Blooming legacy

"Xiao Ruo, what do you think? I want to hear your thoughts." There are still people who care about my thoughts, and I think this is the most beautiful thing I have heard in my life.However, the sad and exasperating thing is that I have no idea at all now. After hearing Xie Chi's words, I was shocked and worried.What shocked me was that he went to study medicine with a teacher. I only heard him talk about it before, and I thought he was joking. I didn't expect him to be serious. What worried me was whether he could still get his bachelor's degree in law?Does he have the energy to cope?Thinking that all of what he did was because of me, I felt sour in my heart.

"Xiao Ruo, you have a very good relationship with those two boys? They seem to care about you very much!" She hesitated when she said the word caring, did she want to use other words?

"Oh, they're all good friends."

"Then I don't think the two of them are very friendly? Did they quarrel?" I really didn't expect her to be so sensitive.

"No, you're just guessing!"

"I also hope that I'm just guessing!" She picked up an apple and peeled it skillfully, then cut a piece and fed it to me. "Ahem...Xiao Ruo, do you know about homosexuality?" Hearing this, the apple in my mouth was coughed out, and I felt terrified, so she quickly comforted me on my chest.

"Mother! I have a bad heart! Will you please stop talking of this nature?"

"What kind of nature?" I rolled her eyes.

"Perverted nature!"

"Hehehe...perverted nature? Yes, yes, a little perverted. But you know what son, this is normal in America!" She continued to feed me apples, and I refused.

"I am Chinese."

"Hehe... Okay, you are Chinese, can you tell your mother what happened to your lips?" I touched my lips subconsciously, feeling a little hot on my face, maybe my mother already knew?How would she know?How could she know?She got it, she thought I was gay?It's over, my innocence. "Tell you, son, I already know everything about you! But all I know is that they both like you, but I don't know which one you like?"

"Mom! Does it matter which one I like? Not to mention it's against common sense, even my life will end suddenly at any moment!" You have abandoned me for more than ten years, haven't you?

"Xiao Ruo, forgive my mother for being absent for so many years, but I want you to know that I made this choice precisely because I was afraid of losing and dare not face losing. When you grow up, you should understand my heart." Yes, I understand, and because of understanding, I have not been able to hate anyone or blame anyone, so I have always planned to leave alone and silently. It was originally a world of one person, but suddenly you came, I was a little at a loss , like a person who has nothing and suddenly inherits a large inheritance.Holding the money, I felt at a loss like never before. I couldn't get excited because I had too much at once, which bent my sky. She bent down and kissed my forehead.

"Let's get down to business, Xiao Ruo! Do you want to go with me or stay?"

"Didn't you say you had no choice?"

"Now there are some choices, what do you choose?"

"Can I live healthy? Can I live for a long time? When I listened to you, I felt like I could live for a long time. Am I stupid?"

"No, you feel right, you can live for a long, long time." She took my hand, and I felt a warmth on it, I thought it was her tears, and my heart was also warm.

I didn't know whether to go or stay, and I was extremely depressed in the hospital.Mom actually went to Xie Chi's house, the place where I lived with him.In fact, we didn't do anything, we only shared the same bed for one night, there is still a reason, Xie Chi is sick, what a high-sounding reason.After Mom came back from Xie Chi, the way she looked at me changed, and her smile became weird.I tried to explain, but explaining would make it worse.

"Xiao Ruo, I have already made arrangements. We will go to the United States in two days."

"Go to the United States? But... didn't you say you let me choose?" You made the decision for me so quickly, since you have already made the decision, why do you ask my choice.

"Then have you made a choice in the past two days? If you wait like this, the day lily will be cold. So I chose for you. Of course, you can object, and the objection is valid. Do you object?" So the right to choose falls to me again. I have it, but I really can't decide.

"After the operation, will you come back?"

"It's all up to you. If you want to come back, you can come back. If you don't want to come back, you can stay in the United States and be with mom. Xiao Ruo, I want to live with you so much. Our days will no longer be blank." I can feel her These words moved my heart. A child who lacked maternal love since childhood can suddenly fall into the arms of his mother. Just like the song, happiness cannot be enjoyed.

That night, I was lying on the hospital bed alone, looking at the moon outside the window, the round moon gradually transformed into Xie Chi's face, then into Yunkai's face, then into Xie Chi's face, then into... ... Xie Chi's face, that face, became clearer and more real when I looked at it. I reached out to touch it, and the warm breath passed into my hand. I was shocked and pulled my hand back. He is here, why is he here? up?

"Du Ruo!" It really was him, he buried his face on the hospital bed, and lifted it up after a while, "Auntie said that you will go to the United States...to have an operation in two days. I believe you...will be fine, just Afraid...you will never come back, I dare not ask you whether you will come back, I am afraid of hearing an answer that will break my heart." There was a moment of silence, "In my heart... how much I hope you can come back, come back and let me Take care of you, take good care of you..." There was another silence, and under the hazy moonlight, I saw something bright on his face, probably tears.I suddenly had the urge to hold him in my arms, and when I realized that my arm really made this movement at that moment, I regretted it a bit.Because Xie Chi seemed to have a tacit understanding with me at that moment, so he took advantage of the situation and fell into my arms.At this moment, he was as fragile as a child, pressing against my chest and making muffled sounds, and I unconsciously caressed his back. Just when I thought he was about to fall asleep in my arms, he suddenly fell asleep. I came out of my arms, sat up straight, looked at me very firmly and said, "If you don't come back, I will go to find you. My love for you cannot be stopped by distance. With me, all love can The problems that are solved are not problems." Xie Chi, you are so poor that you only have love, but in my opinion, the person who owns it is the richest person in the world.

"I need a lot of money for surgery, 1000 million dollars, do you have it? Can your love solve it? Be realistic, are you a person in the 21st century?" I used this to refute him and let him know that love It cannot solve all problems.

"Oh, love needs to be expressed through material things, right?" He touched my face, "So what is a mere $1000 million, I put all the money in the world, such as US dollars, Canadian dollars, euros, British pounds, I collected all the renminbi, and I gave it to you, and I think it’s too little!" He leaned down and kissed my forehead, "Look, you are a priceless treasure in my heart!" After finishing speaking, he leaned down again, and I hid opened.

"Come on!" I didn't want him to take advantage of me again and again, he froze there, I pushed him, he fell on the bed, and later he lay on the hospital bed again, "What are you doing? You sleep here, I'm leaving!"

"Where are you going? Where are you going? I'll go with you, hehe..." He also dragged me down on the bed, and we just lay down next to each other, feeling like we were jumping and jumping, stronger than ever.

"Do you still remember the last time we shared the same bed? Hehe... I regard that day as an anniversary in my life! January 2007, 1, every time I say it, I feel very happy." I can Feeling his narcissism, in fact, how can I forget that quiet and beautiful night, and tonight with the moon as a companion, it is even more indescribable. "Du Ruo! Look, on January 4 every year from now on, no matter where you are, I will share the bed with you. Just lying there and doing nothing, I feel extremely happy, beyond words, knowing Is it?" Then he started counting on his fingers, 1/4/08, 1/4/09, 1/4/10, 1/4/11, 1/4/12, when he counted to 1 On January 4, 13, his eyes suddenly lit up, as if he had discovered a new world, "Du Ruo, look, January 1, 4, January 2013, 1, 4, 2013." He said word by word Then, talking and looking at me.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" It made me invisible.

"Do you know what it means? 201314."

"What do you mean?"

"Love you forever! Stupid!" I convinced him. "Wait for that day of the year, I will marry you! I will love you for the rest of my life, hehe... that's great!"

"What crazy words are you talking about? Are you stupid?" I turned away from him, but my heart felt sweet. Don't look at my face now, it must be flushed.

"Hehe... If I go crazy someday, I'll be crazy because of you. If I'm really stupid someday, I'll be crazy because of you. Just like Jia Baoyu, crazy, stupid!"

"Jia Baoyu is also a woman!"

"What's wrong with women? What's wrong with me being a man?"

"You don't care what other people think?"

"I don't waste my life thinking about others." He turned my body around, and we faced each other, with the distance between our faces only six or seven centimeters. "Should I suppress my sexual orientation because of public opinion and moral ethics? Maybe I can suppress it, but it is so painful. This is a bad joke from God. Faced with this kind of fate, the best way Just let nature take its course, live as you please, go your own way, let others say it! Life is a tragedy, no matter how hard you struggle, it will be useless, and in the end it will only increase the pain!" He lightly landed on my forehead. A kiss, I did not dodge.

"Then do you know my sexual orientation? If you drag a straight man into the water, won't you feel guilty?" God knows, how much courage I mustered up to discuss this perverted issue with him, it's strange why I blurted it out so naturally .

"Then are you a straight man?" He asked so cunningly, and I was confused by the question. I haven't talked to girls much since I was a child, and I haven't liked any girl. Of course, no girl has said that she likes me.I don't know what my sexual orientation is, so how can I answer it. "Really?" Asked again, recalling the past scenes with Xie Chi, I suddenly realized how important his position in my heart is, let alone his affection for me, just talk about the hard work he put on me And thoughts, I will never forget them in my life, nor can I pay them back.Some of the meals that he cooks for me are all figured out by himself. He secretly went to study medicine without telling me, and he put important things into the meals in different ways, and he still cooks them so deliciously.Who ever treated me like this, Du Ruo?No, only Xie Chi and him.Just thinking about it makes my nose sore and my eye sockets wet. I'm so fucking useless.Seeing me crying, he panicked all of a sudden. "Du Ruo... are you crying? Don't cry, don't cry..." He wiped away my tears with his big warm hands, "I won't ask you anymore, don't cry, it hurts my heart." He said I hugged me tightly and kissed my hair, "In two days, don't worry, go away! I will wait for you, and if I can't wait for you, I will keep looking for you, and if I can't find you..." suddenly said.