The human disqualification of an outsider

Staring at [Oda Sakunosuke] in front of him, Oda Sakunosuke was silent for a moment, he noticed the sad breath emanating from the other person, and the appearance of a hangover at first glance, completely different from himself who drank but could restrain himself, This person seemed to have experienced some indelible pain, and finally chose to let himself go at this moment.

"Dazai, do you know the reason?" Oda Sakunosuke turned his head and looked at his close friend. Since Dazai knew the arrival of the other party, the other party also knew the reason for this, right?

Osamu Dazai blinked, stretched out his hand, picked up the photo in the hand of [Oda Sakunosuke], pointed to the leader Zai in it and said: "It's me who is the leader, didn't you drink with him? ?”

"It's him..." Oda Sakunosuke still remembers this leader Zai, the gloomy aura on his body is deeper than that of the house masters he has seen, as if he has stepped into the depths of despair, and he has no plans to climb out at all , and even intend to indulge in it like this.

"Yes, it looks like this should be you from that world." Osamu Dazai maintained a good mood, he knew about the leader Zai, and even had the memory of the other party, so he stretched out his hand and poked [Oda Sakunosuke] on the cheek, He smiled, but he didn't do much, just glanced over, and he was able to know what happened, "Besides, Akutagawa-kun and Nakajima-kun should have told me about this photo and my death." Get 'you', or you won't get a hangover."

Thinking that it would take a long time for [Oda Sakunosuke] to wake up, Osamu Dazai gave up the behavior of continuing to tease [Oda Sakunosuke], but returned to Oda Sakunosuke, and talked to him about the leader Zai Things between [Oda Sakunosuke].

Probably knowing what happened to the leader Jae and the other self, Oda Sakunosuke could only sigh softly, at least, he could still understand the other self's thoughts.In any case, when he knew that the leader Jae was his long-standing friend in writing, the other party's shock was beyond his imagination.

——If one day I experience the same thing, I guess it will appear like the other person, right?

Oda Sakunosuke thought so, turned his head slightly, looked at Osamu Dazai, but silently got rid of this thought in his heart.

Because I will not experience such a thing, instead of thinking about the possibility, it is better to look at the reality. In reality, because of Osamu Dazai, I have become the colorless king. All the strife and turmoil that would have occurred have been left behind.

What happened in the future, what I can do, and the only thing I can do, is probably stretching out my arms towards Osamu Dazai, accepting the arrival of the other party, and then listening to the other party's narration, right?Maybe you can help the other party a little bit to a certain extent, but that's all.

As Mori Ogai said, he is no longer Oda Sakunosuke of Yokohama.

After pondering for a while, he fell into silence, stroking the wall of the wine glass with his fingers, as if thinking of something, countless thoughts turned in his mind, and suddenly asked, "Since you have left, what about your partner?" Woolen cloth?"

"Huh? Partner?" Osamu Dazai didn't expect that Oda Sakunosuke would mention Nakahara Chuya. He tilted his head in doubt, thought for a moment, waved his hand casually, and said, "Who knows, maybe I Spend it for some reason, otherwise those two brats would not be able to break into the port mafia building, even if I deliberately released the water."

What he said was so natural, as if he was the leader who fell into these schemes, fully aware of the other party's thoughts, methods and means: "That slug should be furious? Because he failed to protect the 'leader' again or something." .”

Looking down at the wine in the glass, Osamu Dazai gently took a straw, stirred it in the wine, and whispered in his mouth: "But I should leave something for him? For example, give the entire port mafia He or something? Probably will do that, after all, that guy is my partner, even if he doesn’t like me, even if he hates me, he will take on such responsibilities, take on everything, and work hard to live. "

Slightly pursing his lips, Osamu Dazai couldn't tell what his mood was like at the moment. Maybe it was the confidence that his ideas would come true, or maybe it was the sadness of another self and Sakunosuke Oda who had embarked on a breakup. Such feelings, But it just flashed by in an instant, leaving only a shallow aftertaste.

Oda Sakunosuke raised his wine glass and lightly touched Dazai Osamu's wine glass. Hearing the crisp sound echoing in the bar, he withdrew Dazai Osamu's thoughts, and then he slowly changed the topic to the waking up. Oda Sakunosuke], "How did he come here? You brought it here?"

"No." Shaking his index finger, Osamu Dazai tapped his lips with his index finger, chuckled, and whispered, "People's emotions and thoughts will become a rope, and they will become fetters to connect each other. It’s just that there is a little possibility of following the other’s footsteps because of my friendship with another me.”

He knocked on the bar and pointed to the photo, "The two of us are now in this place, exactly where the photo is, and this time is the time when the photo was taken, and you and I are the ones in it Existence, the holder of the obsession also coincides with the same time and location in another time and space, since all the conditions are met, it is not impossible for him to come here."

Osamu Dazai's explanation was a bit plain, he just talked about a general thing, and didn't explain all the specific matters clearly, but this was enough, what Oda Sakunosuke wanted to understand was just these things, more importantly, more He doesn't intend to go deep into the inner things, he just needs to know that this is just an accidental time travel.

【Oda Sakunosuke】It actually feels quite strange. I passed out drunk in this bar, and I heard the voice of Akutagawa Ryunosuke before going to bed. When I woke up, what I saw was another self and Osamu Dazai.

He seemed to look at Dazai Osamu a few more times with some nostalgia, but he only needed one glance to tell that this Dazai Osamu was not the Dazai Osamu he knew, just as the Oda Sakunosuke sitting in front of him was not himself.

Recalling Osamu Dazai's explanation just now, [Oda Sakunosuke] roughly understood what kind of place he went to.

Clenching the photo in his hand, he squinted his eyes slightly, and after his eyes moved back and forth between the photo and the person in front of him, he finally judged the identities of these two people - Osamu Dazai and Sakunosuke Oda in the photo.

[Oda Sakunosuke] fell into silence. Even a person with a calm mind like him cannot completely calm down when facing things like time travel.

"Hello, me in another world, I am Oda Sakunosuke." Facing himself from another world, Oda Sakunosuke looked very calm. He had seen many Osamu Dazai from another world before, and it would be nice to see him again. It's nothing, he calmly accepted this fact, and extended a friendly hand towards the other party. It's interesting to think about being able to become friends with another self.

"Hello, I'm Oda Sakunosuke." After a pause, [Oda Sakunosuke] sensed Oda Sakunosuke's thoughts, and after he shook hands with Oda Sakunosuke, he let go naturally, and his eyes fell on Dazai Zhi Zhi, hesitated for a moment, wondering if he should ask.

"Are you wondering how I became an adult?" As a close friend of Oda Sakunosuke, even if Oda Sakunosuke had a straight face, Dazai Osamu could clearly distinguish the other person's thoughts, he naturally raised his hand to greet, As if [Oda Sakunosuke] in front of him is also his friend, his tone is cheerful and brisk, without any gloom or indifference, "Some time ago I had some physical problems and then I became smaller, now I'm fine, oh yes Lah, the photo question you wanted to ask was indeed taken here~"

Even though [Oda Sakunosuke] didn't ask both questions, he was able to answer the other party's doubts accurately.

There was a faint smile on Dazai Osamu's face, and the two figures of Oda Sakunosuke were reflected in his kite-colored eyes, and he said with some emotion: "That seems to me to be dead, let me guess how he died ...Is it jumping off a building~"

He opened his arms and made a flying appearance, his eyes were shining brightly, he stretched out his hand and pulled Oda Sakunosuke's clothes, and said excitedly: "Oda Saku, we also jumped off the building yesterday! Doesn't it feel great? ? The idea of ​​dying by jumping off a building is also super cool."

"Ah." Oda Sakunosuke recalled, the jumping mentioned by Osamu Dazai should mean that the other party jumped out of the window of Nakahara Chuya's office and was caught by himself, and the two fell together and ended up safe and sound, right?Since Dazai said so, then the leader Zai must have jumped from the port mafia building after drinking wine and taking pictures, right?That's right, his eyes were full of acceptance of the result of death, the leader Zai had already planned everything and accepted the result calmly, so he couldn't say anything.

He pondered for a moment, then waved his hand, calling the bartender to bring a glass of wine to the other self in front of him, anyway, let's have a drink to relax, the other party seems to be touched by Dazai's words.

After taking the wine glass, [Oda Sakunosuke] lowered his head, he was silent for a moment, but he still tried his best to cheer up, he didn't know the reason why he came here, but he should be able to go back, if he can take the opportunity It would be a good thing to know about the situation of the leader Zai here.

He opened his mouth and asked softly, "Can I get to know him?"

As soon as Oda Sakunosuke heard this, he knew that this question was not something he could answer. He turned his head to look at Osamu Dazai, but saw the slightly sighing expression on Osamu Dazai's face, and he understood that this topic... Perhaps too heavy.

The warm yellow light fell on Dazai Osamu's body, faintly staining his clothes, wrapping that slender and thin body, but it couldn't dispel the deep black, his expression showed a touch of indifference, lightly Fainted, turned into a helpless sigh.

As if considering what to say, Osamu Dazai pondered for a long time before slowly opening his mouth: "I can tell you a general thing, but there are many things that I cannot tell you."

【Oda Sakunosuke】Looking at Dazai Osamu, it seems that he wants to keep the other person's appearance in his heart. Even though he has made countless carvings, he can't change the fact that the Dazai Osamu in front of him is not the leader he wants to meet. However, he All he can see now is this Osamu Dazai, and the answer he wants to get can only be confided to himself from Osamu Dazai in front of him.

Osamu Dazai blinked and asked softly, "Do you know 'book'?"

"...It seems to be a special supernatural prop?" Oda Sakunosuke had heard about it, but he simply scanned the relevant information and didn't care about it. In comparison, he cared more about it. The work in the Armed Detective Agency is the novel he wrote and the child he raised.

"Yes, the 'book' is a special object. The words written on it will become real and be accepted by people." Osamu Dazai's voice was a little ethereal, and it fell into Oda Sakunosuke's ears lightly , "Your world has 'books', our world also has 'books', and some other worlds also have 'books', but this is not very important."

He obviously said "book" first, but later said that this thing is not very important, which made Oda Sakunosuke and [Oda Sakunosuke] have doubts.

Osamu Dazai obviously didn't intend to explain this aspect of the problem, and on some things, all he could do was try and stop, reminding some, but he had to restrain himself.

He pointed to Buteizai in the photo, and said seriously: "I have my memory from another world."

He used the self-proclaimed "I". At this moment, he represented the leader Zai, not the current self. He was having a conversation with Oda Sakunosuke as the leader Zai.

"I have seen everything that will happen in the future, but I have also discovered a different place in the world, so I want to save and bring you, my best friend, out of that fate of death." He said lightly, Spreading his hands and shrugging his shoulders, it seems that this goal is not very difficult for him, and everything he has done is just some small things, "So, I killed Mr. Sen, became the leader, and fished you out from the beginning , Throw away the safer armed detective agency, and then, you wrote the novel as you dreamed, and I am very happy that you can realize your dream."

[Oda Sakunosuke] widened his eyes slightly, he understood that everything Dazai Osamu said was true, because these were indeed done by the leader Zai who was helping him as a pen pal, but no matter what Dazai Osamu To put it lightly, he can also understand the hardships and difficulties in this process, and is it all for his own dream?For my dream of becoming a novelist?

He opened his mouth, intending to say something, but he couldn't get it out of his mouth, and could only turn it into one sentence: "Is it worth it?"

"It's worth it, because you are my best friend." Dazai Osamu's voice was so firm, his eyes were extremely gentle, like a pool of soft water, enveloping Oda Sakunosuke's soul, full of warmth, without No reluctance or regret, no sadness or pain, only pure joy, the joy of being able to help friends achieve their dreams - such pure emotions are especially precious in Dazai, who is as black as mud , are shockingly rare.

Instantly overwhelmed by Osamu Dazai's emotions, [Oda Sakunosuke] lost his language, no amount of words could express his mood at the moment, it was extremely complicated, and it couldn't be described in a few simple words.

Osamu Dazai blinked, stretched out his hand, skipped Oda Sakunosuke, landed on [Oda Sakunosuke]'s head, and rubbed it lightly, just like what Oda Sakunosuke did to him on weekdays In that way, he softly comforted the [Oda Sakunosuke] who had lost his best friend: "I have no regrets, so don't be sad for me, because I am willing to do all this for you, what I hope, It’s just that you can achieve your dream and become a novelist.”

Tears swirled in those eye sockets, obviously a resolute person, but [Oda Sakunosuke] shed tears several times in one day, the teardrops slipped from the cheeks and entered the lips, bringing a salty taste, He suddenly thought of something, and couldn't help asking: "Are you dead?"

Their eyes were full of expectation and suspicion. People from the Armed Detective Agency and the Port Mafia had searched for the corpse of the leader Zai who committed suicide by jumping off a building, but they were unable to find any traces. As the leader of Osamu Dazai, he couldn't find out where the other party had fallen, so some people laughed and said that the leader with vigorous vitality might still be watching the play alive and kicking somewhere.

[Oda Sakunosuke] I don't know what kind of answer I'm looking for. The other party is dead, and I followed the leader's wish to find death all the way. If the other party is still alive, so what if I know it? Can I let go of everything and go Has the other party found it?

Dazai Osamu didn't seem to be surprised that [Oda Sakunosuke] would ask such a question, or rather, he already knew that [Oda Sakunosuke] who came here would ask such a question sooner or later.

He was very calm, withdrew his hand, and said an ominous answer casually: "I'm dead, but I'm still alive."

The author has something to say: As a distinction, [Oda Sakunosuke] refers to the Oda Saku who traveled through