I don't want to be sick anymore

What should I do if I really can't remember the lines?Xiao He thought of many ways during this time.He didn't have any troubles in this area before, and he could memorize all the lines after reading it once.But now he not only can't remember the lines, but also has difficulty concentrating.When the director started filming, his whole brain was empty. He didn't know whether it was because of nervousness or some other reason, but his whole body froze and he couldn't move.

The doctor said there was something wrong in his brain, and he didn't know if that was the cause.

It hurts so much, I really want to give up.But since he accepted this drama, if he said to give up now, his whole life would be ruined.What will he do next?Have you stopped acting for the rest of your life?And in his current situation, there is no way for him to do other work, right?

Every night before going to bed, he repeatedly recalled the lines he had memorized today, which was what Xiao He did at first.If you memorize it before going to bed, you should remember to be familiar with it.And didn't you say that you think about it every day and dream at night?If he was reciting lines all day, maybe he was subconsciously reciting lines at night when he was dreaming.He thought so, but there were very few lines that he could recall alone every night, and he had faint signs of insomnia.

There is nothing scarier than being unable to sleep all night long.He was obviously very sleepy, but he just couldn't fall asleep.Only when you are constantly busy, can you feel a little sleepy and squint for a while after you are busy.And what made him feel even more painful was that the schedule these days was very full, sometimes he didn't fall asleep all night, but he had to film non-stop the next day, even filming for a day and a night.His physical condition is very bad, but he can't change it.

The best way now is to give up the movie and pay liquidated damages. Anyway, the crew can always find a suitable actor, not to mention his current situation, even the rookies are much better than him.

However, he didn't want to give up like this.He couldn't believe he was so unlucky, no, no, he couldn't believe he was just so broken.So he gritted his teeth and resisted.

Sometimes when he can't hold on, he feels very sad, and when he is so sad that he is about to die, he will think about Qi Xia.He now thinks clearly, no matter whether that memory is true or false, even if everything is his delusion.He loves Qi Xia.It was all because of the existence of this person that brightened his gloomy life.

When he was possessed by the Fading God before, he was always very unlucky, it was the kind of situation where he would be unlucky wherever he went.Can you imagine a life like that?Constantly unlucky.In summer, he couldn't even turn on the air conditioner at home, because the air conditioner would break if he touched it, so he had to ask someone to turn it on for him.He can't even touch things like electric fans, computers, and mobile phones, because they will break if he touches them.At the most exaggerated time, when the teacher was showing a movie in class, he asked him to turn off the lights. After he touched it...the power went off.Before meeting Qi Xia, he didn't have any happy things.After Shuaishen was taken away, he did feel relieved, but he couldn't say he was happy.

Perhaps he subconsciously felt that he did not deserve happiness.Because he is always so unlucky.

In fact, he was very sorry for Qi Xia, he had been abusing him all the time, and it didn't matter at all that he hurt him at first, because, probably because of frequent unlucky luck, he was not as kind as he imagined, it can be said that from some aspects Said that he hated the world, and also hated himself.

Before meeting Qi Xia, he didn't know what happiness is.It can't be said that, it should be after meeting Qi Xia that he knows what happiness is, right?

But now it's all over.

Can't remember the lines, so Xiao He also adopted a method.Choose a place you are most familiar with, and then use your imagination to put various items in order.This method can feel awkward at first because it forces thinking.Although Xiao He memorizes his lines seriously every time and delves into the meaning inside, his thinking is not under his control, which means he can't devote himself wholeheartedly into it.There is no way to do this, people are always lazy, no matter how determined they are.For example, when he recites his lines, he recites them very seriously and tries his best to be single-minded, but even if he really puts himself into it, he still lacks a little bit, he is not thinking.He was idly thinking.

Using the memory palace method, Xiao He forced himself to think.In general, the effect is much better than memorizing by rote before, because those things are placed there, and he only needs to walk over and blow off the dust floating on them, and then he can see their original appearance clearly.

The next thing to overcome is that he trembles with nervousness every time he starts shooting, and he can't even move.He has never encountered this kind of thing before. He has always been confident and calm when he works. Of course, everyone who has seen him recognizes his acting skills and talent.But now he has forgotten all these things.

It's just forgotten, it's not gone, he will find it back one day.

"Okay, machine one and two are ready." The director gestured to Xiao He who was about to enter the country, "Start up."

...Again, here again, I can't even move my body.

There were bursts of questioning whispers around, he has been ridiculed many times, this time he must not lose, hurry up, what's wrong with my body?Xiao He was dripping with cold sweat.

He suddenly felt a warm object approaching behind him, someone hugged his shoulders, and the warm palm gave him strength: "Don't be nervous, relax, you can do it, take a deep breath, take a deep breath."

When Xiao He turned his head to meet those amber eyes, he smiled, then closed his eyes trustingly, and took a deep breath.

"Take a deep breath...you did a good job." Qi Xia's gentle voice sounded.Immediately afterwards, Qi Xia greeted the director with wide-eyed and stunned eyes, "Director, can you do it again? He just came out of the hospital because he was not feeling well. Please be considerate."

Although the director frowned dissatisfiedly, he didn't say anything serious this time.

"No. [-] and [-], get ready and turn on."

After saying that, Xiao He took a deep breath, and then opened those obsidian-like eyes, which regained their previous self-confidence and calmness this time.