The Heart of a Smith

Liang Zirui's heart skipped a beat. Li Sui's question was clueless, but he actually understood, and comforted him softly: "Your nervous system is stimulated by drugs, it's all hallucination, don't take it seriously."

Li Sui covered his eyes with the back of his hand and shook his head. He was quite sure that what he saw was not a hallucination, but a past that he had deliberately forgotten.He was even able to connect with the memories behind. Later, he was rescued by fishermen and sent to a rescue station. After waking up, he couldn't remember anything except his surname Li.The staff of the rescue station went to inquire about his life experience, but found nothing, even his birth record was not found, so he had to be sent to an orphanage.After that, he was adopted, lost and trafficked, and wandered until he met Lu Shang again.

Liang Zirui poured him a glass of water, waited patiently for him to calm down, measured his blood pressure, and performed various checks to avoid any drug residue.

"The threshold has been measured, do you feel any discomfort?"

Li Sui just shook his head, feeling depressed, obviously he still hasn't come out of the hallucination.

"Don't think too much, eat something and sleep well, then forget everything." Liang Zirui patted him on the shoulder.

"How much do you know about what happened 17 years ago?" Li Sui raised his head.

Liang Zirui looked at him and was silent for a while, knowing that he couldn't avoid it, he sighed in his heart and asked, "What do you want to ask?"

"My mother, is she still alive?"

"When she went to look for you, the cancer cells had already spread, and the bullet pierced her lung lobe. Although the doctors tried their best to save her, it was still..."

"Where is she buried?"

"In your hometown, you have to ask Lu Shang for the exact location."

Li Sui lowered his head, feeling discouraged: "He knows everything, why won't he tell me?"

"Li Sui, think about it carefully, you know it now, but isn't this a kind of secondary injury? Since your brain chooses to seal up this memory, how could he take the initiative to reveal it, let alone, you It's different than before, you have him now."

Li Sui didn't speak, Liang Zirui said again: "When I was not in the country, I heard many things from the elders. After you were taken away by the river, they went downstream to look for you. Unfortunately, it was raining too hard and nothing was found. , they always thought you were dead.

"Lu Shang's father has always been very guilty of Lu Shang. He didn't give him a healthy body, so he knew that his time limit was approaching, and he wanted to use you to make up for him. He didn't expect things to turn out like this. After all, two lives , His father later regretted intervening in your life, and he was so brooding about it that he finally died of regret.

"It's hard for me to say what Lu Shang himself thinks about this matter, but seven years ago, when I saw him treat you so carefully, I guess, in fact, he feels no less guilty than his father, but he doesn't say it. Li Sui, you should know what kind of person Lu Shang is. He is strong against outsiders, but he is very soft-hearted towards you. I believe he never thought of hurting you, otherwise things would not be like this situation.

"Oh, maybe this is really fate..." Liang Zirui sighed.

Li Sui fell into silence. He never believed in such illusory things as fate, but he never thought that his fate and Lu Shang's fate had been entangled so early on, so much so that seven The reunion a few years ago was so coincidental that it seemed that the heavens deliberately arranged it.

"Do you want to take a break? Shall I bring you some food?"

"Leave me alone for a while."

Liang Zirui glanced at him and knew that it was useless to say more. Such a sudden influx of information really took time to digest. As a doctor, he could only treat diseases, but not psychological trauma.But Liang Zirui is not worried, Li Sui is already an adult, has his own independent thinking, and was trained very well by Lu Shang, even if so many things happened, he will not forget what he wants.

He left space for Li Sui, opened the door and went out, outside Leon was writing a report, his fingers were crackling on the notebook.

"how is he?"

"The drug stimulated his memory area, and he remembered things from his childhood."

"Really?" Leon showed an expression of disbelief, "This is really a windfall, and I'm going to write it in the report."

Liang Zirui didn't answer. He was taught by Leon. He knew that the thinking of medical madmen was fundamentally different from that of ordinary people. Leon probably couldn't understand their delicate nerves. He could only do medical analysis.

"Professor," Liang Zirui said with rare confusion in his eyes, "In medicine, are physical factors really more important than emotional factors?"

"That depends on how you define them, my child."

"Three years ago, I diagnosed Lu Shang and found that all his physical data were normal. I thought he would not survive a year without surgery, although I knew it was probably just a temporary effect of dopamine. Magic, but I wonder if something like emotion can affect a person's condition to a certain extent?"

"Interesting topic, just like the placebo effect we often say, in fact, we often see such cases in clinical practice, people with terminal cancer miraculously healed, and people who were dying succeeded under the call of their relatives Restoring your heartbeat, honey, you have to understand one thing."

Liang Zirui cast his gaze away.

"If a person desperately wants to live, God will make way for him."

Li Sui had been blowing wind on the roof of the hospital for a long time, and when he came down again, nothing could be seen on his face.During this period, Lu Shang called him. When Li Sui saw the missed call, he returned it with the same expression, and his tone was as calm as if nothing had happened.

While eating his box lunch, Liang Zirui lamented that this person's acting skills could almost apply for an Oscar. Leon came out of the laboratory in a hurry and went to the bathroom. Liang Zirui knew that he was probably addicted to cigarettes again. Sure enough, he washed his hands refreshed after a quarter of an hour, and his eyes were two points bright.

"Professor, you won't be addicted to smoking during the surgery, right?" Liang Zirui worried.

"Do I look so unreliable?" Leon touched his chin, and said again: "You should still worry about your friends, you two had better be mentally prepared, the success rate of this operation may be very low .”

When Li Sui heard this, he cast his gaze: "What?"

"I have calculated that we need to cut the great saphenous vein from the patient's leg, find out the good blood vessels at both ends of the diseased coronary artery, connect this vein between them, perform blood vessel suturing, and then remove an aneurysm During the whole process of surgery, it is almost impossible for the aneurysm not to rupture, and the trauma to the heart will be very severe, so I cannot guarantee the final result of the surgery."

Li Sui's hands trembled unconsciously. Although he was prepared in his heart, the operation would definitely not be simple. If it was simple, Liang Zirui would have done it to Lu Shang long ago, but from Leon's mouth, his feelings are still different. : "...What is the chance of the operation being successful?"

Leon just shook his head: "From the recent similar cases, the success rate of aneurysm resection is less than 10%."

There was a sudden silence in the room for a few seconds, Li Sui slowly sat down while supporting the chair, his face turned pale.

"You... want to do it for him?"

Li Sui didn't answer, but clenched and loosened his trembling palms, and clenched them again.

No doubt he hesitated.

10%, almost close to death, Li Sui didn't even dare to think about how he would face this result if Lu Shang couldn't make it through, he could do anything for Lu Shang, but he didn't dare to risk his life.

"Wait a little longer...let me think about it again..." Li Sui pressed his brows together.

It was late at night, the lights in the corridor were turned off, and the whole hospital seemed peaceful and quiet.

Li Sui lingered outside the door for a long time before knocking on the door of the laboratory.

"professor."

Leon was writing a report, and he didn't seem surprised to see him coming in: "You're here."

"You know I'm coming?" Li Sui asked.

Leon smiled inexplicably: "Tell me, what do you want to ask?"

Li Sui looked at him, and knew that Leon had seen through his thoughts long ago, so he simply didn't hide it: "I want to know, if I want to do a heart transplant, what preparations should I make as a donor?"

"Young man, why seek your own death?"

Li Sui lowered his head, looking very sad: "I can't help but watch him go to gain this [-]%, I hope he can live well, even without me."

Leon didn't speak, after a while, he got up and patted him on the shoulder.

When Li Sui came home, the light in the bedroom was still on, and Lu Shang was sitting by the bed looking through the bedside table. Li Sui glanced at his reddish eyes, and knew that he had just vomited, and asked in a low voice, "Uncomfortable?"

"No, I'm much better today." Lu Shang lowered his head, quietly and skillfully turned out the pills and squeezed them into his mouth.

Li Sui looked at his movements, feeling extremely uncomfortable, and asked, "Is it bitter?"

Lu Shang shook his head, raised his head and smiled faintly, Dr. Liang had prescribed bitter medicines for him recently, which completely tortured Lu Shang's fear of suffering.

Li Sui stepped forward to hold his hand, and said in a deep voice, "After the winter is over, we won't have to take any more bitter medicine."

Early the next morning, Li Sui came over to draw blood. Doctor Liang felt relieved after confirming that there was nothing serious, and handed him a bottle of trace elements: "You take this, if you feel uncomfortable when you go back, you can take a piece."

Li Sui picked it up without saying a word, and stuffed it into his pocket casually.

Seeing that he was preoccupied, Liang Zirui thought something was wrong: "Didn't you tell him last night?"

Li Sui lowered his head in silence and shook his head for a while.

Liang Zirui was surprised: "Are you going to tell him?"

"What happened when I was a child is over. As long as he doesn't mention it, I won't mention it. You are right. He is my lover now, and I choose to trust him. In addition, about the operation...don't tell him for now. , He is not in good health recently, I am afraid he will think too much."

Liang Zirui didn't express his opinion, Li Sui asked again: "Does Professor Leon have any plans for the future? If not, I hope he can stay."

"His visa is about to expire, and he has to go back to China to deal with it. He said, if you think about it, he can come over at any time."

Li Sui nodded: "Tomorrow I will bring Lu Shang over for a routine examination."

Liang Zirui stuffed his hands into his white coat: "Why, is he in a bad condition?"

Li Sui: "It's still the same old problems, but this time it's much more serious and lasts longer than before. I'm a little worried..."

"Seven years," Liang Zirui sighed as if he had expected it a long time ago, "He has delayed the operation for seven full years since he brought you back. This is already a super performance for him. His time, One day at a time, you'd better make a decision early."

Li Sui lowered his eyes, turned and left in silence.