The Heart of a Smith

Those usually deep eyes were filled with sadness at this moment. For the first time, Lu Shang realized so strongly that the person sitting opposite him was a man, not the boy who could be fooled casually.

"Not at all?" Li Sui tried his best to hold back tears, even begging in his eyes, and choked up, "Is it because of your heart matching that you treat me well from the beginning to the end?"

Lu Shang remained silent, Li Sui's continuous questioning was like countless shards of glass, piercing his heart, making people breathless, he couldn't answer, and he couldn't speak.

"I see." Li Sui nodded as if mocking himself.

Lu Shang seemed to be very tired. He just looked at him and opened his mouth, but he didn't say anything in the end.

"Over the past year, I have been looking for any way to make you healthy. I have thought of many ways, asked many people, and checked many medical books, but I have never thought of anything that can make you healthy. It turned out to be on me." Li Sui showed a wry smile, "Lu Shang, I'm actually very happy, at least...at least you are not helpless."

From the moment he saw Lu Shang enter the door, Li Sui gave up and accepted his fate. He had a fact in his heart that he didn't want to admit: Even if he knew that Lu Shang was going to poach his heart, he would take it out without hesitation. come out to him.

"Stop it," Lu Shang interrupted him suddenly, his voice suppressed, "It's impossible for me to have a heart transplant, so stop it."

"Why?" Li Sui looked at him deeply, with sharp searching eyes.

This gaze made people unable to hide. Lu Shang didn't want to meet his gaze. He looked away, his whole body was burning, his ears were ringing badly, and his chest was bursting with dull pain. He really didn't have the strength to talk much.

"Why?" Li Sui repeated again, his eyes were relentless, as if he wanted to see through him.

Lu Shang's back was covered in cold sweat from the pain. Unable to bear it, he managed to stand up and turned around to go upstairs.

When he turned around, Li Sui grabbed his arm and said unwillingly, "Are you going to run away again?"

Looking at each other, Lu Shang whispered: "I have nothing to say to you, you are not even 20 years old, what do you know?"

Li Sui looked at him, his eyes gradually changed: "You really think I don't understand anything?"

Gradually approaching Lu Shang, he lowered his eyes and said, "When I had an accident in the training camp, why did you go to great lengths to find me, even using the military's power? Why didn't you hear me on the surface when I was intern in Dongyan? Don't ask, but secretly clear the way for me? When I was drunk and kissed you, why didn't you refuse, and why did you react to me?"

With heavy eyes, Li Sui slowly took him into his arms, and whispered to his ear: "Lu Shang, do you know how uncomfortable I felt when I saw you lying on the operating table? You know that I see you working so hard every day." , how much do I want to drive away all those people who make you worry and worry? Do you know how much perseverance it takes me to sleep next to you every day to control the urge to offend you? I can't help loving you, I even think……"

He didn't continue, but the unfinished words still shocked Lu Shang. He never knew that this child had treated him to such an extent.

"Don't drive me away, okay?" Li Sui kissed the back of his neck, his voice full of grievances, "I love you, don't take away my right to stay by your side."

Lu Shang shrank his neck subconsciously, and Li Sui hugged him very hard, as if he was afraid that he would run away, which made his wrists ache, and he couldn't help but struggle: "Let go of your hands first..."

"I'm not loose." Li Sui forced his avoiding face back, kissed down his chin, reached into Lu Shang's coat, and unbuttoned his shirt one by one, "I know you want to be alone Talk to me, and get Aunt Yuan Shulu and the others away."

Lu Shang only felt that his scalp was numb. He probably had a fever and his head was dizzy. He couldn't figure out what Li Sui was talking about for a while.

"What do you want to do?" Lu Shang frowned, "You...uh."

Li Sui bit his lips and blocked all the words he wanted to say. This was definitely not a gentle kiss. When they let go, there was blood on the lips of both of them. Li Sui breathed heat into his ear deliberately: "Lu Shang, I can't help it anymore, I want to take you as my own."

"You..." Lu Shang's body trembled uncontrollably, his breathing was in a mess, his hands and feet were weak, at this moment he felt hot all over, and his eyes were spinning.

Like a madman, Li Sui sucked heavily on his neck, and a red mark immediately appeared on his fair skin.The pain was very strong, Lu Shang let out a muffled snort, this mark-like mark made Li Sui suddenly excited, he picked him up and put him on the sofa.

The jacket and belt fell to the floor, Li Sui tore off Lu Shang's shirt, clamped his hands, easily suppressed the force of resistance, and kissed down the neck, collarbone, chest, belly button... …As if he finally had no scruples, he indulged in the skin that Xiao had thought about for a whole year, leaving a series of traces that belonged to him alone.

The light on the ceiling was extremely dazzling, Lu Shang's lips opened and closed weakly twice, double images gradually appeared in front of his eyes, the suffocation from lack of oxygen smudged like thick ink, and his consciousness began to slacken.

Li Sui licked and bit all the way, his scorching breath hit his fair skin, his palm moved down dissatisfied, and gently stroked it, until he reached the secret place behind him, he hesitated for a moment, his eyes darkened, and his index finger forced his way in. went in.

The instant stinging pain was like an arrow, directly hitting the depths of his brain, Lu Shang's breathing stopped suddenly, and the remaining consciousness seemed to abandon him suddenly, floating into the sky.

"Lu Shang..." Li Sui whispered in his ear softly, his voice full of forbearance, as if his wish had come true, "You're so hot inside."

The person who was violated didn't respond, Li Sui paused, noticing that the persistent refusal under his body had disappeared at some point, he hurriedly raised his head to look at him: "Lu Shang?"

Lu Shang lay quietly, his pale face tilted to one side weakly, his breathing was unsteady, and his body was shaking slightly.Li Sui's head buzzed, does it hurt so much?Thinking about it, he immediately withdrew his hand and hugged Lu Shang's head at a loss.

"I'm sorry, did I hurt you?"

Lu Shang's skin was very hot. Li Sui was too eager to feel it before, but now he touched it carefully with the back of his hand, and he realized that not only was Lu Shang's body temperature too high, but his shoulders were still shivering unconsciously, as if his chest was throbbing. .

He looked down at the disheveled man under him, his expression changed, and he suddenly woke up, all the blood on his face was gone, and his voice trembled: "Lu Shang, are you... having a fever?"

The strength suppressed on his body disappeared. Lu Shang frowned, his expression was extremely painful, and he curled up unconsciously. This movement appeared on him who was always calm, and there was a trace of fear.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid," Li Sui panicked, and hurriedly hugged him into his arms, "I... I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

However, the person in his arms just pursed his thin lips tightly, did not open his eyes, and his complexion was so pale that it seemed that a living person could not have it.

There was no response after shouting a few times, Li Sui was about to cry, he hurriedly helped him put on his clothes, and carried him to the garage: "Let's go to the hospital, I'm sorry, I didn't really want to hurt you, I just wanted to force you To be honest, I'm sorry... I didn't know you were sick..."

When he was galloping all the way to take Lu Shang to the hospital, Liang Zirui happened to be on duty because of the theft. He saw Li Sui carrying him in with his eyes red, muttering something, and was stunned for a while, thinking that something happened.

He didn't feel relieved until he personally pushed the person into the emergency room for a preliminary examination. He couldn't help but feel a little strange. Lu Shang's body has been weak recently, so it's not surprising that he would have a high fever. This child must have overreacted.

When the nurse came to install the equipment, he opened his clothes, and suddenly found a shocking hickey mark on Lu Shang's neck and chest. He was startled and almost knelt on the ground.

He rushed out without saying a word, gave Li Sui a fist, choked up with anger for a long time before cursing: "Don't you know he has a heart attack?"

Li Sui didn't dodge, and received the punch solidly, then stood firm and lowered his head to apologize, with self-blame written in his eyes.

Seeing his appearance, Liang Zirui was even more angry, pointing at him and saying: "You are a good boy, you...you dare to use force on him."

His fists were clenched until his knuckles turned white, Li Sui didn't answer, he bit his lips tightly and lowered his head, the sadness on his face made Liang Zirui angry and shocked.

Up to this point, Li Sui has no other choice, either he should not be so smart and simply believe Lu Shang's nonsense and go abroad obediently, or he should not be tempted at the very beginning.Now that he can't love, and can't be loved, of course he will feel unbearable pain.

After the injection, Lu Shang's condition stabilized a bit, and the fever finally subsided in the morning, but Liang Zirui immediately found out that there seemed to be something wrong with his heart, so he discussed it with Uncle Yuan on the phone and decided to take a small Operation.

The nurse and the assistant physician were nervously preparing the equipment, Liang Zirui finished checking the anesthetics, and glanced at Li Sui who was in the corner: "Do you want to stay here?"

Li Sui looked at Lu Shang who was sleeping on the operating table: "Is it okay?"

"Yes, yes." Liang Zirui put gloves on his hands and paused, "But I suggest you don't look at it."

Seeing Li Sui staring at him, he explained: "The impact of the scene of the operation is unbearable to those who have not received professional training. I don't want to see you vomit here."

Li Sui trembled almost invisible: "Do I affect you?"

"You don't affect me," Liang Zirui was busy, "You affect my assistant."

Li Sui's gaze shifted to the side, seeing the female doctor wearing a mask turned her head shyly, got up and walked to Lu Shang's side, and shook his hand: "I'll wait for you to come out."

That hand had no warmth and did not give any response, Li Sui clenched it slightly, only feeling pain in his heart.

It was a minor operation, and it didn't last long. It was pushed out before noon. Compared with the last time he was at a loss when taking care of others, this time Li Sui was already quite skilled. He was guarding him in the intensive care unit wearing anti-bacterial suit After he opened his eyes weakly once, he called the doctor to extubate.

Lu Shang's physique was too weak, and he was still not sober after being transferred to the general ward. In the middle, Li Sui fed him a little water with a straw, closed his eyes and continued to sleep, the whole process was in a daze.

In the evening, Liang Zirui came to have a check-up, and seeing Li Sui still sitting beside the hospital bed blankly, he couldn't help but soften his heart: "Go and eat something, he should be waking up soon."

Li Sui's gaze fell on Lu Shang's face for a long time, but upon hearing this, he just stretched out his hand and gently put his wrist into the quilt, as if he was reluctant to let go.

Lu Shang woke up two hours later, only Liang Zirui was by his side.

"Don't look for him, he's not here." Liang Zirui said when he saw his eyes looking around.

Lu Shang stretched out his hand to take off the oxygen mask, and after a while, opened his eyes to look at Liang Zirui.The latter had strange eyes, and anger was hidden in his tone: "Didn't I tell you to be careful not to raise tigers?"

"You like him, don't you?" He asked again, with an affirmative tone.

Lu Shang turned his head.

"Don't quibble, I know the extent of your illness best. I don't believe that you are really weak enough to handle a kid. It's okay if you lie to that kid, but forget it if you lie to me. If you don't have any feelings for him, How could you allow you to do this to him?"

Lu Shang strangely did not deny it.

"Do you know, you are playing with your life." Liang Zirui had a heartbroken expression.

Lu Shang lowered his eyes, and was ready to meet his anger, but Liang Zirui suddenly let out a long sigh, and his tone was even relieved: "Lu Shang, I really didn't expect that you will have such a day."

"In the past, I always blamed you for being so inhuman and living too dull a life, but I put myself in my shoes and thought, if I were you, I'm afraid I wouldn't be as good as you, with endless checkups, endless operations, closed doors every day. I don’t even know if I’ll wake up the next day, this kind of day is gray and hopeless, just think about it.”

Lu Shang stared at him with surprise in his eyes.

"It's very good, really, I have experienced all the emotions and desires, so I don't want to come to this world to suffer this crime in vain."

Lu Shang couldn't help saying: "You don't object?"

"What are you against? I'm your friend, but I'm also a doctor, and saving people is my bounden duty." Liang Zirui said, "Actually, I'm also quite contradictory. I've been looking for a way to save you without hurting him." The method, I admit, I lied about one thing, I told you to wait, not waiting for the immunosuppressant, but looking for this possibility. I don't want to deprive you of hope of survival, but I really don't want to hurt you His life."

It was rare for the two to confide their hearts to each other calmly. Lu Shang was silent for a while, then turned his gaze out of the window: "... I did go for his heart in the beginning, and I didn't want to make myself feel too guilty, so I selfishly hoped He can be willing, but when this day really comes, I can't bear it."

Liang Zirui had no choice but to say, "You said you, other people's heart was not taken, but your own heart was taken in. Boss Lu, this deal is not worth it."

Lu Shang moved his stiff legs: "Where are the others?"

Liang Zirui scratched his head, and said awkwardly: "Then what, I was too impulsive just now, I gave him a fist, and I'm probably feeling sad right now, it's my fault, please apologize for me later."