I Just Came to Borrow a Light

Love.

The moment this word came out of Lin Chengbu's mouth, Yuan Wu froze in place.

Lin Chengbu didn't speak any more, he took out a cigarette from his pocket, and after smoking it, he found that they were standing in front of the no-smoking sign, so he put the cigarette back in his pocket.

After two seconds, I felt it out again, and put it back again.

After repeating it four times, he cursed in a low voice with some annoyance, dragged Yuan Wu's arm down the fire exit to the first floor, exited the side entrance of the mall, and lit a cigarette.

"Do you want it?" He asked Yuan Wu.

Yuan Wu didn't speak, just stretched out his hand, Lin Chengbu put the cigarette case in his hand, Yuan Wu took out one and lit it, sat on the railing of the flower bed next to him, looked past Lin Chengbu, and looked behind him street.

Love.

This is a very strange word.

Yuan Wu didn't know how long it had been since he had written or read this character. Maybe he saw it, but he wouldn't stay in his eyes, and he wouldn't have any impression of it alone when it appeared with other characters.

Except that this is an unfamiliar word, it is also an even stranger emotion.

From childhood to adulthood, Yuan Wu's definition of it was always confused.

I love my father, I love my mother, I love my grandparents, I love my brothers and sisters... These contents that are mechanically repeated by books and teachers, to Yuan Wu, are as illusory as I love ***.

Now Lin Chengbu suddenly said, I want you to love me.

This sentence was not as important as Lin Chengbu thought, because Yuan Wu could hardly grasp what kind of feeling it was.

I like Linchengbu.

He can be sure of this, don't hate him, don't bother him, many times he will think that Lin Chengbu is quite interesting, handsome, in good shape, and cooks deliciously.

To be able to notice so many advantages of a person is to like it.

For those who don't like him, he can't remember their looks even after seeing them seven or eight times in a row, let alone others.

However, Lin Chengbu was talking about love.

This made him suddenly a little confused.

His cognition of all kinds of positive emotions is far inferior to negative emotions, anger, irritability, disgust, fear, fear, disappointment, despair... He has experienced each of them until he is numb.

But Lin Chengbu was talking about love.

He looked at Lin Chengbu's face.

With the light behind him, he looked a little haggard because of his low mood.

Or it wasn't just because he was depressed now, from the time he finished eating at Chunzhi that day to now, it took less than three days, but Lin Chengbu was very haggard.

Even compared to when I saw him on the boat before, Lin Chengbu, who worked hard and was worried and afraid, was not as tired as he is now. In just two days, his face was full of exhaustion.

Of course, this person's feelings for him are not just to the extent that he likes him so shallowly.

Just giving like a shadow all these years has already exceeded the scope of liking.

this is Love--

Yuan Wu shook his head, and shook the alpaca screaming with its neck out of his mind.

"Yuan Wu," Lin Chengbu called him, "I have an additional explanation, do you want to hear it?"

"Ah, let's talk," Yuan Wu raised his head, and suddenly felt that Lin Chengbu standing in front of him in the backlight was very tall, and his body was glowing with golden light. Something, looks too great."

Lin Chengbu squatted down in front of him, smoking a cigarette: "Is this okay?"

"Yeah." Yuan Wu nodded.

"Everything I've done for you is because I like you, I...then what, you," Lin Chengbu said a little awkwardly, but he didn't stammer, "I'm willing to do these things for you because I Feelings for you are here, but I said what I want is you... love me, this is kind of gross... how did I just say it..."

Yuan Wu looked at him and didn't speak.

"How should I say it, let me think about it." Lin Chengbu took a deep breath on his cigarette, frowned and thought for a while, then looked at him, "The things I did for you are because I love you, but I want You love me, not because of what I have done so you should love me, I say this, just because, love is hoped to be responded to, what I said... is only what I hope to get. "

Yuan Wu still looked at him.

"I don't understand, I don't seem to understand either." Lin Chengbu pinched out his cigarette, "Let's just say, I did those things for you because I love you, and I hope you love me, just Because I love you no matter what you do."

"I know." Yuan Wu said.

Lin Chengbu let out a sigh of relief: "I have never said so much in my life that I love you and me so much."

"I haven't heard so much." Yuan Wu said.

Lin Chengbu's words were a bit confusing, but he could still understand them. He was a little unfamiliar with emotions, but his logic was not lacking.

He seemed to be able to vaguely understand part of Lin Chengbu's state.

The part about wanting love.

He has experienced it.

Probably yes, time is too long, these memories have already disappeared bit by bit in the deepest part of his body.

He hopes to get care and attention like Yuan Shen, to get love, to get even a little bit of love from relatives that other people have.

Almost, that feeling.

But he didn't get it in the end.

When did it start?Gradually get used to it, and slowly no longer look forward to it?

How long have you been waiting and disappointed?

In the end, you no longer have this hope?

Can not remember.

Yuan Wu looked at Lin Chengbu.

Family affection is not the same as love.

But hoping is the same as waiting.

Lin Chengbu has been waiting for so long, how long can he wait?

In such a state of bewilderment, how can he give Lin Chengbu the love he wants?

He doesn't even have the concept of family affection, what can he use to talk about love?

Everyone's love is different, Lin Chengbu's love is like this, Jiang Chengyu's love is like that, Daqi made a girlfriend a while ago, and the little girl's love is to post a picture for him every day Facial mask……

Everyone's love is different, there is no sample to refer to, no example to imitate, different people have different reactions to love.

What about your own?

What is it like?

This kind of troubled thinking that never seems to make sense of the matter makes Yuan Wu fall into panic every time, panicking that he is different from others and has no way to make up for his flaws.

The ending is often irritating.

like now.

"How much longer?" Yuan Wu asked.

"What?" Lin Chengbu squatted in front of him in a daze.

"How long is the movie going to start?" Yuan Wu said.

Lin Chengbu looked at his watch: "There is still more than an hour."

"Oh." Yuan Wu threw away the cigarette butt that had already been extinguished in his hand, and lit another cigarette.

"Go play video games?" Lin Chengbu said, "Are you cold here?"

"It's not cold," Yuan Wu took a puff of cigarette, "If you're cold, go in first, and I'll go in after I finish smoking."

"I'm not cold." Lin Chengbu got up and sat on the railing next to him, turning his head to look at him, "Actually, if you don't want to watch a movie, let's not watch it."

"I don't...don't want to watch it." Yuan Wu looked at him with a cigarette in his mouth.

"Well, then watch it," Lin Chengbu smiled, "You didn't like watching movies before, I thought you still didn't want to watch them."

Yuan Wu made no sound.

Suddenly felt a little sorry for Lin Chengbu.

He should have thought that Lin Chengbu could remember everything about him, he could remember the taste of his meals, and he could definitely remember if he didn't like watching movies.

He didn't know why he pulled Lin Chengbu to watch this ghost movie.

Maybe he saw the disappointment in Lin Chengbu's eyes, he was afraid that Lin Chengbu would be disappointed, he didn't want to let Lin Chengbu down, just like he kept being disappointed back then.

But it was a bit bad, and Lin Chengbu might be even more disappointed.

The two of them sat in the north wind for two cigarettes, and then went to the video game city on the second floor to consume almost the opening of the movie.

The ticket Lin Chengbu bought came with a set meal, a bucket of popcorn and two bottles of drinks.

Holding these things, the two of them walked slowly towards the theater with the flow of people, surrounded by young couples holding popcorn.

That's it, fall in love, watch a movie, eat popcorn together in the dark, talk quietly, then go out to eat together after the movie, and then go home and have sex.

Yuan Wu frowned.

There is nothing wrong with the form, but there is a huge difference inside.

This may be the reason for Lin Chengbu's disappointment.

"Aren't we watching a horror movie?" Yuan Wu looked at the young couple beside him, "Isn't it a romance movie?"

"Scary," Lin Chengbu squeezed a piece of popcorn, "But horror movies are for dating, especially the early stages of dating and the ambiguous period."

"...Oh." Yuan Wu said.

"If you're scared for a while," Lin Chengbu opened his arms, "you can come here and lie down for a while."

Yuan Wu glanced at him: "You can sit on my lap."

Lin Chengbu laughed for a while.

But it's a bit of a mistake to pick this horror movie for love.

A domestically produced horror movie that cannot become a ghost and cannot have real ghosts. If you want to scare yourself into the arms of the people around you, you must first make the other party think that you have a problem with IQ.

Lin Chengbu and Yuan Wu ate and drank the whole time, laughing with everyone along the way.

The young couple in the back couldn't care less about taking the opportunity to fall in love, and kept complaining quietly until the end of the film.

After the light was turned on, Yuan Wu looked around: "See, it's so scary, until it's gone, only half of the people are left."

"Yuan Daudao." Lin Chengbu gave a thumbs up.

"Lin Boldness." Yuan Wu also gave him a thumbs up.

The end time was afternoon tea. In the past, Lin Chengbu would have tried every means to force Yuan Wu to eat something or drink milk tea until dinner time, so he could eat naturally.

But today he suddenly lost the interest in making excuses.

In the past, I could pretend to fool myself with the hazy beauty of the ambiguous period, but now that even the balance on the surface is broken, no matter what I do, I will become deliberate and awkward.

"Do you want to eat something, drink something or go shopping?" Lin Chengbu asked Yuan Wu.

Yuan Wu pulled the mask back on, as if he was thinking, but after a while he shook his head lightly: "Do you want to drink milk tea? Uncle invites you."

"I don't want to," Lin Chengbu said. He didn't want to drink milk tea all the time, but before Yuan Wu asked him, he would definitely say yes. This is the first time he told the truth when he didn't want to drink. "I ate too much popcorn just now, and I finished all the drinks, and the bubbles are full again..."

"Then go back." Yuan Wu glanced at him.

The car was parked downstairs at Yuan Wu's house. This was probably the earliest time Lin Chengbu and Yuan Wu came back from their "date".

"I'm going up." Yuan Wu sat in the car for a while and opened the door.

"Yeah," Lin Chengbu looked at him, and grabbed his arm after thinking about it, "Yuan Wu."

"What?" Yuan Wu closed the car door.

"Do you have any ideas?" Lin Chengbu asked.

Yuan Wu looked at him and said softly after a while: "Not yet, it's very messy."

"Okay," Lin Chengbu smiled, "By the way, I'm going to work tomorrow, so you can take a taxi to No. 18 at night."

"En." Yuan Wu responded.

Lin Chengbu leaned over when he reached out to open the door, pulled off his mask, and kissed the corner of his lips: "Don't eat instant noodles at night."

"... Got it." Yuan Wu patted his face and got out of the car.

Lin Chengbu didn't stay downstairs too long, he drove away after watching Yuan Wu enter the building.

There was nothing to do at home right now, and he didn't want to be alone, so the car turned a corner and drove in the direction of No. 18.

It's almost time for Jiang Chengyu to get up, he has nothing to talk to Jiang Chengyu, but he wants to stay in a place where he has acquaintances and won't be noticed.

18 is the most suitable.

He parked the car next to Jiang Chengyu's car, and when he got out of the car, he found the front windshield of Jiang Chengyu's precious car somewhat shocking.

It must have been smashed by someone, densely packed with large and small cracks extending all around, like a big morning glory in full bloom, Lin Cheng counted it, one big and three small, a total of four.

Originally, he thought that Jiang Chengyu and Chang Yu should be the type to fight and fight together, but now looking at this stance, he felt that he had made a mistake in his judgment. The two fought like real enemies.

The bar was not open yet, so Lin Chengbu entered the corridor through the back door and went directly to Jiang Chengyu's office, intending to say hello to him and then go to the bar to get something to drink.

As a result, as soon as I walked to the door of the office, I heard a bang inside, followed by various sounds of slamming bottles and cups falling to the ground.

His hand that was about to knock on the door stopped in the air.

Hearing the movement, it didn't seem like a fight, nor did it seem like there was any dispute... Lin Chengbu walked softly along the corridor to the hall.

It's so wild, it's probably on the coffee table.

Da Qi was wiping glasses at the bar, and was a little surprised when he saw him coming: "Brother Lin, why are you here at this hour?"

"There's nowhere to go," Lin Chengbu sat down in front of the bar, "I'll make some drinks for you."

"Okay," Da Qi smiled, "But don't mind me at my level, you drink his special tune every day."

"No," Lin Chengbu looked into the bar, "Have some dessert?"

"Well, brother Chengyu asked the bakery to bring the dim sum," Da Qi suddenly laughed, "but I can't bring it to him right now, so I put it here, do you want to eat it?"

"Eat, let's eat together," Lin Chengbu took out the snack box, "Did Changyu come over?"

"Yes," Da Qi lowered his voice, "he came in with a baseball bat."

"Fuck," Lin Chengbu took a bite of the cake, "If the two of them really walked together in the end, they would probably be dating in a wheelchair."

"I think so too," Da Qi laughed for a long time, "It's still you and Brother Xiao Wu who are calmer."

Is it.

Relatively quiet.

Lin Chengbu took the wine glass and sat behind the table in the corner.

Relatively quiet.

He smiled wryly, he didn't even want to think about the outcome of such a silence.

The taste of Da Qi Tiao's wine was not bad, Lin Chengbu felt a little more comfortable after drinking it slowly.

He took out his mobile phone, opened the phone book, swipe down and scroll down with his finger, and finally stopped on a name. After hesitating for 5 minutes, the screen turned on and off for countless times, and then he clicked on it. , listening nervously to the dial tone.

After answering the phone over there, he almost wanted to hang up again.

"Hello? Who? Hello?" asked several times over there.

"Hello, Dr. Liang," Lin Chengbu took a breath, "I'm Lin Chengbu, do you remember me? Well, it's like this, I want to ask, my friend... is Yuan Wu, he How is the situation now? Are there basically no problems?"

It was getting colder and colder, Yuan Wu was sitting in a taxi, watching more and more people passing through outside, listening to the radio constantly reminding everyone to keep warm.

How was last winter?

Yuan Wu can't remember a bit, but I can remember clearly how I spent this summer and autumn, full of Lincheng steps.

However, Lin Chengbu has been a little sparse recently, and he has not picked him up when he is not working several times, such as today.

Yuan Wu stared at the phone in a daze, unable to tell what it felt like.

After savoring it for a long time, I don't know if I have any feelings.

A little fidgety.

On the 18th, there will be fewer people in the winter, and many people will leave after his bartending.

Today he couldn't leave right away, two little girls stopped him in the corridor and wanted to take a group photo, Yuan Wu hesitated and agreed, but he didn't agree to take off the mask.

After taking the photo, he turned around and left quickly. He didn't see Jiang Chengyu all night. When he passed by his office, the lights inside were also dark.

This guy has been having a lot of trouble lately.

Gee.

Just as he walked out the back door, Yuan Wu's cell phone rang.

He took it out and took a look. It was Lin Chengbu. He subconsciously glanced at the side of the street while answering the phone, but he didn't see Lin Chengbu's car.

"It's over?" Lin Chengbu's voice came from the receiver, the background sound was very quiet, and it didn't sound like he was on the street.

"Well, I just came out," Yuan Wu looked around, "I'm going to take a taxi back."

"Well, is it cold?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"It's not cold, I just finished dancing." Yuan Wu smiled.

"Yuan Wu, there is something I want to tell you." Lin Chengbu said hesitantly.

"What's the matter?" Yuan Wu put down his hand that was blocking the car, and retreated behind the billboard on the side of the road.

"That's right. Jiang Chengyu knows about this. Our boss told me last year that he wanted to send me to study..." Lin Chengbu said.

"Further study? Study cooking?" Yuan Wu was stunned.

"Well, her friend's hotel is really awesome, let me go and learn from it." Lin Chengbu said.

"That's pretty good, why didn't you go then?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Didn't I... have to keep an eye on you at that time," Lin Chengbu smiled, "I don't have time to go, Chunzhi's working hours are more relaxed."

"Are you called again now?" Yuan Wu asked.

"En." Lin Chengbu responded.

"Then go, isn't it great to learn something?" Yuan Wu said, after thinking about it, he asked again, "Are you worried that you don't have time to see me off? I'll just take a taxi."

"Oh," Lin Chengbu said in a low voice, "Then I... will go the day after tomorrow."

"Well, it's pretty fast." Yuan Wu said.

"The proprietress is very active, and she has bought air tickets." Lin Chengbu said.

After Yuan Wu said a few words to him, Lin Chengbu urged him to take a taxi back, saying that it was too cold and he would catch a cold.

After hanging up the phone, Yuan Wu stopped the car, and suddenly realized the moment he opened the door.

Air tickets?