little boy [rebirth]

"It's all delayed?"

"Ah."

Ji Ran froze for a moment.

Regardless of the relationship between the two of them, Fu Yanbai has never been relaxed at work. Since returning to China, he has continued high-intensity consultations and surgeries, and he has never made any jokes during working hours.

He couldn't help asking one more question: "Then do you know where he went to other places?"

The little nurse shook her head: "I don't know, why don't you ask the assistant director to see if you have bought a ticket or something."

So Ji Ran knocked on the door of the doctor's office again, and the two assistants inside raised their heads. When they heard that he was in a hurry, they scratched their heads: "The director left overnight after answering the phone last night. It seems that he is going to Luyang?"

After one finished speaking, he looked to the side uncertainly, and the other nodded and said, "Well, it was said that there was a patient. I wanted to help drive the car. The director didn't let me go, so I left alone."

Lu Yang.

When Ji Ran returned to the cafeteria, Xue Le waited for him for a while, then stood up and said, "Ran Ran, why do you look so bad? How about I tell the head nurse at night, you go back to rest?"

"it is good."

Ji Ran took off the white coat and stuffed it into Xue Le's hands, Xue Le was taken aback for a moment.

He didn't expect Ji Ran to agree so lightly, almost like the sun coming out from the west, and before he could react, another breastplate was stuffed in his hand.

"Take a leave of absence for me tomorrow, too."

"what?"

It was the first time that Ji Ran took the initiative to ask for leave after being a trainee for so long.Xue Le's eyeballs almost popped out.

At eight o'clock, the headlights of the Land Rover cast two beams of light on the road surface of the expressway, and the fine raindrops fell into the lights, and the raindrops fell in an endless cycle.

It takes 4 hours to drive from Tianbei to Yangyang.

Ji Ran made two phone calls to Fu Yanbai on the way, but the other party didn't answer.

As if thinking of something, he clicked on WeChat and left a voice message, then kicked the accelerator and accelerated through the rain.

At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, the car stopped at the gate of the Affiliated Hospital of Jiangnan University. The oil gauge was almost bottomed out. Ji Ran skillfully drove to the underground garage and looked over a large area from A to G one by one, just like he used to do every time. As with an uninvited visit, look for the license plate of that car.

If the car is there, there is a high probability that Fu Yanbai will be there.

In the past few years, he ran up like this with his schoolbag on his back, and pushed open the office door as if he didn't think much about it.

And if the car is not there, he will go home obediently and wait at home.

Ji Ran walked around the underground garage twice without seeing a car, and quickly drove up from the garage exit, and then went straight to Fu Yanbai's apartment.

He hasn't been here for more than four years.

The coffee shop and supermarket at the entrance have changed their appearance. The access control at the gate is no longer the card drop machine of the past. The security post is plated with a golden copper surface. There are red sandalwood clothes hangers on the rope, and the shoe cabinet is empty, and there are no sneakers that he once filled.

Ji Ran stood at the door for a moment.

The only thing that hasn't been changed here is the fingerprint recognition door lock, which looks a little old, hanging by the door, and the logo has been worn off.

He reached out and pressed it.

The door opens slower than before.

The apartment is very big, and when Ji Ran walked in, he felt inexplicably like when he was first received here.

Spacious, clean, luxurious.

Everything has not been changed, and every corner is spotless. The round wooden dining table that is regularly cleaned, with the incandescent lights on the top of the table, looks lonely and cold.

Ji Ran felt that no one had sat there for a long time, and the whole apartment had no breath of life. It seemed that Fu Yanbai hadn't come back for a long time.

But he didn't know where else to look.

I can only wait here.

He put down the car keys, took a hot shower first, and warmed up his cold body a lot, then he casually took a Fu Yanbai T-shirt to put on, and went back to the living room.

The heated room is not cold.

Ji Ran sat on the sofa with her knees hugged, listening to the pointer move forward while swiping her phone.

At two o'clock in the middle of the night, the slight sound of the elevator running came into his ears through the gap in the wall. Ji Ran seemed to be stabbed by a small needle, and changed from half-lying to sitting upright. It didn't take long before the slow door opening sounded in his ears. side.

This feeling seems very familiar, but very strange.

Fu Yanbai saw him as soon as he entered the door, and was stunned. Ji Ran met his gaze and was stunned for a while.

The man's brows and eyes were very tired, and the cuffs of his shirt were rolled up to his elbows, and there were many wrinkles on it, as if he had been holding it for a long time, and he never let go of his hands.

Fu Yanbai's chin was slightly blue, and Ji Ran seldom saw his slovenly appearance, so his heart sank subconsciously.

About a minute of silence.

Fu Yanbai's eyes darkened.

Ji Ran could see that he didn't seem to want to see him now, even though this person wanted to stick to the toilet and cafeteria from morning to night a few days ago.

Fu Yanbai put the mobile phone and some sundries that had been dead for a long time on the coffee table, and said in a deep voice, "I'm going to take a shower, and I'll take you back after washing."

Ji Ran watched him enter the bathroom, there was the sound of dripping water, his words stuck in his throat, and he didn't ask.

Looking at the coffee table in a blink of an eye, Ji Ran first charged the phone, and then glanced at the pile of sundries. Among the receipts and ID cards, there was a slightly familiar thing.

It was a small blue box.

There is a word "An" on it.

Ji Ran couldn't remember when he had seen this thing before, but he thought it looked familiar, so he couldn't help but pick it up and take a second look.The small box smelled faintly of sandalwood and mint, and looked very simple in appearance. In the end, I couldn't remember that Fu Yanbai had already changed his clothes and came out.

Ji Ran stood up and walked over.

The bedroom was stained by some bathroom steam, he opened his mouth and asked before the mist dispersed:

"What happened?"

Fu Yanbai didn't speak.

Ji Ran simply walked up to him.

He is no longer the kid who lived here back then. He stood at first, with the top of his head touching the tip of the man's nose. His height was almost the same, his thin body blocked the door of the bedroom, and his gaze was very persistent.

Intuition told Ji Ran that this was an unusual thing for Fu Yanbai, he didn't think too much, he just thought he should appear here, and he didn't want to be absent.

The yellowish light in the bathroom shone on the person's face, Fu Yanbai's side profile was sharp, but lonely, with deep eyebrows and eyes half drooping, as if cold and lonely.

There was a long silence in the bedroom.

Fu Yanbai opened his mouth and said: "The little girl you saved before..."

Ji Ran said directly, "Cheng Duoduo."

"Ah."

Fu Yanbai: "She's gone."

---

The average survival time for a heart transplant is about ten years.

Before Ji Ran came, he had a vague expectation in his heart, but when he suddenly heard Fu Yanbai say it, his chest was still trembling violently, and his eyes lost focus.

"There are too many complications in the later stage, and many nodes were not reviewed in time and the medication was not guaranteed. After I arrived in the morning, I originally re-drafted the treatment plan..."

Fu Yanbai leaned against the door, his voice was very hoarse: "He had a heart attack at noon, and he couldn't be rescued."

In fact, eight years is not a bad number, especially in terms of technology seven or eight years ago.

But Ji Ran felt that his expression was like a child who did something wrong. Fu Yanbai stood in the shadow, his eyes were cold. It was the first time that Ji Ran directly felt the emotion called "sadness" spread on a man. Every inch of my body is lonely.

Ji Ran's hand was close to his side, and he slowly clenched it. He didn't know how to comfort Fu Yanbai. For every doctor, there may be a few special patients, and Cheng Duoduo is obviously Fu Yanbai's special one.

"You've...give her a lot."

He walked over and took Fu Yanbai's hanging hand.

Eight years is short for a lifetime, but it is not short either.She had friends, went to school, could sing, stayed with her family for many years, and saw the world for many years.

He once envied that the process was so much, he could be rescued by himself in the mall, he could be insisted on by Fu Yanbai for surgery, and he could live a long, long life...

"She has always been very grateful to you."

Ji Ran lowered her eyelashes, and comforted her clumsily with her limited experience: "And...you are so good now, and if you have surgery, they can live for a long time. Fu Yanbai, don't be sad, you are already very good gone."

"You are already great"

From then till now.

This sentence seems to have been with him.

But the man's eyes at this moment are not sharp for a moment, and there is no reason to be comforted. Ji Ran feels that he is like a sad lion, standing on the top of the peak, but he has no intention of taking a look at the magnificence under his feet.

Fu Yanbai was silent for a long time.

He shows very little.

Perhaps it is because he has been used to standing at the top since he was a teenager. Over the years, he has long been used to chasing behind him, used to not explaining anything to others, and used to success and possession.

"Fu Yanbai?"

The person in front of him didn't respond.

Ji Ran moved forward again, and he found that he could understand Cheng Duoduo's departure, but Fu Yanbai didn't seem to be able to.

The most indifferent and rational man seems to be unable to see the necessity, or doesn't want to admit it.

He met Fu Yanbai's eyes, and was about to say something more, but something suddenly rang in his ear.

The low-pitched confession, like a zither string, suddenly broke in the air, and the rosin shook the dust, filling the ears.

"I regret it."

Fu Yanbai raised his eyes, and this look was very long, as if immersed in time: "If I hadn't left at the beginning, maybe she would have lived a long time."

Ji Ran froze in place, he heard Fu Yanbai's voice slowly flowing in his ears:

"You won't be with others, and you won't like others."

It is because he is too attached to the future and forgets the present.

"I thought everything would be perfect when I got back."

Fu Yanbai's voice was very deep, and his expression was light as if he was talking to himself:

"It's my fault."

-

Ji Ran never thought about it.

He would listen to Fu Yanbai say these words.

He has known this person for more than ten years, Fu Yanbai is very cold, very aloof, very good, and very conceited.He never admits mistakes, never even makes mistakes, he is perfect, whether as a student or as a doctor.

Maybe this is the only time.

He said the word "wrong".

"At that time I thought you would wait for me."

Fu Yanbai's eyes were light, his body was loose, leaning against the door, unexpectedly calm, as if he finally accepted the reality:

"You like me very much, I always knew that."

Ji Ran's blood rushed to his ears and burned instantly.Fu Yanbai has been chased countless times in his life, how could he fail to see those expressions and movements that he could not hide for a long time.

"It is my fault."

Fu Yanbai's eyes were deep, as if he missed a glance: "You are too young, I want to wait for you to grow up before deciding whether to be with me or not. After all, we are so far apart, and we are both men."

Ji Ran's throat tightened: "I..."

"But I can't."

Fu Yanbai said lightly: "I shouldn't have waited. I can't accept that you are with others, and it has nothing to do with age."

It's not that when he comes back and sees Ji Ran making a choice, he can really accept this choice;

It doesn't mean that Cheng Duoduo can live longer if his medical skills become more sophisticated and his experience is richer.

Ji Ran felt a buzzing in his ears, and couldn't tell if it was Fu Yanbai or his own heavy heartbeat.

"Ran Ran, I regret it."

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-11-0521:00:48~2020-11-0622:27:42期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the mine: Shen Ge 1;

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