The Price of a Superstar [Rebirth]

As soon as I returned to the company, I met Mu Chang in the corridor.Gong Ao's heart was a little messy, he was hesitating when he heard Mu Chang ask, "I heard that you didn't have class this morning, where did you go?"

"I'm sorry, I went to see Gu Xin." Gong Ao felt that this matter must not be concealed, so it was better to tell him frankly.

"Why don't you listen to me?" Mu Chang held Gong Ao's shoulders with both hands, his expression was full of disappointment and anger.He was afraid that if Gu Xin had any plans for Xia Yu, Xia Yu would be in great danger.

Facing Mu Chang's eyes, Gong Ao blamed himself very much. He would rather Mu Chang slap him than to make him accept it.

"Mu Chang, I really like Gu Xin's movie. I want to make it. It won't take too much time to make a movie. I don't have many roles..."

"You know that's not what I'm talking about. What kind of person is he? You actually went to contact him. Are you not afraid of what will happen to you if something happens to you?"

Gong Ao had never seen Mu Chang excited before, facing the continuous questioning, Gong Ao was speechless.

Of course he knew what kind of person Gu Xin was, and he was even more afraid that he would be framed by Gu Xin if he failed to get revenge, but he couldn't back down because of this, as getting close to Gu Xin was the only goal of his rebirth.

"Xia Yu, why don't you wake up? Could it be that your previous stubbornness has returned and your memory has recovered? You let me down like this, do you know that!"

Mu Chang's caring and reprimanding tone made Gong Ao unable to respond for a while.

"Don't yell at Xia Yu like that." James appeared at some point, and must have rushed over after hearing their quarrel.

"I'm no longer the Xia Yu I used to be. Xia Yu is dead..." Gong Ao murmured in a low voice.

"Xia Yu, let's go." James pulled Gong Ao away from Mu Chang.

"What's wrong with you, why is he yelling at you?" When they came to the elevator, James looked at Gong Ao who looked lonely and asked.

"I wanted to do a movie and he didn't agree. I let him down."

"Filming? Do you want to film? I have long wanted to. Anyway, I am not as popular as you and I have plenty of time. What are you filming? I will film with you."

Seeing James' excited face, Gong Ao couldn't help saying, "It's not a good show, don't go."

"Don't be so stingy with me. Good brothers should share the blessings. Go talk to the director and arrange a role for me, even a cameo." James' eyes were full of earnestness.

"You should find another director, this movie doesn't need actors anymore." Gong Ao refused him, and then walked to the restaurant, letting James follow behind and keep talking.

"Xia Yu, why do you have this look, and you're still feeling bad about what happened just now? You still have me, be happy, come and eat a carrot to make your body healthy like a bunny!" James put vegetables into Gong Ao's bowl, But Gong Ao was still depressed, with an expression of not knowing what to eat.

"Hey, how can you rest assured that you are like this, I strongly support your filming. Eat quickly!" The dishes James picked up had piled up Gong Ao's bowl into a hill.

Why do you care so much about Mu Chang in your heart now? Although he helps himself, it is normal for him to feel uncomfortable when he opposes him as a friend.But seems to go beyond that feeling?My heart is full of loss, panic, and loss.

Maybe, in the future, Mu Chang won't take care of himself anymore, that's fine, anyway, he is a liar, and staying away from him will reduce the guilt in his heart.

Thinking back to the ten days after my rebirth, I had doubts about Mu Chang at the beginning, then gradually regarded him as a friend, relied on him, and now I miss him.

It shouldn't continue like this, otherwise I don't know what it will become, and I shouldn't use Xia Yu and Mu Chang's relationship again, and use him again and again to lie to him.If he fell in love with Mu Chang, but he was not Xia Yu, the result would be very tragic.

Once secretly made up his mind that he would never fall in love with others casually, Zao Gongao decided to close the door of his heart while it was still here.

After the complicated lessons, Gong Ao was in the music room at home, reviewing the lessons learned for the day.But every corner of the music room reminds Gong Ao of Mu Changlai, he either plays the piano or sings.

Gong Ao couldn't concentrate, so he stood up from the piano, staring at the bright paint of the piano in a daze, a gap on the top of the piano cover caught Gong Ao's attention, he stepped forward to close it completely, and when he opened the piano cover, he found There is a sheet of paper folded in a stack.

what is this?

Gong Ao unfolded the paper, but the content inside made Gong Ao horrified.

Mu Chang:

I don't want to live anymore.

I can't be in the same company as a loved one without being honest about it.I can't pick up and put down the phone repeatedly every time I miss you.

You say that I am too paranoid, that I am childish, that I am immature, in your eyes, do I only have these shortcomings?

Every time after fighting with you, I go to you again, which makes me feel very low self-esteem.I don't know when I don't even want self-esteem.

I know my love is not accepted by you, but why you refused to answer my phone calls, I just want to apologize to you, just want to continue to be friends with you as you said, why you have to be so decisive to me.

When I'm with you, I don't dare to say anything else. I only talk about work and music with you. I don't know why even this way of getting along makes you feel disgusted.

My self-esteem was severely crushed by you. Without self-esteem, I can no longer create as before. I am under a lot of pressure now. Can you understand the feeling of sitting in the music room for a whole day without writing a note? ?I've been doing this for days and I think I've lost the ability to create and I'm as depressed as a plucked bird right now.

I will not pester you anymore, I hope you can meet a girlfriend who loves you like me, but is more mature than me, not childish, not paranoid.

2015-5-12

The letter was written sharply, tenaciously and desperately. This short paragraph of text made people feel Xia Yu's helplessness and sadness in every word.

Gong Ao read this letter over and over again, feeling mixed feelings in his heart.The mystery in my heart was instantly revealed, just like a person who has been holding his breath for a long time suddenly breathes fresh air, all the questions in his heart have been answered at this moment.

Xia Yu liked Mu Chang, but Mu Chang just regarded him as a good friend and a younger brother.

Mu Chang, how could you treat Xia Yu like this? Since you don't love him, why do you care about him... You gave him a chance but you pushed him away cruelly. A conceited musical genius who couldn't create because of love was a blow to him. It is fatal.

The moment he was pushed downstairs by Gu Xin, Gong Ao's heart was also desperate and painful, but he hadn't reached the point where he wanted to give up his life. Maybe Xia Yu was really paranoid, which made him fall in love to the point of destruction.

Gong Ao's eyes dimmed, the truth he pursued so hard was so embarrassing.

This also explained why when Xia Yu was poisoned and lost his memory, Mu Chang's expression was hesitant to speak. He should be very suspicious of Xia Yu's suicide.He quarreled with Xia Yu and didn't answer Xia Yu's call. Xia Yu had an accident that night.So Mu Chang felt very guilty, that's why he cared and helped Xia Yu after he lost his memory.

What would he look like if he knew Xia Yu was dead?

Even if he thought Xia Yu was still alive, he shouldn't hide Xia Yu's past and erase Xia Yu's past.Although the past was painful, Xia Yu still had the right to know.

Is my inexplicable fondness for Mu Chang in the past few days, is it also because this body still has nostalgia for Mu Chang?In this way, it can be explained, so it turns out...Gong Ao's care, nostalgia, and appreciation for Mu Chang are all because this body still retains the inertia of feeling, Gong Ao suddenly feels relieved.

A proud prince, so abandoning his life.Xia Yu, why should he treat himself like this? Since he doesn't love you, he should live his life well.

When he came to the company again, Gong Ao could no longer relax as before, he bowed his head and remained silent.Even when meeting colleagues, they still look gloomy when they nod.

As soon as he got out of the elevator, he met James, as if he had been waiting for Gong Ao.

"Tell you a surprise!" James happily pulled Gong Ao to the stairwell and said, "Gu Xin promised me to film that movie with you! I heard you mention Director Gu when you were talking to Mu Chang that day. I I guessed it must be Gu Xin, and when I called, he said that he invited you!"

"You didn't act to get close to me, did you?" Gong Ao questioned.He didn't want others to be involved because of himself.

"Of course not, I really want to act, and I really appreciate Director Gu Xin." James looked at Gong Ao with a flattering expression, "I won't bother you like before, we are good colleagues, hehe. "

"Good colleague?"

"Yes, we are good colleagues who like filming, we need to help each other." James smiled silly.

When Mu Chang stepped out of the elevator, he saw Gong Ao and James chatting about filming together. When he met Gong Ao's gaze, Mu Chang's expression was extremely stern.It seems that those warm and harmonious feelings with Gong Ao never existed.

Gong Ao's expression was also cold, he was not Xia Yu, so there was no need to continue to be wrong because of Xia Yu's feelings for Mu Chang.Mu Chang was kind to him because he was Xia Yu, so he didn't have to feel that he owed him because Mu Chang had helped him.

"Xia Yu, why don't you speak?" James interrupted Gong Ao's meditation.

James in front of him was as persistent to Xia Yu as Xia Yu was to Mu Chang and he was to Gu Xin.There is nothing wrong with loving someone, but it hurts.I hope I won't be the second Mu Chang. Since I have no interest in James, I should stay away from him and let him give up early.

Gong Ao ignored James and walked out of the stairwell alone.