if i am not me

Since returning to the dormitory yesterday, Drake has often fallen into a trance state—yes, a trance, the emotions that have been almost insulated from him in his more than ten years of life are now impacting his originally tough nerves.

Now it's lunch break, and Draco, who hadn't slept all night, only felt that his mind was still in chaos, so chaotic that he didn't want to think about anyone or anything, including the source of the confusion—his good brother, good buddy, Harry... Johnson!

Oh fine!He had to think, if there wasn't a right answer, God knows what he might have done or said he shouldn't have done.

Jealousy, yes!Jealousy—he's so damn jealous!

"Merlin! What's the matter with me?" He scratched his hair irritably, his usually meticulous platinum hair was now messed up by a pair of fair hands, but Draco didn't have the heart to pay attention to his hairstyle now, and now he had more important issues to ask He was answered, but he didn't know who to turn to for help.

I don't know how long he stayed on the bed, but Draco heard the sound of Xixi getting up and getting dressed.He knew whose voice it was, and who else but Harry?In fact, they are not used to taking a nap, but occasionally it is a good choice when they are too tired.

Sleeping with his eyes closed, Draco let his breathing relax as much as possible. Sure enough, Harry walked to his bedside and lifted the curtain to have a look, then walked away lightly.Draco appreciated Harry's thoughtfulness, and before he figured it out, it seemed that just being in front of Harry would upset him, so he decided to try to calm himself down first.He didn't want to hurt their relationship because of his inexplicable emotions.

It wasn't long before Draco heard the sound of Harry closing the dormitory door.Very well, Draco sat up and began to get dressed. He needed to go to the library to look up some psychological materials, and hoped he could find them.

The bright sunshine in the afternoon made Draco squint his eyes. If he expected it correctly, Harry was definitely enjoying the thrill of flying with Ron and the others on the Quidditch pitch now-after all, the weather was so suitable.

As soon as he entered the library, Draco hesitated for a moment, then walked to the shelf where the books on wizard psychology were placed. There was a whole bookcase, not many, but there were quite a lot.

Frowning and scanning the titles one by one, "Ms. Jenny Helps You!" ", "Imitating Animal Psychology", "Love is Sweet as Honey"... Hell, what is this mess...?

"Why are you here?" Suddenly, a familiar voice sounded behind Draco, making Draco's heart skip a beat.Hermione, as usual, was holding a pile of brick books to train her wrist strength, and looked at Draco, who logically should not be here at this moment, with a face full of surprise.

The moment he saw Hermione, Draco realized that he had made a mistake. He didn't need to look for those books that he didn't know were useful. Isn't there a know-it-all in front of him?It's just... forget it, solving the problem is what matters.

Smiling and walking towards Hermione, Draco took the book that was piled up to her chin in her hand, and said with a hint of flattery in his tone, "Let's find a place to sit down first."

Hermione looked at Draco's back thoughtfully, with some understanding in her eyes, but more doubts mixed with curiosity and anxiety.

After sitting down, Hermione didn't eagerly flip through her brick book as usual, she moved the book that Draco put in front of him aside, so that she could see his blue eyes that had been hidden in it. "Tell me, what's going on?" will leave you alone in the library looking through useless counseling books.

With a slight wry smile, Draco said in a rare embarrassment, "Nothing can escape your eyes."

Hermione raised her chin and gave him a "of course" look, then frowned and motioned him to speak quickly.

"Okay, okay!" Shrugging helplessly, Draco felt like he was in a hurry to go to the doctor. Although Hermione was not a quack doctor, it was really strange to talk about his thoughts to people other than Harry, very strange . "I... I seem to have something wrong."

Slightly raising her eyebrows, Hermione looked at Draco without blinking, "What's wrong? I can see it."

Draco didn't know whether to feel sorry for Hermione's sensitivity first, or blame himself for his gaffe, so he could only pretend that he didn't hear Hermione's slightly joking words and continued, "Recently, I've been a little too possessive. Strong."

After finishing speaking, Draco found that Hermione gave him a clear look, "I didn't expect... When did you find out?"

Now it was Draco's turn to be surprised. Judging from Hermione's tone, she seemed to understand his state very well. "yesterday."

"what's up?"

"I found out I was jealous."

"Oh—jealous of whom?"

"...Leo."

"uh-huh!"

Having said all this, Drake simply broke the jar and asked bluntly, "How do you think I should adjust my mentality now?"

Contrary to Draco's impatience, Hermione tapped on the table in a leisurely manner, contrary to her previous urging attitude.Draco knew she was thinking, so he just clenched his jaw and waited for Hermione's answer.This time the situation seemed to be more difficult. After more than ten minutes, Hermione gave him a gesture of calming down and got up and walked towards the rows of tall bookcases. After a few turns, Hermione's petite figure disappeared in front of Draco. in sight.

Draco frowned. Is the situation serious enough to require Hermione to check the information?

Hermione didn't keep him waiting too long, and Draco saw her appear a few minutes later with a pile of books so thick that the table bearing their weight let out a long groan.

"Okay, now I need to make sure of one thing." Clapping her hands, Hermione looked at Drake with unprecedented seriousness, "Draco, now tell me how you feel about Harry."

"Feel?"

"Yes, feeling! You say you're jealous because you don't like Harry talking to Leo?"

Shaking his head, Draco said blankly, "It's the eyes. The way Harry looks at Leo makes me very uncomfortable..."

Hearing this, Hermione froze for a moment, and then pretended to hold back her laughter, fake coughed and said, "Well, then how do you view your relationship?"

Giving her an "Are you an idiot" look, Drake said, "You don't know what we're related to? Friends, partners, partners! Or do you think he's my relative?"

Sighing helplessly, I must do a test some other day to see if this guy's EQ is negative. "I mean, don't you think that your attitude towards him now is not what you should have towards a friend?"

"What do you think I'm sitting here asking?" If he didn't realize something was wrong with him, he would give up such a good weather to sit here playing Quidditch just to discuss an incomprehensible question with Hermione. question?

"OK. Rearranged." After reorganizing her thoughts, she spoke again, "Would you be jealous if Ron looked at Leo with the look you said? Okay, I think I have fully understood, Don't stare at me."

In fact, Draco's attitude was already very clear, but this idiot didn't know it himself. Taking a deep breath, Hermione finally asked the question that made her uneasy. "Last question, what's your attitude towards same-sex love?"

There was a trace of astonishment on Draco's face, he didn't understand why Hermione suddenly turned the question of friendship to love, and this question made him slightly frowned.But as smart as he is, he soon realized that Hermione's question seemed to have another meaning...

Gradually, Draco, who was silent, looked at the serious Hermione, and while his brows were getting tighter and tighter, a flash of understanding and disbelief finally flashed in his eyes.

According to Hermione, the reason why he was jealous was...

Hermione believed that she must have seen Draco's expression now, the most direct of all his reactions in the past two years.Because this kid usually looks conceited and conceited, but in his bones he doesn't look like a teenager at all, so Hermione really thinks that seeing this expression is an accident within an accident.

"I think you understand what I mean." Hermione took out a book that she just brought, and lowered her eyelids to hide the anxiety in her eyes. "Now, tell me your answer."

After hearing Hermione's words, Draco didn't speak immediately, and the two fell into silence again.

Draco lowered his head quietly, the expressionless face and the long eyelashes covering his eyes made Hermione unable to see clearly the agitation in his heart at the moment, but she just looked at the outstanding boy in front of him equally quietly, leaving him a space to think.

People say girls are sensitive, and that's not true at all.She had already noticed when the two boys were still ignorant, and she even had the idea of ​​killing the ambiguity in the bud, but in the end she found that she couldn't do it because she didn't have the qualifications, I don't have that ability either.

As the saying goes, bystanders are clear, she has noticed the delicate atmosphere between the two very early on, and gradually realized that they are not as simple friends as they thought they were to each other, and it will only be a matter of time before they find out the truth.As a friend of the two, she chose to silently guard and help, just because she didn't want these two too lonely boys to lose their spiritual support.

"I..." After a long while, Draco's deep voice finally rang in Hermione's ear, the voice was very soft, but Hermione knew the firmness contained in it. "If it was Harry... I would."

For a moment, Hermione felt an indescribable confusion in her heart, all kinds of emotions were intertwined, and finally, it turned into a sweet smile blooming on her lips.Her fingers began to flick the pages of the book in her hand, and her eyes kept scanning the lines of text. She knew what she was doing.Although they are young, it does not mean that they are ignorant.Many people say that children's love is naive, just an illusion of possessiveness, but Hermione knows exactly what kind of feelings Draco is now.She wasn't worried about whether they would be able to face it after knowing the facts. What she was afraid of was that they didn't understand this relationship and made everything irreversible.

And now Drake's attitude really made the girl feel relieved, at least, it proved that her choice was correct.

"Very good. You finally understand, kid. It's not in vain that I've worried about you for so long." Once she relaxed, Hermione's words were not as cautious as before.After hearing her words, Draco couldn't help showing a smile, a sincere smile, so beautiful that Hermione lost his mind for a moment.

"Thank you!"

When she came back to her senses, Hermione said angrily, "Don't be in a hurry to thank me, it won't be too late to thank me after you have settled Harry." Hermione still doesn't know exactly what that stunned Harry was thinking. , but at least she can be sure that Draco is absolutely special to Harry.But it doesn't mean that it is love, so Drake still has a long way to go.

With a snap of her fingers, Hermione shoved a book in front of Drake, "I didn't expect this decree to exist..." Drake took the book and found that it was a marriage law in the wizarding world, and the above records The content made him smile with satisfaction.

Having grown up in the magic world, he certainly has a certain understanding of these things. In essence, people in the magic world do not reject homosexual love, but heterosexual couples are the mainstream, so the chances of this law being used are not very high.What Drake didn't expect was that he would use this law. "Actually, this is quite normal in the wizarding world."

"Found it." Hermione curled her lips, thinking of her surprise when she first found out about it, "but Harry didn't know. And he...has some traditions..."

That's right, the problem now is Harry.

After realizing his feelings, another question took over every functioning part of Draco's brain.After hesitating again and again, he still couldn't help asking. "Hermione, do you think... Harry feels the same way about me?"

Faced with this question, even Hermione, who is known as a know-it-all, couldn't help shaking her head, "I don't know, although it doesn't look like he doesn't feel it, but only he knows what he thinks in his heart."

In fact, Draco had already guessed this answer, but he still hoped to get an affirmative answer from Hermione.At this time Hermione's voice came again, "There is a more critical point... Can Harry accept it?"

Hearing this, Drake no longer paid attention to those bug-like legal provisions, and looked up out of the window, as if he could see the figure soaring in the air this way.

"Yeah, if it's me... you, would you like it?"

In a dark room dominated by black tones, only a slight firelight adds a touch of warmth.The man sitting on the sofa flipped through the thick stack of parchment in his hands from time to time, and his usually cold and serious face rarely showed the original soft outline.

But this peaceful time didn't last too long. With a gentle knock on the door, the man casually raised his hand and waved his wand to open the door.

The visitor was not surprised to see that the owner of the room was still sitting on the sofa, and he, who had long been used to the masculine style, naturally walked towards a low stool next to the sofa after closing the door. "Hi, Severus."

Snape put down the parchment and looked at the pale man in front of him. "How is the effect?"

"Very good." It's still the same smile that makes people feel refreshed, but the slightly sick face reveals his inability to do what he wants. "Thank you very much."

Snape just snorted coldly at this, got up and walked towards his cabinet full of potions, a few bottles of crystal clear potions emitted a seductive shimmer in the crystal bottle.He reached out and took them out, and handed them to the young man sitting on the low stool. "This time, you help them take it."

Remus Lupine smiled, but didn't take it. "It's always been done by Sirius, and you know it's not convenient for me to go out."

He narrowed his eyes sullenly, and Snape's hand was still placed in front of Lupine. People really change, and the lying man in front of him without blinking his eyes is the most convincing evidence. "As far as I know, you guys have a party this weekend!" Snape gritted his teeth tightly, and snapped out the facts he knew word by word.

But Lupine didn't feel embarrassed after being exposed by Snape, and still maintained the same smile, he said lightly, "It's us, Severus. It seems that the little guy has already visited you, Lily's Pie How does it taste? I didn't eat any of them yesterday."

Snape's face darkened, but Lupine still smiled and said, "Let's go together during the weekend."

"Did I say I was going?" Snape raised the corner of his mouth and sneered.

Lupine nodded knowingly, pondered for a while and stood up. "I see! Then I won't bother, Severus."

Without waiting for Snape to say anything else, Lupine had already opened the door, and when the door was about to close, he suddenly turned back, "By the way, I think you'd better read Lily's letter before making a decision, good night. "

Touching his forehead with a headache, Snape put down the crystal bottle in his hand and picked up the unfinished parchment. After a long while, he clearly saw Lily's threat rendered on the paper.He frowned in annoyance, but the indifference between his brows melted away because of the familiar words.

"Alas..." The long sigh was lost in the air, Snape looked at the crystal clear crystal bottle on the table, the darkness in his eyes gathered again.