I Just Came to Borrow a Light

When Lin Chengbu came out of the box, he almost bumped into the waiter passing by the door.

"Oh, my pot of soup!" The waiter was startled.

"I'm sorry." Lin Chengbu helped her up.

"Is your friend here for dinner?" The waiter smiled and whispered, "I thought Boss Jiang was here."

"It's not him." Lin Chengbu said.

"You won't serve the food yourself when he comes," the waiter said with a smile as he walked, "It's not easy to serve...I'm not easy to serve in this room today."

"What's wrong?" Lin Chengbu asked casually.

The waiter stopped and lowered his voice: "I don't know if it's some kind of cult organization. There are seven or eight people in the room who are all weird."

"Why?" Lin Chengbu was a little curious.

"I stopped talking as soon as I entered, and then I just read a sentence, someone said that we are the last few left now, and they look at people with special...scary eyes, I don't know if there is any I'm looking, and, although the coats are different, they are all black T-shirts with scary patterns printed on them." The waiter frowned, "Do you think they are drug addicts?"

"Shouldn't anyone come to a private restaurant to gather people to take drugs..." Lin Chengbu asked, "What pattern?"

"It's all kinds of dead people in the paintings," the waiter said, "what hanged people, cut their wrists... Oh, I didn't look at it carefully, I didn't dare to look at it."

After the waiter finished speaking, he carried the tray and walked away. Lin Chengbu froze for a while before walking slowly towards the kitchen.

He didn't know if he was thinking too much, maybe it was because of the suicide message board he had seen before, maybe it was because of the paintings on the wall of the old factory building, and those in Yuanshen's house...

He was busy in the back kitchen for a while, and after finishing all the dishes for Yuan Wu, he cooked two signature dishes, both of which were ordered in that box.

"Brother Lin, are you delivering your friend's dishes yourself?" asked the waiter who met just now.

"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, holding up the tray in one hand, "You guys send off to the box."

"Hey..." She sighed, and took the food from that box, "I hope they finish eating and leave quickly, I don't even want to go in."

"As for what?" Lin Chengbu smiled.

"They sent boiled water in just now. When I went in, a man was crying, and no one comforted him, and they all stared at him crying," the waiter clicked twice, "I was so scared that I put my things and ran out .”

"You talk to Sister Sun later, and ask her to tell the two of you to pay attention to this box to avoid accidents." Lin Chengbu said.

"Well, okay." The waiter responded.

The box Lin Chengbu arranged for Yuan Wu was a high-end box facing the small garden in the courtyard. The small garden was surrounded by a corridor, and there were six boxes facing the garden. When he passed by with a large tray, he happened to see At Yuanwu, walk into the small garden from the corridor next to it.

He suddenly became nervous, that direction happened to be a room full of strange people that the waiter said.

Yuan Wu turned around and saw him, and asked, "It's pretty quick, is dinner ready?"

"There is still a stew." Lin Chengbu stared at Yuan Wu twice, feeling that he was in a normal mood, "They will bring it over in a while, we can eat it first."

"Okay." Yuan Wu followed him back to the box.

Lin Chengbu put three dishes on the table: "These are my specialty dishes, and they are also Chunzhi's signature dishes, tofu, pork ribs, beans..."

"Beans are also a signature dish?" Yuan Wu looked at them, "Is there any cabbage in your signature dish?"

"Try it." Lin Chengbu smiled.

Yuan Wu picked up a bean and looked at it: "Stir-fry the bean?"

"Taste!" Lin Chengbu glared at him, "So much nonsense."

"Scared me to death." Yuan Wu put the beans into his mouth, chewed them twice and glanced at him.

"How is it?" Lin Chengbu sat down.

"Is something stuffed in the beans? Salted egg yolk?" Yuan Wu picked up another one, "Minced meat? What else?"

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, put the beans in a bowl and opened them with chopsticks, "What else do you put in? It's very fragrant..."

"Net oil." Lin Chengbu said.

"What is net oil?" Yuan Wu asked.

"...It's Wangyou." Lin Chengbu replied.

"Will you be my boss?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

Lin Chengbu laughed: "It's pork net oil, what can I say, it's the net-like oil in the seams of pig muscles, which is more fragrant than lard."

"I haven't eaten it," Yuan Wu looked at another plate, "This is your tofu, the one you've been begging me to eat, right?"

Lin Chengbu sighed helplessly: "Yes, eat my tofu quickly."

Tofu is indeed delicious, and it can handle the burden of the number one signature dish.

This is Yuan Wu's evaluation of tofu.

"How?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Fried." Lin Chengbu replied simply.

"This blind man can tell after one sip," Yuan Wu said, "Do you want to keep it a secret?"

"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, "My master's craftsmanship is passed on from men to women, from being handsome to being ugly..."

"Shouldn't the big ones be the big ones?" Yuan Wu gave him a sideways look.

"What size?" Lin Chengbu was stunned.

"Face." Yuan Wu said.

"Damn." Lin Chengbu laughed for a long time.

Because he didn't drink alcohol, the few dishes Lin Chengbu picked were also light, so the two of them finished eating in a short while.

Yuan Wu didn't have much praise for the dishes, he just said he liked it. For Lin Chengbu, this sentence was more effective than anything else, it sounded like Yuan Wu said he liked him.

"Your cooking skills," Yuan Wu lit a cigarette, "It's a bit beyond my expectation. Before Chengyu said that you cook well, I thought it was because he chased you, and he said it was delicious when you gave him shit. "

"Your words," Lin Chengbu smiled, "let him be anxious to hear you."

"I know why he ran here when he had nothing to do," Yuan Wu took a puff of cigarette, "Not only for you, but also for the food."

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu said with a satisfied smile, "You can come here if you have nothing to do. If you don't have time, come and tell me. I can come to make it. Except for tofu, everything else can be made at home."

"Want to go to my house?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

Lin Chengbu nodded.

"Let's wait a while," Yuan Wu thought for a while, "I'm still... adjusting. I have to go to Dr. Liang's place for at least a few months, and I usually want to be alone."

"Yeah." Lin Chengbu nodded. Although Yuan Wu looked normal now, it would not take a month or two to recover from the wound in his heart.

The two of them sat for a while, and when Lin Chengbu was about to send Yuan Wu back, he saw someone coming out of the box over there from the window.

"Have some tea," he quickly took the teapot, the guests in the private room had to pass by them when they wanted to go out, he didn't know whether Yuan Wu knew about the existence of that message board, but he still didn't want him to see it People, "Let me tell you, this tea..."

"Is the person over there leaving?" Yuan Wu interrupted him and asked.

Lin Chengbu's hand holding the pot paused and stopped in the air.

"I'm fine." Yuan Wu said.

"They..." Lin Chengbu hesitated, those people had already walked over, their jackets were all buttoned up, and the black T-shirt that the waiter had just mentioned could not be seen.

But it is indeed like what she said, these people do look strange, the kind of weirdness that can be seen at a glance, with expressionless faces and blank eyes.

"Did you search for a glass of wine?" Yuan Wu calmly took the teapot in his hand and poured a cup of tea.

"...Yes." Lin Chengbu said.

"End your glass of wine with a smile," Yuan Wu looked at the tea in the cup, "Yuan Shen has been using this id since high school, and has used it for many, many years."

"Really." Lin Chengbu looked at him.

"Did you see the message board?" Yuan Wu took a sip of tea, "There is nothing terrible about the message board. I can't see anything anymore. The website is blocked."

"Is it... a suicide website?" Lin Chengbu frowned.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, "It's... a terrible suicide website, a website that tells you that life is meaningless and teaches you how to die."

"Fuck." Lin Chengbu whispered.

"Those who have the idea of ​​committing suicide, even if it's just a little bit, once they get in, they can't get rid of it. These people will tell you like brainwashing that your world is hopeless, and no matter how hard you struggle, there will be no hope. You can only be freed by death. They tell you how to die, how this person died, how that person died..." Yuan Wu's voice was a little hoarse, "I knew that when there was such a place, Yuan Shen was already there. It's been over a year."

"No one cares?" Lin Chengbu was a little angry, "Is this considered instigation?"

"I called the police," Yuan Wu glanced at him, "The website has been blocked, but...it's too late."

"Then they..." Lin Chengbu stood up and took a look, and those people were no longer visible, "They... are they? Are they?"

"I don't know," Yuan Wu leaned on the table, slowly turning the cup in his hand, "I heard you talking to the waiter outside, and I went over to take a look, but... I don't know."

"Then what should we do?" Lin Chengbu said.

"I don't know, what can I do?" Yuan Wu smiled, "What can I do?"

Lin Chengbu didn't speak any more.

Yes, what can I do?Yuan Wu called the police and the website was blocked, what else can I do?

Lin Chengbu suddenly understood how Yuan Wu felt when he faced all this. His own brother was trapped in such an incredible darkness, but he had nothing to do.

That feeling of helplessness and hopelessness.

"People who really want to die," Yuan Wu lowered his voice, "You can't stop it, really."

"I want to drink milk tea, tribute tea." Lin Chengbu said suddenly.

Yuan Wu didn't speak, but looked up at him.

"Uncle," Lin Chengbu reached out, touched Yuan Wu's hand twice, then clenched it tightly and shook it lightly, "Uncle, can I have a cup of milk tea?"

"Don't act like a baby," Yuan Wu narrowed his eyes, "You're quite a young man."

"Yuan Wu invited me to drink tea with milk." Lin Chengbu said.

Yuan Wu clicked his tongue: "You are quite annoying, do you know that?"

"Gong tea," Lin Chengbu said, "I know where it's not far away. I used to drink it when I passed by after get off work. His house has the thickest milk cover among all the tribute tea I've ever had."

"Little girl," Yuan Wu pulled out his hand and stood up, "Do you have to pay for this meal?"

"No need," Lin Chengbu also stood up, "Come here when you want to eat, you don't need to pay, come and eat, and leave after eating."

"Let's go," Yuan Wu stretched out his arms and moved, "I invite you to drink milk tea."

"Also," Lin Chengbu pointed at him, "If you call me a nickname again, I'll curse you."

"I'll listen to some scolding." Yuan Wu put on his coat.

"Your uncle." Lin Chengbu said.

"Well," Yuan Wu nodded, "You are right, my uncle."

Lin Chengbu didn't answer any more. Judging by Yuan Wu's mood, he didn't care about anything else.

Yuan Wu should know that he was interrupting, and cooperated quite well, which made Lin Chengbu feel very at ease. Anyway, Yuan Wu was trying to get rid of those shadows.

It's just that he was a little depressed. If he had known earlier, he shouldn't have brought Yuan Wu over for dinner today. Once this world gets smaller, it will be as bloody as a fucking novel.

"Tell me," Yuan Wu walked slowly towards the tribute tea with him, "Can you discuss with them that you can buy a cup with a milk cap and no tea?"

"No," Lin Chengbu laughed, "I tried it, and they don't sell it that way."

"I didn't know I liked cream so much before." Yuan Wu thought for a while, "How about I get you a cream rum someday..."

"When?" Lin Chengbu asked immediately.

"It's... someday." Yuan Wu said.

"I don't have a specific time to look forward to," Lin Chengbu sighed, "You used to make special tunes for Jiang Chengyu all day long, and it was so easy for me to do it once. I don't know the year of the monkey."

"Wait until I give you a gift," Yuan Wu yawned, "You don't need tools for this, you can do it with a measuring cup."

"Okay," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "I remember it."

"Remember it." Yuan Wu said.

There were many people shopping at night, and the business of the milk tea shop was very good. They stood there and waited in line for 20 minutes before finally getting their milk tea.

There is no place to sit yet.

"Let's find a chair by the side of the road..." Lin Chengbu looked around, and there were people sitting on all the chairs he could see, "Damn."

"Go back to the car and drink," Yuan Wu said, "It's not too far away."

"I'm afraid I'll be drunk on the way back to the car." Lin Chengbu said.

When I got back in the car and sat down, Yuan Wu still had a full cup of milk tea, and Lin Chengbu only had a bottom in his hand.

Yuan Wu just followed what he said last time, put the straw at the junction of the cream and tea, and just took two sips, Lin Chengbu's side was already empty.

"Hey," he shook the cup depressedly, then glanced at Yuan Wu's cup again, "Why are you drinking so slowly?"

"Because I support it." Yuan Wu said.

"Then if you can't finish your drink, let me have some." Lin Chengbu immediately lifted the lid off the cup.

Yuan Wu glanced at him, sighed, and handed over the cup: "Come on, drink it."

"Then I'm so embarrassed." Lin Chengbu said.

"Come on," Yuan Wu looked at him, "The acting skills are too exaggerated."

Lin Chengbu smiled, took the cup in his hand, and took two big gulps: "Are you full?"

"Yeah." Yuan Wu nodded.

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu said.

"I asked eight hundred times in one night." Yuan Wu adjusted the car seat back, leaned on the back of the chair and closed his eyes, "If you ask me again, I will say it's not delicious."

"No more questions." Lin Chengbu said with a smile.

The car was parked on the side of the road, and there was a busy street outside.

Flashing neon lights, passing traffic, people coming and going, the window is like a screen changing content.

Lin Chengbu quite likes this feeling, the chaotic world is still chaotic, but there is a small quiet space around him.

Yuan Wu was beside him, resting his eyes with his eyes closed, the flashing light and shadow on his face was surprisingly quiet.

After drinking the milk tea, he put the two cups together and put them aside, then turned to look at Yuan Wu.

That's when he has some ideas.

Hug, rub, kiss.

On Yuan Wu's forehead, on the hair hanging from the forehead, on the bridge of the nose, on the eyes, and on the lips.

He slowly approached, holding his breath as if he was about to do something big.

But it is indeed a big deal, this is the second time he wanted to kiss in Yuan Wu's "awake" state, and the first time he was caught in a car, this time...

The distance is very close, and he can clearly see Yuan Wu's slightly trembling eyelashes. Yuan Wu's eyelashes are not thick, but they are quite long.

"Actually," Yuan Wu suddenly opened his eyes and looked at him, "I'm not in a very good mood right now."

Lin Chengbu froze suddenly, feeling the embarrassment of being discovered and rejected on the spot.

"I've been working hard to adjust and try to control it," Yuan Wu said, "but things like emotions can't be controlled just by trying to control them."

"En." Lin Chengbu responded softly.

"Some things, when I think about them, I feel pain," Yuan Wu frowned, "When I think about those things about Yuan Shen, the people he met on that website, the things he saw, the darkness he experienced ,so I……"

"You've already done what you can," Lin Chengbu put his hand on his shoulder and pinched it gently, "Don't always associate these things with him with you, it's not because of him what happened to you ,do you know?"

"I know," Yuan Wu closed his eyes, took a deep breath and let it out slowly, "I know."

"Shall I take you home?" Lin Chengbu said softly, "Go home and sleep?"

"Okay." Yuan Wu nodded.

Lin Chengbu drove to Yuan Wu's house, and neither of them spoke on the way.

After Yuan Wu came back, there was a big change from before. He was no longer as indifferent as before, and his temper seemed to be tempered. Lin Chengbu almost never saw him lose his temper.

But such a change made him a little confused. Yuan Wu, who had always been indifferent and tough, seemed to have become... a lot weaker.

Whether it's because the wound that was torn open doesn't require him to pretend anymore, or he needs to face the pressure from the past again, he doesn't know.

"Here we are." Lin Chengbu parked the car downstairs at Yuan Wu's house.

"Oh." Yuan Wu responded, closing his eyes and not moving.

"Do you still want to go out for a few laps?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"No need," Yuan Wu slowly opened his eyes and stretched his neck, "Thank you."

"Don't keep thanking me, I'm not used to it." Lin Chengbu frowned.

"Are you used to me scolding you?" Yuan Wu said.

"Not really," Lin Chengbu sighed, "I just thought it would cause trouble."

Yuan Wu didn't speak, just looked out the window.

There was no one outside the window, and there was nothing to look at, except for a lamp post, but Yuan Wu still looked at it for a long time.

Then she turned her head and patted him lightly on the shoulder: "Xiaobu."

"Huh?" Lin Chengbu looked at him, Yuan Wu hadn't called his name so seriously for a long time.

"Me," Yuan Wu lowered the car window, lit a cigarette, and lay down on the window, "I'm actually quite clear about myself. I always said that Yuan Shen was abnormal, but it's just me, it's been so long. Big one, I can’t even talk about how healthy I am.”

Lin Chengbu didn't speak.

"I'm not used to someone being nice to me, and I don't know how to be nice to them," Yuan Wu took a puff of cigarette, "When someone is nice to me, I get scared because I don't know how to respond, how to respond Go get along with people who treat me well."

"I see." Lin Chengbu said.

"I told you to go to bed or something," Yuan Wu turned to look at him, "Don't take it seriously."

Lin Chengbu looked at him.

"Even if I really thought so, I wouldn't do that," Yuan Wu patted his face, "Understood?"

"What do you want to say?" Lin Chengbu grabbed his hand.

"Dr. Liang said that in my situation, I have to take my time. Psychological counseling takes a long time," Yuan Wu said, "No one knows how long it is. You have spent so many years on me. The foolish boys have turned into foolish youths..."

"I'm not stupid." Lin Chengbu clicked his tongue.

"I don't know how to build a close relationship with people at all, do you understand what I mean?" Yuan Wu looked at him, "You are not stupid, you should know what I mean, right?"

"The relationship between the two of us is closer than before," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "You can feel it yourself? I feel it. Are you trying to say that you did it on purpose?"

Yuan Wu looked at him and said nothing.

"Okay, I see," Lin Chengbu said, "Go back to sleep, you have to go to Dr. Liang tomorrow morning?"

"Well," Yuan Wu got out of the car, and after closing the car door, he thought about lying on the window again, "I said, stop guarding the street."

"No more," Lin Chengbu said, and when Yuan Wu turned and walked into the building, he said again, "When you go to see your grandparents next week, tell me, and I will go with you."

Yuan Wu turned to look at him.

"Did you hear that!" Lin Chengbu glared at him.

"...I heard it." Yuan Wu said.

"Just say what you said today," Lin Chengbu still stared at him, "That's all I've heard, now I say, you listen."

"Yeah." Yuan Wu thought about walking back and lying on the car window looking at him.

"Go and see if you are sick! If you don't treat people well, follow me!" Lin Chengbu said, "I have worked hard for you for so many years, and you just want to dismiss me with a few words of nonsense. I tell you it is impossible! You I didn’t say anything when you were crazy, but now that you’re better, you want to run? No way, I’ll tell you!”

Yuan Wu opened his mouth to speak, but was interrupted by him.

"Shut up!" Lin Chengbu pointed at him, "You don't need to tell me why you treat me, I can feel it myself! I think you treat me better now than before! Do you hear me clearly, Uncle Yuan!"

Yuan Wu didn't make a sound, and looked at him as if he hadn't recovered a bit.

"Ask you!" Lin Chengbu raised his voice.

"...I heard clearly." Yuan Wu said.