gentlemen!Please don't call me Douding

In the afternoon of summer, the bustle and bustle are quietly dreaming, the sun is burning hot and scorching the earth, and the broken light and shadows fall from the gaps between the thick leaves, and then printed on the curtains of the sky blue ward.

Shao Yao pushed the door lightly and entered, Shao Zi nodded at him, and walked out knowingly.

Turning up the temperature of the air conditioner, Shao Yao bent down and covered the person on the bed with a thin quilt, reached out and touched his forehead lightly, and he was relieved only when he didn't feel the temperature was different from ordinary people.

Ding Dou felt the touch of his forehead, his heart felt sore, he slowly opened his eyes, and asked in a hoarse voice, "Shaoyao, why are you avoiding me?"

Just as Shao Yao turned around, he didn't expect that the person on the bed was not asleep. He walked over with a frown and said in a low voice, "Go to sleep."

Ding Dou braced his body and tried to sit up, stretched out his clenched hands from under the quilt, and spread out his palms, on which lay a handful of pills of different colors, "I'm afraid I'll fall asleep again after taking the medicine. I don’t know which one is the sleeping pill, so I have no choice but to take none of them, I want to wait for you and ask why you are avoiding me.”

Shao Yao reprimanded in a low voice, "Don't mess around." He took the cup and poured water on him, "The wound will hurt, take the medicine."

Ding Dou bowed his head and pursed his lips sadly, "Shaoyao, you didn't deny my problem, you were avoiding me. Can you tell me the reason?"

He has never been so uncomfortable, so scared, he is afraid that he has done something wrong, making Shao Yao bored with himself, but he cooks for himself, and stays with him when he falls asleep, why is that? ?

Ding Dou didn't want to bear it anymore, his heart hurt more than the wound, he desperately thought about what was wrong with him, why Shao Yao didn't want to talk to him anymore.

No matter how painful or uncomfortable his wound was, he didn't dare to say it, he was afraid that if he said it, Shao Yao wouldn't care anymore, he didn't even see himself, he didn't want to talk to him, and he couldn't kiss him anymore.

He couldn't see, didn't know exactly what was going on, and his heart was racing, trying desperately to understand why.

Ding Dou suppressed his emotions and waited for Shao Yao's answer.

Shao Yao slightly misplaced his head, looked at the bright sunshine outside the window, and said softly, "Ding Dou, if you were given another chance, would you still choose to hurt yourself, would you still choose to do this?"

Shao Yao wanted to know the answer, and if he wanted to know, would he still choose to be willing to be a hostage, willing to let himself be shot and injured in order to protect him.

Ding Dou was startled, "Yes."

"What about the promise you made to me that you wouldn't hurt yourself? Have you ever thought about how much you hurt me by doing that?"

Shao Yao frowned, his eyes were full of pain.This is the reason why he wants to be quiet by himself, he is afraid of seeing Ding Dou on the hospital bed, afraid of seeing his painful expression, every time he sees it, he will hate himself so much, hate himself for being helpless.

Have you ever thought about it, knowing that I will be in such pain, you still choose to hurt yourself, regardless of it.

Why don't you believe in me, believe that I can save you, believe that I will make you safe, don't you even believe in me, willing to let yourself hurt and make him suffer.

Do you know what it feels like when the sky is falling, the feeling that life is worse than death, the feeling of being in a daze, and the feeling that you can't help but look at him with a high fever, unconscious and bleeding.

Why give you another choice, you would rather let him go through this than hurt yourself.

Shao Yao said, "I've been thinking, if you are obedient, if I send you home that day, nothing will happen, and I won't have to be here to watch you even need a device to breathe, see I dare not move because of your pain."

"Shao Yao, I—"

"Ding Dou, why don't you believe me every time? Why are you willing to get hurt and don't believe me? You promised not to get hurt, and you promised me to take care of you and protect you, but why did you I still make my own decisions..."

Ding Dou gritted his teeth to hold back his emotions, "I don't believe you, but I can't let you do everything for me, Shaoyao, I'm also a man, I have the right to choose what I want to do."

He just wanted Shao Yao not to be threatened by others, he just wanted to protect his family and not make Shao Yao sad, he just wanted to protect Shao Yao's dignity from being humiliated by anyone, even if Shao Yao didn't care, he wouldn't allow it.

He can't see, he's blind, he can only do what he can, so even if the kidnapping happens again, he still won't regret his choice, protect Shao Yao's family and maintain Shao Yao's dignity.

Shaoyao is a man, he can't kneel to anyone, even for him, he can't bear to let him be insulted, he can't accept Shaoyao being threatened, so he is willing to be shot again, even if he dies , he can't let anyone look down on Shao Yao.

Shao Yao's calm eyes suddenly burst into a gust of wind, igniting a raging fire of pain, he asked in a low voice, too much mental and physical exhaustion was mixed in his voice, and he could no longer comprehend and let go.

"Ding Dou, as long as you promise me, no matter what happens again, you will choose to protect yourself as soon as possible. Promise me, don't let me see you get hurt a little, as long as you promise me."

Does he know how many wounds he has on his body, there are gunshot wounds in the abdomen, flesh on the wrists, scratches on the back, scratches on the legs, there are far more than Shao Yao himself.

Does he know how uncomfortable it is every time he looks at him even if it hurts.

Does he know that he promised to protect him and take care of him, but he still has to watch his feelings when he is sick, injured, and life is uncertain.

The feeling that life is worse than death, that the sky is falling, Shao Yao can't experience the second time, and can't accept the second time because of Ding Dou.

He wanted him to promise him, to promise him that no matter what happened, he would choose to protect himself immediately, only this one promise, only this one promise.

Ding Dou listened to Shao Yao's words in a daze, his eyes were covered with a layer of hazy gauze, trembling like the wings of cicadas, "I can't promise you."

As long as he can do it, even if he gets hurt, he will definitely choose to protect others, even if that person is a stranger, he will choose to lend a helping hand, let alone Shao Yao, Shao Yao's father, everyone around Shao Yao one person!

So he can't promise him.

Shao Yao lowered his head, his hands trembled faintly, his brows were tinged with unspeakable loneliness, his voice was hoarse, "Ding Dou, you are too selfish."

Be willing to let him accept the bloody fact that he will be hurt.

Shao Yao wanted to arrange everything for him, and wanted him to be obedient and avoid all dangers. He couldn't control life and death, so he could only do his best to protect him.

But he couldn't even get a single promise from him...

You are so selfish.

Ding Dou suddenly opened his blind eyes, the mist in his eyes trembled, he couldn't believe it, he growled, "Shaoyao, who is the selfish person?! I am also a man, and I will also want to protect the one I love Man, I'm not your prisoner, I can't keep you in a cage and never touch society! I can't see, as long as I get out, I will never be able to avoid harm!"

"I would rather imprison you, so that you can always touch me in prison, and there will be no one else!"

"You—!" The gunshot wound on Ding Douqi's abdomen throbbed faintly, he pressed the place where the gauze was bandaged, and his clear and shallow eyes showed sullen anger, "Shao Yao, I have my life, and I also have my choice , why do you interfere with my decision, why do you have to let me accept all your arrangements?!"

Shao Yao's chest was on fire, and there was a trace of ferocity between Ling Lie's brows, "Because you can't see it! Just because you can't fucking see it!"

If it wasn't for you not being able to see, how could he take care of you and guard you carefully, lest you get even the slightest harm!

Ding Dou's pupils suddenly dilated, tears fell down his thin cheeks instantly, and dripped onto the white quilt, his lips trembled, unable to believe what Shao Yao said.

Ding Dou closed his eyes and let the tears flow out and slide down from the corners of his eyes. He lowered his head and raised the corners of his lips with difficulty, "Yeah, I can't see, I'm blind. Did you know this fact now! I can’t see anything, I don’t even know what I am, I’m blind, I can’t change it!!”

Ding Dou opened his eyes, which were clear and misty, but without focus.

"Shao Yao, let's break up"

This sentence made the two of them feel heartbroken. Shao Yao's body shook suddenly, and he was speechless. He could only feel the huge stormy waves rolling from the bottom of his heart. He couldn't believe what he said, and couldn't hear what Ding Dou said.

Shao Yao, do you regard me as a lover?

Don't lovers go through wind and rain and face danger together, shouldn't they share happiness and suffering together, shouldn't they support each other in difficulties.

Shao Yao, I am willing, why don't you?

Ding Dou cried, the tears couldn't stop running across his face and the corners of his lips, bitter and unbearable.

From now on, it was the first time he really shed tears in front of him, because of Shao Yao's estrangement, because of Shao Yao's words, and because he wanted to break up with him, so tears fell like rain.

Looking at his tears, Shao Yao felt distressed for a moment.

He reached out to hold him in his arms, trying to wipe away his tears.

The door of the ward creaked slightly.

The old man appeared at the door holding a cane. I don't know how long he has been there.

He walked in slowly, pushed away Zhang's mother's supporting hand, walked slowly in front of Shao Yao, looked up at him, turned and sat on the chair beside the hospital bed, paused for a while, and then said softly, "Since you broke up , then I will announce my decision."

Ding Dou started slightly wrong, not daring to direct his tears in the direction of the voice, not wanting the old man to see him cry.

Shao Yao turned a deaf ear to the old man's words, stared at Ding Dou blankly, full of distress.

"Shaoyao, I plan to adopt a godson. From now on, treat him well. He is your real brother." The old man turned his head and asked Ding Dou, "Xiao Douding, do you plan to be the old man's son, or do you want to continue to be a son?" Where is the daughter-in-law?"

Ding Dou couldn't recover for a while because of what happened just now, the wound on his abdomen was throbbing and hurting all the time, he couldn't help trembling slightly because of the pain.

Unable to bear it any longer, Shao Yao strode over to hug him, pressed Ding Dou's shoulders gently and yet vigorously into his arms, stroked his back lightly, and pressed his head on his shoulders.

At this moment, when he was holding someone in his arms, Shao Yao felt the great joy of regaining what was lost, and only then did he feel how much damage he would bring to Ding Dou after arguing with him.

Shao Yao whispered in his ear, "Don't cry, don't cry, my heart hurts."

Ding Dou sobbed silently, biting his lips and throat to choke.

Shao Yao pushed away slightly, kissed Ding Dou's eyes, and kissed his tears, "I was wrong, I'm sorry, I won't say it again, you can do whatever you want, it was my mistake, I shouldn't force you Yours, I'm sorry, forgive me, okay..."

How can I forget the reason why I fell in love with him in the first place.

He staggered and stopped the drunk driver at the hospital, bruising himself on the ground.

He took care of grandma in front of the bed and dared not sleep all night.

Since when did you fall in love with him?

Seeing him being injured and worrying about whether the bad guy ran away, seeing him standing alone waiting for the bus on a snowy night, seeing him having a high fever and drunk but still worrying about not letting grandma worry...

There were so many reasons for falling in love with him at the beginning, each of which was why he loved him, how could he bear to imprison him in a cage so that he really could not touch this dangerous but prosperous and beautiful world.

Ding Dou sniffled softly, raised his arms to hug Shao Yao, and said hoarsely, "Okay."

He forgave him.

He didn't want to be angry with him, didn't want to be separated from Shao Yao, and didn't want to make Shao Yao uncomfortable.

Stronger than heartbreak is his love for Shao Yao, only these, only such a simple reason.

He was also at fault, knowing that Shao Yao was afraid of getting sick and getting hurt, but still stubbornly wanted to hurt Shao Yao's heart.

Knowing that everything he did was for his own good, he insisted that Shao Yao was selfish and stubborn.

Obviously they are all wrong, but no one is willing to bow their heads first. How many lovers are separated because of this, Shaoyao doesn't know, but he is sure that when he sees Ding Dou's tears, he regrets it. Regret should not yell at him, should not Arguing with him shouldn't make him angry.

Shao Yao lowered his head and kissed him, even though it was just a gentle touch, it was already able to comfort the other party.

The wound on Ding Dou's abdomen hurts badly, but he doesn't want to interrupt Shao Yao's kiss, he just wants to hold him like this, absorb his scent, and grab his cuff to prevent him from leaving.

Mr. Shao glanced sideways at the two of them, and coughed dryly, "Hey, stop quarreling?"

"Then Xiaoding, please answer my question quickly. Do you plan to be my son or my daughter-in-law? I'll do whatever you want."

Ding Dou grabbed Shaoyao's arm, blushing, touched Shaoyao's warm skin, slid his hand a few times unconsciously, and whispered embarrassedly, "You keep your word. I want to be... a son-in-law."

puff--!

The old man, "...!!!"

He didn't understand what son-in-law meant!

Shao Yao laid him flat on the bed, Ding Dou took Shao Yao's hand, "Don't go."

"Well, I'll ask the nurse to make another medicine for you." Shao Yao pressed the button on the bedside, and he sat on the bedside and patted Ding Dou's shoulder to coax him to close his eyes and rest, waiting for the nurse to come.

The old man recovered from the shock of his son-in-law. He originally wanted to take advantage of it, but he didn't expect that Ding Dou would take advantage of him. Said, "Okay, I'll marry him to you!"