From Shadowguard to Queen [Transmigration Book]

26

After Xiao Weixin found out about his abnormality, he had been reluctant to call You Shu for the past two days. He felt that his current situation was not right, but there was no one around him who could discuss this kind of concern, whether it was Xiao Weiming or Xiao Weiming. Weijing is unreliable, and no one can solve his doubts.

And the spring hunt was about to start, so he gradually turned his attention away from this matter.Yusheng heard the news from the palace that Xiao Weishen attaches great importance to the spring hunt once every three years, and even the Empress Dowager Xia will go there, and there will be almost no imperial guards in the palace.

Xiao Weixin sat in the study and thought about it for several days, this seemed like a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, as long as Xiao Weishen was killed on the spot in the hunting ground, it would be a one-time death.But his intuition has always been accurate, but he felt that this matter was very risky. People like Xiao Weishen were suspicious and arrogant, and he didn't believe that such a good opportunity would be left to someone who cared.

Moreover, Shen Qingyu didn't quite agree to do it at this time, even if Xiao Weishen died, Prime Minister Xia's old fox was still alive, he could still monopolize the power and have a puppet in power, the most urgent thing is to have military power in hand.This spring hunting is a good opportunity, maybe we can have further contact with Yang Qixian.

So Xiao Weixin simply gave up this plan.

He put down the pen in his hand and got up to stretch his muscles. Just as he wanted to have someone call You Shu to practice with him out of habit, he suddenly pressed back forcefully.

As the night deepened, Xiao Weixin lay on the bed and suddenly couldn't fall asleep. His mind was filled with inexplicable expressions of the little shadow guards on the training ground of the Shadow Guards Camp that day. God didn't see him.

Occasionally, he would pretend to be calm and ask Xie Feiyuan what he was doing, and what he got was that he normally participated in training or went on missions, and there was nothing wrong with it. Xiao Weixin was puzzled by his contradictory behavior.

He admitted that he wanted so badly to drag the man into bed, to see him smile that way to himself, that he sometimes even made that choice in his dreams.

This kind of thing is easy to do. If he is more ruthless, in his capacity, it is not difficult for a shadow guard to warm his bed.Even if the little shadow guard disagreed, wouldn't he take it by force?There are many ways to break a man's wings, and he could do it.

But Xiao Weixin couldn't make such a decision for a long time.

The little shadow guard's legs are very beautiful. Whenever he stands alone on the roof with his sword in his arms and looks up at the sky, he is very eye-catching.His eyes are also very beautiful, always clear and soft, and he likes to see the tenderness occasionally revealed in those eyes.

He also likes when the little shadow guard shows his loyalty to him, because then he will always have the illusion that that person regards himself as his only belief, and he will never betray himself.

Xiao Weixin never cared about other people's thoughts, and sometimes he couldn't maintain a good temper even with Xiao Weiming, but he really couldn't be cruel to You Shu.

As a prince, he fell in love with a shadow guard but didn't dare to sleep with him. No one would believe such a thing.

Xiao Weixin sighed deeply, pulled off the quilt and closed his eyes to sleep, forcing himself not to think about those things.

He is probably the most useless prince in the world.

At the same time, he wasn't the only one who couldn't sleep.

You Shu found that Xiao Weixin didn't seem to find him to practice with him very much recently, and he didn't call him down to talk from time to time when he was on duty. In the previous cold master-servant mode.

But he couldn't figure it out, obviously two days ago Xiao Weixin came to the Shadow Guard Camp specially to watch their ring, it just happened for no reason, You Shu couldn't figure out the reason.

He carefully recalled his performance for a while, but he still didn't think about what he had done.

Maybe he has been so proud of being favored recently, thinking that the hero has really brought the relationship closer to him by being kind to him for two days, but now he is just back to the original point.Thinking of this, You Shu felt a little lost, and warned himself that this kind of mentality is not advisable.

Sure enough, people can't be proud. Once proud, it is easy to overturn, and the slap in the face comes so fast, and it hurts.

You Shu seriously reflected on himself. He felt that he must be too impetuous to be eager for quick success. He must not have this kind of mentality, and he must be more cautious in the future.There must be a reason why Xiao Weixin suddenly ignored him, so he had to be better.

You Shu lay on the bed as usual, the moonlight shone on the window, through the thin layer of paper, it seemed that there was still some dim light.Normally at this time, he should be going to bed on time, and it has been the same for so many years, but after lying down today, he couldn't fall asleep for a long time, and he couldn't feel at ease after tossing and turning.

why……

You Shu sat up from the bed depressed, his hair was scratched like a chicken coop, he simply sat on the head of the bed and stared at the mottled moon shadow on the window in a daze, for some reason he suddenly remembered something from a long time ago.

For so many years, You Shu has maintained a relatively stable state of mind to live, because he can live well in this era only if his mood is calm.

Try not to let your emotions fluctuate, try not to think about unpleasant things, even if you have troubles, you will quickly digest them, and try to maintain an optimistic and positive attitude. The idea is a bit unrealistic, but if you are not optimistic, life in the Shadow Guard Camp will be difficult.

Because those years were really bitter, too bitter.

I still remember that when he first came here more than ten years ago, he was just a freshman. It was the time when he was full of curiosity about the outside world. He thought that leaving home would fly into another new world and start a new life. , Who knows that what follows is indeed the beginning of a nightmare.

Not everyone has such a strong psychological condition to accept this kind of fantasy thing, especially You Shu himself has a very happy family, and suddenly travels to a strange era, the fear and helplessness are not ordinary people able to bear.And at that time, his physical age after crossing was only five years old. He was just a little beggar on the side of the road who was about to starve to death.

If Xie Feiyuan hadn't happened to pick him up, perhaps he would have been frozen to death on the street long ago.But the life after being brought back to the Shadow Guard Camp is not much better, because this is a place dedicated to cultivating dead soldiers, once you come in, you don't even think about going out.

The years of training can be described as dark. More than 100 children were gathered together for training. Those who were weak in body and mental quality were almost unable to get out of the darkroom alive.Every day when they open their eyes, they have to deal with blood and knives. In addition to cruel training, they have to learn other things.Starting from killing rabbits, gradually to killing people, through various tough methods, they are gradually turned into ruthless killing machines.

You Shu used to be a person who liked to laugh very much. His classmates said that he has eyes that can smile, and when he smiles, he is very contagious and makes people around him feel happy.But a person like him is obviously not suitable to survive in the Shadow Guard Camp, because there is no need for people with feelings here.

He can laugh, but the smile cannot reach his eyes, he is not allowed to have his own emotions, and he is not allowed to admit that he is a human being.

Sounds cruel doesn't it?But this is the survival rule of this profession, like a vortex, if you step in, you can't get out.

You Shu still remembers the first time he was on a mission to kill someone.Can't remember clearly, it seems like a wicked butcher, Xie Feiyuan used him to train them, this is their first step forward.

You Shu drew his sword without changing his face at that time, and seemed to have completed the task steadily. He was No.1 in the group at that time.But when he came back, he vomited in the room for a long time and washed his hands in cold water constantly.

Killing a rabbit seems to be the same as killing someone, but the impact of killing is greater. Even if that person is a gangster full of crimes, he is still a real person.No one can remain calm after the first murder, even the always steady Ying Er can't do it.

You Shu chose to adapt to the environment a long time ago and hid his emotions perfectly. He disguised himself as ruthless as all the shadow guards.They can play together, laugh and eat melon seeds, and their relationship is really good, but they both know that each other is not irreplaceable.

For example, the current Shadow Ten was not Shadow Ten at first, he just replaced him later, because the previous Shadow Ten unfortunately had an accident when performing a mission, and committed suicide in order not to cause trouble to other brothers, so the present Shadow Ten.

Although the current Yingshi is also very good, You Shu occasionally thinks of the original person.They had also been on missions together, and had a drink with each other under the moon, but after his death, no one in the Shadow Guard Battalion expressed sadness, and no one mentioned him again, as if he didn't exist at all.

Death is a lesson they must learn, and they don't need to have any unnecessary dependence on their partners, because it is unnecessary.

However, once in a while, when they get together, they will mention him inadvertently, and everyone will chat a few words in a calm manner, and they will say, "Oh, he seems to be a person who likes to drink very much.", and then They will talk about other things.

But You Shu could understand the sadness that flashed in their eyes.

Why does You Shu insist on keeping a diary?

Because he didn't want to become a truly ruthless person, life in the Shadow Guard camp could easily wear down people's will, and he was afraid that one day he would forget who he was, that he once had a happy family, and that he He was also a person who stood in the sun and stretched out his hand thinking that he could reach the sun.

He is also afraid that if one day he fails to make it to the end of the plot and fails to follow in the protagonist's footsteps, if he dies early, at least the diary can be kept, and one day someone might discover those secrets.

Then someone will know that he has been here.

You Shu loves this world and loves himself, he doesn't want to give up on himself.

So the male lead's sudden alienation made him very sad.

He thought that he could finally get one step closer to him.

He even had the illusion that they were already friends secretly.

You Shu got up from the bed, turned on the light again and dragged out the diary to write his little things.

'Rain on X month X day in X year'

'I'm not happy at all today. '