green water for a long time

The password did not change, and Lu Lanbo opened the door smoothly.The room was still furnished as before, Qin Mingchang was sitting in the living room reading a book, he only turned on a floor lamp.It was as if time had flown back in time, and everything was as usual.

Qin Mingchang looked at him, a little startled, he stood up and looked at Lu Lanbo, as if Lu Lanbo was coming home late again as usual.But the severe pain in his heart brought him back to reality.

"Have you been drinking?" Qin Mingchang only said this.

After all, Lu Lanbo was still too young. He sat on the sofa very spineless, started to cry, and asked in a low voice, "We broke up, right? Tell me, is everything over?"

Qin Mingchang was a little at a loss. He was sitting next to Lu Lanbo, holding tightly to the corner of his pajamas with his left hand.

Seeing that Qin Mingchang didn't respond, Lu Lanbo cried more and more painfully.However, he still didn't give up. He grabbed Qin Mingchang's hands. He used to be very familiar with these hands, with distinct joints, and they were once tightly entwined.When they climax together, Lu Lanbo especially likes to hold Qin Mingchang's hand.

"I don't know." When Qin Mingchang said this, his face was expressionless, not even a little emotional.

"You're still human! I'm dying of pain. If you didn't think about it, you shouldn't provoke me!" Seeing Qin Mingchang like this, Lu Lanbo shouted, "I had a good life." Lu Lanbo stared at Qin Mingchang , I want to see if he still has no emotional fluctuations.

Qin Mingchang took a deep breath and said slowly, "I am also in pain."

"Your pain was brought on by you, but mine was imposed by you. If it weren't for you, I might have married Zhang Xuefei by now, and I might have married Yuan Xin. I have done so much, and now you tell me Are you afraid of me?"

Qin Mingchang wanted to hand Lu Lanbo a facial tissue, but Lu Lanbo refused, and he let his tears fly freely.

"So, our relationship can't compare to your strong sense of guilt, but I'm in such pain now, don't you have any guilt?"

Qin Mingchang nodded, a little choked up, "Sometimes it hurts to get better."

"Are you going to make a golden body and want everyone to worship you? Are you going to sacrifice me? Don't you think you are the most selfish and hypocritical person? It seems that I forgot, you have always been like this, you always feel that you are for the good of others."

Lu Lanbo cried even more painfully, he didn't even know what he was talking about.

"Qin Mingchang, it's not because you and I have walked a very difficult road, but because I am destined to walk a rough road, and you happen to accompany me on this road."

"Forgive me, I always felt that I was the one who killed my mother, and I was the one who made Wenge unable to return to China. Now I can't hurt you. If I keep you by my side selfishly, how will I face you in the future? To your parents?"

Lu Lanbo vomited under the stimulation of mood and alcohol.

Qin Mingchang hurriedly helped him into the bathroom.

Lu Lanbo washed his face with cold water, sat weakly on the floor and cried again.

"Don't leave me," he whispered.

"I've been here all the time, but I dare not love you." Qin Mingchang said with red eyes, "Actually, I've been crazy during this time. When I go to work, I have to concentrate, but after work, I only have A body. But I can't keep you, and you can't turn back."

"Do you know how to scrape the bone to heal wounds? I used to think it must be a fake, but now I know that only when the pain is extreme can you learn to let go. I'm tired." Lu Lanbo wiped away his tears and tried his best to calm himself down: "I will help you. "

Qin Mingchang nodded.

Lu Lanbo got up and looked at Qin Mingchang beside him. He stretched out his arms to hug Qin Mingchang. He exerted so much force that his arm ached.He knew that only pain could make him remember this last feeling.

He let go of his hand, and his mood relaxed as he let go.

"I am leaving."

The corner of Qin Mingchang's mouth was twitching. After a long time, he decided not to say anything.

Lu Lanbo walked to the living room and saw his vomit, he went to the kitchen and took the garbage bag and rag skillfully, Qin Mingchang wanted to stop it, but Lu Lanbo ignored it.

He packed up slowly and prepared to leave with the garbage bag.

"Put the garbage bag here, Aunt Lan will throw it away tomorrow." Qin Mingchang felt sorry for Lu Lanbo at this moment.Lu Lanbo used to cook at home, he took it for granted.He has to work every night, Lu Lanbo just watches TV by himself and never bothers him.He thought they would have a lot of time later.Sometimes he also felt that Lu Lanbo was hypocritical and clingy, but these things were no longer against him.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for you."

Lu Lanbo shook his head, "The trash smells bad overnight, I'll take it away."

"Let me see you off." Qin Mingchang said, "This may be the last part of the journey I will walk with you."

Lu Lanbo shook his head: "What about after walking? Don't you still want me to walk alone?"

He carried the garbage bag and went downstairs, and he fulfilled Qin Mingchang.

Bless you, Lu Lanbo thought.

Lu Lanbo decided to walk home by himself to wake himself up.The distance from Chunliu to Jiazheng is not too short, Lu Lanbo walked for more than 2 hours, and he cried again.

There were not many pedestrians on the road, they were in a hurry and did not notice Lu Lanbo.

Lu Lanbo remembered every detail of how the two of them were together, and he finally understood that he had completely broken up with Qin Mingchang.Fortunately, the distance on this road is long enough, and Lu Lanbo has enough time to think.His heart slowly calmed down. Although the wound was painful, Lu Lanbo knew that one day it would heal.Just that scar will forever remind myself of what happened.