a mistake

Cheng Jingpan and Fang Nan drove for two days by mistake, and the farther they were from Youcheng, the closer they were to Qing'an.

After Cheng Jingming announced his resignation the day before yesterday, the news became lively again.After tossing and turning about those points, Fang Nancuo no longer thought about it. He turned off his phone and let himself go while he was on the long journey.

This morning, they were only fifty kilometers away from Qing'an, and Cheng Jingpan parked the car at a service station.

In fact, Fang Nancuo has been very blocked these days. When he went to the convenience store to buy water, he looked at the row of cigarettes at the cash register and hesitated.

"Sir, do you need anything else?"

Fang Nancuo pointed to a pack of cigarettes and said, "I want this."

Cheng Jingpan came over at this moment, glanced at the cigarette and said to the waiter, "Change to that one."

He turned his head and explained to Fang Nancuo: "You smoke for the first time, a softer one. I remember your lungs are not good."

Fang Nan took the cigarette in embarrassment and followed Cheng Jingpan out of the convenience store.

"Xiao Fang," Cheng Jingpan's face suddenly became a little heavy, "It happens that you bought cigarettes, so you can smoke one."

Fang Nan opened the package by mistake, and was stunned again: "Is there something wrong?"

Cheng Jingpan sighed: "You smoke one first, and listen to me slowly."

"Oh." Fang Nan picked up a cigarette by mistake. It was very windy in the morning, and it took him a long time to light it up. After taking one puff, he was choked until tears flowed out.

Cheng Jingpan patted him on the back, slowly pointed to the road sign and said, "We are now in the Shuqing service area, which is 45 kilometers away from Qing'an."

"Hmm." Fang Nan looked at the cigarette in his hand by mistake, wondering if he should take another puff.

"I remember you said that your father left you and returned to Youcheng."

"Huh?" Fang Nancuo didn't know why Cheng Jingpan suddenly mentioned this.

"Jingming found someone to investigate after he found out. It's just that he didn't know how to tell you the result. After all, this matter has a lot of impact on your heart."

Fang Nancuo took a deep puff of the cigarette, and asked with a trembling voice, "So? What's wrong with my father?"

"Jingming told me when he called and asked me to take you back to Qing'an. In fact, your father went to Shuqing after he left Qing'an."

"Shu Qing?" Fang Nancuo didn't realize it for a while. He stared up at the green road sign in the distance, as if talking to himself, "So, in fact, I'm only [-] kilometers away from my dad, but I went around a few times. Ten years?" Fang Nancuo couldn't accept this fact, he clenched the cigarette case in his hand uneasily.

Cheng Jingpan didn't know what to say for a while, so he asked for a cigarette and lit it for himself: "Jingming said that I should tell you something in the end, so that you can untie the last knot in your heart."

"How is he now?"

Cheng Jingpan organized his words a little bit, and said as softly as possible: "After he left Qing'an, he started a small silk business in Shuqing. His life was not bad. He got married later, so you have a half-sister , going to college this year."

In the 20 years since his father left, he only came up with these few words in the end, but Fang Nancuo couldn't accept so much information for a while, so he reacted for a long time before he responded softly: "Oh."

"Look, we are in the Shuqing service area now, do you want to go and see him?"

Fang Nan took a few more puffs of cigarette by mistake. Only now did he feel the smell of cigarettes, which was very strong, but the moment he spit it out, he also relaxed.

Cheng Jingpan looked at Fang Nan who was smoking silently and did not speak, the two of them just smoked two or three cigarettes in succession.

Fang Nan snuffed out the cigarette by mistake, and made up his mind: "Take me to Shuqing."

Cheng Jingming nodded and drove off the highway.Shu Qing was actually about the same size as Qing'an. If he didn't know that this was Shu Qing, Fang Nan would have returned to Qing'an in a daze for a while.

The vehicle drove for more than an hour, and finally Cheng Jingpan parked the car at the gate of a community.

"Do you know the house number?"

Cheng Jingpan nodded, and was about to take out his mobile phone to tell Fang Nancuo, but Fang Nancuo stopped him.

Cheng Jingpan knew what Fang Nancuo was thinking, so he put away his phone and sat in the car with Fang Nancuo.

Fang Nancuo looked at the opposite community through the car window. He tried his best to look at the balconies of each house. He wondered if his father would happen to be watering the flowers on the balcony at this moment, so maybe he could notice him here.

Fang Nan made a mistake many times imagining what he should say and what he should do when he saw his father.When he was in Beijing, he wandered through countless neighborhoods, just to meet his father by chance, and then ask him, how are you?Now that Fang Nan felt the cowardice of being close to his hometown, he didn't know whether his father would accept him if he entered his father's world rashly, and whether he still regretted the mistakes he made in Qing'an?

After a long time, Fang Nancuo said softly, "Let's go back to Qing'an."

Cheng Jingpan nodded and started the vehicle.

Cheng Jingpan turned his head to look at Fang Nancuo from time to time: "If it's not convenient for you, I can go up and take a look for you."

"No need," Fang Nancuo said slowly, "I just didn't expect that we were only fifty kilometers apart, yet he never came to see me."

"You hate him?"

Fang Nan thought about it wrongly: "I hated him when you told me in the service area. It seems that the grievances of more than 20 years finally have a channel to vent. But when I sit downstairs, I think I have figured it out .Maybe everything is a coincidence. If I didn't have an obsession with him, I wouldn't have to go to Youcheng, let alone so many things would happen. Seriously, Brother Cheng, I don't regret it."

Cheng Jingpan nodded: "When you arrive in Qing'an, you have to take care of yourself. Let me know if you have any difficulties. I have some friends in Qing'an, and they can help you."

"Thank you Brother Cheng, thank you for accompanying me this journey." Fang Nan paused, "I also ask you to go back and take care of Cheng Jingming, he is more difficult than me to get out."

"Xiao Fang, I know it's inappropriate for me to say these things now. In fact, the first time I saw you in Meixiu, when I saw Jing Ming flirting with Su Xu on purpose, I knew he was emotional. It's just that he was very high-spirited at that time. , I don’t understand my own heart. I watched you come a little bit, you are all growing up, and you have paid a lot for each other.”

"Brother Cheng..."

"Xiao Fang, don't mind. I don't think you guys will end. I have two friends who have known each other since college and got married as soon as they graduated. But they divorced soon. But you know what? They used After ten years of thinking about the meaning of each other, they remarried again. Some people say that if they knew that they were going around, they were still the other party. Ten years have not been in vain."

Fang Nancuo nodded thoughtfully.

Cheng Jingpan continued: "So if you also need ten years, or 20 years to think clearly, it is worth it. When you all forget the pain, you will meet when Chun and Jingming come together. But if you find another Half, that person is not Jing Ming, and I also wish you all the best."

Fang Nancuo said in a long voice, "Thank you."