Endless Wall

It was eleven or twelve o'clock when the welcome banquet ended.Liu Jinqing bid farewell to over-acquainted passers-by Jia B C and Wei Dai, who looked at him in surprise, and stopped a taxi.After telling the driver the destination, he closed his eyes and fell asleep.

He climbed a few steps, took out his key and opened the door.

When I opened the door, I found that it was not locked, and I knew in my heart that Gu Huaijiang had returned.

It was pitch black behind the door, and Liu Jinqing didn't turn on the light, so she saw the man leaning on the sofa by the moonlight pouring in from the floor-to-ceiling windows.

The man seemed to be awakened by the sound of the door opening after falling asleep, pressed the burnt cigarette butt between his fingers into the ashtray, and rubbed the Qingming acupoint again.With a hoarse voice, he said, "Are you back?"

Liu Jinqing took off her clothes and hung them on the hanger, hummed, then walked to Gu Huaijiang and sat down, "Brother, I will be Shen Luo's life assistant from now on."

Gu Huaijiang seemed startled when he heard the words, and then said with a wry smile: "If it wasn't for me..."

Liu Jinqing interrupted before he finished speaking, "What happened back then is not your responsibility. You just gave them an excuse. Without your excuse, they would still do it."

Seeing Gu Huaijiang's bitter and guilty face, Liu Jinqing didn't want to get entangled in this matter, "How is your place now?"

"...is being whitewashed. But some people are restless."

"Get rid of those restless ones as soon as possible, otherwise something will happen sooner or later."

"...I know, I won't let what's going on here affect you..." His words were roughly interrupted by the other party grabbing his collar.

Liu Jinqing's eyes were dark, and she shot straight into Gu Huaijiang's heart, "Gu Huaijiang, just call you brother, and I won't despise you for what you did! Why do you think I'm in a hurry to tell you to clean up? Do you think you can Do this for the rest of your life?"

Doing her best to suppress the gushing dark emotions, Liu Jinqing threw Gu Huaijiang onto the sofa, turned around and walked quickly to the door, took off her clothes and slammed the door to leave.

Gu Huaijiang slumped on the sofa with Liu Jinqing's strength, stayed for a while, and covered his eyes with his hands, "Of course I know what you are doing. For so many years, you have worked hard to make every step of the way, but now... I can't see it anymore. What exactly do you want to do... Is your purpose really as simple as you say?"

He put his hand down, stared at the darkness for a long time, and muttered to himself: "I can't say... I can't say..."

Both hands clenched into fists, "Zijin, Zijin, you forced me..."

Liu Jinqing walked quickly down the street with a cigarette in her mouth, as if she could get rid of the irritability and depression.

Ever since he woke up, he could no longer see other people showing their fragile and sad emotions.

At that time, there will always be a voice in my heart roaring loudly: Why are you so fragile!Why are you sad!Why!

The echo reverberated in his chest, hovered upwards, and roared in his mind—at that moment just now, he really wanted to kill Gu Huaijiang.

He knew it came from jealousy, because he had long since lost the power to be vulnerable and sentimental.

After walking for an unknown distance, she dropped the unburned cigarette with trembling fingers, and Liu Jinqing turned into a dark alley.

He turned his trembling hand into a fist and smashed it against the wall one by one.

Trying my best to ignore the clamor in my heart—I really want to, I really want to die!If only I could die like an ordinary person!Just once, you don't know anything, you don't have to think about anything, and you can say goodbye to this disgusting world forever...

Suddenly feeling a pain in the palm of his hand, Liu Jinqing let go of his hand subconsciously, "Pa."

It seemed as if something was shattering before his eyes.

His eyes widened but he couldn't see anything - as if the eyes weren't communicating what they saw to the brain.

His consciousness seemed to be far away, he staggered, and stood there blankly.

After staying for a long time, Liu Jinqing managed to gather his dilated pupils, looked at his blood-stained hands and his hideous and distorted face reflected on the shattered glass on the ground, and then suddenly realized what he wanted to do just now. What.

"Ha. Hahahahaha!" Hoarse laughter cut through the quiet night.

ha!He just wanted to commit suicide?Want to escape pain like a coward again by taking your own life?

Burying his head deeply into his hands, he could only smell the salty smell of blood—just like his rotten, dilapidated, filthy inside.

what to do?He has done his best to stay awake...

He slid along the wall and sat on the ground, emptied his mind and stared at the deep night sky.

The sky is still vast and boundless, as if it can contain everything—and it can contain him.

Just watch, watch.Tears poured out like a crash.

With a deep wound on her finger, Liu Jinqing suppressed the violent emotions in her heart again, stopped her tears, wiped away the tears, cleaned up the blood, and took care of herself.

He has no right to be cowardly, and momentary venting is allowed, but he never indulges himself.

"Stand up," he said to himself.

"There are still many things waiting for you to do tomorrow."