I Just Came to Borrow a Light

Yuan Wu rode on the bench and waited for almost 10 minutes, but Lin Chengbu didn't come out of the building. He checked the time, bent down and closed his eyes with his forehead against the chair.

I guess it was too cold for lunch?After such a long time, I must be dehydrated...

Yuan Wu fell asleep with his head on the stool for a while, and when he opened his eyes again, he was woken up by Dr. Liang's phone call.

"I'm downstairs," Yuan Wu answered the phone, "I'm going up now."

Lin Chengbu still didn't come out, Yuan Wu rubbed his forehead that was sore from the pressure, and sent a message to Lin Chengbu while walking towards Dr. Liang.

- I went up first, and there was not enough paper to call me.

But Lin Chengbu didn't answer him.

Today, Dr. Liang talked with him mainly about going to the old man and old lady in the morning. After he finished speaking, Dr. Liang didn't comment much on what he had experienced.

"You said you felt you had to go and give them the key," Dr. Liang said. "It's like a ritual, we can understand it as putting an end to the past, right?"

"Yes." Yuan Wu nodded.

"Then the full stop has been drawn this morning," Dr. Liang refilled his glass with some water, "afterwards, don't use this as a reason to criticize yourself."

"... Mmm." Yuan Wu responded.

"It's really not easy to do it," Dr. Liang smiled. "After all, the experience and environment at that age have a great impact on people, but you have to be able to know why you want to think that way again. If you think like that, how should you deal with it?"

"It's hard." Yuan Wu said softly.

"Of course it's difficult. If it wasn't difficult, there wouldn't be so many psychological problems," Dr. Liang said. "It's still the same sentence. You can change only if you want to change. Sometimes it is much harder to deny yourself than to affirm yourself."

"I will..." Yuan Wu frowned, "Take your time..."

"You can take your time, but you can't use your time as an excuse," Dr. Liang looked at him, "Understand me?"

"I feel a little bit like that now, don't you?" Yuan Wu smiled, "I feel a little bit."

"Correct it immediately when you realize it," Dr. Liang said with a smile, "Don't be lazy."

Every time he came out of Dr. Liang's, Yuan Wu felt refreshed, but after a few days, he would go back a little bit.

This made him very depressed, and some habitual thinking really made him irritable.

The only thing that made him feel more at ease was that this state of going back was slowly decreasing at a very small speed.

Maybe he should really listen to Dr. Liang, stop huddling in his room, go out, go back to normal life, work, friends...

Even if he is alone with Lin Chengbu, sometimes he feels that he has much less time to think.

In fact, Lin Chengbu is quite an interesting Lord, and he doesn't feel irritable when he's with him. I haven't noticed it before....

Gee.

However, classmate Yahweh did not wait at the place where he left the house as Yuan Wu imagined. Yuan Wu went all the way to his car without seeing anyone.

There was no one in the car.

Yuan Wu walked around the car, feeling a little magical.

He bent down and looked under the car again.

I should be under the car, not here...

Someone behind him honked the horn, and he turned around to see a familiar red car driving over.

But why it looked familiar, he didn't remember for a while.

The car pulled up next to him with the windows down.

"Xiao Wu!" Someone inside stretched out his head and shouted this way.

Yuan Wu was stunned for a moment, glanced into the car, and after a few seconds he said in surprise, "Chengyu?"

"Get in the car." Jiang Chengyu beckoned.

"Why... you?" Yuan Wu glanced at Lin Chengbu, "Lin..."

"Get in the car and tell you." Jiang Chengyu opened the car door.

Yuan Wu hesitated, and got into the car: "Where's Lin Chengbu?"

"Hospital," Jiang Chengyu said while turning around, "Just now..."

"What?" Yuan Wu interrupted him in surprise, and suddenly felt a little cold in his hands, "Hospital? Is he sick? What's going on?"

"Acute gastritis," Jiang Chengyu said, "he..."

"Acute gastritis?" Yuan Wu stared at him, "How...how did you know?"

"Can you let me finish the sentence?" Jiang Chengyu gave him a sideways glance, "How do I know, who else can he find besides me during this time when everyone is at work."

Yuan Wu didn't speak, just looked at him.

Jiang Chengyu waited for a while, then glanced at him again: "No, are you okay?"

"Aren't you telling me to finish what you have said?" Yuan Wu said, "Have you finished?"

"...No," Jiang Chengyu sighed, "He just called me, saying that acute gastritis took a taxi to go to the hospital. You were chatting with Dr. Liang, so he didn't call you, and asked me to come pick you up directly. .”

"Acute gastritis?" Yuan Wu frowned, his voice was a little low, "Why?"

"It's cold at noon," Jiang Chengyu said, "He has a bad stomach, what did you two have for lunch?"

"...ice cream." Yuan Wu said.

"Lunch?" Jiang Chengyu was stunned.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, "lunch."

"Awesome, you two." Jiang Chengyu smiled.

"Has he always had a bad stomach?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Occupational disease. Before Chunzhi, didn't you work in those small dilapidated restaurants, where you ate irregularly," Jiang Chengyu said, "It's been a long time, and my stomach feels bad."

"Oh," Yuan Wu pressed his forehead, "I don't know."

"You don't know it's normal," Jiang Chengyu said, "I haven't looked at him a few times before."

Yuan Wu made no sound.

After Jiang Chengyu's car drove to the main road and turned right again, Yuan Wu looked outside: "Where are you going?"

"Hospital," Jiang Chengyu said, "Draining the water, and staying in the hospital for observation, it's probably quite serious."

"En." Yuan Wu responded.

Lin Chengbu went to the nearest hospital, and he arrived in a short while. When Jiang Chengyu drove into the parking lot, Yuan Wu suddenly felt a little scared.

"Let's go." Jiang Chengyu got out of the car.

"I... won't go." Yuan Wu sat in the car without moving.

"What?" Jiang Chengyu was stunned, holding the car door and looking at him, "Aren't you going in?"

Yuan Wu didn't speak, and it took a while before he responded: "Yes."

"No," Jiang Chengyu was a little confused, "Why? It's all here, so you just wait in the car?"

Yuan Wu glanced at him, opened the door and got out of the car: "I'll go back."

"Xiao Wu," Jiang Chengyu clicked his tongue, "Aren't you, he was quite hypocritical just now, why don't you go and see him in this situation?"

Yuan Wu turned around, stared at him for a long time, then nodded: "Yeah."

Jiang Chengyu opened his mouth and said nothing, then raised his finger to point at him, but still remained silent, then turned and walked towards the hospital.

"Nurse," Lin Chengbu lay on the hospital bed in the observation room, looking at the hanging bottle, "Can't this be adjusted faster?"

"No," the nurse glanced at him, "Don't speed up the speed again! What's the use of taking the medicine so fast if you don't absorb it?"

"...I don't think anything is wrong," Lin Chengbu sighed, "Is it okay if you don't fight?"

"The chairman is waiting for you to read the documents?" The nurse frowned, "I don't care about my own body."

Lin Chengbu smiled and was about to speak when the door of the observation room was pushed open and Jiang Chengyu walked in.

"Are you here?" When he saw Jiang Chengyu, he immediately sat up and looked behind Jiang Chengyu, "Where's Yuan Wu? Did you pick him up?"

"Got it." Jiang Chengyu looked at his face, "Have you become so emaciated in an instant?"

"Where's the person?" Lin Chengbu noticed that there was no one following Jiang Chengyu, "Did you send him back?"

"...Ah," Jiang Chengyu looked up at the hanging bottle, "yes, he has gone back."

Lin Chengbu was stunned for a moment, feeling a little unexplainable, and lay back on the pillow: "Oh."

After the nurse went out, Jiang Chengyu took a stool and sat down beside the bed: "Are you a little disappointed?"

"What do you think?" Lin Chengbu turned his head.

"He actually arrived at the entrance of the hospital just now," Jiang Chengyu said, "Suddenly he couldn't come in, I think there is something wrong."

Lin Chengbu turned his head back: "What did he say?"

"Basically I didn't speak, so I can't come in, I want to go home," Jiang Chengyu said, "Is there any psychological problem that has not been resolved? When I first said that he came to the hospital, he didn't object."

"I don't know," Lin Chengbu frowned, "His father... died of illness. It seemed that his family didn't let him go to the hospital when he was hospitalized. Is it because of this?"

"Maybe," Jiang Chengyu sighed, "I don't know when this guy will be back to normal."

"Are you waiting for him to go back and make money for you?" Lin Chengbu smiled.

"That's what I said," Jiang Chengyu smiled, "Although he is my rival in love, I have spent more time with him as a friend than as a rival in love. If it weren't for you, maybe I would still chase him..."

"Why are you like this?" Lin Chengbu clicked his tongue. "A person who is quite educated, can't show it in his words and deeds."

"I thought about it for a while and decided to forget it," Jiang Chengyu said, "Yuan Wu's character is fine as a friend, but definitely not in a relationship, at least I can't stand it."

Lin Chengbu chatted with Jiang Chengyu for a while and then felt tired. Although he told the nurse that he was fine, in fact, the sudden onset of acute gastritis made him feel a little exhausted.

"You go back," Lin Chengbu said. Jiang Chengyu usually sleeps during the day and only wakes up around dinner time to deal with the bar affairs. Now it's almost time for him to start working, "I'll take a nap for a while."

"Are you hungry?" Jiang Chengyu asked, "Can you eat now?"

"I'm not hungry, and I can't eat," Lin Chengbu said, "I haven't been so weak for a long time... I just want to sleep."

"That's fine," Jiang Chengyu looked at the time, "Call me if you have anything to do. If I don't hear you, call the office and ask them to call me."

"Yes," Lin Chengbu nodded, "Thank you."

"Do I have to say you're welcome?" Jiang Chengyu stood up.

"Don't be so polite." Lin Chengbu smiled.

Yuan Wu sat on the stone bench outside the hospital gate. It was cold now, and the stone bench could no longer warm his buttocks. After sitting for more than an hour, it was still cold.

He felt that if he sat down, he would have acute enteritis or something. He just stood up and wanted to warm his butt, when he looked up, he saw Jiang Chengyu coming out of the hospital gate.

He quickly sat back and looked down at his shoes.

Jiang Chengyu walked very fast, and he didn't look around. He walked past the stone bench and didn't find him sitting here.

Yuan Wu didn't want Jiang Chengyu to see that he was still here.

He has been wandering around the hospital since getting out of the car, he is afraid.

Fear of the hospital.

I don't know why there is such fear, or some kind of resistance. He has too many bad memories of the hospital and the patients.

The father who couldn't see in the last days, and Won Shin who had to go to the hospital constantly.

More about Yuan Shen.

Yes, Yuan Shen who has to go to the hospital every week, Yuan Shen who needs to take medicine uninterruptedly, Yuan Shen who is lying on the ground twitching in pain, Yuan Shen who always has a faint hospital smell on his body.

He is afraid of these.

Because of you, Yuan Shen is like this, your father is sick, who knows if it is also because of you?

Grandma's words are always so precise and lethal.

He hasn't been in the hospital for so many years. He works out in the gym, runs, and wishes he could stay away from it.

Although now he keeps telling himself that these have nothing to do with him.

But still can't control it.

If he didn't want to eat ice cream at noon, why would Lin Chengbu be lying in the hospital now?

Still because of you.

He stood up a little restlessly, walked back and forth along the road in front of the hospital, sat back on the stone bench again, and crossed his legs.

Someone looked at him, but he didn't care, and closed his eyes.

Dr. Liang taught him many ways to calm himself down, deep breathing, meditation, self-hypnosis... There is always one that suits you.

Half an hour later, Yuan Wu opened his eyes and let out a slow breath.

There was an old man next to him looking at him. Before he closed his eyes, the old man was there. Seeing him open his eyes now, he asked, "Qigong? Meditation?"

"Meditation." Yuan Wu smiled at him inscrutablely, got up and walked towards the hospital gate.

Walk as fast as you can, and walk into the hospital with the air of a master before your mustered courage dissipates.

For a person who has almost never been in a hospital in his memory, the hospital is a dizzying place.

After standing in the hall for 5 minutes, Yuan Wu still hadn't figured out where he was going to find Lin Chengbu.

But he didn't really want to call Lin Chengbu yet. First, he felt that it might affect his rest. Second, once he made the call, he would have no chance to regret leaving the hospital.

"Sir," a doctor finally saw him, looked him up and down, and came over to ask, "Is there anything I can help you with?"

"I... looking for someone," Yuan Wu reckoned that his image of having not had a haircut for a long time and his expression of looking around blankly in the eyes of the doctor looked a bit like a doctor who came to find fault, and he was still mentally ill so he didn't need to be responsible for that, so He smiled again, "My friend...has acute gastritis in the hospital..."

"Did you go to the emergency room?" asked the doctor.

"I don't know, it should be," Yuan Wu said, "It is said that he is staying in the hospital for observation."

"The observation room is over there," the doctor said with a smile, "I'll take you there."

When Yuan Wu pushed open the door of the observation room, Lin Chengbu was sitting on the hospital bed, and a nurse was giving him a needle: "Rest for a while before moving around."

"Well, I don't think I..." Lin Chengbu pressed the cotton swab in his hand, said while looking towards the door, and when he saw him, he was stunned.

"Did you finish the injection?" Yuan Wu was suddenly a little embarrassed, and asked at the door.

"Ah," Lin Chengbu responded, and then quickly lay back on the pillow, "It's... over..."

"Did you just say you were fine?" The nurse smiled at his appearance.

"I... didn't... say..." Lin Chengbu closed his eyes.

The nurse smiled and packed up her things: "You are indeed in a hurry. You still need injections and observations in the next two days. If there is any problem, you can't hide from the gastroscope."

"I... didn't... hide... the doctor said that I don't need a gastroscope because of my simplicity." Lin Chengbu said.

The nurse went out after explaining a few more words. Lin Chengbu opened his eyes and looked at Yuan Wu: "Why are you here? Jiang Chengyu said you went home."

"Well," Yuan Wu walked to his bedside, bent down to look at his face, "actually, there is no need to pretend to be weak with this face."

"Ah." Lin Chengbu smiled a little embarrassedly.

Yuan Wu could see that he was smiling a bit forcedly, his face was bloodless, his lips were still a little blue, and he was indeed very weak.

"Why are you here!" Lin Chengbu asked again, although he was weak, he still couldn't suppress his surprise.

"I've been...at the door." Yuan Wu sat on the small stool beside the bed.

"Then why don't you come in?" Lin Chengbu looked at him in surprise, "Are you going to...to do psychological training?"

Yuan Wu smiled and didn't speak.

"Jiang Chengyu just left for a while." Lin Chengbu said.

"I came in when I saw him go out," Yuan Wu said, "How do you feel now?"

"Very... good..." Lin Chengbu dragged his voice, thought for a while and clicked his tongue again, "You just watch your love rival and me alone like this."

"My rival in love?" Yuan Wu looked at him, "When did Jiang Chengyu become my rival in love?"

"Let me tell you, don't believe me," Lin Chengbu grinned at him, "Sooner or later, you two will be rivals in love, really."

Yuan Wu stared at him for a while: "Can you eat now?"

"No," Lin Chengbu said, and after thinking about it, he quickly changed his words, "Yes."

"Can it or can't." Yuan Wu said.

"After the doctor says he can't vomit, eat some liquid food," Lin Chengbu said, "I want to eat millet porridge and egg custard..."

Yuan Wu saw that he didn't speak, turned around and went out after a while: "Wait a minute."

"Are you going to buy it for me?" Lin Chengbu chased after him, couldn't help laughing, and after a while whispered, "How nice to make something for me..."

In a few minutes, Yuan Wu came back again, with empty hands.

"Don't know where to buy it?" Lin Chengbu asked, "Just..."

"The doctor said you don't want to eat tonight." Yuan Wu said.

"What... damn it," Lin Chengbu was stunned, and sat up, "Have you gone to see a doctor?"

"Well, I was talking about how the acute gastritis patient was going to eat. People said that he was fasting tonight." Yuan Wu narrowed his eyes, "You want to fool me?"

"...Then what about me?" Lin Chengbu was a little unwilling, "Then I will be hospitalized tonight, and I will have to eat millet porridge and egg custard tomorrow morning."

"The doctor said you should go home for observation, just come on time for an injection," Yuan Wu curled his lips, "There is no need to be hospitalized."

Lin Chengbu stared at him for a long time without saying a word.

"Huh?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

"I don't care!" Lin Chengbu fell back on the pillow, "You make me millet porridge and egg custard, if you don't, I'll be fine! You can figure it out yourself!"