wait for me to grow up

Lee Donghae suddenly felt that as a senior, he had to stand up and say a few words at this time~ So he cleared his throat, and then heard Lee Hyukjae say in his nice voice, "Before debut, we were more anxious than you guys."

So Donghai shut his mouth sullenly, and nodded like a chicken.

"However, no matter what, you are the greatest reliance. Always remember who you are behind when you are fighting with all your strength. You are a relationship in which one prospers and the other loses. It is the existence of supporting each other."

"That's right," Donghai was also a little touched, "We have gone through your current path. If we knew these things at that time, it would probably be a lot easier. Hey, hey, you little brats, don't group souls talk about it? That's all!"

"I know." Huang Zitao nodded vigorously, these words...he has always known.He has been in Korea for a long time, and now...it is winter, the cold outside meets the temperature in the house, the windows are foggy, and nothing can be seen clearly.Just like their future, as much glory as they have, they have to have as much tolerance, those fears of the unknown are all their expectations, he doesn't know what he will face, all he knows is that there will be these eleven people around him .Maybe I will make fun of myself when I make a mistake, and I will praise it when I do well, saying "weareone" together to face the unclear future.

So...he has always cherished it.

"Tao," Dong Hai pulled Huang Zitao over, "Brother Dong Hai will give you a homework today, okay?"

"What is it?"

"Give you half a month, you go to ask members one by one, what do they think of you and what do they think of you in their hearts. What is the answer, you look with your heart, what is the answer in their hearts, and then Think about it, what you want to be... is what's in their hearts."

"What do I want to...be?"

"Ah."

Li Donghai looked at Huang Zitao and nodded, he really liked this silly tall brother, because he knew that the most important thing in this circle was not strength or appearance, but eyesight.Whether it is whether it can make the audience like it when it stands out, or what kind of existence it is in the eyes of its seniors.That's why I want him to know something in advance, and I don't want this child whom he really loves as his younger brother to take too many detours.

It can be considered a good effort~

What Brother Donghai said during the meal that day, after returning home, Tao thought about it a lot, and then took out a notebook from the cabinet under the eyes of Brother Baozi. A pair of eyes, revealing the small fangs that haven't grown well~

Then classmate Huang Zitao sat in front of the table like a good baby, lowered his head and wrote something carefully.Minshuo leaned over to take a look, the child wrote in Chinese, um...it’s not as good as his Korean writing~

"What are you doing Tao?"

"Brother, let me ask you a question." Tao raised his head and looked at Minshuo anxiously, "You have to think carefully before answering me."

Seeing Tao's seriousness, Minshuo looked at him tenderly, "What is it?"

"Brother, what am I in your heart?"

"What's the problem? You are in my heart...you are a silly little panda~"

"No, no, brother, you have to think about it and answer me seriously."

Minshuo lowered his head and thought for a while, it was quite difficult to sort out his thoughts for a while, so he stared at Tao with wide eyes, "Why don't you let me think about it?"

"Well, brother, you should tell me sooner if you have made up your mind. I'll go ask someone first~" After saying that, he ran out with his notebook in his hands.

Is it in your heart?Minshuo bit his lip and thought... This is really not a simple question, he has to think about it, um, think about it!

As soon as the little panda came out of the room, he saw a few people watching TV together, led by Lu Han, because the variety show on TV was laughing out of shape, Huang Zitao curled his lips, and suddenly felt that living with these bastards was really worthless future……

Bai Xian looked up and saw Tao coming out, he quickly reached out to greet him, "Come on, Tao, let's watch TV together~"

"I still have a lot of things to do~" Panda Tao said arrogantly, turned his head and went to Brother Junmian's room, but there was no one in there, so he poked his head out sullenly and asked, "Where is Brother Junmian?"

"Your brother Junmian has gone out, what's the matter? Let's play with your brother Luhan?" Luhan blinked his eyes, crossed his legs like an old man.

Tao looked at the row of Luhan, Baek Hyun, and Chanyeol on the sofa... silently put the notebook behind him, "Well... what are you looking at?"

Then, it was very hopeless and reduced to a situation with no future~

"What are you doing with a notebook?" Bai Xian asked casually, and Tao quickly shook his head like a rattle, "It's nothing~"

Please, he can't just say that. These three guys must laugh at their naivety when they are together. Brother Donghai said that this is a very serious matter, and he has to chat one by one.Thinking of this, Tao hid the notebook further away.

Bai Xian blinked at Huang Zitao, and a smile appeared on his face, "Zitao~ Shixun and Brother Junmian went out together today~"

"Sehun?"

It's easy to think of what was wrong with Shixun that night, Tao's expression dimmed for some reason, and then Baek Hyun snatched the notebook while he was not paying attention...

"Ah, Baek Hyun, you!" The panda rushed to snatch it, and the two started chasing around the sofa, like children.

Lu Han should have laughed at them in his heart, but now his mind is full of what Bai Xian said just now.That kid Shixun...he had already told him the ins and outs of the whole thing very patiently and tactfully, and watched with his own eyes the child's petrified reaction after digesting everything, and then immediately became irritable and annoyed.

"It's over, it's over, does Huang Zitao think I'm crazy?"

"... Everyone should think that way, right?" Lu Han wanted to persuade him, but he didn't know what to say.

Then Wu Shixun covered his face, refusing to look at this heartless world.That day he was embarrassed to go back to apologize, and he just slipped away. Luhan hesitated whether to accompany the youngest who was beaten one after another or go back to report to the members and seniors. After seeing Sehun dangling and almost being tripped by him, he immediately ran away. follow up~

After they came back, although everyone agreed and didn't say anything, but today Wu Shixun got up so early and left with Brother Junmian, Luhan must have a heart-to-heart talk.I don’t know how much Brother Junmian can ask, that kid Sehun, don’t get caught in some kind of weird craziness~

Lu Han suddenly felt that he had unknowingly cultivated the "mother's attributes", and then infinitely admired Wu Yifan who can use this attribute freely.

Alas~ His miserable life~~~

While mourning, a notebook fell from the sky and hit Lu Han on the head, Lu Han casually took it in his hand, the cover made the little milk cat grin its teeth, as if provocative.

"What are you doing? Didn't you see Master Lu thinking?" Lu Han rolled his eyes impatiently.

"Little Lu, give it back to me quickly!" Huang Zitao hurriedly approached him, and Bai Xian stopped him vigorously, urging Lu Han at the same time, "Quickly open it and see what's inside."

Luhan hesitated for 0.000001 seconds, then quickly turned to the notebook, it was Huang Zitao's not-so-good-looking handwriting, only wrote a few Chinese characters: What am I in your heart? ? ?

Luhan looked at the three question marks in the back, each bigger and more distorted~ The corners of Luhan's mouth twitched, the words were written like this, is this panda still planning to express feelings?

"Ah, I said you can't read it, Xiaolu!!!" Huang Zitao was in a hurry, he wanted to break through Bai Xian and snatch the notebook back, Bai Xian was also curious, and moved forward, instead of supporting Huang Zitao's impact, it hurt Tao, who had to use too much force, pierced straight there, and somehow fell into the arms of Chanyeol, who was watching the excitement...

Park Chanyeol said he was innocent, he just watched without saying a word, and then a certain panda flew into his arms ⊙▽⊙.Reaching out to catch it subconsciously, Chanlie's big eyes blinked and flickered, and his expression was stunned. Seeing the panda blushing in his arms, he somehow felt touched.

My heart seems to be drunk~

Just when Panda was embarrassed and Chanyeol was shy, Lu Han secretly said, "Huang Taozi, what kind of art are you pretending to be? Who are you looking for?"

"You...you're talking nonsense!" Huang Zitao was so excited that he forgot that he was still in his arms for a moment, he was struggling to attack Lu Han, but Lu Han turned his head and blinked, "Chanyeol is the one I like. Right? You don’t want to get up yet!”

Huang Zitao suddenly realized that this action was actually quite ambiguous, and immediately popped it far away, and then retorted with a red face, "Lu Han, you know how to spread rumors every day! No wonder Brother Fan said you are a gossip guy!!!"

"Hey, what did Wu Yifan say?" Luhan raised his voice, "What kind of skill is it to make complaints behind your back? If you have the ability to say it in front of Lord Lu!"

"It's not that I dare not face it..."

Suddenly a deep and faint voice came from behind Lu Han, Lu Han suddenly felt a chill down his spine, and shivered silently.The familiar voice made the living room, which was still flying around just now, quiet down for a moment. Lu Han didn't dare to turn his head. Judging from the frightened expression of Bai Xian on the opposite side... the visitor was not kind!

Trying hard to put on a nonchalant expression, Lu Han turned his head stiffly, "Wu Huang, I made a mistake π_π"

"Kneel down."

"嗻π_π"

Then... Huang Zitao pointed at the listless Luhan and laughed into a ball~

Baekhyun looked suspiciously at Chanyeol who was supposed to be laughing but was silent at this time, then walked over and poked him, "What's wrong with you? What's the matter with that expression? Still thinking about what Luhan said? You can't be secretly in love with Huang Zitao Bar?"

Just kidding... But he told the secret in Chanyeol's heart, Chanyeol's eyes widened violently, and he shook his head desperately in reflex.

Baekhyun laughed, "You're so serious about joking~ Really."

Chanyeol laughed along, but his heart was infinitely nervous, he...can't just take it as a joke~

Baekhyun didn't say anything afterwards, he just found it weird, he knew Park Chanyeol too well, this person who opened his heart to himself from the very beginning, his big eyes are always difficult to hide his feelings, in fact he is quite easy to understand people.That's why he felt strange because of Chanyeol's embarrassment just now. What is Chanyeol thinking about Tao...?

Bowing his head and smiling, Bai Xian felt that he was also very strange.When she revealed to Junmian that she liked Huang Zitao before, Junmian’s surprised expression still seemed to be in front of her eyes, and she repeatedly emphasized the consequences of impulsiveness, and then looked at herself everywhere, otherwise... how could I hide my feelings completely, just being so close Where is Tao?

But Junmian was right, he couldn't bet on his and Tao's future.

Troubled and troubled, Huang Zitao did not forget the important task written down in his notebook.

The first answer, he got it from DO.

In the evening, Shixun, Zhong Ren, Brother Junmian and Brother Yixing hadn’t come back yet, and the rest of them gathered around the table, looking like they were waiting to be fed. Jingxiu sighed, and then resigned herself into the kitchen...

Huang Zitao followed like a little tail, watching Brother Jingxiu's skillful cooking, and then thought... I will find such a person to marry in the future, and then there will be people who cook delicious food for me in different ways every day~

"Tao, why don't you go outside and wait?"

Jingxiu stares at him with round eyes, what are you doing standing here?Obviously not here to help! →_→

"Brother, I want to ask you a question."

"Don't worry, the meal will be ready soon."

"It's not this!" Tao shook his head, "I want to ask brother, what am I in your heart?"

"In my heart?" Jingxiu blinked, but the movement of her hands did not delay, the pork belly in the pan made a sizzling sound~

"Yeah." Nodding his head, Tao's gaze was naturally attracted to the meat, and he looked at the little bit of cooked meat tenderly...

As soon as she turned her head and saw Tao's longing, Jingxiu immediately smiled, "In my heart, you are a foodie!"

"Oh bro, be serious!"

"Well, serious foodies..."

"..."

In fact, it seems to be a very serious answer, right?

A certain panda thought, does this count?Oh, it’s not an option, it’s a subjective question~~~

I was about to write it down in the notebook, but felt unsafe, so I asked again, "It's about my position in my brother's heart, what do you think I am?"

"Tao... Tao is a four-dimensional serious snack that I like very much~" Jingxiu thought for a while, and then said the conclusion very solemnly, "I like it very much."

"Yeah, I know~" Satisfied, Tao took out his notebook to write and draw, and then went out in a hurry.

"...um... I'd better hurry up and cook~" Du Jingxiu looked at the happy back of the panda, expressing her puzzlement.Anyway, the earth is so difficult to understand, ya ya~ In a short while, the fragrance permeated the whole dormitory...

During the meal, Huang Zitao went for pork belly, Bai Xian pulled out a chair for him with a kind face, "Tao, sit here."

Huang Zitao burst into laughter, unable to move his eyes away from the alluring flesh.Luhan smiled helplessly, "Huang Taozi, can we not be so ashamed? It seems like we haven't fed you enough."

"If you have the ability, don't eat it!"

"I have the ability to snatch it from you~" Tsk tsk, Master Lu is not fooled, he will let this panda take over if he doesn't eat.After Lu Han finished teasing the panda, he looked back at Wu Yifan who was walking slowly, and couldn't help complaining, "Brother Fan, how much does it cost you to raise a panda that loves meat?"

Wu Yifan glanced at the whole table indifferently, Bai Xian and Luhan sandwiched his panda in the middle, frowned slightly, then looked down at Luhan, "It's not like I can't afford it."

"...Yes yes yes, you are domineering!" Luhan can be regarded as you understand, in front of Wu Yifan, he said Huang Zitao, he has not enough brain cells-_-||~Picked up the chopsticks and secretly poked the vegetables in his bowl, Thinking about how to win the one-on-one fight with the panda, after thinking for a while, he realized that Wu Yifan was still standing there in that posture, but he was getting more and more impatient with his eyes...

"Hmm... is there anything else?"

"You are sitting in a good position."

"what do you mean……"

"→_→"

Luhan hates himself for being smart! ! !

Wu Yifan's eyes... did he understand in an instant?You damn boring coquettish man, what direction is good, if you want to sit next to a panda, you should have said it earlier!Lu Han deeply feels... in this world full of strange things around him, sooner or later he will either be forced to death...or be assimilated~

Huang Zitao didn't encounter Lu Han's competition for meat for a long time, he raised his eyes and realized that there was a change of people around him, without thinking too much, he put the meat that he was about to show mercy to Lu Han directly to Wu Yifan's mouth.When Wu Yifan saw Shang Tao's bright smile, his heart immediately warmed to death, he opened his mouth and bit his chopsticks tightly, but stared firmly into Tao's eyes.

Huang Zitao was fine at first, but Wu Yifan's eyes to see who was pregnant was too gentle~ Blinking his eyes, he blushed quickly before he could withdraw his hand.

What is it...everyone is watching~

"Brother Fan, chopsticks...give me the chopsticks~"

Wu Yifan secretly suffered internal injuries, this panda definitely destroyed the atmosphere association!

When Wu Shixun came back, he was not in a good mood, he followed Junmian without looking up, and went back to his room saying that he was not hungry.On the contrary, it was obvious that Zhong Ren and Yixing had exhausted a lot of physical strength and threw themselves into the dining table after washing up casually, like hungry wolves.

"Are you all right?" Seeing their appearance, Baixian couldn't help worrying, although he knew that these two were being trained as the lead dancers of the two teams before making their official debut, but the intensity was too high, even a real machine wouldn't be able to bear it .

"It's okay, Zhong Ren and I thought of a dance move today. After studying it for too long, we are either tired or hungry."

Lu Han was also full of worries, "Have you eaten at noon?"

"……forget."

"Hey, Zhang Yixing, you forgot how fragile your stomach is, right? That's how you always hurt!" Lu Han glared at him, "Even if you're dancing, you can't skip eating!"

"That's right." Huang Zitao chimed in, "This time Xiao Lu is really right, brother Yixing, you have to learn to take care of yourself."

Zhang Yixing laughed immediately, "What, have I been reduced to being worried by Tao?"

"What is degraded?" A certain panda was very dissatisfied, what happened to him?

When Jin Junmian washed his hands, he also looked tired.It's just that he is different from Yixing Zhongren, he is tired.There is still a lot of work to be done before debut, as well as the status of each member... Just like Shixun, today he took Shixun to meet with many high-level officials, so that he can clearly see what the whole team will face, and let him He cheered up, even if there was something in his heart that should be let go, he couldn't be entangled anymore.

Junmian didn't actually ask anything, because he knew that Sehun would not say anything.Although Sehun is young, he is really a kid with ideas.Of course, asking directly will not have any results, so just don't ask, just let him know when it is not suitable for a child's temper.

As he thought, Sehun's silence also represented his serious thinking.I hope he can figure it out~

Of the three young ones, Zhong Ren has a maturity that does not match his age, and he is the least worried about it. Shixun can always remind him when he is by his side in the future.It was Tao... Junmian watched Tao eating and talking to Wu Yifan, Wu Yifan always looked at him seriously.Tao's words... Of course Wu Yifan will take good care of him, and he is not worried, but... After all, he is not by his side.

Jin Junmian really wants to laugh at himself, this mood is really like that child's mother~

"Ma Ma?"

"Ah?" Tao suddenly called him to calm him down, "What's wrong with Tao?"

"No, why are you looking at me like that?" Tao touched his face, obviously there was nothing on it.

"Are you afraid that I will see it?" Junmian smiled softly, but his face would wrinkle if he smiled too big.Huang Zitao thinks that Ma Ma is the same as Xiao Lu, he is usually very handsome, and he is done with a smile, really!

"Ma Ma..." Suddenly thought of something, Tao suddenly stood up and insisted on changing seats with Bai Xian to sit next to Jun Mian, Wu Yifan squinted at him, although he was upset, on the surface he continued to eat calmly, but suddenly felt It doesn't taste right!

"What's the matter?" Helping Tao to pull the chair, Junmian smiled and looked at his son's slimy figure, feeling an inexplicable sense of pride~

Tao asked softly, "What am I in your heart?"

"what?"

"It's me, what am I in your heart?"

"In my heart? What else can it be? Son." Junmian patted Tao's head, "You yelled one after another, of course you are regarded as a son."

"Son... the most, the most, the most, isn't he?" Looking up, Tao is a standard begging expression, so cute!

Junmian immediately nodded with a smile, "Of course, I like it the most."

Huang Zitao's smile became even brighter, and he knew that~ our popularity is incredible!So Yue Zhan Yueyong turned around and asked his beef brother, "What are you doing?"

"Me what?" Bai Xian's mouth was full of food, chewing like a hamster.He just vaguely heard what the "mother and son" next to him said, but would that simple "showing affection" have anything to do with him?

"Answer me seriously, what am I in your heart?"

This question... Bai Xian pushed the big glasses frame on his face, and he seemed to be thinking cute~ In fact... his brain was really running fast, and he really answered this question clearly. thought about it.Then the answers came out immediately, all kinds, brilliant and colorful...

Before he opened his mouth, he looked at Junmian. Jin Junmian examined him very carefully, and there was a hint of threat in his eyes... So the answer that came to his mouth turned around and returned to his stomach.

"Tao is... my relative~"

"..." Huang Zitao blinked his eyes, the answer was different from what he expected, so he pursed his mouth and retorted, "In terms of age..."

"Didn't you say that the Chinese don't really care?" Bai Xian stroked the panda's head indiscriminately, but Junmian's expression appeared out of the corner of his eyes...

"But..." But didn't we say it was special?A certain panda continues to be unhappy~

"We are special beef relatives who don't care about age~" whispered to Tao, Baek Hyun used all his tenderness to melt into a smile, even if they didn't say it so clearly, there should be a tacit understanding between them yes.Special, they are special!I made an appointment for this special a long time ago, in order to explain to this silly panda the real meaning of "special" one day.

"Yeah~" Huang Zitao was happy immediately, he knew *^_^*

However, Bai Xian buried an unspeakable depression in his heart, that silly panda looked suddenly enlightened, did he really understand?How much do you understand?

After eating, Huang Zitao hummed a ditty and went to take a bath. After half an hour, he came out smelling delicious. He always felt that... life is infinitely beautiful~

He was planning to go back to his room, but when he turned his head, he saw Jin Zhongda on the balcony, wearing earphones and playing a small literary movie.It's dark outside, what's there to see?Thinking of this, the legs have already automatically walked to the balcony.

When Jin Zhongren heard the voice, he turned his head and saw Huang Zitao, his whole body was hot. He was refreshed after taking a shower, his hair was still dripping with water, and the towel was draped over his shoulders.

"Dry your hair, what should you do if you catch a cold?" While talking, he took the initiative to help Tao to dry his hair. After wiping for a long time, he felt that it was almost done before he put the towel back again, and then he laughed.

His hair was messy and fluffy, Huang Zitao bit his lip and looked back at him, his peach blossom eyes revealed all ignorance, just like someone's small animal.Jin Zhongda suddenly understood why his roommate, who seemed a little cold, was completely helpless against Tao alone.

"Brother, what are you listening to?"

"Want to listen?"

"Yeah." The panda nodded obediently.

Admiralty gave Tao an earphone, and even conveyed the low-pitched charm of the English song to Tao.

It's not a cheerful song, it's music suitable for quiet listening in a quiet environment. The female singer's slightly hoarse voice sang the vicissitudes of life, which made Tao feel sad.

But... why does Brother Zhong listen to such songs?Is it about mood?To be honest, I have a good relationship with Brother Zhong, but it’s not the kind of heart-to-heart relationship. If there is anything, I habitually go to Brother Fan to find Mama, or there are deer and beef. Now think about it... Zhong Da is not with him. You also have someone you can confide in, don’t you?

Baekhyun was at the same time as Baekhyun. Baekhyun had Park Chanyeol as soon as he came, and then quickly integrated into it. He can also be regarded as a person who can share secrets.But if Zhong Da...

"Brother, are you in a bad mood?"

Startled by Tao's sudden question, Jin Zhongda's long eyelashes trembled slightly, "How... how?"

"Listening to such a song will make you feel down~" Tao analyzed seriously, "Brother, do you have something on your mind? You can tell me, I'm so tight-lipped."

"...Tao, thank you." Zhong Da looked clumsy but sincerely wanted to help his younger brother curl his lips.Let's talk about it...in fact, it's nothing.Unlike the unknowns that the members have experienced before, he meant his debut from the moment he joined the group.But also because of this, compared with others, I have lost countless years of practice, and the things I have learned, because the feelings accumulated during the years of fighting together are also... He, those are missing.

So no matter how close he looks like a brother on the surface, he is always worried, how much effort does he have to put in to really integrate into this long-formed group?

But that boy who was younger than himself and came from China alone, smiled at him brighter than the sun, and was the first to open a welcoming hug to himself.

Really... very warm~

When Huang Zitao returned to the room, he was obviously in a good mood. He was lying on the bed and writing his little notes~ Jin Minshuo had tidied up his things, and then watched Tao write and draw in the notebook while kicking his feet around, which was quite regular... Yes Are you on time?

Hmm... Brother Jingxiu said... I like it.That's right, brother Jingxiu likes me~ Tao wrote it proudly.Mama also said that she likes it, and if it is beef...isn't it a special relationship with beef?That should be like it too.I didn't forget to ask when I was chatting with Brother Zhong on the balcony just now.Brother Zhong said firmly, "Tao, Tao is the one I like!"

Although I was a little embarrassed~ Tao hehe smiled, and then quickly wrote down a note in the notebook.

The more he watched the kid, the more interesting he felt, Minshuo resisted the trend of stomach ache, "Tao, what are you doing?"

"Writing something." After speaking, he turned over and looked at Minshuo, "Brother, you haven't given me the answer yet!"

"Answer?"

"Well, I asked you this morning, so you forgot, right?"

"no……"

I really think about it seriously.He thought of all the things he wouldn't normally think about, and then... a scene suddenly broke into his memory.

That night when he didn't fall asleep, the strange Wu Yifan, and... Huang Zitao who didn't know he was in a dream.How could you not be surprised?But he himself is a taciturn person, and he is the biggest among the twelve, so it is not suitable for him to be surprised at first glance. Besides, this is not a memory that can be easily shared with others, so he can only keep it quietly in his heart. .

But he clearly knew what kind of mood Wu Yifan was looking at Tao, he also knew... what he should do and what he should not do, no matter how many things he knew, what he should say and what he should not say.Then he became more cautious in his words and deeds, especially about Huang Zitao. About Tao, his brother in the same room knew better than anyone else, so he wrote it down bit by bit...it became a secret that only he knew.

"elder brother!"

He was still waiting for Brother Minshuo to speak, but who knew that his brother had fallen into a mental state and ignored him.Huang Zitao reminded, "Brother, you really have to think about it for so long, this is not a difficult problem, is it?"

"It's my homework."

"Ah?" Before he could react for a while, Tao opened his mouth wide, looking quite cute.

"My homework. I've lived with you for so long, but I still don't know you well enough. It's obviously not a complicated child, why is it layer after layer like a cabbage?" Minshuo smiled slightly "So, to really understand you, I have to keep recording and researching."

"Homework?" Tao was puzzled...what category could this be classified into?

"Yes, it's homework. It's a child who has to continue to explore~"

"Does that brother like me?"

"Of course I like it, otherwise I would have applied for a room change."

"It's good if you like it." Tao nodded, and continued to write in the notebook: Brother Baozi also likes me~

That night, Huang Zitao even laughed out loud in his dream.Minshuo, who hadn't fallen asleep yet, looked at Tao through the night, that child... must have had a sweet dream.Sure enough, when I still don't know anything, I am the happiest and most carefree.Tao...it would be great if I could be this happy all the time~