembering Jiang Ziyi's instructions, Uncle Li led Ling Mojin into Yu Qingge's room after she and Yu Qingge walked to the back garden, and then withdrew.

Yu Qingge's boudoir, Ling Mojin, came in. It was the day Di Yunfan returned home with Yu Qingge after he escaped from the palace, and the day before Mo Haoxuan broke his relationship with Yu Qingge, but It was too hasty at the time, and Ling Mojin didn't take a closer look at this place. This is the place that witnessed Yu Qingge's growth, and it was here that Yu Qingge released her daily fatigue.

Ling Mojin glanced at her, and couldn't help chuckling, but her heart felt a little bitter. This room didn't match Yu Qingge's appearance very much. Such a beautiful woman doesn't have too many gadgets that her daughter loves in this room. Instead, there are some bows and arrows of different sizes and swords of different lengths. It seems that Yu Feng allocated her according to Yu Qingge's age.

And the books in this room are also military books written by famous generals throughout the ages. Ling Mojin took out one of the books, even though both sides were pressed by other books, she could still see the traces of the pages of the book being turned, it must have been I have read it many times, and when I flip through the pages of the book, there are comments on almost every page. These comments are based on the views of each listed battle. This handwriting is completely opposite to Yu Qingge's public appearance. It seems solemn and introverted, but it is as magnificent as a dragon soaring nine days.

Ling Mojin was fascinated by watching, completely immersed in Yu Qingge's comments on every battle, with a faint smile on her lips, she didn't come back to her senses until the warm body behind her approached, but she didn't move, still watching Books in hand.

She doesn't need to deliberately ask about the conversation between Yu Qingge and Jiang Ziyi, feeling Yu Qingge's steady breathing, she can know that the conversation just now must have got Jiang Ziyi's consent, plus Uncle Li's introduction of herself Come to Yu Qingge's room, what else do you need to ask?I'm afraid Jiang Ziyi had already anticipated the purpose of the two of them today.

"Is Yan Ruyu good-looking, or am I good-looking?" Yu Qingge scolded Ling Mojin, took the book away from Ling Mojin's hand, and turned her body to face him, "Besides, there is no Yan Ruyu in this book yet. , only fighting and killing, Jin'er is so fascinated by it?"

"I'm looking at the annotations you wrote. Do you want me to say that your writing is not good?" Ling Mojin smiled softly, stretched out her fingertips and tapped her forehead, missing her growth for so many years. Time, how can we not carefully read every word and every sentence she wrote down?

"Jin'er, it's been 11 years." Yu Qingge pulled Ling Mojin into her arms, sniffed her fragrance greedily, and whispered in her ear, her smile shook Yu Qingge's eyes, making her Yu Qingge couldn't help but take her into his arms and hug her tightly, as if he could never hold her enough.

"Well, I know." Ling Mojin leaned on her shoulder, and replied clearly, it's no longer ten years, after all, he has responded to her ten years of admiration, and all kinds of things from the past year are lingering in his heart, Finally, there is no more worries.

"I still remember the day Uncle Mo married you 11 years ago..."

11 years ago, Mo Haoxuan succeeded to the throne, with the reign name of Shun'an, and Ling Mojin was established as the queen. The whole world celebrated together and the whole country rejoiced.

In Prince Yu's mansion, Yu Feng squatted down his tall body, looked at the young daughter with extremely beautiful facial features, stretched out his hand to hold her little hand, and said with a smile: "Father, I will bring you into the palace today to attend Uncle Mo's grand ceremony." At the wedding banquet, Qingge must be kept in mind, and no running around is allowed, you know?"

"Qingge understands, father and mother, let's go." Yu Qingge said cheerfully, and walked out holding Yu Feng's hand. She can't enter the palace often, only when her father comes back from the expedition can she enter the palace with her father. She has been in the palace for a long time I haven't seen Uncle Mo yet. I don't know if Uncle Mo gave her any small presents today.

Jiang Ziyi looked at the father and daughter lovingly in front of him. People said that the daughter was the mother's little padded jacket, but her own daughter had been closer to her husband since she was a child.

The carriage was marching on the streets of the capital, Yu Feng was riding in front of the horse, Yu Qingge and Jiang Ziyi were in the carriage, Jiang Ziyi opened the curtain, and the streets were decorated with lights and festoons, presumably the palace issued a decree that the new When the emperor ascends the throne and confers the queen at the same time, the two major events will be carried out at the same time, and the scene of universal celebration is inevitable.

"Qingge, from now on, you can't call Uncle Mo anymore, but the emperor, understand?" Jiang Ziyi suddenly remembered that her daughter still used to call Mo Haoxuan Uncle Mo, and now that he has ascended the throne as emperor, no matter how much he loves Yu Qingge , can no longer be called that.

"Qingge understands." Yu Qingge responded obediently. Now she only hopes to see Uncle Mo soon. She hasn't seen Uncle Mo for a long time. This time, her father has been away for a long time, and she has not been able to enter the palace for a long time.

But after entering Gong Yu Qingge's mouth kept pouted, the banquet was meaningless at all, Uncle Mo had been sitting in a high position, and he couldn't say a word to him at all, and the process of getting married seemed very cumbersome, until The woman in the phoenix robe and Xiapei was taken away, and the atmosphere in the whole palace was still very weird to her, which made Yu Qingge feel that she really shouldn't come today, so she might as well beg her father to stay in the mansion.

Yu Qingge took advantage of her body not yet fully grown, took advantage of her father and mother greeting courtiers, and quietly left the palace gate and went to the imperial garden. The palace seemed to be very quiet tonight, only the palace where the wedding banquet was held The lights are bright, Yu Qingge thought, this is just right, no one will find me.

Father would often bring rare flowers and plants back to the mansion, but after all, there were not as many as in the imperial garden in the palace. Yu Qingge couldn't say that he liked flowers and plants very much, but it was just because it occupied a large area, allowing her to play at will, but today it seemed that there was a stranger people.

It was a woman, wearing a bright red palace robe with golden phoenix embroidered on it. The first time Yu Qingge saw her, she felt that she didn't look like a person from the same world as her. Clean, these are the two words that came to Yu Qingge's mind the first time he saw her, clean.

That dignified and luxurious phoenix robe couldn't hide the cold aura emanating from her body. She turned sideways and didn't know where to look, but Yu Qingge saw it. There was no impurity in those bright eyes, no ordinary woman married The shyness of being a human being, the lack of anticipation when she was eagerly waiting for her husband, let alone the joy of sitting on the queen's throne, is as silent as a pool of stagnant water.

The mother said that Uncle Mo is the emperor, and his clothes are embroidered with golden dragons, and only his wife can wear the clothes embroidered with golden phoenixes. Yu Qingge knows that Uncle Mo's wife is the queen, that is to say, this woman is the one who just married. The one that was taken away after Uncle Mo saluted, obviously today was her wedding day, but why didn't her eyes have the kind of affection when a mother looks at and thinks about her father?Does she not like Uncle Mo?

"The woman who married Uncle Mo today is the queen, and her name is Ling Mojin." What her mother had said to herself suddenly flashed in Yu Qingge's mind, Ling Mojin, the woman in front of her was named Ling Mojin.

Yu Qingge suddenly wanted to make this woman smile, both on her face and in her eyes, and such a beautiful smile must be directed at herself, because of this look, she wanted to get close to this woman, she wanted to melt With this woman's cold face, she wanted this woman who was as elegant and refined as a fairy to bloom for her.

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"Since then, I have wanted you, wanted you to laugh, made you happy, and wanted you to bloom the ultimate beauty for me." Yu Qingge was in a trance, describing the time when she saw Ling Mojin that year. I didn't hide my state of mind until the end, and I clearly expressed my thoughts when I saw Ling Mojin for the first time, but the blush on the fair face of the person who was listening quietly in his arms spread to ears.

"Yu Qingge, I didn't expect you to have such a bad mind at such a young age." Ling Mojin got up from her arms, blushed and looked at this man's charming face. She was really attracted by Yu Feng and Jiang Ziyi when she was a child. And Mo Haoxuan was spoiled by the heavens, yet he thought so much about himself even though he knew he was a queen?And at the first sight, he wanted to take himself as his own.

"Did you let me down and push me away, Jin'er, thank you..." Yu Qingge touched her forehead as she did when she was in Ling's mansion, and now Ling Mojin is no longer like that. She avoided her gaze and her words as usual, but smiled lightly.

"I'm very glad that I walked out of Weiyang Palace that night. I'm also glad that you had such bad thoughts. I'm even more glad that I didn't go against my will after all, and didn't hurt you. Everything was in time and everything was just right." Ling Mojin caressed Yu Qingge's face, and suddenly she was very grateful for her actions that night. She didn't wait for Mo Haoxuan's arrival honestly, but lifted the hijab embroidered with golden patterns to avoid the palace guards. Arrived at the imperial garden.

If I didn't have this sudden idea of ​​mine back then, I wouldn't have Yu Qingge's glimpse, her thoughts of the next ten years, her persistence in the past year, and the lingering love she has now.

It was Yu Qingge who let Ling Mojin know what it means to be moved, what it means to be touched, what it means to feel distressed, what it means to know each other, what it means to pity each other, what it means to cherish each other, what it is to love each other, and the appearance of Yu Qingge gave Ling Mojin the honor and respect. But the finishing touch is added to the empty life. Everything Yu Qingge does is to fill in the flesh and blood she lacks one by one, making her more complete. The one who once planned to take the road of life as a responsibility The finished Ling Mojin no longer exists.

"Jin'er, when Xiao'er can be in charge, you can follow me all over the rivers and mountains, okay?" Yu Qingge hugged her waist tightly, and looked at Ling Mojin's eyes full of infinite tenderness gently. He said that Mo Chengxiao is Ling Mojin's son, and also Yu Qingge's younger brother in name, so he followed Ling Mojin to call him that.

Now there is no obstacle between them, the only tie is that Mo Chengxiao has not been able to handle political affairs alone, and still needs Ling Mojin's support, but after all these years, so many obstacles have been broken one by one Now, what else can't wait?Thinking of being able to be so carefree with Ling Mojin in the days after leaving the palace, Yu Qingge felt that even though she would stay in the palace for a few more years, with Ling Mojin by her side, what's the harm in waiting a few more years?

Ling Mojin recalled what she promised Yu Qingge to go out of the palace a few months ago. Her heart was full of yearning for that carefree life. Her eyes seemed to exude a brilliance that included the sun, moon and stars. Her tone Li is also indescribably gentle, "Okay, wherever you are, naturally everything is fine."

According to the "History of Nanheng", four years after Mo Chengxiao succeeded to the throne, Ling Hou withdrew from the court, no longer involved in political affairs, and completely handed over the power to Mo Chengxiao. Since then, the courtiers have never seen the supporter A legendary woman in Nanheng Jiangshan for several years.

When everyone was praising her achievements and lamenting that she had retreated to the harem, no one noticed that the eldest princess Yu Qingge, who had entered the palace many times, no longer entered the palace frequently, and disappeared from people's hearts as if she had never been this person before. in sight...

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It's over here, and when I come to a chapter to explain their life after leaving the palace, it will be completely over. . .