Senior's Secret Lover

After washing up, changing clothes and going downstairs, Fang Wan left early.

Bai Xinglu sat at the dining table in a daze, Fang Qing brought a bowl of hangover soup, said with a light smile: "Brother Gu said something happened, he left early in the morning, before leaving, tell me Brother Bai, did you drink anything last night?" Drink less, let me make you some hangover soup for you to drink. Drink it while it's hot."

Bai Xinglu stared at the light brown bowl of soup for a while, then suddenly raised his head and asked Fang Qing, "Aren't you going to class today?"

"Brother Bai is really drunk, today is the weekend, of course there is no class."

Bai Xinglu got up "Teng", nervously said: "Then, where did your brother go? If he doesn't stay at home after class, where did he go?"

Fang Qing said with a faint smile, "My brother has to go to the welfare agency to help out every weekend."

Bai Xinglu suddenly realized, he was relieved, and sat down to drink soup again.After taking two sips, as if suddenly remembering something, she turned her head and said awkwardly to Fang Qing, "Thank you, and... I'm sorry."

"You're welcome. If you want to apologize, Brother Bai should apologize to you face to face. I believe that brother will forgive you." Fang Qing rubbed Bai Xinglu's hair, "Same as brother, but an awkward child .”

Bai Xinglu's eyes suddenly turned sore, and he suddenly remembered that time when his father beat him so hard that he couldn't get out of bed for three days, his elder brother touched his head so tenderly and pitifully, and sighed softly: "Xiao Lu is such an awkward child."

It's really embarrassing, to be red-eyed by a little girl's words.Bai Xinglu put his head down and slurped the soup in a fit of anger, Fang Qing walked away amused.

Mei Liwei came over, knocked on the table, and said in a blunt tone: "I'll ask you again, do you have to take Fang Wan and brother away?"

Bai Xinglu held the bowl and was silent for a few seconds, then raised his head and showed a weary smile to Mei Liwei: "Sit down, can you chat with me for a while?"

Mei Liwei pursed her lips, stared at Bai Xinglu for a long time, then sat down reluctantly, folded her arms and said coldly: "Tell me what you want to talk about, I'm busy."

"The smell of gunpowder shouldn't be so strong. I know my tone was a little rushed two days ago. I apologize to you here. Li Wei, I really didn't want to make things like this. I just wanted to coax Fang Wan back By my side, but before I knew it, I messed things up completely. I'm in a mess now, and I don't know what to do. Li Wei, can you help me?"

I have never seen Bai Xinglu so fragile before, Mei Liwei frowned, and her attitude softened. After thinking for a long time, she said: "Bai Xinglu, as a friend, I have the obligation to remind you: Love is based on love." Heart-to-heart is tolerance and understanding, not blindly receiving, giving and possessing. In other words, you can’t always judge the value of things by your own standards. For example, you came here this time to Taking back Fang Wan's heart, caring for him tenderly, being considerate to every detail, it's not like you are doing good. You think you have put in efforts beyond your normal range, so you take it for granted that you will receive Fang Wan's equivalent Reciprocate, and think 'I have never cared so much for anyone, you see how good I am to you, so you should come back to me and treat me as well'. Under this kind of self-thought, you find that Fang Wan It didn’t come back to you the way you expected. So you feel confused, annoyed, aggrieved, even angry.”

Mei Liwei paused, and looked at Bai Xinglu quietly: "Under this series of negative emotions, you didn't first reflect on whether your method was wrong, but instead shifted all the responsibility to Fang Wan or other outsiders. You selfishly think that Fang Wan is hard-hearted and indifferent to your sincerity. You also think that Fang Wan may be tempted by the outside world, abandon you and fall in love with someone else. The distance between the person you love and you Anxiety about getting farther and farther away, the threat of a rival in love, etc., blinded your sincerity. So you panicked, lost your footing, and put your hopes on your original way-to overwhelm you with your superior attitude Fang Wan. What is the difference between your behavior and the robbery of women in ancient times?"

Bai Xinglu listened quietly, nodded and said: "You all said I was wrong, Gu Lang said it, Geng Di said it, you said it, even Xiaoqing said the same thing, it seems that I was really wrong. You mean, I should respect Fang Wan's choice?"

"Yes, it means respect. You have never respected him from the beginning, and you have never considered his thoughts and feelings. All along, he has been led by your nose, and you recruited him if you like him. Touch your head, and kick it away if you don't like it. It's like before you left King's Landing, you thought that you would humiliate Fang Wan in front of Qi Fei and drive him away for the good of Fang Wan. But have you ever thought that if Fang Wan I really like you, even if you stand on the united front with Qi Fei for the family, even if Qi Fei will try his best to torture him, but the only comfort for him is that you are on his side. But no, You did not stand by his side, and you used the banner of being good for him to stimulate him even more. Fang Wan's self-esteem does not allow him to continue to be with someone who is unwilling to support him at the most critical moment and share troubles with him People get together again. Do you understand?"

Bai Xinglu lowered his head and frowned, as if in deep thought, and asked again after a while, "If Fang Wan didn't choose me in the end, should I let go rationally?"

"I said before that love is heart-for-heart, tolerant and understanding. Since you really love him, then you should love everything about him, including the lover he chooses."

"I can't do it!" Bai Xinglu suddenly said excitedly, "I can't just watch him fall into the arms of other men, I can't do it! Just thinking about his body being touched by other men makes me angry trembling all over!"

Mei Liwei sighed: "Are you sure you really love him? If you love him, you should pray for his happiness. No matter whether he chooses you or not in the end, if his choice makes him feel happy and stable, then you should bless him." him, and I'm really happy for him."

Bai Xinglu scratched his head in pain: "I hope he lives happily, and I hope to see his smile from the bottom of his heart every day, but I also hope that his happiness and smile are brought to him by me, not by him. other people……"

Seeing the old electronic watch on his wrist, Mei Liwei said helplessly, "That's all I want to say, think about it for yourself." After speaking, she sighed and left, leaving it to Bai Xinglu Space to think alone.

Heart for heart... Tolerance and understanding... Respect... Bai Xinglu hugged his head and began to think heavily.