I Just Came to Borrow a Light

Lin Chengbu felt that he slept soundly that night, but he woke up three times in the middle of the night, and every time he woke up, he knew that he had not slept soundly.

I don't know if I was a little over-excited that my wish finally came true, or I was a little over-excited when I finally got my wish. In short, I was a little over-excited, and every time I woke up, I went to Yuan Wu's side.

But when Yuan Wu fell asleep, his temper completely returned to its original state. Every time he leaned over, he would get an elbow. Yuan Wu was very irritable and savage, and once almost put his knee on his egg.

After getting up in the morning, Lin Chengbu took his temperature first, and prayed that he would no longer have a fever. He really didn't want to go to the hospital again, and he didn't want to drag Yuan Wu to accompany him to the hospital.

But the young man is strong and his body temperature is already normal. He happily put the thermometer upright on the table for Yuan Wu's inspection.

Then stand in front of the refrigerator and think about what kind of breakfast to make.

Yuan Wu didn't seem to have any requirements for food, he thought about it, he had been fasting for a long time, and now he didn't need to eat liquid all the time, last night... still had consumption...

Yuan Wu woke up quite late, Lin Chengbu and noodle noodles were all done, and when he was about to start work, he came out of the bedroom barefoot, yawning.

"Make dumplings early in the morning?" Seeing the things on his desk, Yuan Wu was taken aback.

"No," Lin Chengbu smiled, "How about pie? Do you like it?"

"I love to eat," Yuan Wu walked over to take a look, "You really don't mind the trouble..."

"It doesn't take much trouble if you know how to do it." Lin Chengbu pointed to the thermometer on the table, "My fever is gone, so I don't need to go to the hospital."

Yuan Wu glanced at him, then raised his hand to touch his forehead: "It seems that the fever is gone... Is this a transient fever? Is it broken virginity syndrome?"

Lin Chengbu grabbed a ball of dough and didn't say anything for a while, Yuan Wu walked slowly to the bathroom, and then he threw the dough on the desk: "Whatever you say, it broke on you anyway."

Yuan Wu looked back at him, smiled and said nothing, turned and went into the bathroom.

Lin Chengbu made pies very quickly, and when Yuan Wu came out after washing, five and six pies were already on the plate.

"Very fragrant." Yuan Wu reached out to take one, and quickly threw it back.

"Hot it, let it sit for a few minutes before eating," Lin Chengbu said, "I should get angry."

"It's the same for a few minutes. If you want to get angry, you will get angry if you eat it tomorrow." Yuan Wu picked up the pie again, tossed it back and forth in his hand, and sat on the sofa. "When do you go to work?"

"Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow." Lin Chengbu looked at the calendar, "I thought about next week, but this time I took too long to ask for leave..."

"Then let's go to Shenqiao today." Yuan Wu took a bite of the pie.

"Today?" Lin Chengbu was stunned.

To Yuan Wu, Shen Qiao is different from any grandparents' hospital. It is the base of his mental illness life and the landmark of his life disorder...

Lin Chengbu never dared to bring up big things, because he was afraid that he could face other things, but he couldn't deal with this place with deep traces of Yuan Shen.

Yuan Wu suddenly decided to go today, which surprised him.

"I want a big head," Yuan Wu said while eating, "I watched him grow from a little boy to a little boy..."

"Will you miss me?" Lin Chengbu asked suddenly, "You watched me grow from a young man to a big man."

But after asking, he immediately regretted it.

To some extent, this question of himself should be a pressure for Yuan Wu.

"You are dangling in front of my eyes every day," Yuan Wu said, "I don't feel anything, I didn't have time to think about it, you popped up again."

"Ah." Lin Chengbu turned over the pancakes.

"No, sometimes it's quite annoying." Yuan Wu finished eating a cake, got up and took another one, and pointed at him, "Talking too much, still childish, very annoying."

Lin Chengbu snatched the cake from his hand: "Don't eat it."

Yuan Wu glanced at him, took another one from the plate, then took two steps back and took a bite: "I'm so mad at you."

"Aren't you naive?" Lin Chengbu also pointed at him, "Qian Shi, aren't you naive?"

"I'm teasing children." Yuan Wu sat back on the sofa.

Although I just went to Shenqiao to see the big head, I don’t know how long it will take to go there. There are no scenery to see this season, and those farmhouses are closed. If you play late, there is probably no place to eat, so Lin Chengbu After finishing breakfast, I started to prepare something for lunch.

"So virtuous." Yuan Wu took the remote control and pressed it aimlessly at the TV.

"I don't want to go hungry. I'm just sick." Lin Chengbu didn't prepare too much. He brought some snacks, but he and Yuan Wu didn't like to eat them. They brought them to the big head, and then brought a piece of marinade Beef can be eaten with steamed buns, and I made a shredded chicken temporarily, and packed the unfinished pies together.

"Very virtuous." Yuan Wu said.

"There are more virtuous ones, let me show you something." Lin Chengbu opened the cabinet and took out a box from it.

"This is... what?" Yuan Wu looked at a thing with small pastoral flowers that he took out from the box.

"Picnic basket," Lin Chengbu opened the basket and shook it at him, "Xianhui, did you see that, it also has a little lace, full of country girl style."

"Where did you get it?" Yuan Wu stared at the picnic basket, "No, Lin Chengbu, you are actually a woman, right? You also embroider and use this kind of thing."

"Don't you also embroider?" Lin Chengbu said with a smile.

"I'm just like you," Yuan Wu walked over to study the basket, "I'm too embarrassed to take it out if there's someone next to it, gentlemen, bring a small flower basket..."

"My mother gave it to me," Lin Chengbu laughed while putting the things in, "I bought something from the supermarket, and she gave it to me."

Although Yuan Wu was reluctant, they still went out with the basket.

In the elevator, Yuan Wu stood in the corner two steps away from Lin Chengbu and looked at him, Lin Chengbu clicked his tongue: "What are you doing?"

"Look at the big picture of Lin's daughter-in-law going to buy vegetables." Yuan Wu said.

"You can say whatever you want," Lin Chengbu smiled, "I'm in a good mood today, let alone a little daughter-in-law, I don't care about a little girl."

"Give you to Datou as a child bride." Yuan Wu said.

"Okay." Lin Chengbu bowed and pinched his orchid fingers.

The elevator door opened at this moment, and an aunt walked in.

Lin Chengbu quickly retracted Lan Huazhi, and cleared his throat in embarrassment.

"Xiao Lin is going out?" The aunt looked him over.

"Ah, yes, auntie is going out too?" Lin Chengbu smiled.

"Well," the aunt nodded, and then looked at the basket on his arm, "this basket is not bad, it's cute."

"...Really." Lin Chengbu kept smiling.

The aunt followed them all the way to the side of the car before leaving. Yuan Wu got into the car: "This basket is nice and cute."

"It's cute," Lin Chengbu threw the basket on the back seat, "What's the matter!"

"Cute." Yuan Wu nodded.

"That's enough!" Lin Chengbu sighed, "This aunt never greeted me before, why is she so enthusiastic today?"

"Because the basket is cute." Yuan Wu said.

"...It's endless, isn't it!" Lin Chengbu started the car.

"Cute." Yuan Wu closed his eyes with a smile, leaned back the car seat, closed his eyes and rested his mind.

The car drove all the way to Shenqiao, Lin Chengbu looked at the familiar scenery on both sides, and felt like he was back to those days when he ran to Shenqiao when he had nothing to do, and accepted Yuan Wu to forcibly forget him.

Suddenly feeling a little emotional.

Every time he passed by, he was very apprehensive, not knowing what kind of Yuan Wu he was facing.

In other words, what kind of Yuan Shen.

Those days have passed for a long time without knowing it, but when I think about it, it suddenly feels like yesterday.

The worry and despair of not knowing when the head will be, and not knowing whether Yuan Wu will wake up, still clearly remain in his mind.

So... Will it still remain in Yuan Wu's mind?

Lin Chengbu turned his head to look at Yuan Wu. After the car drove into the town, Yuan Wu opened his eyes and tilted his head to look out the window.

"Stop the car," he knocked on the car window, "buy some food for Datou, the little in the basket is not enough for him to eat for two days."

"Okay." Lin Chengbu parked the car on the side of the road.

Yuan Wu is very clear about Datou's hobby. After buying a lot of snacks, he also bought a box of ice cream: "I should just buy something in the city, which is more advanced than here."

"He's happy when he sees you, and he probably doesn't care too much about what you eat," Lin Chengbu said.

Yuan Wu smiled.

The road to the old pier is still the same, dilapidated and bumpy, the tourists have disappeared, and after the cold weather, there are no people here, and the leaves on both sides are all fallen, making it look quiet and lonely.

Because the reeds are gone, the water looks a little lonely.

"How could you...willing to stay here forever." Lin Chengbu sighed softly.

"Yuan Shen likes it here," Yuan Wu said, "He originally wanted to... die here, but he gave up later, probably because he felt that this place was not lonely enough."

"...Is that so?" Lin Chengbu never asked where Yuan Shen committed suicide. "Isn't this place lonely enough? Look at it now, there's not even a shadow of a person or a bird."

"This is not what he wanted," Yuan Wu looked sideways at him, "Too many people have died in Dongwan."

Lin Chengbu didn't speak, he didn't know what to say.

"He wants to find a place where only he is alone, so that he won't be confused between himself and others," Yuan Wu said. After a while, he put down the car window and stretched out his arms to go for a ride. "Don't mention him , he should have found himself by now."

"En." Lin Chengbu nodded.

The old pier has not changed, except that there is no big head carrying a gourd on the pier.

"Why didn't you play here today?" Lin Cheng stepped out of the car and looked around in surprise.

"I know where he is." Yuan Wu walked towards the distant forest.

"Ah yes, does he always play in the woods and grow grass?" Lin Cheng followed behind him, holding ice cream in his hand.

"Almost, anyway, he only has this little territory." Yuan Wu smiled.

When he got to the edge of the forest, Lin Chengbu saw a small figure shaking inside, and he called out, "Big head!"

"Hey——" Datou responded, and then raised his voice, "Who——"

"I'm brother Xiaobu!" Lin Chengbu shouted.

"Brother Xiaobu!" The big hair yelled in surprise, watching him jump and run like a spring, "Brother Xiaobu! Brother Xiaobu!"

"Who else, come and see!" Lin Chengbu said.

Datou ran out of the forest, and when he saw Yuan Wushi standing on the dirt road, he was taken aback for a moment, and then began to cry.

After crying twice, he ran to this side while wiping his tears, and shouted in a sobbing voice: "Uncle Xiaowu—they, they dragged your, your boat away—"

Yuan Wu smiled and didn't speak, just squatted down.

Datou cried and threw himself into his arms: "They towed your boat away! I won't let them tow it, they won't listen to me—"

"It's okay, it's okay," Yuan Wu patted him on the back, "Just drag it away."

"Then you have no place to live in the future—" Big Head continued to cry very worriedly.

"I..." Yuan Wu glanced at Lin Chengbu.

Lin Chengbu was also a little at a loss, how could such a child not make him sad, neither of them did it.

"Aren't you?" Da Tou cried for a while and looked up at Yuan Wu, "You won't live here anymore?"

"...Yes," Yuan Wu hesitated, then nodded, "I'm going back to work in the city."

"Oh," the tears that were so easily held back by the big head welled up again, and he couldn't hold back his fleshy face, and he slammed down, "I want to go back to work in the city, the city is very OK."

Lin Chengbu listened to the funny and uncomfortable, and quickly squatted down: "Big head, do you want ice cream? Uncle Xiaowu bought it for you."

"Eat—" Datou shouted with tears.

"If you want to eat, don't cry." Yuan Wu took the ice cream, "If you still cry, don't eat it."

Datou stared at the ice cream, and wiped away his tears after a while: "I want to eat it."

When the big head took the ice cream and bowed his head to eat, both Lin Chengbu and Yuan Wu heaved a sigh of relief.

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu asked him.

"It's delicious," Datou handed the ice cream in front of him, "Do you want to eat it?"

"I don't want to eat it." Lin Chengbu glanced at the ice cream he poked in a mess, it was still chocolate-flavored, and the shape was a bit hard to look at directly, "You give it to Xiao Wu..."

Before he finished speaking, Yuan Wu interrupted: "Don't eat."

"Then you eat by yourself." Lin Chengbu patted the head of the big head.

Lin Chengbu didn't mention the flowers he was going to give to Yuan Wu. It's already this season. Even if the flowers are planted, they will definitely lose at the moment. If he mentions it, he will cry again, and he can't bear it. .

But the big head looked up at Yuan Wu after eating a box of ice cream contentedly: "Brother Xiao Wu."

Yuan Wu ignored him, leaned against a nearby tree, took a cigarette out of his pocket and lit it.

"Uncle Xiaowu." Datou changed his tune and called again.

"Yeah." Yuan Wu looked down at him.

"I have a gift for you," Datou said, "I've been waiting for a long time."

"What gift?" Yuan Wu asked.

"On my boat, follow me to see." Datou took his hand and pulled it towards the old pier.

"I'm not going to your boat," Yuan Wu said, "You bring it to me."

"My mother went shopping in town," the big head continued to tug at him, "come and see."

Yuan Wu had no choice but to walk with him to the pier.

"Fuck doesn't like you?" Lin Chengbu leaned into Yuan Wu's ear and whispered.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, "Generally he is not allowed to board my boat."

"I can understand," Lin Chengbu smiled, "Just like you were before, I don't let him play with you even if I have a child."

"You can't have children anymore." Yuan Wu said.

Lin Chengbu clicked his tongue: "I don't want to have it either. Look at the big head crying, my head is getting big."

"I ignored him when he cried before, and left after crying for a while." Yuan Wu said.

"Then why are you still hugging and coaxing today?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"It's been a long time," Yuan Wu said, "I don't know when the next time I come..."

"Yuan Wu, do you know," Lin Chengbu said in a low voice, "this is love, you have been with Datou for so long, you think you don't like him, you don't treat him very well, but you will When I miss him, I will think that it will be difficult to meet him in the future, so I will treat him well.”

Yuan Wu looked at him and said nothing.

"This is love," Lin Chengbu put his arm around his shoulders, "Me too, and Jiang Chengyu too, when you are with us, you feel indifferent, feel that you have no feelings, don't want to and won't give anything to anyone, but in fact you Will do."

Yuan Wu still didn't speak.

"If one day," Lin Chengbu said, "I don't hang around by your side, you will miss me."

"Well," Yuan Wu responded, "it should be."

"But I'll forget it, I don't intend to enjoy this kind of missing you," Lin Chengbu waved his arms, "I'd better stick to dangling in front of you."

Sure enough, there was no one on the boat of Datou's family, so they followed Datou onto the boat.

This boat is larger than Yuanwu's, so a curtain is used to separate the middle of the cabin, which is equivalent to having two rooms.

There are people sleeping in the inner room, and the outer room is equivalent to a small living room, where all daily activities are carried out.

The big head knelt in front of a small wooden cabinet next to it, opened the door of the lowest cabinet, and waved at them: "Look, here it is."

Lin Chengbu was thinking about what kind of flowers would die within a week after putting them in the cabinet, Yuan Wu leaned over to take a look: "Is this the shape you made yourself?"

"Hmm!" The big head nodded vigorously, "Does it look good?"

"... nice." Yuan Wu said.

"Let me see," Lin Chengbu approached curiously, then he was stunned, and quickly turned his head to look at Yuan Wu. After seeing the smile on Yuan Wu's face, he couldn't help laughing He said, "What is this?"

The bottom shelf of the cabinet is empty, and there are three beer cans, each with a silk flower, yellow, red and pink, and Yuanwu's measuring cup is placed in the middle.

looks very much like...

"How long have you offered me here?" Yuan Wu asked Datou.

"I don't know," the big head scratched his head, "I originally planted a pot of flowers, but after it died, I took fake flowers... don't you like it?"

"No," Yuan Wu took out a few jars from the cabinet, "I like it, can I take it?"

"Yes," Datou immediately smiled happily, "I just gave it to you!"

After packing the flowers into the car, Yuan Wu didn't seem to intend to leave. After checking the time, he said to Lin Chengbu: "Have a picnic?"

Before Lin Chengbu could speak, the big head jumped up beside him: "Okay! Have a picnic? Okay!"

"Take him?" Lin Chengbu asked with his mouth.

"Then what should we do?" Yuan Wu also asked with his mouth.

"I still want the world of two people." Lin Chengbu said in a low voice.

"What is a two-person world?" Da Tou heard it, looked up at Yuan Wu and asked.

"It's the world of two people." Yuan Wu leaned against the front of the car.

"What are the two of you?" Big Head asked.

"Two people." Yuan Wu said.

"A world of two people," Datou frowned and began to think, "What is a world of two people?"

"It's just two people." Yuan Wu said.

"Which two people?" Datou continued to ask.

"Uncle Xiaowu and I." Lin Chengbu replied.

"Oh," the big head nodded, and asked again after a while, "What about me?"

"You're a light bulb," Lin Chengbu sighed, took out the small flower basket from the car, looked at Yuan Wu, "Where are you going wild?"

"Go over there," Yuan Wu pointed to the other side of the road, "There is a piece of shallow water over there."

"Why am I a light bulb?" Big Head continued to ask persistently.

"Because it's very bright." Lin Chengbu walked over there with Yuan Wu.

"I'm not on, how can I be on?" Datou followed behind them.

Lin Chengbu said patiently, "You..."

"Shut up until the picnic is over," Yuan Wu turned around, holding ten yuan in his fingers and shaking it in front of Datou, "Here's the money."

The big head immediately closed his mouth tightly and covered it with his hands.

"Hey." Lin Chengbu sighed.

"What?" Yuan Wu asked.

"The world of two is gone." Lin Chengbu sighed again.

"He's going back to sleep on the boat at noon," Yuan Wu said, "There's nothing wrong with him, he'll have to go back to sleep soon."

"Really?" Lin Chengbu raised his eyebrows.

"Why are you excited?" Yuan Wu glanced at him, "Just think about things like wild guns, no..."

"Who wants wild guns!" Lin Chengbu interrupted him in surprise, embarrassed and funny, "I just want to stay with you two for a while, enjoy the scenery, eat something and talk about it of."

"Oh," Yuan Wu said, "Aren't we both like this these days?"

"It's not the same," Lin Chengbu smiled, "Come here specially, enjoy the scenery, eat and talk nonsense, just like..."

"Dating?" Yuan Wu said.

Lin Chengbu looked at him and nodded: "Yes."