cure that paranoid heartthrob

It's like a kitten will purr when it is touched comfortably. This warm embrace made Gu Xuzhou feel extremely at ease, and he subconsciously rubbed it twice.

Sensing the movement of the person in his arms, Cen Shuo froze.

Gu Xuzhou jumped out of Cen Shuo's arms and said, "Thank you."

Cen Shuo looked straight at Gu Xuzhou, his eyes were as deep as a pool.

The staring didn't last for two seconds, and the boy who was still on the wall said to them: "That athletic big brother, can you pick me up when I go down?"

Cen Shuo looked at him expressionlessly.

The boy shivered uncontrollably, rubbed his arms and said, "I didn't ask you to hug me like just now, you just need to help me before I fall."

Cen Shuo stared at him for another three seconds, then nodded.

The boy glanced down, his eyes were very dizzy, he closed his eyes fiercely, gritted his teeth and jumped down.

He didn't fall, but his feet were numb from the shock

The boy held on to the wall for a few seconds before he opened his eyes

Looking up at the high wall, he sighed with lingering fear: "I'm really promising, I can climb such a high wall."

Gu Xuzhou also sighed.

Hearing Gu Xuzhou's voice, the boys turned around and said to them, "Are you guys sneaking out to play too?"

Gu Xuzhou said: "Yes, what about you?"

"Of course I also sneaked out to play." The boy continued, "Where do you want to go?"

Gu Xuzhou said: "We want to go to the beach, and then eat local snacks."

The boy's eyes lit up, and he said, "Why don't I go with you."

As soon as he finished speaking, he felt a strong gaze on his back. At that moment, he felt as if he was being stared at by the most ferocious beast on the grassland. "

The boy subconsciously straightened his spine, and immediately said: "No, no, let me play by myself."

Gu Xuzhou asked, "Are you sure you don't want to be with us?"

The boy waved his hands again and again and said, "No, no, it's really not necessary."

Gu Xuzhou didn't force him, nodded and said, "Then let's go first."

The boy said with an attitude of sending Buddha: "Well, let's go quickly."

Gu Xuzhou was also afraid that the security guards patrolling outside would see them, so he hurriedly dragged Cen Shuo out.

And as he walked, he covered his face with his hands and looked around, looking guilty.

Cen Shuo hooked the corner of his mouth and said to him, "Aren't you more conspicuous like this?"

Gu Xuzhou froze for a moment, quickly put down his hands, straightened his back, and walked forward with pride.

Cen Shuo laughed and said, "Just go naturally, no one will find us."

Gu Xuzhou nodded, but his spirit was still tense, and his walking posture was very deliberate

It wasn't until he got on the bus that Gu Xuzhou heaved a sigh of relief.

In order to come out to play this time, he made notes in advance, he showed the memo to Cen Shuo, and said: "I have prepared a strategy, take this bus, and the beach is six stops away, we went to the beach to play, Next to it is a snack street, and we walked back at five o'clock, just in time to catch the last bus."

Cen Shuo nodded: "I listen to you."

Newly arrived in a city, he was curious about everything he saw. Gu Xuzhou kept looking out of the car window, while Cen Shuo looked at him.

Because he woke up too early, Gu Xuzhou was a little sleepy and yawned.

Cen Shuo said, "Shut up for a while, and I'll wake you up when you stand up."

Gu Xuzhou couldn't open his sleepy eyes, nodded and said, "Okay."

After speaking, he folded his arms, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

The bus was not driving smoothly, and Gu Xuzhou was dangling along with him, and he couldn't sleep well.

Cen Shuo looked at Gu Xuzhou's slightly frowning brows, reached out and gently pressed his head on his shoulder.

The sun outside the window was very bright, and the light just fell on Gu Xuzhou's eyes, and Cen Shuo stretched out his hand to cover Gu Xuzhou's eyes.

In this posture, he has maintained it until he is about to arrive at the station.

"Wake up, it's almost time to stop." Cen Shuo said.

Gu Xuzhou fell into a hazy sleep, vaguely heard his name, and opened his eyes.

After a delay of two or three seconds, he realized where he was.

Gu Xuzhou raised his head, realizing that he had been resting on Cen Shuo's shoulder just now.

He rubbed his eyes and said to Cen Shuo, "Did I just pillow on your shoulder?"

Cen Shuo nodded.

Gu Xuzhou yawned, stretched out his hand to help Cen Shuo squeeze his shoulders, and said, "Is it sore? Will it be better this way?"

Seeing Gu Xuzhou's worried expression, Cen Shuo curled his lips and said, "It's getting better."

Gu Xuzhou went to help Cen Shuo massage his shoulder with both hands, and he said, "Sorry, I don't know why I fell asleep on your shoulder."

Cen Shuo laughed, but didn't tell the details.

He glanced out the window and said, "We'll be at the station soon, we're going to get off."

Gu Xuzhou nodded, took his things and got off the bus with Cen Shuo.

As soon as I got out of the car, a gust of salty and fresh air rushed over my face.

The sea has a magical power that always makes people feel better inexplicably.

Gu Xuzhou pointed to the sea, and said to Cen Shuo, "Look at the sea water, it's so blue, it's sparkling."

Cen Shuo smiled and said, "Sneaking out to watch the sea this time is a wise choice."

Gu Xuzhou patted Cen Shuo on the shoulder and said, "Let's go to the beach."

After speaking, he ran to the beach.

Cen Shuo looked at Gu Xuzhou's back, hooked his lips, and followed.

Gu Xuzhou stood by the sea, looked at the blue water, and said regretfully, "We came too late, the weather is cold now, we can't take off our shoes and go barefoot to play in the sea."

While talking, the waves gently rushed towards their feet, leaving behind white foam.

Cen Shuo said to Gu Xuzhou: "Then let's play again next year when the weather is warmer."

Gu Xuzhou said to Cen Shuo: "Okay, let's walk around the beach."

Cen Shuo nodded, and walked beside Gu Xuzhou side by side.

Gu Xuzhou looked at the ocean that was connected to the sky, and sighed: "I have seen the sea many times, but every time I look at the sea, there is a feeling of surprise. The sea is really like Pandora's box."

Cen Shuo said, "This is the first time I have come to see the sea."

"First time?" Gu Xuzhou said in surprise, "Didn't your previous school be in a city near the sea?"

Cen Shuo paused, and looked at Gu Xuzhou with deep eyes: "How do you know that my original boarding school is by the sea?"

Gu Xuzhou froze.

This is what he saw in a dream, and he accidentally slipped it.

He tried to make a natural expression and said, "Didn't you tell me that before?"

Cen Shuo said meaningfully: "I told you before?"

"Yes, you told me before." Gu Xuzhou said firmly.

Cen Shuo took a deep look at Gu Xuzhou and said nothing.

If Gu Xuzhou didn't want to say it, he wouldn't force it.He was willing to wait until Gu Xuzhou was willing to tell him the details.

Today happened to be Saturday, and many people came to the beach to play.

Gu Xuzhou pointed at the kid not far away, and said with a smile: "I often went to the beach to play when I was a child. At that time, I was naughty. I buried it in the sand with my brother while my father was sleeping."

Thinking of the past, Gu Xuzhou couldn't help laughing.

After he finished speaking, he realized that Cen Shuo's biological father was unknown, and his mother had left him early. Didn't he say these sad things on purpose for Chu Cen Shuo?

He looked at Cen Shuo cautiously.

Cen Shuo's expression was natural, as if he had sensed Gu Xuzhou's mood, and said: "It's been so long, I've already come out, don't worry, these things will poke my heart, in fact, I also really want to know who the children of ordinary people are. How did you grow up?"

Cen Shuo paused and said, "I only heard you mentioned your father and brother, but what about your mother?"

Gu Xuzhou looked at the sky and said: "In my impression, my mother only has a vague appearance."

Cen Shuo froze for a moment, then said, "I'm sorry."

Gu Xuzhou interrupted him, "You don't need to say sorry to me, I have already stepped out, think about what you said just now, in fact, I am the same as you, people always want to look forward."

Gu Xuzhou took the initiative to bring up the past with Cen Shuo, "When I was young, my mother lined up to buy my and my brother's favorite cake, and suddenly a person with a sharp knife in his hand rushed out next to her. Mom, she..."

Gu Xuzhou paused, and said: "She was stabbed, she was not rescued, and passed away."

"I don't remember anything at the time. To me, my mother just fell asleep and went to a very distant and beautiful place, but it wasn't like that to my brother. Gu Xuzhou turned his head to look at Cen Shuo with a smile, and said slowly : "My brother blamed himself very much. He felt that his mother died because of him, because at that time his mother was buying his favorite cake. I often saw my brother crying, but I didn't know why he was crying, and I couldn't comfort him.When I grow up, I can understand my brother's mood at that time, but my brother has already slowly licked the wound by himself and walked out of the grief. "

Cen Shuo paused and said, "My brother blamed himself for his mother's death, and you also blamed yourself for not comforting your brother in time..."

Gu Xuzhou didn't expect Cen Shuo to say that, so he stopped and looked straight at him.

Cen Shuo clenched his fist, then slowly stretched out his hand, and touched Gu Xuzhou's head, "Self-blame should be short-lived, and remembering should be long-term. We all have to look forward. I don't think your mother wants your brother to blame himself." , your brother also doesn't want you to suffer from self-blame."

When Gu Xuzhou heard Cen Shuo's words, his nose ached, and he said, "Cen Shuo, you are really gentle."

Cen Shuo laughed, "Really?"

He seemed to recall something from the past, and said: "I have heard many words to describe me, but the first one to say that I am gentle."

Gu Xuzhou said: "You are a very gentle person, but the reality makes you have to pretend."

Cen Shuo was silent for a few seconds, and said, "It's not just reality, but also my choice."

Gu Xuzhou froze, "Your choice?"

Cen Shuo nodded, speaking his heart out after so long, "I chose to give up on myself."

Gu Xuzhou understood what Cen Shuo said, and at this moment, no amount of comfort would be useless. He walked beside Cen Shuo, telling him in this way that he would always be by his side.

The two walked along the sea, from the east to the west of the sea.

Gu Xuzhou looked at the time and said, "Are you hungry? Are we going to eat now?"

Cen Shuo nodded and said, "Okay."

Gu Xuzhou looked at the map and wanted to point out the location of the snack street to Cen Shuo, but when he raised his head he became confused.

He froze for a moment, and asked Cen Shuo embarrassedly, "Do you know which side is East?"

Cen Shuo laughed and said, "Give me the map, and I'll take you there."

Cen Shuo led Gu Xuzhou to the east, followed the directions on the map and turned into a street.

Before they entered the snack street, they saw a dense crowd of people around the entrance of the snack street.

Gu Xuzhou sighed, "Why are there so many people?"

Cen Shuo said: "There are more people in this kind of place."

Gu Xuzhou turned his head to look at Cen Shuo and said, "Then let's get closer, so we don't get scattered by the crowd."

Cen Shuo looked at Gu Xuzhou with a firm tone: "We will not be scattered by the crowd, I will always follow you closely."

Gu Xuzhou led Cen Shuo into the snack street

There are all kinds of seafood here, as well as local special snacks.

When Gu Xuzhou sees something he likes, he will buy two copies, one for himself and one for Cen Shuo.

Before he had walked a distance, his hands were already so full that he didn't even have an empty hand to take something to eat.

Cen Shuo sighed, and took all the things in Gu Xuzhou's other hand.

Gu Xuzhou looked at the stuff in Cen Shuo's hands, and said with some embarrassment, "I seem to have bought too much."

Cen Shuo said, "Eat slowly, until you finish eating."

Gu Xuzhou: "Then let's find a place to eat first, and continue shopping after eating."

There are bluestone roads on both sides of the snack street, and the two simply sat on the steps.

Gu Xuzhou handed Cen Shuo a bunch of squid, and said, "This is very fresh, try it."

Cen Shuo took it.

Gu Xuzhou gave Cen Shuo another bag, and said, "I've read the local food reviews, and I heard that this sweet-scented osmanthus cake has a very authentic taste and a very pure fragrance. You should try it."

"Okay." Cen Shuo looked at Gu Xuzhou and said with a smile.

When the two of them finished eating what they had on hand, they were already [-]% full.

Gu Xuzhou said with regret: "If I knew it earlier, I would have bought less. I still have a lot to eat."

Cen Shuo said: "I bought it, if you can't eat it, you can take it home for supper."

Gu Xuzhou's eyes lit up, he cast aside his troubles in an instant, and continued to drag Cen Shuo to go shopping for snacks.

The two ate while walking, almost eating from one end to the other.

After walking out of the snack street, Gu Xuzhou patted his round stomach and burped.

The sound was too loud, and Gu Xuzhou couldn't help but get red ears.

He took a sneak peek and saw the corner of Cen Shuo's mouth slightly raised.

Gu Xuzhou's ears became even redder, and he said embarrassedly: "I didn't hiccup on purpose, I couldn't control it."

Cen Shuo nodded cooperatively: "I know you didn't mean it."

Gu Xuzhou's ears turned red, and he wiped his neck, "Don't tell me, or I will..."

Cen Shuo asked, "Otherwise what are you?"

Gu Xuzhou got stuck, and stammered: "Otherwise I'll just..."

He thought for a long time, but he never thought of what he could threaten Cen Shuo.

Cen Shuo seemed to see the rabbit ears on Gu Xuzhou's head, and they drooped in frustration.

Cen Shuo hooked his lips.

This smile was captured by Gu Xuzhou again, and he became angry from embarrassment: "You are still laughing at me!"

Cen Shuo shook his head and said, "My laugh is not a mockery."

It's because you are so cute.

Seeing that Gu Xuzhou was about to explode, Cen Shuo comforted him: "Don't worry, I won't say anything."

Gu Xuzhou looked at Cen Shuo suspiciously and asked, "Really?"

Cen Shuo asked back, "What do you think?"

Gu Xuzhou thought about it, and with Cen Shuo's character, he would definitely do what he promised.

He breathed a sigh of relief.

Cen Shuo looked at his watch and said, "Let's hurry up, we will soon miss the last train."

Only then did Gu Xuzhou remember the last train, and he ran wildly while pulling Cen Shuo.

Cen Shuo was stunned for a moment, and looked down at the pair of bony, fair-skinned hands that were tightly clutching his wrist.

The place where it touched was itchy, as if an electric current passed through it, and the itchiness spread to his heart along the skin, like a kitten's paw scratching him.

Gu Xuzhou didn't notice that something was wrong with Cen Shuo, and he dragged Cen Shuo to the bus stop. Before he could let his breath go, he saw the bus driving towards them.

After sitting in the seat, Gu Xuzhou's heart was completely in his stomach.

Gu Xuzhou turned his head and asked Cen Shuo, "How do we get in? Is it still the best?"

Cen Shuo nodded.

Gu Xuzhou thought of the height of the inner wall and became dizzy.

Although climbing a dog hole is a bit unseemly, it is not so unacceptable compared to climbing a wall

But he was embarrassed to tell Cen Shuo that he wanted to climb the dog hole

The two groped to the wall in the dark.

Cen Shuo said to Gu Xuzhou, "I'll go up first, and then I'll pull you up."

Gu Xuzhou hesitated for a moment, and said, "Would it be too much effort if you are the only one pulling me up?"

As soon as he finished speaking, he saw a person walking from a distance.

It was the boy who had sex with them this morning.

Seeing their eyes light up, the boy said, "What a coincidence, we meet again."

Gu Xuzhou also greeted him with a smile.

The boy looked at their postures and said hesitantly, "No way, do you still want to fuck?"

Gu Xuzhou hesitated for a moment, but did not speak.

The boy and Gu Xuzhou looked at each other silently for a few seconds, and said, "Actually, I want to dig into a dog's hole."

Gu Xuzhou was silent for a few seconds, and said, "I want to drill too."

The two reached a consensus, turned their heads and looked at Cen Shuo with piercing eyes.

Cen Shuo looked at the high wall and said softly, "I didn't see anything."

Gu Xuzhou and the boys were relieved.

Gu Xuzhou said to Cen Shuo: "Turn around first, and turn around when we get in."

Cen Shuo turned around.

Gu Xuzhou patted the boy on the shoulder and said, "You come first."

The boy was not polite either, he squatted down and got in after finding a place.

Gu Xuzhou followed behind him and got in.

Gu Xuzhou stood up and patted the dirt on his body, then turned to Cen Shuo on the other side of the wall and said, "You can come in now."

The boy looked at the dog hole and said, "Drilling a dog hole seems a bit shameful."

Gu Xuzhou was silent for a second, then said, "But it's comfortable."

The two looked at each other, and a revolutionary friendship developed inexplicably.

After that, the three of them went to the dormitory together.

The boy has a cheerful personality, and chatted with them automatically, "How are you playing today?"

Gu Xuzhou asked, "Where did you go to play today?"

The boy said, "I went to the Internet cafe for a day today."

Gu Xuzhou asked, "Playing games?"

The boy nodded, "Today is the time for our gang to duel, and I must not be absent."

"So did you win in the end?

"With me here, I must have won!" The boy patted his chest, "I'm not bragging for you, I'm super good at playing games."

Gu Xuzhou laughed.

The boy said again: "Today we are very lucky, we slipped out without being spotted by the security guards."

As soon as he finished speaking, he heard someone calling them from behind.

"The boy in front wait a minute."

The boy and Gu Xuzhou looked at each other, then turned around with a horrified expression, and saw that the person calling him was a security guard.

Both of their hearts beat faster.

The security uncle was still approaching them constantly.

I don't know who started it first, the boy and Gu Xuzhou raced towards the dormitory, faster than a rabbit.

The security guard was dumbfounded and asked, "What are you running for?"

He chased forward a few steps, who knew that the two boys ran faster and disappeared in a blink of an eye.

Cen Shuo: "..."

Uncle Security put his hips on his hips and asked wonderingly, "What are they running for?"

Cen Shuo paused and said, "They are in a hurry to go back to the bathroom."

The security guard nodded and said, "That must be because I was in a hurry, otherwise how could I run so fast!"

Cen Shuo asked, "Who were you calling just now?"

The security guard said, "My name is the boy on the far left."

The boy on the far left is the one who sneaked out with them.

Cen Shuo asked again: "Then what did you ask him to do?"

The security guard said: "His shoelaces are untied, I am afraid that he will trip himself, and I want to remind him to tie his shoelaces."

After finishing speaking, the security guard looked at the direction they were running away, and said worriedly: "He won't run and trip himself?"

Cen Shuo was silent.

It just depends on his luck.

The author has something to say: self-blame should be short, but remember it for a long time, using the lines in "When You Are Sleeping": "Self-blame should be short, but it should be remembered for a long time."