a winter fire

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I suspect that if we are now in spring, Zhou Hanzhang will compare me to the first flower in early spring, if it is summer, he will compare me to the first rain in summer, and autumn is probably the first red maple leaf , so in winter I am the snow that falls suddenly.

In this way, I am simply the most precious moment in his four seasons.

I'm a little smug.

"Ms. Zhou, your heartbeat is too fast." I said with a smile, "I was disturbed even through such thick clothes."

I thought he would let me go sorry when he heard my words, and then I would tease him again and tease him.

What I didn't expect was that he didn't. Probably people who drink alcohol will really become brave, just like my head is hot and I always want to do something impulsive, but he finally put down his drink under the catalysis of alcohol. The "Gentleman's Code" has played tricks on me.

Zhou Hanzhang didn't let go of me, didn't speak, just hugged me like that, I suspected he was asleep.

"Don't sleep here, go back." I patted him, "Where are you going?"

This sentence is quite subtle, and I feel a little embarrassed after I finish saying it.

Zhou Hanzhang straightened up and asked me: "Do you have anything to tell me?"

"Merry Christmas," I said, "and..."

Some words were already on my lips, but I still didn't say them. I could only grab his sleeve and lead him to the side of the road.

"You can't drive after drinking." I turned my back to him. "Let's park the car here and pick it up tomorrow."

We took a taxi back to my house. When we walked in, my roommate was not there. I suddenly remembered that he said that he would go to Christmas with his colleagues today and would not come back at night.

Zhou Hanzhang and I were the only ones in the house.

Both of us were just slightly drunk, no one really drank too much, but I somehow wanted to pretend to be drunk, and after I went in, I just lay on the bed and didn't move.

Zhou Hanzhang stood by the bed and looked at me. At first I thought he would help me take off my coat, but unexpectedly, he followed suit and lay down next to me.

The two of us just lay there, I don't know who is playing "jinglebells", I shook my head and hummed along.

After singing, I asked Zhou Hanzhang: "How do you feel now?"

"It's amazing," he said. "I never thought I would be like this one day."

I looked at him: "What will happen?"

He smiled, as if he was a little helpless and bitter, then shook his head and didn't answer me.

I don't think that's the case. In fact, many things are very clear.

Although I am a shameful young man with moral depravity, a shameful young man should have his own bottom line. My bottom line is that I can't play with Zhou Hanzhang's feelings.

He, how should I put it, is different.

"Do you want to know what I'm thinking right now?" I asked him.

"What are you thinking about?"

The heating at home is very good. I lay here with my coat on, and I was sweating very quickly.

"I'll ask you a question first, and I'll tell you when you answer it." It's one thing I'm worried about.

Zhou Hanzhang sat up from the bed and looked at me seriously: "You ask."

"Is that "Yong Lane" written for your ex?" I finally asked.

I haven't mentioned this to anyone, and I haven't even told anyone about the existence of this book. I keep guessing what kind of relationship it has with him, what kind of emotional connection it has, and guessing about the book. Who and for whom are the books he wants to treasure forever.

I really care.

I don't mind that he had an unforgettable emotional experience, but I really want to understand him. I know that the Zhou Hanzhang I saw is only a part of the kaleidoscope. The whole and deeper him is written in the book called "Forever" Lane" book.

"Predecessor?" Zhou Hanzhang asked back, then smiled, "I've never been in a relationship."

How can it be? A 35-year-old man who has never been in a relationship?

Probably seeing my doubts and surprises, Zhou Hanzhang looked at me sincerely: "I really haven't talked about it. Before you, no one made me think of falling in love."

I swallowed, undeniably, I was teased by his words again.

He said: "For me, love has never been absent in my world. I always thought that the seven emotions and six desires are incomplete here. I can love everything, but I can't love others."

This sounds a bit secondary.

"But then your appearance made me understand that Yuelao gave everyone a relationship."

This sounds very exciting.

"Are you serious?" I asked.

He nodded: "Of course, I don't have to lie to you."

"That book..."

"Where I grew up, there was a deep alley called Yongxiang. When I was young, I always felt that this alley was endless, and I couldn't finish it." Zhou Hanzhang said, "When I grew up, I found that it was not so deep at all. It’s long, and it’s finished within a few minutes of pacing.”

I listened quietly, looking at his face by the moonlight in the unlit room.

"This book is about my father," Zhou Hanzhang said. "Our agreement before his death, I will write a book to help him confess his insincere life."

He took my hand and asked, "Do you want to see it?"

I don't know how to answer, since this is the case, it should be a secret between their father and son, maybe I shouldn't continue to spy on it.

"I'll give it to you next time we meet." Zhou Hanzhang said, "Your name also appeared in it."

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