The Whole World Is My Crematorium

The situation does not allow Xiao Yu's case to think about others.In the memory, he cannot control his words and deeds, the memory cannot be changed, he can only say the same words and do the same things as the self in the memory.It was as if the [all] that had disappeared for a long time had returned, and this feeling of suffocation was what he hated the most in his life.

Thankfully this is just a memory.Memories do not have any power, he is never afraid of memories, nor will he sink because of them.

Xiao Yu'an felt like a bystander, watching another Xiao Yu's case with no waves in his heart - the Xiao Yu's case who still had expectations for Li Xianting and everything.

A series of inquiries in Xiao Yu's case did not get an answer from Li Xianting, not even a perfunctory sentence of "Why would Master not want you?"He asked Xiao Yu'an: "Why doesn't Ah Yu want to recognize this brother Xiao Du?"

Xiao Yu'an pursed his lips, and said: "He is the lord of Xing Tianzong, he doesn't sound like a good person. If he admits the wrong person and I am not his younger brother, then my ashes will be thrown away by him. "

Li Xianting laughed: "No."

He didn't think much about Xiao Yu's case at the time, but now that he listened to it again, he just felt that Li Xianting's "no" seemed to have a deep meaning—was it because Xiao Du would not admit the wrong person, or would he not raise his ashes?

Xiao Yu'an bowed his head and remained silent.At that time, he was only 17 years old, and he had not been sent to Xiao Du by Li Xianting. When facing Li Xianting, he still had a faint taste of innocence.Although [both] have told him that Li Xianting is not worthy of trust, but... but Li Xianting is his master, the master who raised him and taught him spells.When he was young, he was bullied by his younger brother. It was the master who held him in his arms and wiped away his tears.How could he not care at all.

Xiao Yu'an raised his head, looked at Li Xianting with burning eyes, and said: "If Master wants me to go, I will follow Master's words."

Li Xianting smiled lightly, "Ah Yu is so good."

"But I want a word from Master," Xiao Yu said, "If Xiao Du treats me badly, will Master take me back?"

Li Xianting stretched out his hand to pull back the scattered hair from Xiao Yu's temples, his eyes were gentle and watery, "Yes."

……

The piano sounded again, and the surrounding scene changed rapidly, Xiao Yu'an could only see a large phantom.When the surroundings returned to calm again, he found himself sitting on a rock by the stream with a bamboo hat on his back and a fishing rod in his hand.There was a straw basket at his feet, and a dozen live shrimps were jumping around in the straw basket.

Xiao Yu's case came to mind, this was the day he left his master's school to punish Tianzong.

The fishing rod swayed, Xiao Yu'an waited patiently for a while, and was about to take up the rod when a stone hit the surface of the water with a bang, causing waves of spray.The river prawns under the water were disturbed and swished away.

Xiao Yu didn't turn his head back to the desk, and said regretfully, "Junior brother scared my shrimp away."

Mu Yingyang had a cold and handsome face, "Are you really going to Xing Tianzong?"

Xiao Yu'an slowly put away his fishing rod, "Yeah."

Mu Yingyang sneered, and said coolly: "That's right, Xing Tianzong is dominant in the northern region, rich and talented, how can it be compared with mere Xufu. You have a brother like Xiao Du, how can you still like me and me?" Master."

Xiao Yu pretended not to hear Mu Yingyang's yin and yang, so he picked up the straw and said, "I'm going back."

Mu Yingyang clenched his fists tightly, and when Xiao Yu'an passed by him, he seemed to involuntarily grab Xiao Yu'an's arm. "In the case of Xiao Yu, even a dog doesn't think his family is poor, and you just go away because of a brother who suddenly appeared, isn't it even worse than a dog?"

Xiao Yu'an's eyes froze suddenly, and his hand quietly came to the irrelevant Fengyue pinned to his waist.For a moment, Mu Yingyang thought that Xiao Yu's case was going to attack him, so he increased his strength a little bit.

He guessed right, Xiao Yu'an really wanted to do something to him, but his behavior was once again restricted by [all], the only thing he could do was to close his eyes and forcefully suppress his anger.

Going to Xing Tianzong wasn't all bad, at least he didn't have to endure Mu Yingyang anymore.

Xiao Yu'an endured again.He took the river prawns to find Master, and wanted to ask Master to make him his favorite fried fresh shrimp cakes one last time before he went to Xing Tianzong.

He knocked on the door of Master's room, and the door opened quickly.It was not his master who opened the door, but a graceful woman he had never seen before.

"I am the protector of Xingtianzong," the woman said, "by the order of the lord, I will take the young master to Xingtianzong to recognize his relatives."

Xiao Yu'an was stunned, "Where is my master?"

"You mean Li Xianting? He went down the mountain early in the morning."

Xiao Yu'an's expression changed, he passed the woman and walked into the house.In the past, Master Yunyou would take him and Mu Yingyang with him, and occasionally he would greet them in advance when he went down the mountain alone.Master will not leave without saying goodbye, especially if he knows that he is going to leave soon.

Master was not in the house, nor did he leave any letters.He went to look outside the house again, the study room, the dining room... He searched the entire Xu mansion, but he still didn't see Li Xianting.

The woman got impatient and urged him to pack up his things and go on the road with her.He said, "Doesn't Master not know that I'm leaving today?"

"How is that possible," the woman sneered, "He is the one who asked the Lord to pick you up today."

Xiao Yuan's chest felt tight, and he said softly, "Is that so?"

Xiao Yu's case is gone.He dumped all the river prawns he had caught for half a day back into the stream, packed up two pieces of clothes he often wore, and said to the woman, "Let's go."

When he left the master's gate, he suddenly heard someone calling himself: "—Senior brother!"

He paused, but he didn't look back.

……

The scene changes again.He had already arrived at Xing Tianzong, and he was sitting at a table with delicious food with Xiao Du.A thin young man stood in front of them, took out a jade pendant from his pocket tremblingly, and said, "I, I'm here to find my brother."

Xiao Du asked him: "Do you have anything to say?"

"Can I go back to the teacher's gate?"

"No," Xiao Du said, "You are still useful."

……

He was still in Xing Tianzong, and Xiao Du pinched his cheek severely.Xiao Du's eyes were gloomy and cold, he held him firmly in his hands, and said coldly: "So no matter how many things I try to do for you, it's all in vain. I understand, Ayu. But you know, as long as I want things that have never been missed.”

"Because I like Ayu and want to spoil Ayu forever."

The nine-tone snail was forcibly pushed into his body and wreak havoc in his golden core without restraint.He finally couldn't bear it anymore and did something he had planned for a long time.

Xiao Du vomited a mouthful of blood and fell in front of him.He looked down at Xiao Du from a high position, and saw with his own eyes that the light in his pupils faded little by little.

"Ayu, I won't be able to protect you from now on."

"Brother is gone."

……

He woke up on the bed of Biluozhai in Yunjiange, Gu Louyin was sitting beside his bed, dressed in black silk and white, with deep shadows in his eyes.

The night before Xiao Yu's case was identified by Lu Yueyao as the murderer who poisoned Lin Wulian, he was able to sleep because he believed in Gu Louyin, and Gu Louyin also believed in him, he thought Gu Louyin would help him get rid of injustice.

"You didn't guard your senior brother, why did you come here?" Xiao Yu asked, "Did you find the murderer who attacked your senior brother? So quickly?!"

Gu Louyin said softly: "I need your blood. Senior brother has been poisoned, only a femme fatale can save him. And there are a lot of femme fatales in your blood."

"One cup each time, three times a day, for...one month."

Xiao Yu'an laughed, "Why don't you just kill me and let the blood drain, wouldn't it be more convenient."

"You can't die." Gu Louyin repeated these four words in a hoarse voice, "You can't die."

Xiao Yu'an looked into Gu Louyin's eyes, and a sense of disobedience suddenly rose in his heart.

Gu, Lou, Yin... Gu Louyin with black hair and wearing Yunjiange school uniform...?

No, this is not Gu Louyin, the current Gu Louyin is not like this, all these are trying to destroy his memory.He remembered that he and Gu Louyin came to Yunjiange to steal Qingyan, and encountered Xuanyuezong's piano sound formation on the way, and both fell into memories.At the beginning, he was still able to maintain his sanity and sobriety, but as the old events continued to repeat itself, he seemed to have relived the first half of his life that he couldn't help himself.If it wasn't for Gu Louyin's sudden appearance, he would almost be trapped in the memories.Xuan Lezong's formation really shouldn't be underestimated, he was careless.

Later, Xiao Yu'an saw the picture of himself bleeding for ten days, and saw himself as skinny and skinny, unable to find a suitable dress.He stabilized his mind and kept reminding himself that he was not in this world.He has been thinking about the Gu Louyin in this world, and comparing it with the Gu Louyin in his memory, so that his mind will not be bewitched by the sound of the piano.

If the effect of the sound of the piano is really to push the unbearable memories to the present, then it is almost time to end.He is open-minded by nature, there are only a few people or things that can make him sad and disappointed, he wants to see what else the sound of the piano can make him see.

Xiao Yu's bloodletting for the last time, the blood fell into the bowl, the dazzling bright red kept magnifying in front of his eyes, and the surrounding things seemed to be covered with a layer of red mist.When the fog cleared, he left Dongguan Mountain and stood in an elegant and quiet courtyard.

Xiao Yuan frowned.He didn't have much impression of this courtyard, and the scenery seemed to be in Yunjian Pavilion.

There is an osmanthus tree in the courtyard. It is autumn, and the osmanthus is in full bloom.A young boy dressed in white stepped into the courtyard, carrying a long sword that seemed to be about the same height as him on his back.

This is Gu Louyin when he was six years old.How could there be Gu Louyin when he was a child in his memory? Could it be that he has escaped from his own memory and came to Gu Louyin's memory?

Xiao Yu'an followed the young boy, watching him knock on the door, "Mother, it's me."

There was no response from inside the door for a long time.Little Gu Louyin waited for a long time, seemed a little disappointed, wanted to leave, but was really reluctant.After hesitating again and again, he stood on tiptoe and tried to push the door.

The door opened slowly, and when he had a clear view of the scene inside, Xiao Yu case couldn't help but ran forward, trying to block little Gu Louyin's eyes.

His hand passed through Xiao Gu Louyin's face.The little boy stayed where he was, with his eyes wide open, watching the embroidered shoes on his mother's feet swaying gently in front of his eyes.

Mrs. Gu hanged herself, and the first person to find her body was her only child.

……

In the next memory, the little boy grew up.

This is in a room.There is a screen in the room, and Lin Wulian is dying on the bed behind the screen.Gu Hang sat on the side of the bed, his face extremely gloomy.

Han Ju at the side said: "I have made an arbitrariness to ask the pavilion master to leave the customs, and I hope the pavilion master will forgive me."

"You did nothing wrong." Gu Hang said in a deep voice, "Just now you said that to save Wulian, human blood can be used as medicine?"

"Yes. Without the femme fatale, we can only use that person's blood to detoxify."

"Father," Gu Louyin said in a slightly anxious tone, "Xiao Yu's case was not the one who poisoned senior brother, he had kindness to Yunjiange, how could Yunjiange repay his kindness."

Gu Hang turned a deaf ear and asked Han Chu, "How long will it take?"

"January."

"Is there a faster way?"

Han Ju hesitated for a moment, and said, "Going back to Pavilion Master, besides using blood as medicine, indeed... there is another faster way."

"Say."

"Cut out the heart and take the Gu."

Gu Hang glanced at Gu Louyin, and said calmly, "Then let's cut it open."

Gu Louyin's beautiful face lost all blood.He looked at the two elders in disbelief, as if he knew them for the first time in his life.

Han Chu seemed unable to bear it, and said: "Pavilion Master, Xiao Yu's case is the young Pavilion Master's savior after all, we should use his blood first, if we really can't find the femme fatale, then... not too late."

"No." Gu Louyin's voice trembled slightly, "Whether it's blood or life, it's his own. You can't..."

Gu Hang interrupted coldly: "I can."

Gu Louyin was stunned.

"Tomorrow I want to see his blood, or the Gu taken from his heart." Gu Hang refused to comment, "You choose."

……

Xiao Yuan couldn't help smiling slightly.That's it, that's all it is.He learned a little about what happened back then from other people's words, but he didn't expect that he could witness it with his own eyes again.

Gu Hang asked Gu Louyin to choose, and Gu Louyin chose, and he knew the rest without looking at him.

The scene changed, Xiao Yu'an also remembered Gu Louyin's memory.Not only to remember, but also to remember for a lifetime.

It was a spring day two years ago, wearing the wedding dress that Gu Louyin personally selected for him, he jumped off the cliff on the east view.It can be said that that day was the happiest day in the first half of his life. He got rid of [All], got rid of Yunjiange, Li Xianting, Xiao Du, and Mu Yingyang.He was ecstatic about his hard-won freedom, and he ran so eagerly to the new life that he never looked back.He didn't know the reaction of other people after seeing him "seeking death", and he didn't know that his happiest memory became a nightmare that Gu Louyin couldn't get out of for the rest of his life.

He saw that Gu Louyin stayed motionless just like when he saw his mother's hanged body, and was stabbed into the chest by a disciple of Yunjiange.He saw Gu Louyin's wedding dress soaked in blood, saw him push away Lin Wulian and Lu Yueyao, and ran to the cliff recklessly, but was held back by more disciples of the same school.He struggled to take two steps, finally supported the ground with frost and cold, and knelt down slowly.

Xiao Yu'an turned his eyes away, he didn't want to see Gu Louyin who had lost all hope - he didn't like it.

The noise gradually dissipated, and the figures began to blur.Xiao Yu'an thought that they wanted to move on to the next memory, but the scene before his eyes was still the scene just now - he was galloping through the forest in his wedding dress, and Gu Louyin watched him jump off the cliff, injured and captured...

Time and time again, this memory keeps repeating, as if it will never end, trapping Gu Louyin in it, making him suffer from heart-burning pain forever, without stopping for a moment.

I don't know how many reincarnations he has gone through, Xiao Yu's case is already burning with anxiety.Could it be that Gu Louyin really wants to be trapped in this memory for the rest of his life?Is this what Gu Hang specially prepared for Gu Louyin? Gu Louyin's real... demon.

Xiao Yuan couldn't bear it any longer, knowing that it was in his memory, and knowing that Gu Louyin couldn't hear anything, he still yelled his name: "Gu Louyin!"

A gleam of clarity flashed in Gu Louyin's eyes who were besieged by disciples of Yunjiange, and he pulled out Frost Leng unexpectedly, and the powerful sword energy knocked away all the fellow disciples around him.

Xiao Yu'an felt relieved, it seemed that Gu Louyin was about to break down, and they should be able to leave here soon.

After dealing with the disciples of Yunjiange, Gu Louyin flew towards the cliff without the slightest hesitation, and firmly hugged the "Xiao Yu case" that was about to fall off the cliff.

They wore the same bright red wedding dresses, their blue hair entangled in the wind, they were in the same embarrassment, but they were still a shockingly beautiful couple.

"I've caught you." Gu Louyin trembled while hugging the "Xiao Yu'an".

……

The sound of the piano stopped abruptly, and the memory faded like a tide.Xiao Yuan opened his eyes again, he was still in the secret passage of Yunjiange, Gu Louyin knelt on one knee only a few steps away from him, panting slightly, looking down at his hands, Xiao Yuan Can't see his expression clearly.

Xiao Yu'an walked behind Gu Louyin and put his hand on his shoulder.

"It's okay," Xiao Yu'an said softly, "Gu Louyin, it's okay."