reverse spirit

In the simple and exquisite peach wood box, there is a bracelet woven with weeds lying quietly, with a circle of green grass wrapped around the edge, adding a touch of delicacy to the rough and unruly.

Feng Chen stared at the straw rope for a long time, closed the lid of the box, and sat back beside the desk silently.

After midnight, Li Xi Ruofang returned to the tent in a hurry, his outer robe was icy cold with night dew on it.

Feng Chen pulled out his outer robe to help him change his wet clothes.

Li Xiruo changed his clothes, took a sip of the hot tea poured by Feng Chen, and said, "Feng Chen, I've thought about Xun Guo's matter carefully, and all Yu Guo wants is profit. Once they get Xun Guo, It is equivalent to gaining a fortress that goes south to invade each other. If we give more benefits, Yu State..."

Feng Chen held his hand and warmed it for him, without looking at him, he said, "I won't kill him."

Li Xiruo froze for a moment, then asked suspiciously: "What did you just say?"

"I won't kill Xun Linyue."

"Really?" Li Xiruo suspected that he had heard it wrong, looked at him for a while, and then asked with a puzzled look: "Why did you suddenly change your mind?"

Feng Chen curled his lips, and said awkwardly: "I don't want to be scolded by you again."

Li Xiruo looked at him suspiciously.

Feng Chen turned around, bent down to get the teapot on the table, and poured him tea.

Li Xiruo shook his head and put the cup back on the table: "How do you explain to Yu State?"

"I'll figure it out myself. Anyway, Xun Linyue's life is saved now, as long as you are happy, you don't have to think so much."

Li Xiruo looked at him for a while: "Do you care about Xun Linyue so much?"

Feng Chen picked up Li Xiruo's cup to drink tea. Hearing this, the cup stopped on his lips and did not move. After a moment of silence, he took a look at Li Xiruo: "I can't say whether I mind or not." After speaking, he turned his gaze back, Holding the teacup in his hand, he continued to drink tea, but he didn't want to say any more.

Li Xiruo: "Just now on the tower, what I said was the truth. He is my friend, and I naturally cannot watch him die, but even if the person you want to kill is not him, I still will not agree. Feng Chen, no matter who it is, it is a life, how can you kill it for your own selfishness?"

Feng Chen looked down at the table.

When Li Xiruo said this, he also seemed to feel a little bit discouraged, and didn't want to say more. After the two of them were silent for a while, he smiled wryly, and said with self-deprecation: "Actually, what right do I have to say about you? It’s just a butcher who kills innocent people with blood on his hands, there’s nothing wrong with you not listening to me.”

Feng Chen hurriedly turned his head: "I didn't mean that, I just..."

Li Xiruo looked at him.

"I..." Feng Chen faltered for a moment: "Every time you mentioned him, I remembered that he said that when you needed support the most, I didn't do anything at all, but he always to be with you."

"In the past, he trained soldiers for you and sneaked into the feudal kingdom for you. Today, you pleaded for him and even got angry with me. You...I..." Feng Chen became more and more excited as he spoke. Taking a deep breath, his brows were tightly wrinkled, and a line formed at the corners of his mouth.

Li Xiruo was silent for a while, then suddenly laughed: "Feng Chen, I really misjudged you, so you are so stingy. You are almost 30 years old, why are you still so fussy? And if you really want to say that, Big Beard has been with you for ten years, Feng Chen is both your adopted son and your most valued general, and he was with you almost like a shadow in Beiling, never leaving, should I overturn the vinegar vat?"

Feng Chen was at a loss for words, thought for a long time, and squeezed out four words: "That's different."

Li Xi Ruo jokingly said: "What's the difference, what you do, I can't do it?"

Feng Chen was speechless: "Forget it, I won't tell you this."

"Then let's not talk about it." Li Xiruo became more and more amusing as he thought about it, he waved his hand to signal that it would be over, turned around but still smiled and rolled his eyes.

Feng Chen looked at his trembling shoulders speechlessly: "If you laugh again, I will leave..."

"Okay, okay, I won't laugh at you anymore." Li Xiruo had finished joking, and turned around and pulled Feng Chen to sit down, with a faint smile on his face, as warm as a ray of warm wind.

The two sat down, and Li Xiruo said: "You are leaving tomorrow, I will prepare some wound medicine for you tonight, you will send someone to get it tomorrow morning, and..."

He took out a sachet from the cabinet and handed it to Feng Chen: "I will let Bai Yan go with you, this sachet contains cotton thread soaked in medicine, if you send someone to send a message, pull the cotton thread Open, press a few times on the letter paper, and when the letter arrives in my hands, I will know whether it is really from you."

Feng Chen looked at the sachet with a strange expression for a while, reached out to catch it, put it in his arms, and murmured: "You have quite a lot of strange things in Liguo."

Li Xiruo glanced at him and said narrowly, "If you don't want it, return it to me."

"Who said I don't want it." Feng Chen subconsciously tightened his clothes, and pressed the position of the sachet.

There was a crackling sound from the candle.

Li Xiruo looked at the candlelight: "When will you leave tomorrow?"

"When."

"There are still two hours." Li Xiruo got up: "I will pack your luggage for you, you can go back and sleep for a while."

Feng Chen hummed, but still sat still, with a hesitant and hesitant look on his face.

Li Xiruo stopped and looked back at him, a little strange: "Did you want to say something?"

Feng Chen shook hands, then let go: "I never thought you were a person who killed innocent people indiscriminately, with blood on your hands." He looked into Li Xiruo's eyes: "Everything you do is for Li Xiruo's sake." country, no one will blame you."

Li Xiruo was stunned for a moment, then a faint wry smile gradually overflowed from her lips.

He shook his head: "Didn't you say that there is no distinction between good and evil in war, no matter for any reason, invading other countries is a kind of plunder and oppression. The same is true for killing people. In this world, who is born Damn it, who has to die? No matter how many reasons I have, I can’t cover up the fact that I took someone’s life away.”

He looked at Feng Chen and sighed softly, the red candlelight and Feng Chen's figure melted in his deep eyes: "I have no choice, but you can still choose, so I hope that you don't want to be with me." I take the same path, don't hurt so many people."

Feng Chen looked at him, his heart was filled with thousands of words, but they were all so pale that it was impossible to speak.

Feng Chen stood up and opened his mouth: "Are you... very uncomfortable?" His voice was dry and weak, as if even he himself felt that this question was meaningless, but he couldn't help but ask.

Li Xiruo smiled, noncommittal, and said flatly: "There are some things that must be done by someone."

Feng Chen stood there, frowning tightly, not knowing what to say or how to say, after a long while, he said: "If you really don't want to do it, then don't do it, you can leave the matter to King Suyou, or That prime minister is fine too, you just take care of the sacrificial offerings."

Li Xiruo walked back in front of him, Feng Chen lowered his head, his figure was printed in his eyes, there was puzzlement and heartache in the depths of his pupils.

Li Xiruo: "Feng Chen, there is a sentence that I have never said to anyone, and I never thought I would say it, but I will tell you today."

The author has something to say: I stopped this chapter on purpose, what can you do to me╭(╯^╰)╮huh.