Endless Wall

The moon is in the middle of the sky, and the night has faded.

Liu Jinqing simply got up after tossing and turning many times and failed to fall asleep.He turned on the bedside lamp, lit a cigarette, sat for a while, got up and opened the window, and looked up at the deep and vast night sky.

A waning moon in the sky stands bright behind the smoke clouds.The moonlight is flowing, and the stars are hidden.

Liu Jinqing only felt that the past and the past were like the clouds and smoke floating a month ago.Hazy and illusory, unreal.

Probably in these many worlds, there are endless reincarnations, only the sun, moon and stars have never changed... No, it should... plus me.As a person who enjoys eternal life and is immortal.Thinking of this, Liu Jinqing sneered with disgust at the corner of her straight mouth.

Life after life, waking up in chaos, dying in sobriety.Every life is a cycle of birth, growth, aging and death.

Plus every long, dark night, every time I close my eyes.What flashes and turns in the dream is all the intimacy, mutual acquaintance and love in the daytime, the one-sided relationship... the hideous, twisted, greedy, ugly, crazy and obscene side of all the people who come into contact.

The story in the dream is real and coherent.It often makes him unable to distinguish reality from dreams.What's ridiculous is that after a period of pain, confusion and bewilderment, he used the only clarity left at that time to confirm the authenticity of the events shown to him by the dream.

ha.It turned out to be all true.Liu Jinqing forgot what kind of collapse and pain she was at that time.He only knew from scattered memories that he seemed to want to kill himself to end everything.But wake up again in the next reincarnation, repeating the pain and helplessness of the previous life.

Then, then ah.He seems to have resigned himself to his fate, and has been living in a daze—he doesn't know how many lives have passed in the middle, and the memory here is blurred and difficult to recognize—until, until this life.

He lowered his head and took a deep breath of the cigarette, then raised his head again.Maybe he doesn't even know himself, after seeing countless ugliness in the world and reading all the ugliness of human nature.What kind of violent, twisted, dark and bloodthirsty desire is buried in the bottom of my heart.

Want to destroy everything, everything in this world is so filthy, everyone is guilty, and all life is unclean...

Nausea, nausea, nausea, nausea... repeated in my mind.He forgot how he slaughtered several worlds in a trance, and how he died with fear, hatred or pain in his eyes...

He must have been out of his mind by then.He thinks so.

He never felt guilty.After all, he didn't think anyone could have done it better in the same situation.

Because of this, he was extremely grateful that he was able to wake up.To remain sane in the situation he was in, really, was all he wanted.

Throw away the burnt cigarette butt in your hand and look up at the dark night sky.

Maybe he didn't realize it himself—whenever he looked at the sky, his dark eyes would always burst out with thick confusion.Like the miasma in the forest, under the mist, there will always be some poisonous gas rolling and spreading.

There are always many secrets in this world, but there must be none as unsolvable as the one he encountered.

Thinking this way, Liu Jinqing took a puff of smoke, and tried hard to recall those broken and scattered memories as usual.At least, he needs to know the beginning of all this.

Everything always has a beginning and an end. He doesn't believe that his trajectory is a circle, an infinite loop.It's better to say that I don't want to believe it.

Human life is painful.One way or another, we're all going to linger—until the end of our lives.

Shaking his head, his cold fingers lightly pressed his hot forehead.Slowly let out the unwillingness to fail again or the stuffiness in his chest.

Since I can't find the starting point.

Then, let him see what his end is!