Dedicated to life

Yu Qingge's awakening made Ling Mojin's heart finally drop. Now that Mo Haoxuan is no longer obstructing her, and no one is obstructing her, her sleepiness is like a flood that has opened a floodgate. It flows all over the body, and the whole person suddenly becomes tired.

It's as if I have been tense all the time to do one thing, wait for one thing, the moment this wish is fulfilled, all the nerves are relaxed, and there is no more strength to support this body.

"Is Jin'er tired?" Yu Qingge leaned in her arms. Since she just woke up, Ling Mojin has hugged her so tightly, never letting go for a moment, talking to herself from time to time , but I noticed that she was getting more and more tired.

"A little sleepy, it's okay." Ling Mojin closed her eyes, and the warm breath from her neck made her feel extremely at ease. She couldn't remember how long she hadn't been so at ease.

Ever since Yu Qingge was put under house arrest by Mo Haoxuan, she hardly had a good night's sleep.

At the beginning, he was planning to kill the king, and he was always worried that Yu Qingge would be hurt, and worried whether the plan would go wrong.

During the few days when Yu Qingge committed suicide, she was even more exhausted. During those few days, she dared not close her eyes the most. She stayed by Yu Qingge's bed all the time, lest Yu Qingge wake up and not see her, but that The few hopes are exhausted day by day.

Later, she finally accepted that she would not be accompanied by Yu Qingge for many days in the future. She supported Mo Chengxiao to the throne by herself, and after that, besides assisting Mo Chengxiao in handling political affairs, she took care of Yu Qingge herself. Turning that urgent hope into a steady stream of waiting, I believe that one day Yu Qingge will wake up.

Sometimes Ling Mojin really couldn't close her eyes, so she held Yu Qingge's hand all night, looking at her still stunning appearance, didn't say a word and didn't feel uncomfortable, just looked at her like that until she went to court. He only left at midnight, returned to Yuhua Palace after the DPRK, and was busy with political affairs. When he was particularly tired, he occasionally took a nap and woke up.

At this moment, Yu Qingge knew that she must have a shadow in her heart. She was afraid that after waking up, she would find that it was a dream. She hadn't woken up at all, and she was still waiting by herself.

Ling Mojin is such a person, no matter how hard or tired she is, she is unwilling to say it out loud, but now she is so afraid that this is a dream, so nostalgic for the warmth of Yu Qingge in her arms, she is too tired to hold on, and she has to keep hugging Yu Qingge refused to let go.

Just like when Yu Qingge seduced her several times, and she pushed her away at the last moment, she clearly wanted to be closer to Yu Qingge, but because of the shackles in her heart, she repeatedly pushed Yu Qingge away. push away.

Ling Mojin was afraid, she had always been afraid, but she never said it out loud. At first, she was afraid of such an emotion that violated the principles of ethics, and then she was afraid that she would completely fall into this relationship because she wanted Yu Qingge, and finally because of Yu Qingge's suicide. Long coma and afraid of her leaving.

Thinking of this, Yu Qingge's nose felt a little sore. Did she make Ling Mojin too sad? When was she so afraid of someone leaving her alone?How did she survive these days alone?Looking at herself unconscious on the bed in the dead of night, her heart must be so painful that she can't breathe, but she still has to hold on, just waiting for herself to wake up on an unknown day.

"I haven't fallen asleep in Jin'er's arms for a long time, how about resting with me?" Yu Qingge said with a smile, if she persuaded Ling Mojin to rest at this moment, she would definitely not want to, so why not just say that she wants to rest and let her she accompanied.

Ling Mojin thought about it, although Yu Qingge was awake, but still weak, it's normal for her to be a little tired after talking so much.

"Okay, then I'll sleep with you." Ling Mojin hugged her and lay down together, then stretched out her hand to pull the quilt over to cover herself and her, but carefully covered the quilt behind Yu Qingge's back. A possible opening for drafts.

That movement was so natural, as if he did it every day, and he was used to it.

"Sleep with me and don't talk." Yu Qingge kissed the corner of Ling Mojin's lips, and then closed her eyes first. She knew that Ling Mojin wouldn't close her eyes if she didn't sleep of.

The sense of fullness in her arms and the exhaustion all over her body made Ling Mojin fall asleep quickly, but she never let go of Yu Qingge from her hands. If she hadn't felt her even breath spraying on her face, Yu Qingge might have fallen asleep. Didn't know she was asleep yet.

Yu Qingge opened her eyes and looked at Ling Mojin who was sleeping soundly in front of her. Tears still flowed out of her eyes after all, flowing quietly from her cheeks to the pillow like a stream.

The movements when she lifted herself up, and the familiar movements when she covered herself with the quilt, were so proficient that she did it every day. How many times did she do these things during the days when she was in a coma?Probably when he was unconscious, he had already leaned on Ling Mojin's shoulder countless times.

She felt it just now, Ling Mojin's body became thinner and thinner, although she was already very thin, but now she is even thinner, and it hurts her to hug her tightly.

Yu Qingge stretched out her hand to caress Ling Mojin's face, her fingertips touched the faint blackness and deep-set eye sockets in her eyes.

These all show how difficult she was in the days when she was in a coma, at least I never saw this when I was with her, just now she couldn't help crying and embraced with all her strength because she was afraid that she would disappear, every movement Every expression made me feel distressed.

Yu Qingge kept looking at Ling Mojin without closing her eyes, as if she couldn't get enough of it, she wanted to draw those eyebrows deeply in her heart, deeper than before, so that even if the ashes disappeared, she couldn't forget the eyebrows and eyes of the person in front of her.

It wasn't until the night engulfed the last rays of the setting sun that Ling Mojin faintly woke up. The first time she became conscious, she tightened her arms tightly. Feeling the fullness in her arms and seeing the overwhelming Qingcheng's face was relieved.

"Fortunately, you're still here." The momentary tension on Ling Mojin's face was captured in Yu Qingge's eyes.

Because she is afraid that her hands and feet will be pressed against Yu Qingge when she falls asleep, Ling Mojin has been sleeping on other beds by herself these days, and she will habitually tighten her arms after waking up from a nap, feeling empty in her arms Always brought her close to tears.

No one knows, Ling Mojin keeps telling herself in her heart to persevere, Yu Qingge will definitely wake up, she won't be willing to leave herself like this, she made herself promise that in this life, if she leaves, she will go With whom to fulfill this promise?

The voice she inadvertently uttered made Yu Qingge's heart ache, and he hugged her back with the little bit of strength he had: "Don't be afraid, Jin'er, I am here, and I will never leave you again."

"Whether it's life or death, Yu Qingge will never leave Ling Mojin again." Yu Qingge hugged her distressedly, and gently stroked her back, trying to alleviate the panic in her heart.

"Don't say that word again from now on. You don't know how scared I am. I'm afraid that you'll really leave me and don't want me anymore..." Ling Mojin's hand behind Yu Qingge's back trembled a little. The scene of that day is still vivid in her memory, so clear that she would tremble with fear whenever she thinks about it.

The pool of blood in the secret room of the Yonghe Palace stretched all the way to the blood path beside the bed. Yu Qingge, who was as pale as paper, called her so many times, but she didn't open her eyes. The white lips that she had kissed countless times There was no trace of blood, all this made Ling Mojin feel extremely chilled.

Every time she thinks about it, Ling Mojin blames herself why she didn't rescue Yu Qingge sooner, why she made Yu Qingge endure such suffering, if she had to do it all over again, she would rather lose her life than Let Yu Qingge suffer a little injury.

Yu Qingge kissed her cheek, and listened to Ling Mojin telling herself the fear in her heart with distress, and the tears flowed uncontrollably.

Why not be afraid of yourself?At the moment when she slit her wrist, only her face was in her mind, her heart was calling for her arrival, and she felt the loss of blood, which took away her consciousness and Ling Mojin's face. At that moment, Yu Qingge felt There was no pain, only resentment for Ling Mojin.

Yu Qingge is afraid of death, very afraid, she is reluctant to part with Ling Mojin, she hasn't seen enough of Ling Mojin's smile, she hasn't experienced enough of Ling Mojin's enthusiasm, she hasn't tasted Ling Mojin's tongue yet Enough, everything about Ling Mojin is the reason why she doesn't want to leave.

I haven't loved Ling Mojin enough yet, and they have communicated with each other not long ago, and they will be separated like this. Ling Mojin is the only reason for her to survive, but Mo Haoxuan's pressing every step of the way makes her have to do that.

Yu Qingge doesn't want to leave her broken body to Ling Mojin. Even if Ling Mojin doesn't mind, and even loves her more because of this, she can't let Mo Haoxuan succeed. This is her bottom line. What is given to Ling Mojin is a complete self, a clean self, which only belongs to Ling Mojin from body to heart.

So when Mo Haoxuan started to move, Yu Qingge didn't want to live any longer. When she was conscious, she would never allow herself to be touched by anyone other than Ling Mojin, and she would not allow it at all.

"How can I be willing to leave you? Now I want to love you like this forever, and I will come to look for you in the next life." Yu Qingge pressed Ling Mojin's hand close to her heart, every time The beating was all because of her. At the beginning, she gave up her life to keep a clean self, but now she wakes up because she can't let go of her no matter what.

When Ling Mojin heard the words, although the tears were still wet on her face, she finally smiled because of her words. She touched her forehead lightly and said, "I hope there will be another life, life after life, but when it comes We have no memory of this life."

Ling Mojin never believed in the theory of reincarnation, but because of the affection for Yu Qingge in her heart at this moment, she chatted with her about this absurd remark. spend.

"In the next life, life after life, you and I will no longer look up to each other. I want to be born on the same day as you, and be with you year after year. Are you willing?" Yu Qingge looked over Ling Mojin's shoulder, looking To see the boundless stars outside the window is her wish. If there is a next life, she will still love this woman who holds her in her arms so deeply.

"Why don't you want to? From now on, I've been looking forward to this life after life. If you and I get lost, I will come to find you and never leave you." Ling Mojin looked at Yu Qingge softly, her words It's definitely not a joke for a while, with such a deep love, how can you not expect to live forever?

Yu Qingge met her eyes, smiled clearly, and now this life is not what they care about, if they can get another person's response, then they will give up everything.