i'm a wang

Lin Siran looked back, and it really was Xiao Lu.

"Siran, what are you doing?" Glancing at the girl opposite, Xiao Lu put his hand on Lin Siran's shoulder without any trace, declaring ownership.

"I..." Lin Siran opened his mouth, not knowing how to answer.

As clever as Xiao Lu, how could he fail to see what happened between the two, he just wanted to hear his lover tell him the truth.Seeing Lin Siran's faltering, he immediately tightened the arms on his shoulders in displeasure.Perhaps it has something to do with his childhood experience, Xiao Lu has always been conceited, stubborn, and has a strong desire to control, seeing someone coveting his lover, his heart is already full of jealousy.

"Oh—I see." He prolonged his tone, patted Lin Siran's shoulder pretending to be natural, and said with a malicious smile: "Siran, this is your fault, didn't you already like it? Is it human? Don't say it out of fear of hurting this classmate?"

The smile on Li Xinxin's face disappeared instantly.

Although Lin Siran couldn't bear it, he still nodded firmly, looked at the other party sincerely and said, "Student Li Xinxin, I'm sorry, I have someone I like."

Hearing the other party's refusal, Li Xinxin, who has always been strong, couldn't help but her eyes were red. She sniffed and held back her tears, "It's okay, thank you, Lin Siran."

"I also know that I may not succeed, but I want you to know that I like you." Tears rolled down her eyes, but she still stared at Lin Siran stubbornly with a firm expression, "If the person you like doesn't like you, Please consider me first! Here is my phone number! I will be waiting for you! I will always like you!!"

Li Xinxin stuffed a post-it note with her number on it into Lin Siran's hand, and ran away without looking back.

Seeing Li Xinxin's leaving back, Lin Siran couldn't help but took a step forward, he was a little dazed, for him who lacked love since he was a child, this was a precious experience but also made him feel overwhelmed.

But from Xiao Lu's point of view, the lover's hesitant expression made his anger even higher.

He violently opened Lin Siran's clenched left hand, and tore the post-it note in his palm to pieces.

"Xiao Lu!?" Lin Siran was puzzled and a little annoyed, he didn't like that girl, but Xiao Lu couldn't trample on other people's kindness like this.

Hearing the displeasure in Lin Siran's words, Xiao Lu's face became more and more gloomy. He suddenly stretched out his hands and grabbed Lin Siran's shoulders, staring at him with sinister eyes: "Siran, I know that since that accident, , you can no longer accept me, but at least, please don't accept others, too?"

The fingers were as hard as if they were going to pierce into his own flesh, Lin Siran felt that his shoulder was going to be pricked by Xiao Lu, he frowned and moved uneasily, wanting to say something.

"Hush", Xiao Lu covered his mouth, "I know what you want to say, Si Ran, I know. But, now, please listen to me."

His face was even closer, so close that Lin Siran could feel his warm breath and the hidden anger in his eyes, "You told me to leave you three years ago, I know you were doing it for my own good, but I did No, never! Si Ran, I wanted to tell you a long time ago, it’s okay if you can’t get over that hurdle, we can stop being lovers, but please don’t accept other people’s overtures, it will make me Out of control. You can only be mine!"

This is Xiao Lu that Lin Siran has never seen before.They have known each other for nine years, Xiao Lu can be Lin Siran's best friend, lover, and relative. His role is changing, but what remains unchanged is his gentleness and stability. But this time, Xiao Lu seems to have changed.

Seeing Lin Siran staring at him blankly, Xiao Lu finally realized that his behavior was too radical.He has always been proud of his control over his emotions, no matter how fluctuating his heart is, he will not show the slightest on the outside.But this time, I don't know if it's because of that, whenever he encountered something related to Lin Siran, his emotions would easily lose control.

He took a deep breath and smiled apologetically and helplessly at his lover.

"I'm sorry, Si Ran, I'm just too disturbed." He gently held Lin Siran in his arms, his voice was low but full of fear, "Forgive me, Si Ran? I just care too much about you, you don't know how to read When you are confessed, how afraid I am that you will leave me!"

Leaning on Xiao Lu's shoulder, listening to his strong and rapid heartbeat, and his uneasy apology, the unpleasant emotions in Lin Siran's heart immediately dissipated.He loves him so much, how could he have the heart to blame him.

He also stretched out his hands and hugged him back, "It's okay, Xiao Lu, I only have you, so why would I leave you?"

In fact, for him, a loner, Xiao Lu was already the only motivation to live. Xiao Lu's nervousness sometimes made him feel the security of being needed.He never blamed Xiao Lu. In the eyes of Lin Siran who looked at the whole world with kindness, his mother's departure was entirely his fault, but Xiao Lu still gave everything for him.He often feels selfish, because of the insurmountable obstacles in his heart, he can no longer accept any overly intimate behavior from Xiao Lu. Xiao Lu is a grown man with normal needs, but he still locks him by his side in the name of love , refused to let him go.

He raised his head and looked into his lover's deep eyes. In those eyes, there was his reflection, his heart, and his inner desire.

The sunlight fell on Xiao Lu's still somewhat perturbed face through the gaps between the branches and leaves, Lin Siran stared blankly, and silently made a decision: Maybe, it's time to make a change.

Amidst the melodious singing of the magpie robin, the two walked slowly side by side. When another gust of breeze brushed their cheeks, when the handsome man turned around amidst his calling, he turned his head and kissed his lips. It was the first kiss in three years.

That kiss was very light, very light, so light that it seemed like ripples in the lake, so light that flowers bloomed in their hearts.

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After that day, Lin Siran seemed to have unlocked the shackles of his heart, and everything began to change for the better, but before this change was fully fermented, Xiao Lu had to leave his lover and go to the distant America as an exchange student.

In the days when Xiao Lu was not around, Lin Siran worked harder to change himself, hoping that Xiao Lu could see a better self in three months.He began to try to communicate with more people and establish friendship with other students.He himself is outstanding in appearance, excellent in academic performance, and has a good temper, but because of various reasons before, he has never had friends.Now, he can take the initiative to break the barrier, and he can naturally gain the friendship of others.

Although there are still some people who have prejudice against him, especially a second-generation official named Chen Anguo who often picks on him because of Li Xinxin's confession to him, most of the students still have goodwill towards him.Gradually, he also began to have some nodding acquaintances.

One afternoon, Lin Siran picked up a textbook in Ma Zhe's class. Not only was the word Zhao Han written on the title page, but also a handsome selfie was posted on the title page.

So narcissistic, Lin Siran thought to himself, although this guy is indeed handsome, but it is rare to post a selfie on a textbook.At this time, Lin Siran never expected that it was this narcissistic guy who became his first friend in college.

According to what Zhao Han said later, the first time he saw Lin Siran, he felt that his eyes were close to each other.In other words, as a capitalized face control student, Zhao Han felt that there were not many people like Lin Siran who were both good-looking and caring, and would not compete with him for beautiful women, so he immediately fell in love with him.Look for Lin Siran for dinner, look for Lin Siran for playing ball, look for Lin Siran for watching beautiful women, look for Lin Siran for business and leisure, so they came and went, and they became close friends before they knew it.

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As if time flies, it has been almost three months since Xiao Lu went to the United States.

On Friday night, Lin Siran was still reading in the self-study room, accompanied by Zhao Han, a brown candy.

"Aran, I was dumped again, don't you want to comfort me?" Cowhide Tang spread himself on the chair like a rag, pitifully seeking sympathy from his friend.

Lin Siran, who was busy with the questions, didn't want to talk to him and threw a ball of draft paper at him.

"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!" the cheeky classmate zhao began to cry loudly.

Unable to stand the magic sound piercing his ears, Lin Siran was about to tell him to shut up, but he saw the guy who was still sluggish just now pretending to open an advanced mathematics book and read it.

"Aran, Aran, look ahead! The faculty of the School of Foreign Languages ​​spends money on cigarettes!" Zhao Han secretly reminded his friends while peeking at them from the corner of his eye.

Lin Siran looked up, and sure enough, he saw three girls walking in from the front door of the self-study room, looking for seats with their schoolbags on their backs.

Seemingly noticing his gaze, one of the ponytailed, oval-faced girls turned around and looked over.Seeing Lin Siran, she was obviously taken aback, but the next moment she turned around and took out her cell phone to whisper to her friends.

"Aran, did you see that?" Zhao Han nudged Lin Siran lightly with his elbow, and said excitedly, "Qian Yan, she has been looking at me just now, hahaha! Do you think I should go up and ask her for a phone call?" Number?"

Zhao Han was still muttering about how handsome he was, and when he would definitely embrace the beauty this time, the beauty Qian Yan he was muttering about got up and walked directly in front of Lin Siran.

"Hello classmate, may I ask if you are from the Chinese Department of our school?"

Zhao Han was surprised.Although Lin Siran was also confused, he still answered yes honestly.

"Then your surname is Lin?"

"Correct."

The expression on Qian Yan's face changed instantly, she silently glanced at Lin Siran, grabbed a piece of draft paper, wrote a few lines hastily, then turned and left.

At first, Zhao Han thought it was the beauty who had left him a phone call, but when the two of them looked closely, their expressions immediately darkened.

I saw that it read impressively: "Ten minutes ago, someone posted on the campus BBS that a student surnamed Lin from the Chinese Department of our school was a promiscuous homosexual, and there was a photo of you on it. You helped me before, although I don't know you name, but I believe in your character, please refute the rumors as soon as possible."

The author has something to say: _(:з」∠)_ However, no little angel responded to me and threw me a message.