through those heavy years

My aunt was lamenting, I was swallowed up by a clearly visible sadness and only had the strength to support my body.Fatty's obsession with love can be described as willful. In order to lose weight, he chose to take drugs desperately.I have never seen through, everyone has a stupid side in their bones.He insisted that it was the wholeness of life, and he would go through fire and water without hesitation.In fact, this is just that we have inadvertently stepped into the trap of our own construction, and at the same time pushed ourselves into the eternal hell.

Fatty's sad news made me feel sad and sympathetic.What is the essence of life, I can't figure it out!

The next day, I found a job.Work as a chef in a tea and restaurant bar.The boss who was interviewing asked where I worked before, and I replied that I worked at Xianju Yipin.He said, good place, why come out.I said it's not fun to work there, the employees are fighting each other, the boss and the manager are very mean and suspicious.The boss does not respect and trust the people who invite people to do things. Under high-pressure work, employees have to beware of slander and slander among colleagues. They are mentally tired and unhappy in life. No matter how high-end and promising the place in vain.I don't want to choose to work in that kind of environment.

The boss laughed and said it would not work here.As long as you have the ability and work hard with one heart, the salary will not be worse than that of a big place.

I said, well, I believe that the boss is a good boss, and I will not disappoint the boss' expectations.Then, they were given a full meal, quickly arranged to work and treated with good etiquette.

The tea restaurant business is generally good.Most of the people who come to the tea and meal bar drink tea, chat and play cards.When it's time to eat, just order and eat.It can be regarded as a kind of consumption place where leisure is the most important thing.

My work is not tiring.Washing and chopping vegetables are done by dedicated people.I only need to be responsible for preparing the dishes and putting them on the plate.There are four chefs and myself in the kitchen of the tea restaurant.One cooks pastries, one cooks Western food, and one cooks Chinese stir-fry just like me.

The man who cooks the Chinese side dishes is a thin young man.Because I complained all day that I was tired at work, that my salary was low, that I was too busy and needed to add manpower, etc., the boss recruited me under such annoyance.When I went to work that day, the other two chefs showed welcome to join, but the skinny young man who made Chinese stir-fry didn't show that he was happy that someone could share the work for him, his eyes were full of disgust and disdain.

As always, I don't like to talk, so I didn't have a word with this thin young man after a few days.On the other hand, the other two like to take the initiative to find something to talk to.I kept a smile on my face, and I was able to cope.

The thin young man is very lazy in doing things, and his actual ability is not strong.He thinks that I don't like to talk and I'm a showy person, so whenever a customer orders, he pushes me to make all of them.He happily sat on the sidelines, enjoying the fact that he commanded others without resistance.Being able to do nothing and receive a salary for nothing is indeed worthy of the joy of most people.

After working for half a month, the dishes I made were greatly appreciated by the guests.Because the dishes are well-cooked, the number of customers will increase accordingly, and the boss will earn more money, and the boss is very happy about it.The boss took me aside and praised me for being diligent and efficient, as well as for my outstanding skills. I really deserve to be a serious chef from a big place.

The boss said: "You are a good employee, you don't talk much, you work hard, and you can bring me repeat customers. This is the talent I can't wait for here." He said, with a very mysterious look, "From next month, I will give you Salary increase. You have to know that this is an honorary treatment for other employees to work in any unit. There has never been such a fast increase in salary. Of course, the premise is that you have to undertake all the work of cooking alone, and you can’t complain about being tired, and you can’t Just leave, you should be fine with these things."

I nodded and said, "As long as the boss believes in it, he will do his best and never complain!"

When the boss heard this, he laughed cheerfully.Then, the skinny guy who always wanted to be lazy was fired.He left very unwillingly, thinking that I sued him in front of the boss and spoke ill of him.He spat at me with a look of contempt, and then left cursing.

The first month's salary has been paid, which is a heavy weight.For more than four years, I almost forgot the fun of making money, and my heart is full of gratitude.

I plan to find a house to rent first, and I can't stay in the tea and meal bar all day long.Then I thought about saving up some money so that I could buy some things for my grandma, and go to see my grandma without being as depressed as when I was just released from prison.I want grandma to see that her grandson has been in prison, but when he gets out of prison, his life will not be so bad. At least he has the heart to regain his strength.

When it comes to finding a house, I no longer want to have a world of my own to feel sad like before.It's hard to explain myself, maybe when I grow up, people who grow up always seem careless; maybe I don't care so much about being sad, there are too many sad things, and I will get used to it.

Finding a house is not an easy task. The ones with a slightly better environment are too expensive, and the ones with a slightly better environment are too far away.The environment is not very good, the cheap houses are full, and the environment is messy and the sun is not seen all year round, like a prison.For me, living in a place like a prison will make me feel unhappy in my heart, so I don't want to accommodate.

I didn't know how many alleys I went back and forth, and I walked through a few places, but I still couldn't find a satisfactory house.Unknowingly, the footsteps of time entered the night at eleven o'clock, there were no lights in the alley, it was pitch black, and the tea and dining bar was supposed to be closed, and suddenly entered a homeless situation.I don't want to spend money to stay in any hotel. It seems that tonight I have to sleep in the open because I am looking for a house.

Sitting along the wall, there is no star in the night sky.I inexplicably miss the days of feeding pigs in my hometown.At that time, it was better than now, I didn't feel lonely, and I didn't feel tired.I just want to live quietly without any disturbance.The mind of praying for peace is exactly the preciousness given by that day.

In the darkness, there was a faint light in the center of the alleyway against the wall, flickering on and off, as if someone was smoking.

The sound of footsteps came slowly, and the light of the fire became dazzling and bright as it gradually approached.She yawned first, and then her voice was very languid.

"Why don't you go in when you're here, what are you doing squatting on the corner of the wall!"

I don't quite understand her words, and even feel a little inexplicable.So I continued squatting, not sure she was talking to me.

"Hey, is it a dog squatting by the corner, why is it silent?" She smiled slightly, her tone was slightly contemptuous, and her voice was pretending to be vicissitudes, but it was easy to tell that it was a woman in her twenties child.As she spoke, she approached step by step, and it seemed that she was indeed talking to me.

I stood up slowly, still silent.A motorcycle passed by the exit of the alleyway, and just a little light came through.She saw me and I saw her.She dresses up enchantingly and revealingly.It was the first time Luo Feng and I went to the city center, and we noticed this kind of girls.At that time, Luo Feng said, don't look at it, this kind of girl is not something we can afford, and I have been curious about it ever since.

She stood about two meters away from me and didn't continue to make a sound.Probably saw it clearly and realized that he had identified the wrong person.

After a while, she still spoke first, and she asked me, "Who are you and what are you doing here?"

I thought this was her home, and said politely, "I'm squatting here to rest, I didn't know this was your place."

She giggled when she heard my answer, "Do you know where this is?"

"I don't know, here is shelter from the wind!"

"Hehe!" She laughed even louder, "It's quite sheltered from the wind!"

Then the two of us were silent one after another, and she was the same, with her back against the wall.One is here and the other is there. Under the dense night, the lonely men and widows at the entrance of the alley seem particularly mysterious and complicated.

"Are you really not going in?" she asked me.

"Where to go?" I asked back.

"Inside, a man's paradise!"

"Heaven?" Oh, I probably understand that there may be a place for entertainment and consumption here, maybe the kind of nightclub that the fat man took me to.

"I don't like that kind of place!"

"Hehe!" She laughed like a silver bell, and said, "Eleven out of ten men like to play, and those who don't like to play are prudish!"

"Maybe." But I'm not prudish, I just don't like to play.However, I can't tell why I don't like to play.So when you can't prove yourself, you can only choose not to speak.

After another 3 minutes of silence, a man walked up to the entrance of the alleyway.He drank, hummed a song, and staggered when he walked. Under the catalysis of alcohol, he looked particularly energetic.

The lights of the motorcycle gave the entrance of the roadway a brief light again and again.The man wore shiny leather shoes, supple trousers, and a snow-white shirt.The stomach is slightly protruding, the body is fat, the skin is fair, the smile is very sweet, the hair is combed and shiny, and he looks about 35 years old. He has a filial appearance that will be filial to his parents and pamper his wife and children in the next.

He was drunk, and when he saw me and that strange woman, he made a weird ouch, and said, "Little fly, you are the one standing at the door to welcome the guests today. Just welcome the guests, why are you still hooking up outside?" What about the young handsome guy. Do you think we are old and useless, so our stomachs are rushing forward?"

After finishing speaking, the man in his 30s had already walked in front of the strange woman, holding the little fly casually with his arms, and his behavior was frivolous and obscene.

Seeing this scene, I probably understand.It turned out that this strange woman called Little Fly was a prostitute.The heaven she mentioned is the place where the sex vents.Jiang Haoran lost his life for the sake of heaven; the fat man longed for heaven and embarked on the path of eternal doom; why didn't I end up like this because of heaven.