the other side of the fireworks

As soon as Xu An returned to school, he heard the rumbling news that Xia Fengshu had a boyfriend.It is said that she is first-class in appearance, and she is a couple with Xia Fengshu.Xiao Guo said that when he saw them kissing goodbye in front of the dormitory, the handsome man made people drool.Lijuan said that Xia Fengshu had a big transformation in fashionable clothes, and the pair of brown boots cost at least five thousand.

Kissing goodbye, a picture appeared in Xu An's mind, who was the person who kissed Xia Fengshu.

It took her several nights to calm down her turbulent mood. Xia Fengshu was like a small fish, and Xu An's heart was a river. The river was frozen and the fish was sealed inside.Only occasionally when there is a little looseness and crack, Xia Fengshu will rush up, shaking his head and tail.Xu An frantically pressed her down, freezing her layer by layer.

Jiechu found two accounting firms for Xu An. According to his procedure, Xu An went to practice for a period of time after graduation, and then took the remaining three CPA exams. Xu An went abroad to study together for several years.This arrangement was approved by her aunt early in the morning, and Jie Chu also planned to formally bring Xu An home after she graduated.

Xu An wanted to take her grandma over, so she thought it would be a good start to have the opportunity to work in an accounting firm.

Susu and the others are busy running various job fairs, and Xu An occasionally accompanies them, to accompany their friends, and to learn a lot.She didn't expect to meet Xia Fengshu, if she knew she would, she wouldn't go.

When Xia Fengshu saw that she came over to say hello, she was kind and gentle. Before that, when Xu An had nightmares, he never thought that the word kind could be applied to Xia Fengshu.Xia Feng showed them the stack of forms he got, and enthusiastically discussed which company had a future.At this time, Xu An saw Xia Fengshu's boyfriend, an unbelievably handsome man. At the age of 27, he is slightly thinner, with a tall and straight nose, delicate and deep eyes, and the corners of his eyes are somewhat similar to Xia Fengshu.The voice is clear and the demeanor is elegant.He left with Xia Fengshu on his arm, and Su Su sighed in admiration, "What kind of life is this woman? To find such a handsome man, he is a few times more handsome than a star."

Xu An coughed twice, she coughed because her throat was uncomfortable, and of course she was really uncomfortable in her heart.

At night, her cough got worse, and the next morning, she couldn't even eat breakfast.Li Juan and Xiao Guo rushed over, Xu An was in a daze with fever, Xiao Guo said: "Go to the hospital!"

Lijuan said, "I'll call Jiechu."

"Do you have his number?" Xiao Guo asked in her usual high-pitched voice, and then said, "Yes, you must have it. You are Jiechu's undercover agent."

"Shh, don't let Xu An hear it."

"She is burnt, how can she hear us, call quickly!"

Xu An heard it.

Xu An's tonsils were inflamed, and he was fine after receiving an injection.Jie Chu stood by her bed, "Go back to your hometown, you're getting angry! Still miss grandma?"

"I haven't been swimming in days."

"Go swimming after leaving the hospital." Jie Chu patted the back of her hand and smiled honestly.

"Do you... know about my fight?" Xu An asked.

Jie Chu was slightly taken aback, so small that ordinary people couldn't see it, but Xu An could see it. "That matter, forget it in the past, you and Xiao Guo are still friends."

"You never mentioned it to me, I thought you didn't know."

Jie Chu held Xu An's hand and said, "Men don't need to be so mother-in-law."

"Do you blame me?"

"No wonder, a little surprised."

"You don't like me that way."

"Which man would like his girlfriend to beat someone, sassy girlfriend?"

"So you helped me transfer the dormitory."

Jie Chu said with a serious face: "Xiao'an, it's not your character to be suspicious, you are such a simple girl."

Xu An's face turned even colder, "Since I'm innocent, why do I need someone to watch me?"

"Don't speak so harshly. I have to go to work, so I can't be by your side all the time. I want to know what you have to do. Just like this time, you refused to call me."

"I didn't tell you, I just didn't want you to know, so why do you have to know?"

"I'm nervous about you, I think about you in everything, and I want to take care of you all the time."

Xu An shook his head, "You make me ashamed."

"Xiao An, I can understand your feelings, but I have no malice. If a girl loves her boyfriend, she should feel happy about it."

"According to your theory, I don't love you."

Jie Chu's big eyes were no longer tender, and were replaced by a hidden deep anger.Xu An met his eyes until his toughness and resentment were replaced by an indescribable tenderness. At this time, Xu An could deeply feel that his concession was due to his love for himself.But she still couldn't forgive the behavior, so she said, "Let's break up."

After saying this, she closed her eyes.

Jie Chu didn't bother her, she went back to the dormitory alone, as if she lost something.

Sadness out of control, she had enough reason to cry, lovelorn, she was lovelorn.It looks like this to outsiders, but she herself is crying for being lost.It seems that I have walked a road in a daze, only to realize that the distance is not my end when I walk halfway.She wanted to turn back, but couldn't recognize the way back.Sit on the side of the road and take a rest. She knows that the person who asked her to go this way is still waiting for her, so she still has time to think and choose.

She doesn't want to choose.

She goes swimming.

Then sat in the grove by the lake until midnight.She believed that maybe tomorrow, her aunt would call her back, the pressure was overwhelming, and in the end, she would give in and make peace with the person who loved her.

She doesn't want to go this way, so she suffers.

She felt that if she did this, the word self-esteem and this thing shouldn't be in her dictionary and storage compartment.Was the decision to break up rash?No, I don't regret doing it.

"Cold?"

Xu An was stunned, and didn't want to believe that the voice belonged to Xia Fengshu. She really didn't have the strength to deal with Xia Fengshu's knife.Xia Fengshu sat beside her, "You've been sitting here for a long time, and you're going to become a sculpture." This sentence showed that Xia Fengshu had been paying attention to her for a long time.

Xu An didn't speak, Xia Fengshu touched her wrist, and after feeling the coldness, he said calmly, "Are you losing your temper? Or have you lost your relationship."

"how do you know?"

"You are so resentful, not because I am a boyfriend."

"You are so confident."

"Even if you exaggerate, you won't expose me."

Xu An was silent, Xia Fengshu knew her very well.There was a feeling of being controlled that made her very uncomfortable.They sat quietly for 10 minutes, Xia Fengshu said: "The feeling of breaking up in love is not good, take your time."

Seeing her get up, Xu An said unwillingly, "Are you leaving? Are you done laughing?"

Xia Fengshu stood there, as if waiting for Xu An to continue, Xu An said: "You should also feel bad, you are the one who messed up my life."

"I'll help you identify the man. Whether you want him or not is up to you."

"You said, it's better to be confused."

"You can pretend to be confused."

"You taught me how to pretend." Xu An stood up excitedly.

"Do you want to hear how I pretend?" Xia Fengshu turned around. In the darkness, her eyes and voice were not so real. "I like you when I see you, I like to see you smile, I like to hear your voice. You are sincere to others, so real, not hypocritical at all. You asked me if I want to eat spicy chicken, I really want to Eat, I want to eat because you give it to me. But I was hungry at the time, so I refused. Accept when I don’t need it, and my self-esteem will find a balance. But I didn’t wait until then, and I couldn’t wait to accept you s help."

Xu An was shocked by every word she heard just now, she said dully: "You pretended to be very good, I didn't see it."

"You are good to me, I know, I pretend not to know. You will feel that when we are together, you always give, and it is very hard to give. But do you know that controlling is harder than giving. I am very hard."

"I don't know about your hard work, I just think you can ask for anything."

Xia Fengshu sighed, "I'm not good enough for you. I don't have the chance to be self-willed in front of my mother. I will show my full potential to you. You have paid a lot for me, but I want more."

Xu An smiled wryly, "Why did you choose to say such soft words to me at this time."

"I'm about to graduate, if I don't talk about it, I'm afraid I won't have a chance." Before he finished speaking, Xu An grabbed her hand, "Don't say such things."

Xia Fengshu said: "You don't know that I miss you, but I know you miss me."

Xu An's eye sockets were hot.

Xia Fengshu said: "Many times, I wanted to hide by the side of the road you would pass by, and hug you from behind when you passed by. I regretted being so willful to you, but after thinking about it, this is also good."

"why."

"We don't like it anymore."

"why."

"Why do you like to ask why so much?"

"I don't understand you, I don't understand. I can only ask why." Xu An held Xia Fengshu's shoulder, trying to see her face clearly.

Xia Fengshu's bangs were still very long, she raised her face slightly and looked at Xu An. "I'll tell you everything you need to know."

"I want to know, I want to know... Do you like him to kiss you?" Xu An didn't know how these words came out, and she was sure that she had never thought about this question.

Xia Fengshu was taken aback for a moment, then her lips pressed against Xu An's.

Xu An felt a train rumbling past the bridge of his head.

For the next two days, Xu An's mind was full of trains.

She was afraid of seeing Xia Fengshu, and would blush thinking of her.Staying in the swimming pool until dark, she received a call from her aunt.Only then did she think of Jie Chu.The chain reaction of breaking up with him was about to begin.

She said she would go back tomorrow.

She didn't expect Xia Fengshu to call her, and when she answered, she felt unnatural.

Xia Fengshu said: "An all-night movie, do you want to watch it?"

"Now, now?"

Xia Fengshu hesitated for a moment, then said, "Next time." After speaking, he hung up the phone.

Xu An was a little annoyed, she has always had a good temper.But she really wanted to get angry at Xia Fengshu. She felt that Xia Fengshu had made her feel like a tumbler with no hands or feet.

After changing clothes and going back to the apartment, Jiechu sent her a text message, asking how have you been these two days?Xu An didn't reply, she didn't like this kind of temptation.She felt that her chest was full, and she couldn't spit it out or swallow it.The pressure was on, but the crux of the matter was that she hadn't figured out what was going on.What does she want?Why is my chest so full it's about to explode, yet still feel empty.Those things that are at your fingertips become boundless, and some are so far away that you can't even see them.

What is the problem?

The phone rang again, and it was Xia Fengshu calling again, with an extremely forceful tone, "I'll be waiting for you at Ximen, come out for me."

"Why should I come out for you?" Xu An emphasized the word 'for you'.

"You will know why when you come out, and you will never know if you don't come out." Xia Fengshu replied simply.

"I do not want to know."

"try it yourself."

"I won't go out, whatever you want." Xu An hung up the phone, the explosives in her chest seemed to be ignited, and she jumped out like a rocket.

Xia Fengshu stood at the school gate with flat shoulders and one arm supporting his soft waist.Xu An rushed over with a smell of gunpowder, "What are you doing!" Xu An's voice was very aggressive, but not enough to startle people, Xia Fengshu made an exaggerated startled movement, and then stared at Xu An with wide eyes. After watching for two seconds, "I was thinking about how to pull you out, and you just ran out." Xia Fengshu's voice was completely different from that on the phone, and he even smiled very docilely.

"Didn't you let me try?" In this sentence, Xu An forced some anger into it, because she was not so angry anymore.

"If you can't think of anything else to say, just push this sentence up. Why are you so fierce?" Xia Fengshu went to take her arm, but Xu An shook it off, "If you have something to say."

"What's the matter! Please watch a movie." Xia Fengshu pouted and spoke, like light waves rippling in Xu An's heart.

"No." Xu An turned around and walked back.

Xia Fengshu grabbed her hand, "Why are you so stupid and stubborn!"

"Then stay away from me."

"It's far enough away." Xia Fengshu grabbed Xu An with both hands, as if grabbing something, "I have never been as happy as I am today when I was admitted to university. You have to stay with me."

Xu An was startled, he really couldn't imagine what would make Xia Fengshu so happy, and he wanted to share it with him.Just like that, Xia Fengshu dragged her onto the bus and went straight to Xincheng Cinema.Xu An didn't ask her why she was happy, and sat there helplessly like a kidnapped child.Xia Fengshu was sitting beside her, looking out of the window, the wind from the window was blowing her vivid face, the smile was always on her face, that beautiful picture was very similar to a certain scene often seen in the MV, but Xia Fengshu Trees are more beautiful.

They were sitting in the empty movie hall, and there were people watching the movie in twos and threes. Xia Fengshu said, "It's a pity, there are no all-night movies to watch today."

"I've seen this movie."

"The poor haven't seen it yet," Xia Fengshu said.

"The rich go first." Xu An was still feeling awkward, and she didn't express her temper.

"You hate me after kissing me?" Xia Fengshu's voice was serious, Xu An sat down quickly, as if he fell into a chair from a ten-meter platform, and lost most of his temper.It's just that my temper seemed to fall on Xia Fengshu, "If you didn't ask me such a **** question, how could I repay you like that."

"What?" Xu An turned around and stared at Xia Fengshu in disbelief.

"If the question is not □, then I'm not obscene in kissing you."

"Sure enough, he is a lawyer. The defense of innocence is wonderful."

"Thank you, you are not bad, you are careful and careful, and how well you use the accrual method."

Xu An didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "I never blamed you for kissing me."

"Then why do you put so many detailed marks on your face and body, a pair of virtues with unpaid debts. Did I offend you?"

"What, do I look like a ledger?"

Xia Fengshu said: "I also summoned up the courage to call you, because I must share this matter with you."

"what's up."

"My novel is published, novella."

"You write novels?" Xu An's eyes widened.

"5600 yuan." Xia Fengshu spread his fingers, hugging it like a cornucopia.Xu An grabbed it excitedly, like two fighting roosters who suddenly found out that the other was their only biological brother, and hugged each other warmly after meeting each other on the battlefield.For Xu An, that joy was better than passing the two CPA exams. In other words, there was an element of surprise in it. "What novel, show me."

"Tomorrow, I received the sample booklet."

"You, when did you write it?"

"I started writing in high school and never stopped." Xia Fengshu raised his chin, looking extremely proud. It was obvious that she had accomplished something that she was proud of.

"You never told me."

"I don't know you well, and I'm too embarrassed to spread the word about my poor hobbies."

"It's here again, can't you talk properly?"

"Stop talking, I haven't seen this movie." Xia Fengshu pouted, and Xu An closed his mouth resentfully. At this moment, Xia Fengshu's head rested on her shoulder. "Ah, I haven't eaten popcorn from this movie theater yet."

"I'll go buy it." Xu An immediately stood up.

"And Coke."

"Yes, full set."

Xia Fengshu hugged the largest bucket of popcorn, said while eating: "It's nice to have money."

Xu An chuckled, "Eating popcorn can also be related to money."

"To me, it's too extravagant."

Xu An was sad, thinking of Xia Fengshu's poor living expenses for a month, this bucket of popcorn was indeed a luxury for her.Thinking like this, those messy thoughts in his heart were swallowed into Xia Fengshu's stomach as the popcorn in Xia Fengshu's bucket disappeared.Xu An didn't expect that looking at Xia Fengshu like this, he could digest so many inexplicable troubles.She didn't realize that when there was only one person in her eyes, this world was the only one for her.

After they came out of the movie theater, they walked aimlessly on the street. Neither of them planned to go back to school. Enjoy delicious food in the somewhat cool night breeze, enjoy the stretched language nerves, and indulge in high-spirited talks.

There are not many pedestrians, and those who walk are basically going home.

Xia Fengshu was still fiddling with the empty popcorn bucket, and Xu An walked beside her.Two puppies came running one after the other, playing and chasing, and soon turned their faces and barked at each other, and then snapped.The owner rushed over to separate them. The chains around the necks of the two dogs were stretched straight, but they were still about to rush towards each other, baring their teeth and claws.It took a while for the owner to separate them, yelling at them and even poking them away with his feet.

Xia Fengshu stood there and watched from the beginning to the end, Xu An said: "The yellow one is very similar to you."

"If we are like these two puppies, who is our master?"

Xu An was stunned, Xia Fengshu immediately put the popcorn bucket on her head, then turned around and ran away, Xu An ran after her.Although she often exercises, she doesn't have much advantage compared to Xia Fengshu who often uses her legs to compete with the bus, but she loses a bit in endurance.Xu An decided to sprint and use the rest of his strength. Sure enough, she caught up with Xia Fengshu and grabbed her coat.She hugged her from behind, putting all her weight on her.

They gasped.After expending a lot of physical strength, the joy and happiness that accompanied the two wrapped them together.

Taking a good breath on the side of the street, Xia Fengshu said: "I can't go back to school at this time, let's sleep on the road."

Xu An nodded without thinking.

"Just sleep here." Xia Fengshu said.

Xu An shook his head, pulled Xia Fengshu up and left. Half an hour later, they came to a small hotel door, "You want to share a room with me."

"Honesty Inn, see? I want to hear you tell the truth." Xu An pointed to the signboard and said.

"Have I told a lot of lies?"

"Not many, just one deceiving look from a smart person like you is enough to deceive me, a fool, for the rest of my life."

"Why is it so easy to say for a lifetime." Xia Fengshu gave her a white look.

They opened a room with a big bed.Light blue sheets, quilts of the same color, and lemon yellow pillows.They lay side by side, and Xia Fengshu began to tell her story, mainly from the time after college, Xu An knew that she had a younger brother, her father was in the Heilongjiang forest farm, and her mother brought her here.Xia Fengshu's ideal is to become a writer, so her grades are not very good.Every time her mother forced her to do that, she did it.The job of being a writer is not as practical as that of a lawyer. For those who are so poor that they can barely eat, being a writer is a dream, an unrealistic dream.Xia Fengshu never told her mother that she had this dream. She was afraid that her mother would get angry. Mom didn't get angry very often, but the consequences of being angry were very serious.

"How serious is it?" Xu An was curious.

Xia Fengshu said: "My mother is a very determined and courageous person."

"Can you be more specific?"

"You have to listen to as much as you want to be satisfied." Xia Fengshu looked sideways at Xu An, his eyes were soft and clear.

Xu An said: "Listen to what you want to say, if you don't want to say it, you won't force it."

"It's fresh to listen to this word." Xia Fengshu smiled, the inner corners of his eyes curved beautifully.

"You need to be innovative when talking to you. Sometimes I worry that the language is boring and you ignore me."

"Are you afraid that I don't like you?"

The word "like" jumped into her mind, and Xu An felt that a thread was pulled out. At the end, she seemed to see the root of the troubles of the past two days. I like Xia Fengshu. As long as she appears, it is difficult to find Jiechu's location .That's why I was so troubled, so determined, and broke up with Jie Chu almost without any regrets.Xu An sat up slowly, and more thoughts came together, yes, I was fascinated by Xia Fengshu, but the light touch of my lips made me fascinated for several days.I have been in love with Jiechu for so long, and we will break up as soon as we say, and we don't even miss him at all.Instead, it was Xia Fengshu who made people cry and laugh, anger and joy.I'm in love with Xia Fengshu, so... what does that mean.Xu An stood from the bed to the ground, almost wanting to rush out the door, but Xia Fengshu held her back at this moment.

"Such a big reaction, are you okay?"

"It's nothing, I just thought of something suddenly." Xu An was worried that Xia Fengshu would ask her what she thought of, and she would definitely lie.

Xia Fengshu said: "I'm sleepy, let's go to sleep." After finishing speaking, he closed his clothes and put on the quilt, as if falling into a dream immediately.

Xu An said: "Don't you take off your clothes? You will have nightmares."

"You still curse me for having nightmares on such a happy night, your conscience has been eaten by cockroaches."

"What, why is it a cockroach?" Xu An recalled this sentence, usually saying that the dog ate his conscience.

"Your conscience is too small, only cockroaches can find it." After Xia Fengshu gave her a white look, he giggled twice.Xu An also laughed, put away the panic she had just created, and lay beside Xia Fengshu. When she was in a daze, she said to herself: "You are very fragrant."

Xia Fengshu, who had his back to her, smiled slightly, Xu An was a little shy, closed his mouth and fell asleep.