through those heavy years

After a hard work, a bucket full of harvest, including fish and shrimp, snails and mussels.Taking a deep breath, I was very happy to see the harvest in return for my efforts.

Mr. Zhou seems to have never seen so many fish, and the snail river mussels are also very fresh.She was extremely excited about the fish she caught with her hands. When picking up the fish, she smiled purely, like a seven or eight-year-old child.Teacher Zhou saw that the bucket was full of fish and snails and mussels. The sun was setting and it was getting late. He said, "I'll help you get the loach. Digging for loach should be fun too!"

It seemed that there was indeed a person hiding behind the slope.This person is Teacher Zhou.If I were more prepared and went to the back of the slope to catch people, wouldn't it be embarrassing for Mr. Zhou, as a teacher who was the only one, to be caught like a thief by the students.Thinking of this, I couldn't help laughing.

I saw Mr. Zhou jogging over carefully holding the lotus leaf, and couldn't help but ask, "Did you follow me here?"

"Yes!" She raised a confident smile, answering as a matter of course.

"You don't tell me why you skipped class, I can only follow you!"

I didn't know how to answer, so I said unhappily: "Then don't follow me next time, because..."

"Why?" She laughed, "You don't tell me such a fun thing, and you want me not to follow you next time, you are not kind!"

"Because you are a teacher!" I could only say that.Also because I am afraid of being disturbed, afraid of facing.

"We're friends after class!" I didn't expect Teacher Zhou to be so thick-skinned.No wonder he could be sincere when he lied in front of some teachers and even the principal.

Hearing the word friend, the tender flesh of the atrium seemed to be kneaded for a while.No one wants to be friends with me. I don't know what a friend is or what status it is.He has always been a loner.I am used to keeping my mouth shut, I am used to walking through indifferent crowds, I am used to not dealing with people other than grandma without hatred (I will always keep this weird idea as long as I am in the village).

"I have no friends!" After speaking, he put on his coat, picked up the shovel and bucket, got up and left.I always hope that Mr. Zhou can no longer pay too much attention and concern to me.But she faced up to the difficulties time and time again, and she didn't hesitate to treat a student who didn't respect her and got worse after being favored.It is true that after being influenced, my heart is about to lose all vigilance.Her kind smile and pure heart are pervasive and invulnerable to all poisons.

Teacher Zhou held the lotus leaf and followed behind him calmly.He said to me: "Why don't you have friends? Is it because you don't want to have friends? How good it is to have friends. When you are sad, you can share your troubles with friends; Happier. Having friends who can help each other, talk to each other..."

"There's no reason, it's just that it's not rare!" Seeing that she was going to make a long speech, he interrupted her and quickened her pace.

She trotted, just like asking me to go out for a "walk" for the first time, and was left far behind.When she catches the fish, she looks exhausted because of too much force.The sun had already set steadily, and the night wind was blowing, making the chill even heavier.Feeling that Teacher Zhou couldn't keep up, I was very anxious, so I couldn't help slowing down.

Seeing that I was waiting for her, Mr. Zhou was overjoyed, gained strength in his feet, and ran over.She hasn't forgotten the topic yet, and continued my words out of breath: "How can it be rare. Friends can be said to be an important part of a person's life, just like an organ in the body. Maybe there is no emotion in life. , There is no other thing without victory. But you can't have friends. Friends record youth, record happiness, and even record all your pain and troubles."

Yeah!I thought to myself, but my youth does not need to be recorded, it is all unbearable memories, it is bitter and destructive.Even, if youth is talked about, then how can I have youth, youth is just a code name in the growth of my age.

Teacher Zhou continued, talking about her youth.She said that the three years of high school are the most memorable.She felt very sorry for the students who dropped out of school.Because she feels that in a person's life, only after going through the high school entrance examination can there be no regrets.High school is an important process for the budding of ideas, the opening of morality, and growth.High school has unforgettable deep-rooted memories and perceptions, and has lofty ambitions that are soaring and domineering.In high school, there is sweat, joy, and a group of iron buddies who sing each other and travel all over the world with great ambitions.After going through high school, you will gradually understand what cruelty and splendor are, and what is accumulation and accumulation.

She said, her shining eyes seemed to be looking at the sky, "The day before I graduated from the college entrance examination, six good buddies and sisters and I walked together held hands and bid farewell to the beautiful sky without crying. It's hard to separate, but we have to go our own way. We engraved our names on a stone and surrounded it tightly with one heart. We said goodbye loudly, tears still in our eyes, and the years passed, and we will parted eventually. That is a memory I will never forget, I think people cannot love and smile without being touched."

As Mr. Zhou talked, he was moved by bringing himself into the deep memory.Her words are clean and moving, and the youthful sunshine in her mouth is full of fighting spirit and passion.Some of their young children were together, and they were happy, touched, shared, and flamboyant at that age.But in the end, it is their youth, a kind of youth that I can't understand but is beyond reach.Me and them, in terms of environment, family situation, and ideology, are two separate galaxies, and the two endpoints cannot meet in one place.Perhaps youth is not something that everyone is qualified to talk about. Youth is not a luxury.

Pretend not to hear and keep going.The sun has already set, and the sunset has drawn people's shadows long.The entrance of the village in front exudes a light yellow light, and the tree shadows are as quiet and deep as the ancient wall.The village is like an old man, silent and dull.But after a while, the night completely penetrated.

"Don't you want your last year of high school to be more joyful?" she said, "to have a sky of your own with some young people who are also passionate and youthful."

When I got home, I gently pushed open the mottled wooden door.The room was dark, and a damp musty smell surrounded the nose.I lit the kerosene lamp and put it on the barn built with stone bricks in the main room. The main room was empty, not even a decent stool.

Mr. Zhou stood in the center of the main room, carefully looking at the dilapidated and dilapidated houses that still had wires and light bulbs.In such a house, there is no hope, it makes people sink, and people can't help but want to escape!

I said: "This is my family, as dilapidated as you can see. The youth, touch, love and smiles you mentioned will have no meaning in this poor family. This family has suffered a lot. , crumbling. He is a member of this family, and he has paid a lot of hardships in order to maintain the basic life of this family. He cannot sing his own sky, nor can he look forward to his own future. He can only do his best to continue to protect This family. So teacher, a poor boy, because he has his own way of life and value of life, he doesn’t want to be disturbed by too many people.”

At this moment, I am not afraid that all the facts are in front of me, and I can understand what should be understood; at this moment, I am relieved and feel a little relieved.

Teacher Zhou stared at me intently, and the faint kerosene lamp shone on her face, which was clean and flawless.She said: "It is in this kind of family that youth has a more special meaning. Maybe you have less laughter and touch, less love and warmth. But you have more strength and courage, more strength and commitment. Poverty cannot defeat You can only stimulate your fighting spirit and make you more and more courageous in the face of difficulties. Poverty cannot prevent you from making friends, and if you care about your poor people, they cannot become your true friends. Am I right?" She He spoke forcefully and looked at me solemnly.She wasn't comforting me, she was correcting me.

If I could meet Teacher Zhou early in my childhood, maybe I would be really strong and brave.People who can open their hearts to accept friends, people who are not distorted or resentful, people who are upright and full of a sense of justice, and people who are positive and healthy.It's a pity that it's not as good as people want. The environment has already cultivated my weird temper.Real thoughts and actions, not a few hasty words, can save you.Mr. Zhou is considerate and caring, but there is no way to deeply understand a person who was traumatized in childhood.But here, I really thank her in my heart, and I also want to thank her for not showing pity in my eyes when I see my family is poor. This more or less gives me respect!

"Let's go, Teacher Zhou!" I said softly.All words are powerless excuses, and only silence is the best answer.

I separate fish, lobster, snails, and mussels.The snails and mussels cannot be eaten immediately. They should be soaked in water for a few days to wash away the mud and sand.

Teacher Zhou knew that her positive answer would not have any effect, so she did not intend to leave, and said, "Anyway, you regard me as a friend, right. Because before this, you have never said these words to anyone. , I haven’t brought anyone to your house, right? Hehe, so as a friend, after helping you harvest a bucket full of fish, shouldn’t you politely invite me to stay for dinner? !" As soon as she finished speaking, Teacher Zhou was like her style of handling things, no matter whether others agreed or not, she carried the divided fish and walked straight to the kitchen behind the barn.

It was getting late, so we should really leave Teacher Zhou to have dinner before leaving.It's just that we haven't had any guests in a long time, and the bowls are old and rotten. I'm afraid Mr. Zhou won't take it seriously.