After being mistaken for a fellow by Long Aotian

"Give me something like this, are you lying to me?"

He heard a woman's voice.

"Occasionally, I will make this kind of thing to deceive people."

Zhou Xun didn't feel tired, nor did he feel relaxed.He just said: "After you open this letter, you will know. Whether the person who will write this letter is the head of the Lin family, after you read it, you will understand."

There was a rustling sound from behind the screen, the sound of an envelope being opened.Then, there was the sound of paper being flipped.

Zhou Xun sat here, listening to his daughter read the letter her father left for her.He looked at the ceiling and thought, he is an outsider.

But he heard the sound of the starlight falling to the ground more than 20 years ago. It traveled through the dust in the archives, through the time that had been stored and buried for many years, and came here from the window.

The evidence is that he heard the sound of water drops falling on the ground.

It's a woman's tears.

More than 20 years ago, the head of the Lin family wrote this letter at the end of his exile.There was no light at night, only the guard who guarded him gave him a dim oil lamp, so he lowered his head, holding the pen, and wrote bit by bit.It was freezing cold in winter, and every time he wrote a few sentences, he would rub his fingers together so that they could move more freely.He looked at the dark sky outside the window and thought, his daughter is already married.

He wanted to write a lot, so he could only find time to write a paragraph every night.He told his daughter that he was doing well now and told her not to worry about herself.He told her that it was cold, remember to add clothes.

He told her that along the way he had seen mountain villages that he had never seen in his past life, and which he always hurried through in a carriage with the curtains drawn.There is a mountain village where there are only old people, because young men, women and their children were killed when the Northern Wei invaded more than ten years ago.He had seen many paintings and calligraphy, read them for thousands of years, and thought that the world he knew was very big.However, at this moment, he suddenly discovered that the world he knew was actually very small.He claims to be familiar with poetry and books, and he is more knowledgeable than everyone else. However, he doesn't even know the stories that happened in the villages hundreds of miles away from him.It turned out that he was not so knowledgeable, but narrow-minded.

——And he hopes that his daughter can see more of this world in the future.

He also said that the jailer who escorted him was actually a good man, and the jailer yelled at him at first because of the "truth" that Qin Zhizhou told the people.While he was away, some of the people secretly gave him the medicinal material. Later, it got into the hands of the jailer, and later, into his hands.The jailer later believed that he was a good man, and before leaving, he gave the instructions to the guards in Yunzhou.The guard in Yunzhou was nice to him and lent him an oil lamp, and he has a lot to write here—except for the letter he is writing now, he still has a lot to write.

In the past, he made friends with literati and wrote a lot of sad spring and autumn, but now, he has more things to write.Life is still very long, and he will write slowly until he finishes writing.

He doesn't regret taking Qin Liang in, he only hates himself for being too narrow and naive in the past.He has been a son of a rich family since he was a child. In his world, there are flowers, birds, insects, fish, and classics of mountains and rivers, but there are no contemporary common people who are closer.

finally--

"My father, he doesn't hate me." He heard the woman's suppressed cry, it was a heart-piercing whine as if her soul had been gouged out, "He knows...he knows that the nanny can enter his The study room is all because of me...Because of my self-willedness, I got angry with him and wanted to play a prank on him...I also accidentally told the Zhou family where his study room was, and told Ye Shi where Qin Liang was... ...Until the incident happened later, I still heard others blame him for taking Qin Liang in, and in my heart, I also blamed him...he is so good...Daddy...but I caused him to be like this...before he left Before, I yelled at him, saying, if you were not so kind... it would be fine..."

"He knows it all, he doesn't hate me, he forgives me. So he knows it all, he knows it all."

——Finally, the last stone has also been settled.

Why did Lin Yan go from being a kind and rich lady to being crazy at the end.Not only because of all the human feelings she has suffered.

It was because of her deep guilt towards her father.

Her innocence and kindness became the knife the Ye family used to stab the Lin family.Over the years, she has tossed and turned countless times, in pain, digging out her scars over and over again, looking for her faults, and then turning them into knives stabbing herself, and finally, in the deepest guilt and madness ——

I stepped all my innocence and kindness into the mud, and cut off my last chance of happiness.

She didn't leave Zhou's house, but allowed herself to stay in Zhou's house and stay in Zhou's house to be tortured. Isn't it a kind of her self-loathing and exile?With her intelligence, it is not difficult to leave the Zhou family and live a new life outside.

There is only one reason for all this—in the past, she hated herself and punished herself, so she could be punished to kneel down, and she could give birth to the enemy's child as if she was tortured, and she regarded it as her own retribution. Suffering and crying but not leaving - just because she was crying not because of her own situation, but because of her remorse for her father.Even, she offered to name her "child" the "Xun" who was "inferior" and didn't care, just because the birth of that "child" was not a "child" to her.

It was a sacrifice that made her suffer, that she hated.

The appearance of Qin Liang finally gave her a chance—a chance to vent all her pain and regret.

Zhou Xun didn't speak, he listened quietly to Lin Yan's crying, and heard the tears wet the paper.

He recalled in a trance many years ago.When they were still in the Zhou Mansion, Lin Yan often sat in the room and cried.At that time, he leaned against the door, knowing that once he went in to comfort him, he would be pushed out with a cold face. At that time, he felt that his whole world was wet.

He squatted on the ground and drew a small house in the sand with branches.There is a small house with green water and green mountains behind it. In front of the house are two people, one is him and the other is his mother.He thought, if he opened the house of Zhou Mansion and took her out, it would never rain again in this small house.

This had been the meaning of his childhood.And at this moment, he saw that all his childhood fantasies were shattered. It turned out that the house he had always thought made his whole world rain was not the house he had always thought of as a belief.

However, at this moment, he heard Lin Yan crying again.He no longer felt wet, though the dreams that had surrounded his entire childhood and teenage years had become nothing, but he wanted to.

At last it was almost sunny.

The crying finally stopped.

"The guard who was kind to him, and later asked someone to send the letter back to Jiangzhou after his death, but got into the archives, is in Yunzhou, right?" He heard Lin Yan say.

"Yes, but Yunzhou has been caught in the flames of war. People from the Northern Wei Dynasty invaded Yunzhou and killed many people."

Silence.

Dead silence.

In all the silence, Zhou Xun said softly: "It's not just me who is smart, but also Shen Huanju. From the very beginning, he knew that you would definitely come to him, and your real target is him. He did it on purpose. Those who appear there intend to die there. For..."

"Calm your anger, if you can," he said.

"You have a very good master, he is for you, right?" Lin Yan said softly.

Unknowingly, the conversation between the two has become calmer.After a while, Zhou Xun said again: "Actually, I never knew how you found his residence and assassinated him?"

"Actually, at the beginning, I kept looking for him, but I didn't know where he was. I originally planned to give up. Until... I went back to the capital and took a look at you." The woman said, "Then I saw you walking into the An alley, I saw the owner of that house, it was him."

Zhou Xun closed his eyes, and after a long time, he said softly, "I should thank you, have you ever come to see me?"

"It's kind of funny, right? I came to see you once - but it caused your master to be almost killed by me."

Zhou Xun didn't speak.After a long time, he said again: "Back then in Yanyunfang, apart from Kang Wang's people following me, the other group of people following me were yours, right?"

Lin Yan was silent.

She acquiesced.

The sacrifice was over, and it began to rain patter outside the window.She looked at the rain outside the window and whispered: "Actually, after you were born, when I saw you, I hated and feared you. I looked at you and thought, you are like a monster, as if you are going to kill me Life and life sucked away. You look so much like me, and you're so smart, but it's okay, you're a kid and you don't know anything.”

"Children are smart."

"..." After a long time, he heard a long sigh, "Yeah, you are very smart. Sometimes I think, just leave Jiangzhou alone and never come back."

The screen fell, and Zhou Xun finally saw Lin Yan's face.The face that once resembled him was now haggard.

She looked like she was dying.After so many years of wandering, she can't live long.

Zhou Xun straightened his back, otherwise, he didn't know if his body would bend down.He looked at her and thought that this stranger whose fate had been intertwined with his was finally old.She brought him into this world inexplicably, but she never gave him the slightest blessing.His life had been a lonely mistake from the beginning, and he didn't even really know her, and his own messed up life, until today.

"I'm dying, maybe you don't need to do it. The doctor said I won't live this autumn, just right, summer is coming to an end." She smiled with dry lips, "I should die too, I have done so much Wrong thing. If my father Quanxia saw me and saw me living my whole life like this, he would also slap me in the face."

"He won't." Zhou Xun said softly, "You are his child."

"—But more innocent people will hate me, you think so? I have left nothing in my life, just like a joke."

Zhou Xun didn't respond.

He heard Lin Yan speak slowly.They were so calm and businesslike, just like a pair of strange enemies and prisoners of war.He had listened to all her explanations, all the nails she had left in the Northern Wei Dynasty, her account of King Kang's residence, and the nails she had left at General Li's place. Finally, he saw her tilt her head and smiled. : "However, I still have a gift... It's the last thing I can do for you."

"what gift?"

"Qin Liang. I changed his guide. Now that the checkpoints are strict, he can't leave Dajing, maybe he's still wandering somewhere. When he returns to the Northern Wei Dynasty, you won't be able to catch him. The emperor of the Northern Wei Dynasty Treat him like a foster father, and will keep him at all costs. The things he has done all these years are dirty and dark, will it be a good gift?" Lin Yan said intermittently, and every time she said a word, she had to cough several times. He said, "There is also the chess piece from General Li, which is a dead soldier who is loyal to me. I told him that as long as he knows the news of my death, or that General Li is going to Qingzhou, he will immediately try his best to kill General Li. Afterwards, there will be some letters sent to the capital..."

"Why?" Zhou Xun finally couldn't understand, he said, "Why did you kill General Li? He wasn't the only God of War in the Northern Wei Dynasty..."

Lin Yan finally laughed. She showed a sly look, and said softly, "They can conquer a few state capitals, but they will never enter Jiangzhou."

"..."

The rain gradually stopped.

Zhou Xun left the private room, and before he opened the door, he heard Lin Yan say: "Now you have a very good master and someone who loves you very much... Next, I will trouble you to help me. Clean up the mess."

Zhou Xun paused, and said softly, "Maybe I'm luckier than you."

He didn't see Lin Yan's expression, so he didn't know that she shook her head and said, "No, I am different from you. I have a father. He has always loved me, and he should have made me the best Girl. But until 20 years later, his letter also..."

——Even in such a chaotic life, she can be blessed.

Zhou Xun stopped completely.

Suddenly, he heard a sigh like a smile.

"

In fact, I gave you a name, not Zhou Xun, not that kind of random... name. "

"While I was pregnant with you, one day I suddenly wanted to die. I looked at my stomach and felt like a monster. Everything was a monster. I jumped into the lake and woke up on the shore. Then in After that, the peach blossom tree beside the yard also bloomed. I looked at the peach blossom tree and had a dream. Someone told me to live a good life, saying that my father didn’t hate me, and then said, let me give my child Give him a name, talk to him, because no matter what, the child will love his mother and long for blessings, and I, believing in his love for me, will also become happy..." Lin Yan's voice became stronger and stronger. It became lighter and lighter, "At that time, I thought, I must be stupid to have such a weird dream. The words in it are all nonsense. But later..."

"I looked at the tree flower, and suddenly thought, why not give him a name, otherwise, he didn't ask for birth, but no one likes his birth. No matter how many years pass, he will remember that he is not needed. He was too pitiful to be born in the middle of nowhere."

"Lin Hengtu."

she said softly.

"Hengtu... the one full of fragrant grass, Journey, this is the name I gave you."

……

Zhou Xun didn't speak for a long time.

He heard his own voice, ethereal, as if in the air.He heard himself say: "... Prime Minister Lu."

"He likes that kind-hearted lady, right? He has found that lady a long time ago, and it exists in his dreams and memories. She is clean and beautiful. In this case, he doesn't need to know me now. Because of that The best girl, already living in his memory."

The best girl, too, lives in her father's memory.

When Zhou Xun walked under the teahouse, he saw that it was raining in big drops.He thought that he would do a lot of things in the future, for example, spread the news of Lin Yan's death, collect her body, wait for General Li's death, capture Qin Liang, use those information to restore Yunzhou, go find old man Shen, Execute the head of the Ye family and wait for the war to subside...

then.

He heard the guard report back, saying: "'General' is dead."

She has been ill for a long time, and has survived on one breath until now, and at this moment, that breath finally dissipated.

Zhou Xun hummed lightly.

He saw that the sky was still cloudy, he still had a lot of things to do, and he had to walk with another person, but at that moment, he seemed to see a faint light in the sky.

That kind of light is not bright, but it is enough for him, just this little light is enough to give him the innermost support, so that he can live the rest of his life.

"Lin Hengtu, a journey full of fragrant grasses." He said softly, "So I have a... such a name."

He still had no love or expectation in his childhood.But flowers, candy, and meticulous care are things that only the lucky ones can have. They rely on such warm childhood wrapping and healing, to confirm the meaning of their existence and self-confidence, and spend their lives.

But for those who have walked in the dark, they need too little, only a little bit of light is enough.A little bit of light is enough as power to illuminate all his unworthy first half of his life.

It turned out that he had such a good name.Not inferior, not inferior.It's a blessed name like Rong Haoyu.His birth wasn't so repulsive as hopeless.

His name is Lin Hengtu.

This name is the best gift he has as a life.

He felt that his life was very happy.