I Don't Want To Be Reborn

Ye Xuan pulled Ling Jiaze and walked out blindly, and he didn't let go of his hand until he entered the military area and there were fewer people around him.

After letting go, seeing that Ling Jiaze was still silent and only lowered his head to think about things, Ye Xuan sighed helplessly and said, "I can't go to the base today, let's go home first?"

Ling Jiaze nodded, and silently followed him back home.

Back home, Ye Xuan saw that Ling Jiaze was still a little bit uninterested, and he couldn't think of any words of comfort and explanation after mentally typing for a long time.

Although the two of them have experienced broken families, one is a natural disaster such as the accidental death of their parents, and the other is a man-made disaster such as the father’s betrayal of the family. Speaking of which, they have nothing in common. His words felt inappropriate, so in the end, he could only pull a chair and sit beside him, quietly accompanying him.

After a while, Ling Jiaze said abruptly, "I didn't expect to see him."

Ye Xuan didn't understand what he meant, so he could only answer tentatively: "Today the base sells drugs publicly, they should go to the trading area for this, it's just a coincidence between the two of us."

Ling Jiaze didn't let him make wild guesses, but said to himself: "Ever since I knew that that person cheated on me, I feel disgusted whenever I think of him, and I wish I could never see him in my life. After the apocalypse came, I thought about not caring about his affairs at all. But at that time, I thought that after the apocalypse, he would have a much harder life than before, but I didn’t expect his life to be like this.”

Timid, shrunken and greedy, when did Ling Jiaze ever see his father showing such a side?

The end of the world broke his glamorous shell and tortured him into a completely different look. The gap between the front and the back was so great that Ling Jiaze didn't want to think about what happened to him all these time to become like this.

Ling Jiaze continued to mutter incongruously: "The base in city b is so big and there are so many people. It's normal that I can't see a single person I knew before during the seven days here, but if I see anyone, it's okay. It can only be said that fate is unfinished. I don't know whether I should go to see him, so I made a bet with myself before coming to city b-I will not look for him on purpose these few days, nor will I avoid him on purpose , if we can meet, it means that our fate is not over yet, if we don’t meet, it means that our fate is over, and I will never miss him again, but I met him the first time I went out, indeed It's a coincidence."

"This……"

Ye Xuan had the urge to take back the coincidence that he said before. It's not wrong to say that it's wrong to say more, and it really wasn't a lie.

"I still feel disgusted and hate him when I see him and that woman today, but if I really want to leave him alone..." Ling Jiaze paused for a long time, looked at Ye Xuan with red eyes, and said in a hoarse voice: "I Now I feel that I am very indecisive, and I have made up my mind before to ignore his affairs, but when the matter comes to an end, I can't bear to be so determined."

Ye Xuan took him into his arms so that he could bury his head on his shoulders, deliberately not looking at his red eyes, patted him on the back and said: "If giving them some supplies can make you feel better , I’ll send some to him tomorrow, it’s not bad for us, is it? It’s a good deed every day.”

Ling Jiaze shook his head, choked up and said, "I had this thought before, but as soon as I closed my eyes, I saw my mother asking me why I cared about that man who betrayed her... Ye Xuan, he lied to my mother and I have been thinking about his life and death for so many years, do you think I am too cheap?"

"What nonsense?"

Ye Xuan can now understand what Ling Jiaze's knot is.

He has resentment towards Ling Yun's betrayal and deceit, this kind of resentment is enough to make him make a decision not to see him again, so in the past six or seven years, he was able to stay in city c with a heartless heart, and for b Shi's biological father ignored him, completely treating him as if he didn't exist.

But now that the end of the world has come, the father, who was originally high above the sky, fell into the clouds and became a member of the bottom of the new society. He struggled every day on the line of food and clothing, and lived a precarious life.This gap broke his original understanding of his father to a certain extent, and the previous hatred was not enough to support him to make the decision to live a leisurely life while watching his father die tragically.

Before the end of the world, maybe one day he grows up and sees many things. When the other party is seriously ill and dying, he will temporarily put aside his past grievances and come back to visit his elderly father to see him off for the last time.

But when the end of the world came suddenly, when Ling Yun was down and down, he hadn't prepared himself for that, so he just forced himself into a dilemma.

"You are just soft-hearted and nostalgic for old feelings. This is human nature, and no one can avoid it." Ye Xuan put one arm around him, and patted his back with the other hand and said, "Would you like to listen to the thoughts of an outsider like me?" ?”

Ling Jiaze stressed sullenly: "You are not an outsider."

"Yes, I said the wrong thing." Ye Xuan kissed the top of his hair, hugged him tighter and said: "No matter how much he did before, he is your father after all, The one who gave you your life, right?"

"Ah."

Ling Jiaze hesitated for a long time, but still nodded.No matter how much he hated Ling Yun, the fact that the other party was his father would never be changed, this was an ironclad fact.Unless he can eviscerate his father like Nezha and sacrifice his life for his life, Shengen will always be there, and it cannot be changed by a piece of paper.

"Then we'll give him back the life we ​​owe him. From now on, isn't the real bridge back to the bridge and the road back to the bridge?"

"Why?"

"He doesn't have supernatural powers, and he doesn't have any special skills. In the base, he can only eat and wait for death every day. If no one helps him, he will die in a short time. In this case, we will Giving him a batch of supplies, and finding someone who can take care of him, can be regarded as helping him through this difficulty and saving his life, isn't that equivalent to giving life for life?"

Speaking of this, the more Ye Xuan thought about it, the more he felt that this approach was appropriate, and he said quickly: "He didn't pay a lot when he gave you this life, and it's not a big deal for us to give him some supplies now." Everyone pays for each other, and you don't have to worry about it anymore."

The person who conceived in October was Ling Jiaze's mother, and Ling Yun only made a small contribution, so when they repay this kindness, they can naturally repay it with a small thing.Anyway, it's still one life against one life, and everyone is not at a loss.

After understanding what he meant, Ling Jiaze's ears turned red, and his face became a little more bloody. He raised his head and glared at Ye Xuan, and said in a low voice, "How can there be someone like you who settles accounts?"

From ancient times to the present, people have paid attention to the relationship between father and son. How can he change his life so lightly?

Ye Xuan also knew that what he said was a bit outrageous, but if a father is not kind, does he still ask for filial piety as a son?Since everyone has no feelings but only gratitude and resentment, then kindness against kindness, resentment against resentment, isn't it enough to break it up a little bit?

Seeing that Ling Jiaze was in a better mood, Ye Xuan went on to say: "You don't want to see him and you want to see him die are two different things. No one forces you to choose between the two. Don't push yourself into a corner. I can understand that you have resentment against him for your mother's love, and you don't want to have contact with him, but your mother never asked you to give up your favor, did she?"

"Although this sentence is inappropriate for me, I still want to tell you..." Ye Xuan looked into Ling Jiaze's eyes and said word by word: "Your mother must not hope that one day you will treat her because of treating her. your love, but your own."

Ye Xuan believed that the mother who made Ling Jiaze miss him so much must love him very much. Since he loved him, he would not be willing to let his precious son be wronged because of him, nor would he be willing to see him suffer because of this love.

This is both his guess and his conclusion.

"I...you let me think about it."

Ling Jiaze only felt that his heart was in a state of turmoil, and many thoughts flooded up at once, all mixed together, and he couldn't grasp that vague thread at all.

"It's okay, think about it slowly, I won't bother you." Ye Xuan rubbed his hair, and patiently comforted him: "I got up early this morning, how about you go wash your face and sleep for a while? Fell asleep Don't think about these things anymore."

Realizing that he didn't intend to accompany him, Ling Jiaze asked in a muffled voice, "What about you?"

"The coal in this house has run out. I'll go find someone to change it and then come back to cook. I'll wake you up when the meal is ready. How about it?"

Ling Jiaze hesitated for a few seconds, then nodded obediently, "Well, I'll listen to you."

Ye Xuan accompanied him to wash his face, closed the curtains, turned up the temperature a bit, and took out jasmine seeds from the space, spawning a few jasmine flowers that have a sleeping effect.He sat on the edge of the bed, and waited patiently for Ling Jiaze to fall asleep before locking the door and leaving.

After he came out, he found the soldier who brought him here yesterday, and instead of asking where he went to exchange coal, he said, "Where is Colonel Shen, I have something to ask him."

He said with a look of embarrassment: "Mr. Ye, this is against the rules."

"It's okay, just go and inform me that the two of us met Ling Yun and Du Xiaoling at the base today. I want to ask him about Ling Yun and see if he can spare some time to meet me. If If he is busy, he can find someone who is more familiar with Ling Yun's current situation."

If he remembered correctly, Shen Ping said before that Ling Yun's family had fled from City B to the base, which meant that he and Du Xiaoling's son had also come to the base.But today he and Ling Jiaze didn't see him, which made Ye Xuan a little curious.

After all, Ling Jiaze has an obligation to repay Ling Yun's father, but he has no obligation to support his stepmother and half-brother, right?

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Not going to see a person when he is dead is not the same as watching him die, at least that's how I understand it