i'm a wang

Lin Siran was not crazy when the apartment was stolen and the laptop with all the academic materials disappeared;

When the magazine and the school successively issued announcements apologizing for the incident, Lin Siran was not crazy;

On the morning when he left City B, when he stepped out of the room and was surrounded by reporters, and was forced to hear many insulting questions, Lin Siran was not crazy;

However, when he stood in the yard of his hometown, leaning against the huanghuali tree that was older than him, he felt that he had gone crazy.

Remembering how he died in his previous life, how he was used in that life, and how Xiao Lu, who was called a lover but actually an enemy, pushed himself into desperation step by step, he would rather go crazy.

If you're crazy, you don't have to face the almost incomprehensible reality, if you're crazy, you don't have to think about whether there is Xiao Lu's shadow behind this incident, if you're crazy, you don't have to think about why the little bit of luck love still exists in your heart.

So when he woke up one morning and saw a transparent figure sitting on the head of his bed at some point, he was not surprised at all, and even felt a sense of relief that had finally come.

"Why did you appear? Because of my obsession?" Lin Siran asked with interest as he slowly got up from the bed and sat beside the shadow.

The thing with the same length as Xiao Lu didn't respond at all, and just stared blankly at the empty concrete floor in a daze.

He reached out and poked his shoulder, trying to get his attention, only to find that his fingers had passed through the shoulder without touching anything.

"Huh?" He withdrew his finger and stared at it for a long time: "It really isn't an entity?"

But this time, at least it caught the attention of that transparent Xiao Lu.

I saw that figure's eyes widened in disbelief, and his thin lips opened and closed many times but he was so nervous that he didn't make a sound. It wasn't until he took a dozen or twenty deep breaths that he asked difficultly what he had said in the past ten years. The first sentence: "Siran, you, you...can you see me?"

Lin Siran laughed, he didn't know why his phantom would ask such words: "Of course I can see it!"

Xiao Lu was stunned.

Lin Siran touched his head, and continued: "You are a phantom imagined by me, how could I not see you? But I thought I would see my baby after I went crazy, but I didn't expect it to be you... ..." At this point, he seemed a little disappointed, and the corners of his pursed mouth drooped.

It was only then that Xiao Lu realized that something was wrong with Lin Siran, his eyes were no longer radiant, empty and lifeless, it seemed that there was nothing that could attract his attention, and the smile on his face was like a mask that was deliberately inlaid on it. , just floating on the surface, far from reaching the bottom of my heart.

"No, it's not." Xiao Lu panicked all of a sudden, did he think he was crazy?

He wanted to hold Lin Siran's hand in vain, and wanted to tell him that he was real and not a product of his imagination.But the palm of nothingness can only pass through Lin Siran's hand again and again, he can't hold anything, not even a speck of dust.

However, the more anxious he was to explain, the more Lin Siran felt a strange pleasure. Looking at the face that thought about it day and night and was at a loss for himself, he couldn't help laughing again.

Laughing and thinking, it seems that the life of a mental patient is not as boring as in the legend. The illusion can not only chat with himself vividly, but also make him feel happy.

Looking at Lin Siran's expression, Xiao Lu knew that he probably didn't believe what he said at all, and he had to convince him.

"Siran, in fact, I am the dog you once raised." Looking directly into Lin Siran's eyes, Xiao Lu said these words that sounded extremely absurd, very seriously.

Lin Siran raised his eyebrows, and conveniently drew the shape of two ears on the top of Xiao Lu's hair, and said in confusion: "Because I just said that I wanted to see my baby, so you turned into a dog right away? But , why hasn't the appearance changed?"

"No, Si Ran, it's not that I became a dog, but that I was your dog from the beginning. I am Xiao Lu and your baby."

Lin Siran was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed crazily, "Hahahahahahaha, I never thought that I would be so good and able to come up with such creative illusions. Hahahaha is both a dog and Xiao Lu hahahahaha!"

He laughed for a long time, until tears welled up in the corners of his eyes before he stopped.The crazily laughing seemed to consume all his strength, and he fell back with his arms outstretched. He lay down on the bed again, turned his head to look at Xiao Lu and murmured to himself: "But, maybe this is the truth deep in my heart. What about your wish? Didn’t you say that you think about it every day and dream at night, because I hope that the baby is still alive and never leaves, because I hope that Xiao Lu will never betray me by my side, so you appear? It turns out that only crazy Will your wish come true after you do it?"

Xiao Lu leaned down and pressed his forehead against Lin Siran's. Those black eyes were obviously translucent, but clearly flashed deep love, "Siran, I know you don't believe it now. Then please Listen carefully to what I have to say, and then you will make a fair judgment again."

Of course Lin Siran would not believe it, who would be deceived by his own fantasy?At least he won't, but it doesn't hurt to listen, after all, he is already a lunatic, is there anything crazier than communicating with illusions?

Sitting up straight, passing through the phantom's body, he got off the bed and put on his slippers, and walked slowly to the bathroom while listening to the all-too-familiar voice.

However, the story of the phantom surprised him from the very beginning. He originally thought that he would start from the time when the yellow dog was a baby, but he didn't expect that he was talking about things in his previous life.

In the story of the illusion, the ruthless Xiao Lu was actually a tragedy. He clearly loved Lin Siran, but because of all kinds of mistakes, he forced the person he loved to death. After learning the final truth, he had no choice but to commit suicide in despair. .

Hearing this, Lin Siran spat out the foam in his mouth, and couldn't help interjecting: "But, no matter what his subjective wishes are, the objective consequences have already been caused, so no matter from which point of view, I am Xiao The road is dead, isn't it?"

The phantom was silent for a long time, so long that Lin Siran thought he was no longer talking, so he opened his mouth and continued: "Yes. So, he suffered retribution. When he woke up after death, what became most of the time It's a dog, and a monster of a man for half the time."

Lin Siran's hand holding the towel paused slightly.

"When the soul was in the dog's body, he didn't have a good time. He had to fight his instincts as a human being. People walk on two legs, but dogs need four legs. He couldn't even learn at first. Can walk, stumbled for a long time before finally learning to walk like a dog. He is a humble dog, but he is also a person with self-respect, he hates the smelly gutters, trash cans, mosquitoes and human food leftovers Food with spittle and dust, but because of survival, he has to live in such an environment every day, swallowing things that he would never touch like gravel. He was caught by a human child and injured by firecrackers His mouth was broken by a cruel adult with a stick, and his tail was even crushed by a speeding car."

"If he's always been a dog, that's fine. He'll get used to it one day, but the retribution is not that simple. Whenever he suffers and dies, he will always turn into a human, reminding him not to forget For the dignity of being a human being, remind him how difficult life was when he became a dog. So when he wears back to the dog body, he needs to do his best to re-adapt, go round and round, and suffer a lot. Always be him Finally found the person he was looking for, and he regained the hope of living."

Lin Siran looked up at him.

"Yes, it was the person he failed to live up to before he died, the person he loved forever and ever. However, when he saved him from the gangsters, when he finally succeeded in becoming a member of his family, he I found that this person is not him, he has no memories of his past, he is just a stranger who looks exactly like that person. He has been lost and confused, but he still decides to protect him with everything he has. Whether it is to make up Whether it's good, protection, or love, he has fulfilled his promise and exchanged his life for his safety."

As if thinking of something, Lin Siran's eye sockets turned red quietly.His clenched fists were full of veins and trembled uncontrollably.

"When he died for the second time, his original idea came to nothing. He neither returned to the human shell, nor turned into nothingness and fell into eternal darkness. He became the saddest soul. He has been a trapped beast beside his master for ten years. He is obviously a human being, but he is not a human being. He is just a lonely ghost floating in the world. But when he thought that he would be such a humble and useless bystander forever, he The person who wanted to protect has a new guardian—another human being. Once again, he lost the meaning of living."

"But now, he finally knows that all the suffering and waiting are meaningful, and he has no regrets after waiting."

When Lin Siran was slandered and expelled from City B, Xiao Lu also found out the ins and outs of everything in the TD headquarters in the United States.

Looking at Secretary Ruan standing in front of him with a complicated expression, Xiao Lu never imagined that this person whom he single-handedly promoted to a high position and put his trust in for so many years, turned out to be the mastermind who provoked disputes between TD and other companies.

"why?"

Secretary Ruan, who was reluctant to speak at first, suddenly burst out when he heard Xiao Lu's question, "Why? Hehe, Xiao Lu, do you still have the nerve to ask me why?" He gritted his teeth, his tone It's a deep irony, "I can be regarded as the veteran of TD. I spend no less energy on company affairs than anyone else, but what have I got? Tell me what I got?"

Excitedly, he stepped forward to grab Xiao Lu's collar, but after being stopped by the bodyguards, he still waved his hands wildly, his gentle face was full of ferocity, "Lu Yuanjia joined the company a year later than me, what happened? I'm a special assistant, the chief executive of TD China, what about me? I still run around like a little brother like five years ago, without any real power in my hands, and being called around by others! Chen Hao is better than me He came to the company two years later, Qi Yubo was three years later than me, and Qian Yuxin was four years later than me, but they are all better than me!!!! I followed you and got nothing, you still have the face to ask Why am I hahahahahaha! It’s ridiculous, Xiao Lu, I’ve never seen anyone more conceited than you! Do you think you know me well? You obviously don’t know anything, so don’t make a ridiculous face of regret !!"

Xiao Lu never knew that Ruan Ke actually thought this way in his heart. He always thought that he was still the same as when he first joined the company, young and honest, not seeking fame and fortune.Because he was meticulous and thoughtful and prudent, he couldn't be more in line with his wishes, so he kept him by his side as a secretary for five years.He once asked Ruan Ke if he wanted to go to another position to practice, but he didn't agree, instead he appeared to be trembling, expressing his determination to be a secretary again and again.Thinking about it now, he was probably not obsessed with being a secretary at that time, but simply worried about losing his position in the central management.

However, no matter how conceited he is, he also knows the principle of giving full play to his talents. He had planned to send Ruan Ke to open up the European market in the second half of the year. Now, this plan had to be shelved.

Seeing the crazy look in Ruan Ketong's red eyes, Xiao Lu waved tiredly at the bodyguard, motioning to take him down, and he didn't want to explain the original plan to him anymore. Anyway, it's just a colleague, there's no need to let him go He added more regrets.

Unfortunately, Xiao Lu wanted to spare Ruan Ke, but Ruan Ke didn't want to spare Xiao Lu.

When he was led to the office door with both hands by the bodyguard, he suddenly turned his head and showed a secret smile, "Do you think the matter of catching me is over, Xiao Lu? I'm afraid you don't know, your little lover seems to be You are already in a desperate situation, when you return to China, you will just collect his body..."

Ruan Ke was brutally gagged by the bodyguard before he finished speaking, and walked out of the room.

But Xiao Lu who was originally sitting on the boss's chair stood up abruptly, his face was full of horror, and he was no longer calm.

The author has something to say: I saw that the little angels were condemning Xiao Lu, so I pulled him out~

The next chapter should be able to rescue Lin Xiaoran from the predicament and restore her reputation!

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