Blooming legacy

Looking at his injured leg, I felt ashamed.If there is any root cause of the disease, I will become a sinner through the ages, how can I forgive myself. "You...your legs..."

"Du Ruo! If my legs are crippled, will you take care of me?" Is it true?No, it's impossible! "You know how my leg hurt, right?" Was it the day I left?Is it really?It was just suspicion before, but now, I'm afraid it's true. "Why aren't you talking? Hehe... Du Ruo! You..."

"If it is true, I will take care of you!" I don't know where the courage came from, but as long as I think that I am the murderer who indirectly hurt him, I feel very sad.

"Hehe... What about your Xie Chi?" I could see the joy on his face, as if he had won a war.yes!What about Xie Chi?When I said this just now, didn't I think of him? "You really resemble him. Du Xiao is right." He looked at my face, trying to hide something, but couldn't. "Won't you refuse people?"

"You're talking about Du Ming, aren't you?"

"You heard it all." There was no doubt, no surprise.

"you like him."

"Well... before. There is another person who likes him with me. Guess who? You know." I know?Xie Chi's name popped up in my mind, and I was completely defenseless. "It's Xie Chi! Did you guess it?" Xie Chi, it really was Xie Chi.Hearing his name, let me take a cold breath.

"You...you all like him, you like me...just because I resemble him." God knows, how I managed to complete this sentence.My head was bewildered for a while, and my heart was beating suddenly.

"No, not all of them, at least I'm not. As for Xie Chi, I don't know." He looked out the window, his eyes filled with emptiness.And my world also followed along with nothingness.I yearn for a bright and happy life. This desire is an instinct that precedes everything. Although there have been moments of joy, it cannot guarantee that the road to happiness in the future will be unimpeded.I wanted to take a shortcut, but unfortunately, at the corner of happiness, I encountered pain.

"I'm leaving first, and I'll see you again when I have time!" I don't want to stay here for a moment, I can feel the trembling of my hands, and the tapping of sadness.Yun Kai's call came from behind me, but I ignored it.

The noise from the street came to my ears, buzzing, making people sick, and I don't know how to get home.

The moment I saw Xie Chi, I suppressed the tears all the way down.He rushed over and hugged me tightly, and then wiped away the tears on my face with his hands, but the liquid couldn't flow anymore, he said, this meeting ceremony is too big, I can't bear it.When I thought of Yun Kai, I thought of Du Ming, so I pushed him away and sat on the sofa without saying a word.

"What's wrong? Where did you go?"

"This kid is going to meet... a friend of his!" Mom came out with two cups of coffee. I hope she brought tea, because Xie Chi likes to drink it.He said that drinking tea regularly is good for health, but he refused to let me drink it, saying that drinking tea is bad for my health because I am sick.Xie Chi, just use this disease to provoke me all day long.For this reason, I ignored him for two days.Later, he specially prepared a kind of tea for me with traditional Chinese medicine and flowers, saying that drinking it would be good for my health.God knows whether it is good or not, I will eat whatever he asks me to eat, and drink whatever he asks me to drink, and I will take his words as an imperial decree.

"Oh? Du Ruo...has friends in the United States? Why haven't I heard you mention it?"

"Why should I tell you that you don't have a close friend, and I didn't know about it?" I'm afraid there was a lot of anger in my heart, and the words I said were also a little angry.I felt his hand holding the coffee pause, Du Ruo, you are just too sensitive, how sad!A little bit of pleasure or torture can send you to heaven or hell.Life itself is hard enough, why add false and miserable premonitions to it?

"Xiao Ruo! Xie Chi is just asking casually. If you don't want to say it, don't say it. Why are you getting angry?" I lowered my head, like a goblin showing her true form, that is, showing her true form, revealing my angry original form. , revealing the truth about what I care about.

"Auntie, it's okay. Du Ruo is just talking casually, so we just listen casually, hehe..." Xie Chi accompanied a smiling face, drinking that kind of bitter stuff, I think his heart has always been bitter, those sweet things , no matter who it is with, it is the past.Perhaps, the sweetness of the past is not sweet, but a scene of self-comfort.

"I went to see Yunkai, he was hospitalized with a comminuted calf fracture." After facing the worst, I calmed down, and then, I was able to think.I know what a relationship is like, but I'm not ready for the pain of loss.

"Oh." No surprise.His reaction is always the same as that of Yun Kai, when were you surprised?Will it be when I die?He probably already knew about Yunkai, Yunkai came to the United States, and he followed, so why not worry?Xie Chi, didn't I choose you?What are you worried about?Don't believe me, or don't believe yourself?

"Xie Chi, do you know Du Ming?" His hand holding the coffee visibly trembled, then he put down the cup and looked at me.

"How did you know?" Finally surprised?Didn't expect Yunkai to tell me?Xie Chi, if he hadn't told me, how long are you going to lie to me?If you want, you can cheat for the rest of your life, that's fine.

"Guess how I know? Who else would know about Du Ming?" It goes without saying.

"What else did he say to you?"

"He still wants to tell me something, but I don't want to hear it anymore, Xie Chi, I want to hear you tell me." I just want the wound to be more bloody, otherwise you don't know what a scar is, forget it pain.

"Du Ruo! I really like you!"

"I want to hear you tell a story, a story about Du Ming, of course you and Yun Kai are also the main characters." Perfunctory me?How about that?I have been perfunctory since I was a child.

"Du Ruo...you..."

"You think I won't know if you don't tell me?" I let you tell me to give you a chance to let me know that you like me, not Du Ming's shadow.If you can't tell, then I have nothing to miss.

"Okay, I'll tell. Today, in front of my aunt, I'll explain this clearly, so as not to misunderstand." Okay, I'm all ears. "In high school, me, Yunkai, and Du Ming are classmates in the same dormitory. Du Ming...he has congenital heart disease, but we don't know it. The day we knew was the day he left. Du Ming It’s good to everyone, but it’s not good to ourselves, and we... still bully him.” He seemed to be lost in thought, his eyes fixed on the coffee, and after a while, he said lightly, but he couldn’t hide the pain in his heart. Pain, I can hear it. "Until the day he died, we were still... bullying him, hehe... I really made an unforgivable mistake." Then there was silence again, he could no longer speak, his heart was bleeding.I suddenly hated myself, why let him say, why sprinkle salt in his wounds.He is like a wounded beast, licking his wound alone, as strong as him, as fragile as him.

"Xie Chi..."

"It's been a long time, I didn't dare to mention his name... Today, talking to you and auntie is like confessing. Du Ruo, I regard you as my God, and I hope you can save me." He didn't finish speaking, he My story is complete and out of shape, everything is said, but nothing is said, and I don't understand anything.Just hearing his last words broke all my defenses, Du Ruo, why can't you persist.

"Xie Chi...do you like him?" You should understand who I'm talking about, as long as you say something you don't like, no matter if it's true or false, I can convince myself to continue.

"Du Ruo, I didn't have time to like you. What I like now is you." What kind of answer is this? If he didn't die, you would like him, right?

"I'm very similar to him?" Didn't Yun Kai see him through me?What about you, have you seen his shadow?He was silent, which was the answer I was most afraid of. "It's kind of like it?" I could feel the slight tremor in my voice, followed by the beating heart.

"Du Ruo...you have the same congenital heart disease as him, and the others...have no resemblance." It turned out that Xie Chi would also lie to me, and when he lied, his eyes would reveal people's hearts, as expected.Don't dare to look directly at me, dodge.Do you care about my feelings or cover up something?

"Oh! So you went to study medicine, not for me, but because of him, right?" A student who studied law is so proficient in Chinese medicine. Although he can't say he has reached the point of proficiency, he still has two brushes.How could he start learning those things in his stomach after he met me? He has already studied them.Du Ruo, you are so stupid, if someone gives you a piece of candy, you would never think that it is a bomb wrapped in it.

"Duruo..."

"Don't say anything. I'm tired, Mom, you call him." I got up to go, but there was a throbbing pain in my heart, and I gasped for breath.I pretended to be strong, but how could my distorted face escape their eyes.I covered my heart with my hands, but that's not where it hurts. Could it be stomach pain?

"Xiao Ruo!" Mom panicked and came to help me, but now I am being supported by Xie Chi, it is really close to the water, if I hadn't lived in your house, I wouldn't be so dependent on you, and my stomach wouldn't be like this Relying on you, I become a slave to dependence.I pushed Xie Chi away and let out a muffled sound, God knows how my stomach pushed me when I pushed him.

"Du Ruo!" He came to help me again, "Why bother?" Why bother?Yes, why bother me.

"Xiao Ruo, tell mom if your heart is not feeling well!" She always thinks about her heart, but she won't think about my stomach ache.

"It's okay, Mom. I have a...stomach pain, not a...heart." I don't want to go to the hospital, I have a hunch she will take me to the hospital. "I... just eat something." Endure, pretend, deceive others, and deceive myself.

"I'll do it!" Xie Chi volunteered, I looked at his back helplessly.I lay on the bed to appease a woman, what a sensible child I am.I swallowed my broken teeth and blood into my stomach, not daring to say a word, why, because I also have difficulties.

"Xiao Ruo! Don't hold back, Mom knows you have a stomachache, so we won't go to the hospital."

"Hmm..." My painstaking efforts will eventually be understood.Listening to Xie Chi's busy voice in the kitchen, I felt extremely irritable. "Mom, go cook."

"Xiao Ruo, you don't like my cooking, I know. These days, I'm learning how to cook delicious and nutritious Chinese food from a master. Hehe... Xie Chi's cooking is good, I know, you like to eat his cooking Yes. Give him a chance today, and I will try his handicrafts too. You have a lot of food!" To be honest, I don't want to eat what he makes now.