gentlemen!Please don't call me Douding

On the second day of the Lunar New Year, Ding Dou lay on the hospital bed and woke up feeling very sore and stiff, because he was uncomfortable in the posture he had maintained all night.

The cold wind blew in from the open door, Ding Dou rubbed his sore arms, groped, followed the coolness to close the door.

"Xiao Ding, wake up. Grandma asks the nurse to come and dispense medicine. It's seven o'clock." Grandma Ding saw that Ding Dou woke up, and said with a smile. She is getting old and less sleepy, and she is even more anxious after staying in the hospital for three or four days. want to go home.

Ding Dou rubbed his eyes. He had been sleeping for several days. He was very tired. He groped to open the blind rod and put on his coat. One advantage of the hospital ward was that there was heating, so he didn’t have to worry about the electricity bill.

"I'm going out to buy food, what are you eating?"

"Soy milk flatbread is fine, don't run too far, the snow hasn't melted yet, it's cold and slippery outside."

Ding Dou agreed, went out, and washed his face in the toilet. The cold water in the pipe made him wake up a lot. He sneezed and muttered, feeling like he had a cold.

As soon as Ding Dou left, his aunt brought Shi Taotao into the ward on the back. She even knew to take a carton of milk, so she had some conscience.

"Auntie, why did you go to the hospital for the Chinese New Year? You didn't tell us. I went to your house to hear what the neighbors said. Well, this milk will nourish your body. The doctor said there is nothing wrong."

After staying in the ward for a long time, and meeting relatives, Grandma Ding also felt very lively, "It's nothing, just fell down, it will be fine in two days, don't bother you."

Shi Taotao pulled his fucking clothes and said, "I want to drink milk."

"Open it and drink, when will Taotao go to school?" Grandma Ding said.

His aunt opened the milk, took a box for her child, took the apples on the table, and said while peeling, "School will start after the [-]th. If you have something to do, call us in the future. It's not convenient for Xiaoding. We will do it." .”

Grandma Ding shook her head and asked, "Auntie, just say what you have to say."

His aunt held Shi Taotao in her arms to prevent him from groping, and said with a smile, "Didn't I talk about going out to work two days ago? Your Xiaoding also disagrees with you going to my house. I figured it was right at the door." Open a small shop, guarding his father and Taotao, it is also close, no need to go out."

"Okay, his aunt, then what do you mean by coming?"

His aunt glanced outside the ward, rubbed her hands hesitantly, "The next store under the offer costs 20 yuan, you know, auntie, our family can't afford that much, and the money for his father's leg has long been spent. I have collected enough 15, Auntie, if Xiaoding can lend it to me, it will be enough."

Speaking of borrowing money, who knows if the money will be repaid in his aunt's hands? Grandma Ding knows that Uncle Xiao Ding's leg is owed by their family, but she has paid it off a long time ago, and she doesn't owe anyone else. .

Grandma Ding refused, "Xiao Ding earned all his money, and the family has not paid back the money owed to others, so there is nothing more to come out."

"Auntie, my sister and my brother-in-law's compensation is tens of thousands, you can persuade Xiaoding to use it—"

Ding Dou pushed the door open and walked into the ward. He heard Shi Taotao calling from outside. Hearing his aunt's words, Ding Dou became very angry. No matter how much money he had, he never thought of using the money left by his parents. In this life, his parents only left him with this.

"Auntie, I don't have any money. My family's debts have not been paid off, let alone lent to you." Ding Dou handed the breakfast to grandma, and stood at the end of the bed, saying indifferently.

His aunt's face also pulled down, "Xiao Ding, let your grandma take care of Taotao for a few days, you don't want to, let you borrow some money, you still don't want to, my aunt is nothing in your heart, you Whose fault is it that your uncle is disabled? Have I ever blamed your family?"

Shi Taotao burst into tears suddenly, ran over to Da Dingdou, crying and shouting, "Give me back my father's leg, you are a bad person, your family is all bad people, you should all die"

His aunt walked over and hugged Shi Taotao and squatted on the ground crying, crying loudly, her life was miserable, if such a thing happened, God would not give her a way out.

She is dead, no one cares about her, and she has no conscience. This is to force her to death.

Ding Dou closed his eyes, did God give him a way out? He leaned on the bed rail, and for some reason, he was suddenly glad that he couldn't see, couldn't see this face similar to his mother's saying fate was unfair at his feet.

These nine years have passed, and there is still nothing to make life difficult.

He and grandma live in a dark and damp house, who cares?When it rains, the sky is overcast, grandma's knees are rheumatic, and the stairs can't even go down, and she can't cook, and she dares not tell him, who cares about starving for a whole day?

He was blind, stumbled in the dark, didn't dare to shed a tear in front of his grandma, fell down on the road, and stood up by himself in embarrassment, did he complain?

On the anniversary of his parents' death, he was heartbroken in front of the tombstone, holding photos of his parents but could no longer see their faces, carrying a debt of 10,000+ on his body, he dared not cry if he wanted to, because he was afraid that he would not be able to think about it and live down.

How many times have you washed the clothes you are wearing, but you have never bought new ones?

When he was sick, he never dared to go to the hospital, because he was afraid of spending that little money, how would he feel better?

Grandma was picking up bottles outside, shuttling in the traffic, and dared not tell him without telling him, for fear that he would worry, did anyone care about the two of them?

Grandma Ding covered her heart, feeling extremely uncomfortable. If God opened his eyes, no one would embarrass his grandson.Grandma Ding was gasping for breath, her heart was cramping, her body was twitching, and she was speechless for a long time.

When his aunt saw Grandma Ding's state when she was crying, she cried out in fright. The nurse rushed over and sent Grandma Ding to the emergency room.

Ding Dou stood outside the emergency room, leaning against the wall, unable to calm his mind for a while, feeling oppressed and painful in his chest. The doctor has already said that the elderly have coronary heart disease. The most important thing is to avoid mood swings and mood swings. If it is serious, it will cause heart failure. Shock, sudden death, just thinking about these, Ding Dou is covered in cold sweat and his face turns pale.

Shi Taotao hid in his mother's arms in fright, and the women didn't dare to speak anymore, because they were afraid that something would happen to the old man, and Ding Dou would go to their house to make trouble and lose money.

Ding Dou clenched his fists tightly, suppressed himself hard, took a few deep breaths, and called out to his aunt, "You better hope that my grandma is fine, and when she comes out, I will lend you whatever you want, if—— ".

Ding Dou took a deep breath, the cold air entered his lungs, and he trembled slightly from the pain, "If it is, you will never appear in front of me, otherwise I will kill you, and I only have my milk, aunt, if you feel sorry for you Sister's child, please let me go."

His aunt nodded fiercely, "Ding, Auntie is really not embarrassing you, I will never bother you again after I have borrowed enough money."

Ding Dou stood at the door for a long time, motionless, until the door of the emergency room opened.

"Doctor, how is my milk? It's all right, is it all right?"

The doctor nodded, seeing that Ding Dou couldn't see, and said, "The patient is fine, it's precordial discomfort, palpitations and fatigue, typical chest pain induced by emotional agitation and physical activity, night sweats and vomiting when sleeping, and gastrointestinal discomfort. These juniors should be careful not to let the old people have emotional fluctuations, and they should be in peace."

Ding Dou hurriedly said, "I'm sorry, doctor, I'm sorry, how is my grandma doing now, do I need to stay in the hospital for a few more days, and what medicine do I need to take?"

"Now the patient's palpitations have eased, and he is asleep now. When he gets to the office to get the prescription, he can stay for a few more days and observe the electrocardiogram. The patient should keep warm, keep clean and hygienic, and the environment should be quiet."

"Okay, I'm going to get the medicine, here we go."

Ding Dou staggered a little while holding the guide stick. He stood for a long time, frightened and frightened. In addition to the bruises on his body yesterday, he couldn't walk steadily. Ding Dou silently prayed in his heart that there would be no more accidents with his grandma.

Originally, I didn’t plan to stay in the hospital for a few days, but now I’m afraid it will take a long time. Ding Dou’s money is almost spent, and the money and clothes are left at home. Ding Dou sat beside Grandma Ding’s bed for almost a day until almost four in the afternoon. At midnight, Grandma Ding finally woke up.

The nurse on duty brought hot water to Ding Dou. There was only one person in front of the patient's bed, sitting alone, unable to see anything, and did not dare to move around, for fear of missing the sound of waking up.

"Thank you." Ding Dou held the hot water in his hands, and there was darkness in front of his eyes. The darkness that he could not do anything to break enveloped him deeply like a curse, with no end in sight.

He didn't eat all day, and he didn't feel hungry, so he just sat obediently in front of the hospital bed, listening to the nurse's check and confirmation.

When Grandma Ding woke up, seeing Ding Dou, her heart ached, she couldn't speak for a long time, she endured it for a long time, and called out, "Xiao Ding—"

Ding Dou hurried over, "Grandma, you wake up, just wake up, do you want to eat something, this is water, please drink some milk first, it's cold, is the quilt covered?"

"It makes you worry, grandma is fine, it's fine, grandma still depends on Xiao Ding marrying a wife." Grandma Ding reached out to touch her grandson, but she didn't have the strength. When she woke up, she saw her little grandson Sitting alone, with his eyes open, but his eyes are full of blankness, his face is pale and bloodless, and he is sitting thinly on the edge of the hospital bed cautiously.

With the help of the nurse, Ding Dou fetched water for Grandma Ding to wash her hands and face. The nurses in the hospital saw that it was inconvenient for him, so they bought dinner for them. Go home, get something, you go to bed first, call the nurse if you need anything, I'll be right back."

After a few words of exhortations, Grandma Ding fell asleep peacefully.

At seven o'clock in the evening, it was already dark, and there were not many people on the road during the New Year's Eve, and it was difficult to hail a taxi. Ding Dou walked for a long time with a blind stick, but he could not see, so he could only distinguish the vehicles by the sound Not much, I plan to try it at the intersection.

He held out his hand, waiting for the taxi to pull up in front of him, a gesture the driver could recognize.

Sometimes good-hearted people stop by and ask him if he needs help.

Ding Dou was thinking about how much money he had left, plus the hospitalization expenses and the loan to his aunt, after paying off what he owed others this year, the family would hardly have much savings.

In winter nights, with snow on the ground and a biting cold wind blowing, Ding Dou hid under his black down jacket and was still shivering from the cold, his hand holding the blind stick was red from the cold.

A car stopped in front of him, before Ding Dou could speak, he heard a deep and mellow voice, "Get in the car."

Ding Dou was taken aback for a moment, and someone grabbed his wrist and pulled him into the car.