the other side of the fireworks

At 08:30, Xia Fengshu opened his eyes. "Trouble" seemed to know that she didn't have to go to work, and she wouldn't be so sleepy normally.The operation was scheduled at ten o'clock, Xia Fengshu had to get up, and he had to take a taxi to go out at this time, otherwise it would be too late.

After waiting for 10 minutes, I couldn't get a taxi, so I had to go to the bus station to wait for the bus. Xia Fengshu was inexplicably irritable, and felt that his heart was like a paper boat on water, rickety, and it would sink to the bottom if there was a little wind and waves.

While on the way, she received calls from two nurses reminding her that she has an appointment today.When the third phone rang, she was already at the entrance of the hospital, and the phone rang all the way. While waiting for the elevator, she answered the phone, unexpectedly, it was Tong Zhan calling. "Xia Fengshu." After saying these words, he fell silent.

The elevator came, but Xia Fengshu didn't go in, people passed by, and the noise was endless, but Xia Fengshu could hear Tong Zhan's slow breathing, "Xia Fengshu, you..."

Xia Fengshu bit her nails, nervously waiting for what Tong Zhan had to say.

"...Goodbye Xia Fengshu!" The phone hung up.

Xia Fengshu pressed redial without thinking.

"Tong Zhan, why did you call me? What are you doing?"

"I just wanted to talk to you."

"Speaking of a word, you will feel at ease!"

"Feel better."

"What about me? When have you ever thought about how I feel?"

"I'm... ashamed."

"Are you ashamed? Why bother to call me at the end to remind me that you are leaving me."

"Xia Fengshu, what do you mean?"

"Before, I chose work between you and work, but now the work is gone, and I only have you."

"..."

"You forced me to choose yours."

Xia Fengshu stood in front of the outpatient building of the hospital for a long time, recalling what he had said.

It was an unthinking decision, triggered by Tong Zhan's phone call.

Zhou Yanran is here, the plane is three hours away, they should leave.Zheng Linyi also came in at this time, and she wanted to see her son off for this long journey no matter what.Zheng Linyi was a little worried. She was a little displeased that her son was being controlled so tightly by Zhou Yanran. What mother wouldn't want her son to keep his word.However, Tong Zhan was spoiled and raised by her. She was never willing to face the darkness of the society and the wind and rain outside. Now, she doesn't expect Tong Zhan to achieve much in his career, as long as he lives in the upper class with good clothes and good food. Just in society.Zhou Yanran is a good daughter-in-law. On the one hand, her family is powerful and will be of great help to her career. On the other hand, Tong Zhan's character and appearance are just what she wants.As long as she loves Tong Zhan, she doesn't have to worry about her son not being happy. Even if the method of being urged to go to the United States is a bit tough, there is nothing wrong with it.Tong Zhan's unhappiness also fell into Zheng Linyi's eyes, knowing a son is like a mother, Tong Zhan's current state is not all willful.

Most of the luggage was put in the car, "Then let's go there first, and see you in New York next week." Zhou Yanran spoke to Zheng Linyi in an unkind tone, and they didn't like each other, and both of them knew it well.

Zheng Linyi, who was always overwhelmed by her daughter-in-law, said calmly: "Bon voyage."

Zhou Yanran didn't even bother to smile, and said to Tong Zhan who was procrastinating beside him, "I picked you up, young master, what are you thinking?"

Tong Zhan didn't say anything, but stood up instead.

Zhou Yanran stepped forward and took his arm, trying to resolve the stalemate with intimacy.

Zheng Linyi couldn't see her son's reluctance, and was about to tell her son a few words, but she heard Tong Zhan say, "I'm not going to America, Zhou Yanran, and I don't want to marry you either."

"What's the point of saying this over and over again!" Zhou Yanran was not shocked, but showed some impatience.

"Then don't talk about it, I'll go find Xia Fengshu, don't let anyone stop me."

Tong Zhan left, and her mother took care of the mess. Zheng Linyi said to Zhou Yanran: "You go to the United States to take care of things over there, and I am here."

"Are you kidding me? What am I going to do if he doesn't go?" Zhou Yanran was very angry at Zheng Linyi's attitude of letting Tong Zhan go.

"Just not going with you right now."

"He contacted Xia Fengshu again, didn't he?" Zhou Yanran was restless.

"I don't know."

"Why don't you look at him? If you knew that I let him live with me yesterday, you still wanted to let your mother and son talk more. How can I be considerate?" Zhou Yanran's tone was not good, and her attitude was not good. It's disrespectful to look like this.She was born in a wealthy family, and she was given three points in everything. She was usually polite to Zheng Linyi, but Zheng Linyi's attitude of almost staying out of the matter annoyed her.

"No matter where he is, no matter who he is with, his freedom cannot be restricted." Zheng Linyi was unusually calm.

"So you think I'm wrong, restricting your son's freedom? Why don't you ask how much trouble your son has caused outside?"

"I, a mother, is responsible for all the troubles." Zheng Linyi maintained the same tone and speed from beginning to end, neither fast nor slow, strong or weak, fully showing her calmness and confidence.A woman in politics has a calmness that does not frown. Zheng Linyi is not forceful, but extremely stable.

"Why are you going around and letting him marry Xia Fengshu?" Zhou Yanran realized that the two women were in the same group at this moment, and thought that her future mother-in-law would be on her side.

"You are my daughter-in-law, and this will not change."

"Your son has already gone to that woman! You still say such things?"

"Yan Ran, you and Tong Zhan haven't been friends for a year or two. I never worry about your ridiculous life. We are both children and young. I always feel itchy if I don't try many things. Even if Tong Zhan is willful Limited, you can't lock him up in a cage, I can't let my son suffer that wrong."

"You mean, I have to let him go to the woman who is pregnant with his child, so I ask, where is the limit? You draw a circle for me."

"Yan Ran, you have to give in. Tong Zhan is so unhappy, I don't feel at ease if you just bring him to America."

Zhou Yanran sneered, "Do I have to marry him? I can bear him fooling around with others and having children, but I can't bear this humiliation."

Just as she was about to walk away, she heard Zheng Linyi say: "If you hadn't made up your mind that he would not marry, how could you have come to this point with him, Yan'er, even if that Xia Fengshu gave birth to the child, she would have entered into it." No door to our Tong family. I have the determination, and I have the means. Do you want me to explain more clearly?"

Zhou Yanran sat down again and looked at Zheng Linyi suspiciously.

"When Tong Zhan was in elementary school, he already knew three or four musical instruments, especially the violin. He told me that he wanted to be Schubert when he grew up. When he was in junior high school, he became obsessed with comics. He never took violin class again. He found an art class by himself, but he didn’t pass it in a semester. He threw those art papers and paints into the trash can. Because he was taller in high school, he He was drafted into the basketball team. This time, I firmly opposed him until he was sent back by the basketball team. I urged him to study and forbade him to be distracted by his hobbies. Tong Zhan was very obedient and did not do anything beyond my limits But his grades are not ideal. If he is not allowed to play, he just sits on the side of the court and reads. The books are also filled with things related to basketball, such as tactics and running positions. I forbid him to touch anything related to basketball. He obeyed, but was unhappy. Later, his father was seriously ill, and Tong Zhan was greatly affected. He always looked depressed and submissive. Before his father passed away, he only asked me to do one thing, not to wrong his son. Give him space and the right to choose, and one day, he will choose a path that belongs to him. As a mother, you must take care of him, not limit him. I followed my husband's words, and Tong Zhan went to play basketball again, but he It didn't last long, and he became obsessed with literature again." Zheng Linyi paused, with a complicated expression, "He is such a child, but he will not be willful. I want him to study abroad, and he also cares for me. I passed the test, isn’t that how you know him? He is a child with self-control, but once controlled, his desire will continue to rise, and it may backfire in the end.”

Zhou Yanran thought of Tong Zhan's strict compliance with their promise and voluntarily grounded her feet, so she also agreed with Zheng Linyi's point of view.

"Tong Zhan is still a boy, not a mature man."

"I'm not sure how long I can wait." Zhou Yanran left after leaving these words, Zheng Linyi couldn't help feeling worried, changes in the current situation usually don't allow self-willedness, she doesn't know how much rain this umbrella can protect her son.

"Xia Fengshu, have you decided to be my woman?"

"How dare you say such a thing?"

At the gate of the hospital, both of them spoke bluntly.Their eyes met each other like a confrontation, and in the end it was Tong Zhan who took the upper hand, "Why can't I say such a thing, if you had told me earlier, why wait until today?"

"I really have no way out, Tong Zhan, do you understand my situation?"

Tong Zhan shook his head, walked up to Xia Fengshu, and put his arms around her shoulders, "Let's go, I won't quarrel with you, you seem to be fainting."

"Tong Zhan, I want to give birth to a child."

"Whatever you want." Tong Zhan hugged Xia Fengshu tightly.

Staying together without going out for three consecutive days, Tong Zhan and Xia Fengshu shared the musical instruments in the apartment, as well as the photography works in college. "Trouble", Tong Zhan couldn't go any further, which annoyed him, "Why do you have to give birth?"

Xia Fengshu didn't tell Tong Zhan the real reason. In fact, she thought this was her only chance to have a child. She didn't want to be the lone star of the devil. Although giving birth to this child was difficult, there was no part of her life that was not rough Woolen cloth?I have never tried to live a smooth life, have a blood-linked child, and get rid of the almost crazy idea of ​​living a lonely life. I was awakened by a phone call from Tong Zhan. Motherhood made her strongly protect the "trouble" in her belly want.This is a random decision.

"Let's get married." Xia Fengshu said calmly.

"You want to tie me up with a child?" Tong Zhan was suddenly very happy, feeling the joy of being possessed

"I lost my job anyway, so I can only choose you."

"Why are you talking like that!" Tong Zhan pillowed his arm in disappointment and turned to the TV.

"You big liar with no promise, do you still expect me to say how much I love you?"

"That's not true." Tong Zhan glanced at Xia Fengshu guilty, "I will make up for it. With me, do you still worry about life?"

"I'm even more worried."

"how?"

"This apartment, your money, which one is not given to you by your mother, you must have annoyed her by doing this, if she deprives you of finances, will you still insist on being with me?"

"My mother won't do that. Even if she doesn't like you, she won't want me as a son. You drag me, and I drag her. If there is mine, there will be yours."

"Are you so sure?"

"My mother is a widow, and I have only one son. Will she be willing to let me go? I will tell Zhou Yanran to abide by the agreement with her and let her find someone else to marry with confidence. If she doesn't put pressure on my mother, my mother will not make things difficult for me. .”

"What agreement do you have with Zhou Yanran?" Xia Fengshu carefully probed.

Tong Zhan immediately said vigilantly, "I can't tell you about this, so don't ask me again."

"Is it because of this secret that Zhou Yanran must marry you?"

"Don't ask." Tong Zhan was actually angry, his face flushed, and he ignored Xia Fengshu all afternoon.

It's just that Xia Fengshu became more curious about this secret. She realized that by grasping this secret, she seized the initiative. Just like she wanted to get married, she didn't want to rely on the childlike Tong Zhan without any grounds. Ensure that "trouble" can have a legal identity and social status.And this is what she has to fight for for Trouble, otherwise she shouldn't have been born.

For more than a week, the two lived comfortably, but Xia Fengshu was very wary, always feeling that Tong Zhan's credit card would be suspended at any time.

Xia Fengshu was startled by the speed at which her abdomen bulged, and she had to urge Tong Zhan to register.

Tong Zhan went to find his mother, and getting her consent was a necessary process, and both Tong Zhan and Xia Fengshu knew whether she agreed.

Tong Zhan was grateful to his mother, and after he abandoned Zhou Yan so willfully, his mother did not interfere in his life.

He directly asked, "Mom, I'm going to marry Xia Fengshu, we have a child."

It should be said that Zheng Linyi had already prepared for this sentence. At this moment, she just decided which attitude to face. The solemn happiness on her son's face made her decide to adopt a gentle attitude.

"This matter can't be rushed, son, the matter between you and Zhou Yanran hasn't been clarified yet."

"How to be clear."

"My mother invested in you in the United States, and the house she bought was taken care of by Yanran. Besides, there are many businesses in China that you share. Her family hasn't made any statement on this matter. How can you do it at this time? What about marrying someone else?"

"In the final analysis, it's interests. I don't want to entangle love with these things."

"Son, it's not easy, you have to handle it carefully."

"Mom, don't always look at her family's face, and don't care about her family's behavior."

"How can we not care? Everything we have today is not beneficial."

"Mom, you're too snobby." Tong Zhan was very impatient, obviously he didn't want to debate this mess.

Zheng Linyi was furious, "How dare you talk to me like that? Who instigated you?"

Tong Zhan was taken aback, and quickly corrected his attitude and said, "Mom, don't be angry, I was wrong, it was a mistake in expression."

"You go, I don't want to talk to you." Zheng Linyi turned around, in fact, she was raising Tong Zhan's guilt.

Tong Zhan was indeed very guilty. Under his mother's tolerance, he thought that what he said just now was a heinous crime. "Mom, please don't be angry, I swear I will pay attention to it in the future, and stop talking so casually or transfer my troubles to you."

"You think in your heart that mother is against you being with that girl for the sake of profit and power, don't you?"

Tong Zhan has restrained his temper, and said respectfully: "Mom, if you see Xia Fengshu, you will also like her."

"I can't see her. This is a responsible attitude. Tong Zhan, do you know how much trouble you have caused?"

Tong Zhan was speechless, it wasn't that he didn't know many things, it was just that he didn't want to think about them.

"Go back, this matter will take some time to deal with."

"However, a child needs an identity."

"Do you think you can be a father?"

Tong Zhan's answer was no, he didn't want the child, but Xia Fengshu did.

After returning in vain, before facing Xia Fengshu, he thought of a way to escape, at least to relax.

He wants to take Xia Fengshu on a trip.

Xia Fengshu would not grab him by the collar and go to the Civil Affairs Bureau. She was prepared for the resistance she encountered in this matter. What was the purpose of her holding Tong Zhan's hand? After living together for a week, Even she herself can't figure it out.Perhaps, just for the child's birth certificate, the father's column should not be blank.

No matter how rich life is, but every minute, there are turbulent waves in her heart. A man who will disappear at any time only comforts her with honey-like love. She knows that he has tried his best and believes that he is loving her.Keeping him by her side so impulsively was probably just to cover up that she wanted to give birth to a child on a whim.

They didn't share the same bed, because Xia Fengshu's body was very attractive to Tong Zhan.To be fair, Tong Zhan is not a stud man, he is gentle towards Xia Fengshu and pays more attention to her feelings.Maybe her satisfaction can give him more pleasure.Whenever Xia Fengshu is in a difficult mood, he always uses Tong Zhan's sincere love to calm himself down. The panic of unexpected pregnancy and hatred for Tong Zhan are gradually fading away, and the desire to be a mother is becoming stronger and stronger. Occupy her heart.

They decided to go to Malaysia to enjoy the beach and sunshine. Tong Zhan was extremely excited. I don't know if it was because he was walking with Xia Fengshu, or because Xia Fengshu no longer bothered about the registration.He applied for Xia Fengshu's visas for several countries in one go, as if he was going to travel around the world.

For Xia Fengshu, as long as Tong Zhan's love for her lasts until the moment the child is born, everything will be solved.

She disarms and enjoys the pampering of a child show at the Four Seasons Hotel in the coastal city of Langkawi.

Occasionally, I saw Zhou Yanran's exclusive interview in a magazine. It was a bit difficult for Xia Fengshu to read it in English, but her curiosity about this woman made her patiently read the interview.It probably means that Zhou Yanran is the most eye-catching up-and-coming painter in the Chinese community. Her unique painting style and brushwork have been favored by the mainstream in Europe, and her famous work Xiao Sheng occupies the entire page.Xia Fengshu stared at the painting for a few minutes before closing it irritably.Because of being aroused inner despair.What a violent thought and astonishing courage a woman who can paint this kind of work must have. How can a woman like her, who is well-clothed and well-fed, draw such abyss-like paintings.

She wanted to chat with Tong Zhan about Zhou Yanran's paintings, but Tong Zhan threw the book into the trash can coldly, so she had no choice but to give up.

After pregnancy, the effects of hormones made her talk less stiffly.

Gradually, the ice used to protect her self-esteem melted under the sunny beach. When she leaned against Tong Zhan's tanned chest, ate delicious food that she had never eaten before, looked at the sea, and stroked her slightly protruding belly, she began to Expect this life to continue until the baby is born, until the mother can be called, until...

When she returned to China, the fetus was already sixteen weeks old, and Tong Zhan accompanied her to go to the prenatal checkup. The eyes and words of praise and envy made Xia Fengshu excited, and even a little ecstatic. At this time, she discovered that having an outstanding family is where her vanity and dream lie.

"Tong Zhan, we have to apply for a birth certificate."

"What birth certificate?"

"I want the child to be born in a fair manner."

"You still have to register. I told you, this has to be done slowly. My mother didn't force me, and I can't force her!"

"I understand your feelings, and I understand your mother's thoughts, but we don't register, how can this child have a birth certificate?"

"Isn't that still a few months away? Just wait!"

"As long as the birth certificate is obtained, we can divorce immediately."

"What do you mean!" Tong Zhan became angry, and he stared at Xia Fengshu. "You registered with me just for a birth certificate!"

Xia Fengshu didn't feel that he had made a slip of the tongue, but felt that this approach was very realistic.She thought that this commitment might be able to exchange for a birth certificate. "Whatever you want to understand, I must give the child a legal identity."

"I'm useless after applying for a birth certificate, right? You can throw me away arrogantly again, just like before, showing that you never care about me. Xia Fengshu, you don't love me at all!"

"I admit that I am doing it for the sake of the child, but don't you think about it, who created this child?" Xia Fengshu didn't want to argue, but she couldn't resist the temper of the pregnant woman.

"I made it, but I didn't let you be born. If you didn't want to be born, we wouldn't bother with it all day long. We can go where we want to play, and we can eat what we want. That's it. It's love!"

"I can't satisfy your love of eating, drinking and having fun. I want this child, and I want to be responsible for him."

Tong Zhan was furious, "I hate your righteous and dignified appearance the most. You portray yourself as noble and tough as a goddess. It's disgusting to look at."

"You better remember what you just said." Xia Fengshu walked to another room and closed the door.Outside the door, Tong Zhan was still yelling, "Of course I remember, otherwise I wouldn't have come to where I am today!"

Where are we going?

These words echoed in Xia Fengshu's ears, the door of the terrace was open, and the color and smell of the night surrounded Xia Fengshu at some point.The TV was on, and Xia Fengshu was watching, but she didn't know what was being played. She almost ate the fruit on the table. She liked to eat fruit and often used it as a meal replacement.When Tong Zhan was at home, he couldn't be so sloppy. He usually went out to eat together, to places where he didn't have to worry about the price, but only the taste.Tong Zhan likes to buy her clothes and cosmetics, and occasionally guides her to put on makeup, and then amazes her with her in the mirror.Xia Fengshu often didn't know how to deal with that kind of favor and love without any concealment.

If I have already registered with Tong Zhan at this moment, thinking about the future blindly, then I am happy.Xia Fengshu felt the "trouble" and thought so.