the other side of the fireworks

Seeing Tong Zhan, Lan Weiqing praised both wealth and looks.Knowing his background, Lan Weiqing told Xia Fengshu categorically, "Arrest him to the Civil Affairs Bureau, and he will be dealt with!"

Xia Fengshu was amused, and what Lan Weiqing said about marriage registration was really exciting.

"Whatever his fiancée is, a fiancee is not a wife. There are so many things that are logical. As long as you marry him, you will be in the upper class, and you will be in the realm of Cinderella." Seeing that Xia Fengshu was unmoved, Lan Weiqing stepped up. The tone said: "Although God made you poor, he gave you beauty. If I had a face like yours, I would not be a middle-class person. How can I be like you? I still pay my wages."

"I didn't think about marrying him, it's just that everyone gets what they want."

"Don't say such sour words to me. It sounds like a toothache. Now that things have happened, all thoughts related to Qinggao should be abandoned, otherwise why would you abandon Xu An."

The word Xu An was too lethal, Xia Fengshu's voice was a little weaker, "There is no result between me and Xu An, and it is impossible for her and I to ignore our family."

"Tsk tsk, I finally heard what you said in your heart. Be realistic. A good marriage means success. You don't even think about what you would be like now without him. You would live in such a nice apartment to heal your wounds, and you could even hear the rain outside. not?"

Xia Fengshu was slightly moved.

Tong Zhan's life was difficult, because his face was printed in the newspaper, his relationship with Xia Fengshu was well known in the industry, and it was inevitable that his mother, who was the deputy mayor, would make trouble.In the past few days, he was under strong pressure, and his marriage with Zhou Yanran was imminent, almost under pressure. He agreed to marry Zhou Yanran in the United States in exchange for a short period of freedom.

As a man, Tong Zhan's sense of direction is not very good. Since he was a child, he can do whatever he wants at home, but he has to follow his mother's guidance when he goes out. He can't tell the difference between east and west, north and south, and he just needs to follow the direction of his mother's fingers.

He has no reason or idea to oppose his mother.

And now.

"Xia Fengshu, you really want money, you don't want your life. If he wants money, you give it to him. Why should you be beaten like this? You woman has always had a high IQ, why do you lose it when you encounter money?"

Xia Fengshu's eyes became brighter, and Tong Zhan talked more. In the huge space, one sat on the sofa and the other sat by the window sill.

"Stupid, how much money does it take to bury your poverty, you set a price, and I will give it to you."

Xia Fengshu opened the side window to let the wind blow in.

"Do you know how angry I am? My girlfriend was beaten like this, but I can't fight back. Why should he be your father? Why do you let him go? That kind of person should be locked up and reformed."

Two children were playing ball on the lawn outside the window. Their mother was sitting on a stone bench not far away, her eyes never leaving her children.

So happy.

"Xia Fengshu, don't go back to that rental house, live here temporarily, and move there after I find a good place for you."

"How long are you going to take care of me?"

Tong Zhan didn't expect Xia Fengshu to answer this sentence, and he asked so forcefully, "I will always take care of you, and never give that policeman a chance to take advantage of it."

"Will you take care of me?"

"Why do you pick out ugly words, woman!"

"Facts are often ugly." Xia Fengshu stood up slowly, five days had passed, and his thoughts and concepts were being rebuilt.

"I am going to the United States to get married recently. Before I leave, I will arrange your affairs. I have seen your post application. You want to enter the legal affairs department. I will try my best to make your wish come true, and I will not let you stay in that place again." Small business hall. You don’t have to go back to the unit for vacation, rest until you think you can go to work.”

"Why do you get such care from you?"

"Why is it so annoying!" Tong Zhan suddenly had a fit, "You can accept whatever arrangement you make, and I won't harm you."

"Will you not harm me?" Xia Fengshu asked a question.It was enough to make Tong Zhan speechless.

Xia Fengshu didn't want to get to the bottom of it, "I don't want to accept it, I'm afraid I won't be able to leave you if I get used to it."

"Are you confessing to me?"

"I hate being dependent, living with that stuff, being insecure."

"I admit that I'm not a man who can give women a sense of security. There is only one woman who doesn't think so, so I'm going to marry her." Tong Zhan tilted his head sadly, as if he was thinking or escaping. "Xia Fengshu, I give you, good or bad, you like it or hate it, you can accept it."

Xia Fengshu looked at the bruise on his arm, it was not a tattoo and it would fade away soon.This man was probably like this bruise, he had existed in intense pain, and he was tormented by an eternal sadness.He hugged too hard to leave marks of injury.

The long night is endless, and every second is passed carelessly, carelessly, afraid, and sad.

The next day, Xia Fengshu woke up and quietly left Qin Youtao's apartment.

She understood the heaviness between Tong Zhan's brows, and she had never felt sorry for this man, endless injuries had tied their relationship to a knot, he was in love, in a way he didn't even like.

I can live on my own, and this is not the hardest time in my life.Xia Fengshu told himself so.

Back to her rental room, she walked upright, no matter how many people were watching.

Throw away all the broken things, it doesn't matter if there is no furniture, as long as it is clean.Buy an old TV and fight the loneliness created by the silence.Get new curtains and opt for a sunflower pattern to brighten up the room.

Actively trying to live, ignoring the love that surrounds me, avoiding dependence.

The biggest trouble at the moment is the growing fetus in the stomach, which must be resolved as soon as possible.Take advantage of this sick leave and do the surgery without anyone noticing.How disgraceful this incident was was enough to tarnish Xia Fengshu's entire life.Without this incident, Xia Fengshu's love for Tong Zhan should be more than hurt.

The TV is on, the news channel is not noisy but has content.

Going for surgery tomorrow, 710 yuan, really expensive!Fortunately, the salary is paid today, otherwise I will not be able to survive next month.Xia Fengshu ate egg fried rice and drank warm water, thinking about the future.

The phone rang, a stranger's ringtone.

Xia Fengshu had a bad feeling.

"Are you Xia Fengshu, Xia Zhizhi's daughter?"

"Yes."

"This is Shenbei No. 105 Hospital. Your father was sent to this hospital the day before yesterday. His life was just out of danger. Now he owes 240 yuan and [-] cents for medical expenses. Please come to this hospital to pay the bill as soon as possible. Family members also come to the hospital as soon as possible to cooperate with treatment and care. .”

Xia Fengshu subconsciously took out the passport that Tong Zhan had given her, and the courage to live with it just now began to weaken again.It was vital to her to be able to survive entirely on her own, and it was almost her last bulwark to hold on to herself.Although she deceived herself into using the sexual relationship with Tong Zhan as a means of self-reliance, she was unwilling to embezzle this so-called compensation, because the fetus was not a part of their contract, but was caused by the other party's fraud.With the continuous use of this money, Xia Fengshu's so-called self-reliance has become more and more unknown.This money bought out her expediency, and if she used it, she would compromise and forbear, and she would have no backbone at all.

When the first 5000 yuan was embezzled, Xia Fengshu once thought that the money was not used for abortion, and that there was still dignity to speak of.Now that I think about it, what a ridiculous idea.She just tried every means to protect herself under the violent shadow of that person, and as long as the money was moved, the result would be the same.

Li Yimin received a call from the hospital earlier than she did, and when the man woke up, he reported his name and phone number first.Xia Fengshu felt very sorry when he learned about this, and they made an appointment to meet at the dessert shop at the intersection of the street.

"Are you still living here?"

"Hmm." Xia Fengshu noticed the slight joy flashing across Li Yimin's face.

Is this woman pregnant?Li Yimin was a little puzzled, she must have admitted that day.But now, sitting in front of her with a clear face, she can't see that another man is covering her life at all.She moved back to the old house to stick to her original life.So, for me, is there any value and possibility to pursue this feeling? "Umm...Uncle Xia seemed to be going to Beijing to appeal, but was stopped by the people from the Beijing office of the province where his registered permanent residence is located, and then sent back to his hometown. The car stopped temporarily on the Beijing-Shenyang Expressway. When slowing down, Uncle Xia suddenly jumped out of the car. , fortunately, his life was saved."

"How do you know so much."

"After receiving the call, I asked my friends in Shenyang to check the situation."

"Oh." Xia Fengshu replied, but she didn't say thank you. Even if she only regarded this matter as a trouble, she didn't want to say thank you again because of that person.

"Actually, Uncle Xia told me about your brother a long time ago. I also asked someone to check the files. There is almost no possibility of overturning the case. You are studying law. When you choose this major, you should have thought about being able to help your brother." Do something."

"No, I haven't thought about it." Xia Fengshu was as cold as ice.

Li Yimin was a little embarrassed, this speculation was made very ignorantly. "I can understand your...thoughts. I've never heard you call him daddy. It's not because of your cold personality." Li Yimin couldn't help but think of the blood stains on the corner of the wall and the smell of destruction in the room when he rushed to the scene that day. , he was worried that he would not see Xia Fengshu again. "Will you go to Shenyang?"

"I don't know if it's okay to send the money to the past."

"Family members must be present. Some follow-up treatment needs to be signed. I will go to Beijing on a business trip the day after tomorrow. Let's drop by to see him."

"It's not going well at all."

"It's very close, convenient for planes and trains."

"Please don't go."

Li Yimin was startled by Xia Fengshu's resoluteness, "Uncle Xia and I can be regarded as friends who have forgotten each other."

"Are you going to see him because he's calling or because of me."

"Don't make it so clear. You won't ignore him either."

"That's my business."

Li Yimin was speechless, after these few words, he didn't even have time to catch his breath, and Xia Fengshu always stepped forward before he finished speaking.The cold eyes of the girl in front of her clearly showed her attitude. Even if she still lives in the old house, it doesn't mean she chose an ordinary life and leaned toward me.

Without hesitation, Xia Fengshu said decisively: "We can't even be ordinary friends. I don't even want to hear the words that we can't be lovers but also friends. I'm here to say sorry for causing you so much trouble. Please ignore that person's phone calls."

"Then, I wish you happiness." Li Yimin left with such words, is it considered a broken relationship?doesn't count.Is it a failure?It doesn't seem to count either.If his goal was to give this girl happiness, he failed.

Xia Fengshu didn't respond, because she didn't know what happiness was.After eating a large portion of mango ice, it is cold from the inside to the outside, and the palms are cold, and the heart must be at this temperature.

The most difficult thing for Xia Fengshu is not the money, but Li Yimin's proposal of whether to go to Shenyang. Abortion and going to work are things that cannot be delayed any longer. A trip to Shenyang will take at least three days. Fortunately, tomorrow is Friday , should be able to guarantee work on Monday.Just diverting time from abortion operations.If the fetus is delayed for another week, it will be three months, and the best time for abortion is almost missed.Xia Fengshu gritted his teeth and made this decision. It is impossible to expect that person not to disturb his mother. Can he handle the matter before his mother?

After being defeated in front of everyone, he can only prove himself in front of his mother.

What I do at all costs, I will do at all costs to the end.

The train was very slow, and it arrived at the hospital only on Saturday morning. Even though he had bought a sleeper berth, he still couldn't rest well. Xia Fengshu, who lacked sleep, was in a trance.To whom can I tell the pain of running around, in a strange city and a strange place, Xia Fengshu kept urging himself to move forward.

The excitement of the hospital is always different from other places. Passing through the outpatient building, the courtyard of the hospital is more solemn. This place is not deserted. It is a place for life and death. Sorrow and joy keep moving on both sides of the greater than and less than signs. .

There is a green area and a gazebo under Building 6 for people to rest. Xia Fengshu sat on the stone chair for a while. She didn’t eat breakfast or even drink water. Feeling sick.The bruises on the arms are still there, and the legs really feel like they weigh a thousand catties.

What do you say when you see that person?I'm just here to send money and find a special nurse. I won't participate in the specific treatment.Xia Fengshu was thinking, trying to get himself up, finish everything quickly, and rush back by the evening train.

"Maple!" With a soft call, Xia Fengshu lost all tiredness.Looking along the prestige, the mother held the lunch box in her hand and looked at her a few meters behind her.

I want to see you, but I don't want to use this method.

Mom arrived in the middle of the night last night. Just like a daughter is worried about her mother, she doesn't want to disturb her daughter.

Hugging and crying should release the mother and daughter's feelings better than being silent.

They happen to be silent.

long time.

The porridge was getting cold, so my mother said, "I'm dragging you down again."

Xia Fengshu didn't say anything brave, but just held his mother's hand.

"What's wrong with your arm?"

"Don't worry, he didn't hit it." Xia Fengshu denied it mercilessly here, and he didn't have the energy to lie, so he just bit the bullet and denied it.

Mom sighed.

"He couldn't continue his work, so he asked me for money and left. I thought he had gone home."

"Mom knows what he is like. No matter how good a job he is, he won't be able to do it for a long time. It's hard for you."

This is comfort, Xia Fengshu accepted it with peace of mind.

"The hospital said that the blood clot in the head was taken out, and the right leg and knee were shattered and fractured. I'm afraid it won't be the same as before. It's a fate if you didn't fall to death. At least you are still alive." The worry in the mother's eyes was sad because of her weakness .

"I'll figure out a solution for the medical expenses." Xia Fengshu said the only thing she was willing to do, and her mother should really want to hear this sentence. Sure enough, her mother showed a gratified smile. "Mom just brought 300 yuan. I finally borrowed it from your uncle. When I asked this question, the money was useless at all. If you don't come, Mom will have to call you. Fengshu, Mom doesn't know what to tell you, without you, Mom would have to sell the old house."

Xia Fengshu forced a smile, she wanted to drink some porridge, but the box of porridge in her mother's hand was for that person.

"I entrusted your grandma to the fat aunt next door, and your grandpa should be able to take care of it. Your grandma doesn't know anyone anymore, she only knows how to eat and drink. I guess I won't be able to survive this winter." Mom sighed Those who said these words could no longer see sorrow on her face, a numb tiredness occupied her expression, her eyes were no longer bright, her hair was slightly thinning, old was not enough to describe her appearance. "At that time, I can free myself to look at your father. If he wants to sue, I will accompany him. If he wants to work, I will accompany him. I will not let him drag you down."

Tears were on the verge of coming out, Xia Fengshu couldn't accept this bitter promise.

Watching her mother go to deliver breakfast to that person, Xia Fengshu, hungry, turned back to the outpatient building to pay the bill.

Taking out the card containing [-] gold, Xia Fengshu handed it in. Just as she was calculating the time for the return trip, the card was thrown back, "This card is no longer usable, it has been canceled."

Xia Fengshu was dumbfounded, the card was under Tong Zhan's name, Xia Fengshu never thought of transferring the money to his own name, let alone selling the card at Tong Zhan.Why, didn't you say you want to break up?Does he think a good breakup includes getting the money back?

There is still Tong Zhan's number in the phone, dial it, and the other party turns off the phone.

There was a hawker selling squid on iron plates at the entrance of the hospital. Xia Fengshu felt that he was the dismembered squid, and he would not stop wearing it in skewers.

The author has something to say:

Lan Hai said that the novel is so gray and dark, yes, this part is the most depressing stage in the whole novel.