God, he's reborn

The acquaintance between Chen Wan and Xie Jian can be traced back to four years ago, when Chen Wan was still a struggling senior high school student.

Xie Jian and Chen Wan are in the same high school, but they are three years older than Chen Wan, and they happen to be the same class teacher as Chen Wan.

In order to encourage the students in the class, the head teacher called his favorite student Xie Jian back to high school and asked him to impart some learning experience to the younger students.

Xie Jian, who has been working in the student union for three years, looks steady and mature, exuding a charming charm in every gesture.

Chen Wan likes men, especially mature and stable men.Hearing Xie Jian eloquently talk about a class, he immediately fell in love with this person.

Of course, according to Chen Wan's temperament, even if he has a crush on Xie Jian, he would not be able to confess it rashly.

What's more, the two met once, and that little favor was not enough to support him to follow Xie Jian.

But it was fate, Chen Wan's parents wanted to find him a tutor, and this tutor happened to be Xie Jian.

At that time, Chen Wan had already forgotten about Xie Jian, but when he opened the door and saw the person standing in the living room, the feeling of heartbeat returned.

Because of the intense study in the third year of high school, Xie Jian only tutored Chen Wan on weekends.During that time, the weekend became Chen Wan's most anticipated day.Every time the doorbell rang, he would open the door quickly.

Xie Jianneng is a good talker, and he and Chen Wan are both teachers and friends.During the break, Xie Jian would chat with Chen Wan, and after a long time together, he would tease him intentionally or unintentionally.

Chen Wan's heart fluttered after being teased, but she wasn't sure if Xie Jian meant that.

Because of distraction, his grades dropped a lot during that time.As his tutor, Xie Jian cared more than him.

During a small chat, Xie Jian asked Chen Wan: "Which university do you want to go to in the future?"

Chen Wan said without even thinking about it: "F is big."

Xie Jian asked, "Why?"

Chen Wan said: "Because f is big." And you are inside.

Chen Wan didn't say the last sentence, and Xie Jian didn't continue to ask.He tilted his head and said with a smile: "Is this good? Let's make an agreement. If you are admitted to F University, I will promise you one request."

Chen Wan asked, "Is it okay to ask for anything?"

Xie Jian stared into Chen Wan's eyes, and said word by word, "Anything is fine."

Chen Wan's heart was pounding, as if it was about to jump out in the next second.For a moment, he almost uttered the secret that had been hidden in his heart for a long time, but fortunately, the sound of Chen's mother coming home and opening the door interrupted him.

"Take your time," Chen Wan thought, "don't worry, take your time. I'll talk about it when I'm admitted to F University!"

In the days that followed, Chen Wan studied even harder.With his grades at that time, it was difficult to take the F major.But driven by that agreement, he insisted on improving his grades a lot in the last two months of the college entrance examination.

I don't know if it was because of the agreement, Xie Jian's attitude towards Chen Wan was also quite ambiguous after that.

He asked for Chen Wan's phone number and used it as an artificial alarm clock to wake Chen Wan up every morning. For more than 60 days, he never missed a single day.

Good night text messages at night are also mandatory, not only that, but he also often sends some funny jokes for Chen Wan to relieve boredom.

During that time, although Chen Wan suffered a lot in her studies, she tasted a lot of sweetness from Xie Jian.

He looked forward to Xie Jian's text messages every day, even if Xie Jian sent old jokes, he still smiled happily.He was immersed in the honey jar Xie Jian gave him, just like a boy in love.

After a long time, Chen Wan discovered that in fact, he and Xie Jian only seemed to be in love for that period of time.When he received the notice from F University and asked Xie Jian to "be together", the two of them became less sweet.

When Chen Wan was a freshman, Xie Jian was a senior.On the day of reporting at the beginning of school, Chen Wan was very happy.Because he is finally in the same school as Xie Jian!

But after being happy for a few days, Chen Wan realized that he was too happy too early.

Xie Jian is already in his senior year. He has to do an internship and find a job, so he doesn't spend much time in school.

At the beginning, he would go back to school two or three times a week to see Chen Wan, but later he reduced it to once a week, or even once every two weeks.

Xie Jian explained to Chen Wan that he was very busy at work, as an intern, he had to learn a lot and had a lot to do.

Although Chen Wan was disappointed, she also expressed her understanding.Love is important, but the future is more important.

In order to enrich himself, he joined the student union, fought for scholarships, and tried to leave as little time as possible for himself to think about Xie Jian.

On New Year's Day, Chen Wan and Xie Jian had a day to go on a date.It's a date, but it's just two people staying together.After all, both of them are men, and they cannot go shopping hand in hand like ordinary couples.

Xie Jian opened a bottle of wine during dinner. He didn't intend to get drunk on purpose, but he drank too much before he knew it.

Xie Jian, who had drunk too much, took Chen Wan's hand and complained to him.

The company is no better than a school, and everyone in the company looks down on him.He obviously graduated from 985 and 211, but in the company, even those who graduated from junior college can shout at him.

He has always been proud of himself, and he has done a great job in both his studies and the work of the student union.

At school, his classmates admired him, and his teachers liked him. Who knew that in society, everyone was targeting him.

Knowing that Xie Jian was under a lot of pressure, Chen Wan didn't stop him, but comforted him with soft words.

Xie Jian hugged Chen Wan and murmured: "Chen Wan, you are the only one who treats me sincerely. In this world, all I need is you."

Chen Wan felt sad when she heard that, and held Xie Jian's hand even harder.

During that winter vacation, Chen Wan found an opportunity to come out to her family.He thought, if he planned to spend the rest of his life with Xie Jian, he would come out of the closet sooner or later.

The consequence of coming out rashly was that Chen Wan was kicked out of the house by his parents, and his source of income was also cut off.

Walking down the street embarrassingly alone with a suitcase, Chen Wan felt happier than ever before.

He's out!In the future, he won't be forced by his parents to start a family and start a business, he can be with the man he likes in a fair and honest way!

Although the parents have not yet fully settled, but slowly, they will agree to it one day!Anyway, at least he took the first step!

Full of expectations, Chen Wan called Xie Jian and told him about coming out.He thought Xie Jian would be ecstatic, but there was a long silence.

"Chen Wan, you are too impulsive." In the end, Xie Jian said these words.

As if a basin of cold water was being poured from the top of her head, Chen Wan's heart trembled from the cold.He thought about Xie Jian's various reactions, but he never expected this kind of reaction.

Chen Wan didn't remember what he said on the phone that day, he just remembered that he was dragging a suitcase, walking alone on the street full of lanterns, not knowing where he was going.

nowhere to go!

Afterwards, Chen Wan realized that he was really reckless when he came out, especially after he lost his source of income.

But the matter has come to this point, it is impossible for him to go home and be subdued.In order to earn living expenses, he had to work various part-time jobs.

Study, part-time job, student union - these three things filled Chen Wan's life so much that he had no time to think about Xie Jian at all.

When Chen Wan reacted, he found that he and Xie Jian hadn't contacted for three days.

The last time Xie Jian came to look for Chen Wan, because Chen Wan had to work part-time, she only had dinner with him and left in a hurry.

Xie Jian was angry, and Chen Wan was ashamed.He took out his mobile phone, intending to call Xie Jian to persuade him.

The phone was connected, but it was a woman's voice.The alarm bells in Chen Wan's heart rang loudly, but Xie Jian's "my colleague" easily set him off.

Chen Wan secretly scolded herself for thinking too much, even if Xie Jian wanted to cheat, it should be a man.

Chen Wan apologized to Xie Jian for what happened a few days ago, then asked him if he had time on the weekend, and said that he would make it up to him.

Chen Wan originally thought that Xie Jian would happily agree, but he hesitated and refused on the grounds that he had to work overtime on weekends.

Afterwards, Chen Wan and Xie Jian met several times, and each time they met Xie Jian, they were evasive, as if they were afraid that others would find out.

At this point, no matter how dull Chen Wan was, she could see that something was wrong.He forced Xie Jian to ask what was going on, even threatened to announce the relationship between the two, and finally pried Xie Jian's mouth open.

- "I'm getting engaged next month."

It was nothing more than a thunderbolt from the blue sky. Chen Wan's mind went blank, but he opened his mouth but made no sound.He was stunned for a while, and finally found his voice: "Engaged, engaged?"

Xie Jian nodded: "Yes."

Chen Wan grabbed Xie Jian's shoulder and asked eagerly, "With whom? Engaged, engaged to what?" He thought absurdly that maybe Xie Jian wanted to be engaged to him.

"With our chairman's daughter."

Xie Jian's words shattered Chen Wan's last sliver of expectation, he put down his hand weakly, and asked with red eyes: "So you are here to break up with me?"

"No, Xiaowan." Xie Jian wanted to hug Chen Wan, but Chen Wan avoided him, "Even if I'm engaged, we can still be together, just like before."

"You want me to be your underground lover?" Chen Wan raised her head and looked directly at Xie Jian.

"No, no, how can you be an underground lover." Xie Jian took Chen Wan's hand and said kindly, "That woman and I are just playing around, the person I really love is you!"

Chen Wan shook off Xie Jian's hand and shouted excitedly: "You love me, so you want me to be a mistress? I'm sorry, I don't need this kind of love!"

He shouted, turned and ran away.He was afraid that if he continued talking, he would not be able to help crying, because it was not worth crying about this kind of thing.

For the next few days, Chen Wan was in a trance.

It is impossible to say that he has completely given up on Xie Jian. No matter how angry or sad he is, he still has a trace of expectation. To spend a lifetime together.

Give yourself three days, he thought.If Xie Jian came to him in these three days, he would forgive him.If Xie Jian didn't look for him in these three days, he would give up his heart again.

However, anticipation can only be anticipation after all.Let alone three days, Xie Jian did not show up within a week.

A week later, Xie Jian finally appeared.He had a beard, bloodshot eyes, and looked tired.

Chen Wan was clearly distressed, but she still asked in a cold tone: "Why are you looking for me?"

Xie Jian looked at Chen Wan with his usual affectionate eyes: "Xiao Wan, do you really not consider my proposal that day?"

As soon as his words came out, Chen Wan's heartache, secret joy, and anticipation disappeared completely, leaving only anger and self-deprecating.

He looked at Xie Jian, not only his voice, but also his eyes were cold: "Xie Jian, get out!"

"Xiao Wan, why are you so stubborn." Chen Wan frowned slightly, and said earnestly, "Even if we get married, it won't affect our relationship."

Chen Wan said coldly: "Get out!"

Xie Jianyou didn't give up, and continued to persuade: "Xiaowan, don't be like this, you will also get married in the future. Do you think that without the cover of marriage, can we really go on forever? You know, this society can't accept us at all. You go to Even our closest parents couldn’t accept us when we came out for the first time.”

Chen Wan didn't say a word, Xie Jian thought he was being persuaded by him, so he said persistently: "I remember you said that your father asked you to change it before you go back. In this way, you can pretend that you have changed it, and then give it to a daughter Friends, get married, have children, and do well, who would suspect that you are gay. Be good, stop making trouble, marriage is good for you and me."

Chen Wan pushed away Xie Jian who was approaching, and snorted coldly: "I'm making trouble? Xie Jian, didn't you make trouble from the beginning to the end? You want to get married, and you want to be a scumbag who cheats on marriage. I won't stop you. But why did you drag me into the water? What 'marriage is good for you and for me', it sounds so high-sounding, but it's just an excuse for your shameless behavior!"

Xie Jian was scolded by Chen Wan for being a "scumbag" and "shameless", and he was a little displeased: "You are still young now, and you don't know the dangers of the society outside. When you enter the society, you will know what I mean Isn't that right?"

Chen Wan said: "Let me tell you, I won't get married. Whether it's before or after I enter the society, no matter how difficult it is for me, I won't ruin the life of an innocent woman for my own selfishness. I won't get married! Not to mention fooling around with married married men!"

When Chen Wan got to this point, Xie Jian had nothing to say.He put away his smiling face and said in a mocking tone: "If this is the case, forget it. I want to see if you can stick to your principles for the rest of your life."

After Xie Jian left, Chen Wan sat alone on the chair for a long time.

His mind is very confused, sometimes he thinks that the love of comrades is not guaranteed, and sometimes he thinks that falling in love will be so tiring.

In the end, he closed his eyes and kept only four words in his mind: forever alone!