Endless Wall

Lu Xuefeng turned off the TV and sighed slightly.He glanced at the newspaper on the sofa, and a complex expression of sarcasm and mocking malice appeared on his face.

However, this expression only persisted for a moment before it turned into deep regret and nostalgia and regret—for three years, exactly three years, not a minute longer, not a second shorter, just like the promise he made at the beginning—he is still I can recall the expression and tone of that person at that time, but the face of that person was blurred by time.

He knew that he would never forget that person, whether it was the sincere love and longing when he was a teenager or the deep pain and conflict after his sister died.The name Liu Jinqing has already been deeply imprinted into his soul.

He was his longing and pursuit, he worshiped him like all the people around him, trusted him without reservation, and carried out all his instructions without any doubt.He is their leader, ruler, king, and faith.

There was also a beautiful past between them that made people reluctant to pass time, but it is a pity that no matter how beautiful the past is, it can only exist in memories.Even a man as talented and uncompromising as he is can't escape reality and fate, he is caught between responsibility and ideal, and he is in a dilemma in front of reason and emotion.

After all, in the torrent of the secular world, I can't help myself, and I leave regrets after all.

But they are also constantly washed and refined by time, seeing all kinds of time, the warmth and coldness of human relationships.The brothers who were close friends at the beginning also gradually drifted away and became strangers...

Lu Xuefeng sneered—no matter how amazing and brilliant a person is, isn't he dead now?Just such a fluffy word, it means that a person no longer exists in this world.But if so, what is he?Lu Xuefeng lowered his head and buried his face in his palms.

If four years ago he exhausted all his efforts to bring Liu Jinqing back to the world from hell, and he did not hesitate to use the death of his sister to make a pact with him, what he got today was the end of both him and Shen Luo dying—all his efforts , what exactly is it?

His years of agony and depression, his relief and worry when he finally made up his mind, his complacency after forcibly leaving Liu Jinqing in this world... What exactly is it?

He let out a long breath, forcefully suppressing the surging emotions in his heart.He took out a mobile phone from the small drawer by the table, paused, and turned it on.

He quietly looked at the screen of the phone that had been beeping crazily since it was turned on, and then blankly deleted the messages with familiar names one by one—Crazy Li, Brother Huaijiang, Xiao Chengzi, Sister Nan , Brother Yu...

Swipe your finger across the screen, as if swipe through those unforgettable pasts.

He finally raised the corners of his mouth slowly, showing a calm and peaceful smile—that was indeed a past that he would never forget in his life.It's like he can never get rid of the influence that person once brought to him, no matter how time goes by, or whether life or death is parted.

But so what?

He smiled in relief: Liu Jinqing is dead, and he, Lu Xuefeng, will never and should not live in the past...

The smile on the corner of his mouth suddenly stopped, and his face was so half-dead and stiff.He took a few deep breaths, and then with slightly trembling hands pressed the address he had never called: Zijin-brother-in-law.

He thought of that person's smile again, accompanied by those words, which appeared in front of his eyes as clearly as yesterday: "Brother Qing? Xuefeng, why are you so out of touch? Our relationship should always be closer, right? You Just call me Zijin."

At that time, he agreed, and the ecstasy and joy in his heart seemed to still overflow his chest.

But he never actually called out.

Memories come flooding in like tides, those youths, those rages, those pains and sorrows, those joys and joys, those brotherhoods, those enduring hatreds... Those frivolous youth, those precious life-and-death friends, those bumpy roads The road to revenge...

From the friendship between Jinlan and Jinlan, who lived and died together, to parted ways and became strangers, those ups and downs were full of ups and downs, just like the drama on the stage of a storybook, full of excitement.

He is obsessed with ups and downs in this drama.Cry when you are sad, laugh when you are happy, wealth and life, joy, anger, sorrow, joy, all are tied to that person - live for him, die for him.

Lu Xuefeng tightly clenched the phone in his hand, and once again showed a complex look of disbelief, anticipation, and resentment on his face.

He really never thought that Liu Jinqing would leave him some words before he died. After all, from the very beginning, he defined his role as a follower, a subject, a courtier, and a devout believer.

This self-sacrificing mentality and belief have always been deeply rooted in his mind and soul.And in getting along with Liu Jinqing, he revealed it everywhere: just like the phrase Zijin that he never said.He regarded this as the best reward, on the surface he was still respectful and indifferent, but secretly he was ecstatic.

Just like he hated and suffered because of his sister's death, and was decadent and dispirited because of his disability.Escaping from reality and living in obscurity, he just didn't want to face the truth that Liu Jinqing allowed Lu Xueyao to commit suicide.Even so, he never dared to really kill Liu Jinqing.

Just like the only time he secretly revived Liu Jinqing against his wishes was because he couldn't accept the fact that his own god would also die.

But of course he will also have resentment and resentment: why can't he let him go even after death?He's done enough for him.Isn't one sister enough?Why bother him when he was about to let go?

But after all, he couldn't resist the expectation and habitual obedience——

"elder brother"

He was stunned, for a few seconds he thought it was a silly joke made by some boring hacker, and for the next few seconds he felt that Liu Jinqing must have made a mistake.However, when his gaze passed over the sender, he seemed to suddenly understand something, the corners of his mouth curled up uncontrollably, but tears fell from his eyes.

Then there was joy that could no longer be suppressed and a burst of crying.

He knows everything, he really knows everything...

four years ago

Lu Xuefeng secretly rescued Liu Jinqing, and used Lu Xueyao's death to ask Liu Jinqing to make a promise to be with Shen Luo.Liu Jinqing agreed.

But because of his serious injury, he delayed this promise until a year later.

One year later, Liu Jinqing made an agreement with Shen Luo: For three years, if you can keep me, I will stay here with you for the rest of my life.

Three years later, Liu Jinqing committed suicide by jumping off a building, followed by Shen Luo.

Before Liu Jinqing died, she sent a text message "Brother" to Lu Xuefeng.He knew he had been waiting for his words.

He rescued him on his own initiative, took good care of him, helped him heal, and then used the debt he owed to Lu Xueyao and Lu Xuefeng's brothers and sisters to ask him to be with Shen Luo, and the meaning of inheriting Lu Xueyao's last wish was obvious. .

How could Liu Jinqing not know?

Closing remarks

It's all over today...

In the end, a girl asked me if I came to the newspaper office... I swear that I was a very pure and good boy when I wrote this article! ! !

It seems that I didn't intend to let the plot develop like this at the beginning, but it's not my fault that it just happened out of nowhere!

And I should have written it in a happy state at the beginning...

It's over, could it be that my heart is dark?

Don't talk nonsense, the girl also asked me about the setting of Zijin. To be honest, I also think that what I wrote at the time may be too vague.

Copy what the girl replied...

Hey hey! ! !What about my reply! ! !

I don't want to play with JJ anymore! ! !

Well, you can see it on the mobile version.I can't see the computer version...

I will call again.

Liu Jinqing carries the reincarnation of life after life with his memories, and more than that, every night when he sleeps, he dreams of the unknown dark side of the people he comes into contact with during the day, that is, sleep is not rest for him, but torture.

And before this world, he was tormented by dreams and had a mental breakdown [Why do I make such a setting]

After waking up in this world, his mental state is still not very stable.

Next is the words that I didn't have time to put in the words

Of course, the one I'm most worried about is Xiyuan.Damn, this kid is too miserable!

In fact, he and Master Shen are the two most innocent people in this article. They obviously didn't do anything bad (not necessarily, basically it counts). As a result, they were abused so badly...

No way, this is a relatively true story.It is not as beautiful and complete as other stories, but cold and cruel.

Even Liu Jinqing, a time traveler with various bugs, can only struggle to survive in the quagmire of reality, expending countless painstaking efforts in deliberate planning, step-by-step layout, and even groveling for help, so that he broke his whole body and was willing to run dogs for others, becoming a A chess piece that can be discarded at any time in the hands of the superior, and at the same time, he has to take care to protect those who gather around him...

In the story, he has always shown himself in a powerful manner in front of people: strolling in the garden, calm and calm, and even seems cruel and unreasonable, but those plots that were not written into the story by me, those hard-working plans after the bloody storm, those bright The moment of life and death under the sword in the dark, those gambling contests between the mind and courage...

These are the true qualities of Liu Jinqing.

It is his firm persistence to stick to principles even if he is incomprehensible, it is his determination and responsibility to stand up for his companions in the precarious, and it is also his firm rejection when facing suitors.

He was pretty much molded into my ideal man.Of course, it may not be perfect enough.

As for his reply to the Lu Xueyao incident and what he said to Shen Luo that he deliberately seduced Shen Luo, it was because he thought he was going to die soon, and there was no need for these people, especially Shen Luo, to miss him all the time, so it was okay. He tried hard to discredit himself.

But he is still just a person, unable to be perfect, he can only do his best to do better, in addition to the powerful force, tough mind, experience and vision brought to him by reincarnation, he is just an infinite He is just an orphan with no power, but what he is facing is a powerful force representing secular power in human society.

So even if he tried his best to return to the sky, he could only watch Lu Xueyao calmly walk into death, and watch the people around him leave one by one. Lu Xueyao would not be the only one who sacrificed on the road of revenge, she was just loved by us. The one that was written out.

When I wrote this article, I wanted to write it as realistically as possible, to truly show that personal power has an end after all, especially when he is facing the powerful forces spawned by the entire human society, even if he has been reincarnated for hundreds of generations. Experience and instinct, also can't really kill all directions like the protagonist without being damaged.

So regret it after all.

Because I think such a real protagonist who always resists fate and is scarred, but never gives up, chews alone with pain and loneliness, and still keeps moving forward, has the kind of quality that makes all kinds of high-quality people be followed by others. charm.

Only through suffering can one be reborn from the ashes, and only in the face of training can one become more brilliant.

Of course, the future stories of this series are probably in the same tone.

The protagonist continues to be entangled, rejecting suitors in various ways, but the suitors are like Xiaoqiang who can't be beaten one by one...

Knowing my urination, everyone must be mentally prepared before reading the article! ! !

I'm a little confused now whether I should change the drama into a tragedy... But the strange thing is that I don't think it's a tragedy!

My logic at the time seemed to be that I wanted to write a big scumbag Gong, but I didn’t like the kind of character who didn’t need a reason but had a bad character... So I had to find a reason to make Gong a scumbag... As I wrote it, I found out that Shoujun It was a good man who couldn't bear to abuse him, and then, and then it became like this...

My writing is also a history of entanglement, let me go...

Of course, there will be some people who think this is not abuse!

Uh... If it were true that Liu Jinqing accepted him with the intention of taking advantage of him from the very beginning, wouldn't it be even worse to deceive him...

So knowing that I can't give him what he wants, it is actually more responsible to refuse directly.

Is it okay to keep pursuing the person you like and get rejected?Aren't there a lot of them in reality...isn't it considered being abused?

above.Why didn't the high judge let me modify it! ! ! !