Ashes in the crematorium

It was almost eleven o'clock, when Li Ran and Luo Tao were finishing their work, Li Jialin got drunk and found an empty room to sleep by himself.

Chi You drinks much better than Li Jialin, so he also helped to clean up things. Li Ran knew his good character of helping others, so he simply didn't stop him.

After tidying up almost, Li Ran changed out of the clothes that smelled of oily smoke, then rubbed his shoulders.

It was when he was free like this that Li Ran thought of Chi You, he turned around and said to Chi You, "Don't worry about it, I'll take care of the rest, you go to sleep."

"It's okay, there's not much left, just a few minutes." Chi You glanced at the mess, he looked at Ren Ran, who was lying on the sofa, and fell asleep, and said, "Take the child to the room first, He catches cold so easily."

It was only then that Li Ran remembered that Ren Ran hadn't slept yet, he took the child to the bedroom first, and then took Chi You to the guest room.

"Go to bed early." Li Ran finally said after swimming into the guest room.

Looking at Li Ran's expression, Chi You hesitated to speak, he wanted to say something, but when the words reached his throat, it seemed as if they were stuck.

"You too... have a rest early." Chi You's hard-to-speak words were deliberated, and in the end there was only this sentence.

Li Ran nodded, pretending not to notice anything strange about him.

Li Ran woke up once in the middle of the night, when he woke up, he saw the empty and pitch-black ceiling, the pitch-black surroundings, it was too silent, for a moment, Li Ran felt as if he was in the mouth of a monster.

He turned sideways, Xiaoran's warm breath sprayed on Li Ran's face, dispelling the coldness on the top of his head, Li Ran gradually felt at ease.

He has relatives, he is not alone.

Feeling a little thirsty, like a handful of salt stuck in his throat, Li Ran gently lifted the quilt, fearing to wake up Xiao Ran, even breathing lightly.

Putting on his slippers, he tiptoedly opened the bedroom door and went out. When he reached the kitchen door, Li Ran turned on the light, and suddenly there was a person standing under the light. Li Ran's limbs trembled subconsciously, and he was startled.

Chi You was wearing pajamas, like a ghost, looking at Li Ran in surprise.

"What are you doing?" Li Ran asked first.

Chi You moved his gaze to the cup on the table, and said two words, "Drink water."

"What about you?" After finishing speaking, Chi You asked again.

Li Ran took out a water glass and turned on the water dispenser, "Me too."

After turning off the water dispenser, Li Ran asked again, "Why don't you turn on the light?"

"Forgot." Chi You said.

Obviously Chi You's explanation did not convince Li Ran, "Can you forget this too? Are you not afraid of knocking?"

Chi You smiled casually.

Li Ran immediately realized that something was wrong with Chi You, after thinking for a while, he asked, "What's wrong?"

"It's okay." Chi You replied in a flat tone, a little disappointed.

Often "nothing" means something happened, Li Ran sensed that Chi You must be unhappy, but for a while he couldn't guess the reason for his bad mood.At this time, Li Ran was also a little worried and uneasy.

After all, Chi You is a guest invited by him, which host would like to see that the guest he invited is unhappy.

Just when Li Ran was feeling uneasy, Chi You sighed deeply, and the sorrow and depression on his face were clearly visible.

Seeing him revealing his troubled emotions, Li Ran knew that he was willing to confide, so he asked again, "Did something happen?"

Chi You pulled out the chair and sat on it, and the words of mourning were revealed from his sluggish limbs, "My mother called me again."

Li Ran also sat down, "What did she say?"

"He said that after I killed the Chi family, he said that I was a sinner of the old Chi family."

Li Ran listened silently without speaking.

Chi You continued, "You also know that no matter how inclusive this society is, there will always be some stubborn people in the countryside, who must be passed on from generation to generation."

For a moment, Li Ran didn't know how to comfort him, after all, this was a family matter, so he couldn't just open his mouth to criticize him just to comfort him.

"It's okay, the technology is quite mature now, you can have a child of your own."

Speaking of this, Chi You sighed heavily again, "That's so expensive, my current income is not enough..."

Chi You didn't finish speaking, but Li Ran already understood the meaning of his words.

"You are still young now, you will have children in the future, you can have children anytime." Li Ran said.

What Li Ran said is correct, as for men, it is always much easier to have children than women, and there is no danger of giving birth at an advanced age.

Just have your money ready.

"I don't really care. I don't care if I want children or not. The main reason is that my parents keep urging me, which annoys me."

"You didn't come out with your family?"

Chi You was silent at first, and then hummed after a minute.

"Have you tried it, in case they don't have the resistance you imagined?"

When Chi You heard this, he immediately shook his head, with a determined expression on his face, "They definitely won't be able to accept it. It's not like they haven't tried it before. Their emotions were more extreme than I imagined, and I didn't even dare to mention it later."

"Then what will you do in the future?" A pair of unenlightened and ignorant parents is actually quite worrying. Although Li Ran doesn't have this trouble, she sympathizes with Chi You.

"I have been making excuses that I am too busy and there is no suitable one. It seems that this excuse will not last long."

Li Ran didn't know how to comfort him, so he could only reach out and pat Chi You on the shoulder.

At this moment, Chi You raised his drooping head, staring at Li Ran with his dark eyes.

"I'm not afraid of the risk of being beaten to death if I come out of the closet. I'm just worried that there will be no results after I come out. At that time, my family and wife will be gone."

Li Ran didn't expect Chi You to be so optimistic, and jokingly said, "It's really tragic, it seems that you can only keep it a secret."

"How long can we hide it? If it continues like this, my parents will definitely come by train overnight to urge the marriage. They haven't come yet. I'm afraid when I receive their call now."

"Then I can only... wish you good luck?" Li Ran hesitated.

"I'm actually not afraid of coming out." Chi You looked at Li Ran and said, "I'm really not afraid..."

Chi You's eyes were fixed on the ground, as if he was about to stick to Li Ran's body, Li Ran felt uncomfortable, and moved his eyes away to avoid his eyes.

Seeing Li Ran's expression and movements, Chi You understood everything in his heart, but he was not reconciled.

This feeling of unwillingness always tickles his heart, making him restless all the time.

He couldn't let it go, but he couldn't help it.

"I just don't understand..." Chi You's dark and deep eyes tightly framed Li Ran, he didn't let Li Ran have the possibility to escape, and he no longer forced himself to ignore his unwillingness.

"I don't understand, why don't you try to accept me, even if..." Chi You paused at this point, and then said, "Even if it's not me, why don't you try to accept others?"

"I..." Li Ran's hands holding the cup tightened suddenly.

He didn't know what to say to Chi You, but felt that this direction made him very at a loss and at a loss.

Li Ran thought that what he had said was clear enough, and he thought that Chi You had also understood, but...

Why did it come back to this question again? Li Ran thought that he had exited the maze, but in fact he hadn't.

He's still stuck inside.

did not come out.

"I've already said that I don't want to get married, I'm afraid of getting married, and it's fine to be alone."

After Li Ran finished speaking, Chi You didn't speak, time froze at this moment, the air was silent except silence.

After a while, Chi You pinched the center of his eyebrows with his hands, looking very tired, he stood up and leaned over to put his hands on the table.

Chi You's deep and deep eyes stared straight at Li Ran, but Li Ran had no choice but to look up at him.

At this time, Chiyou looked very different from usual, full of aggressiveness.

His tone is also very similar to his eyes at the moment, sharp.

"Do you really think it's good to be alone?"

Looking into Chi You's eyes, Li Ran's hand holding the glass trembled uncontrollably, and he scraped the cold glass back and forth with his nails.

Scrape back and forth.

Chi You's eyes seemed to see through all of Li Ran's disguises.

Li Ran's duplicity, inner desire, and inner fear were all exposed.

"Do you really think it's good to be alone?" Chi You asked again.

"Yes." Li Ran gritted her teeth and insisted.

Chi You smiled when he heard Li Ran's answer, Li Ran saw the cold smile on Chi You's lips, his fingers trembled even more.

He understood Chi You's smile and the sarcasm inside.

Li Ran only felt that the blood vessels in his whole body were flowing backwards, and at this moment, even breathing felt extraordinarily laborious.

"You are obviously more afraid of being alone than anyone else." Chi You defeated Li Ran's last bravado without hesitation.

Hearing Chi You's words, Li Ran couldn't even hold the cup in his hand.

But even so, Li Ran still sticks to the line of defense that has been broken in his heart, "I'm not afraid at all..."

But the hoarse voice revealed his true thoughts.

"Do you hate me?" Chi You asked.

Li Ran didn't know the meaning of his question, but just shook his head.

Chi You continued, "If you don't hate me, why don't you dare try with me?"

Chi You continued to approach, forcing Li Ran to the point where he could not escape, "Do you not want to, or dare not?"

Li Ran's body froze, and it took a few minutes to stand up, "I'm tired, I want to go back and rest."

Chi You grabbed Li Ran's arm and refused to let him leave, "Why didn't you answer me?"

Li Ran tried to break free, but in the end they all ended in failure, unable to leave for a while, Chi You asked again and again, which made Li Ran feel flustered.

"Try with me, please? Give me a chance, I promise, I won't hurt you." These were Chi You's last words, which were no longer sharp as before, and even seemed to be begging.

Li Ran looked at Chi You, his lips moved, not knowing what to say.

"You let me think about it..."

After saying this, Li Ran exhausted all his strength to push Chi You away, only to hear a bang behind him, the sound was not too small, but Li Ran almost ran away and didn't dare to look back.

The author has something to say: Don't believe what Smelly said that it will be updated tomorrow!

Sigh, this article is so tiring to write, it feels like every word is forced out, please don’t blame me for the collapse of the characters, I don’t even want to be smelly, because I can’t control it