After being mistaken for a fellow by Long Aotian

What were you born for?

For Xie Zhengqing, his birth was full of the expectations of the entire Xie family.He is Mrs. Xie's legitimate son, the future young master of the Xie family.His life was originally a smooth journey of flowers blooming brocades and raging fire cooking oil.

For Zhou Cai, his birth was Ye's elation.Since he was born, he has been the most beloved great-grandson of the old lady of the Zhou family. The Zhou family has devoted all their efforts to nurturing him so that he can revitalize the Zhou family.

For Li Aruo, her birth was blessed by her parents.Although her family was poor, her elder brother Xiao Lizi also squatted by the window, with his eyes open, looking at the newborn little sister with joy.

...and this is the birth of all men.

When Zhou Xun returned to the Zhou Mansion, he went outside and heard the sound of "bang bang" in the dormitory, as if some kind of grand construction was going on inside.

Zhou Xun:?

He opened the curtain, and as soon as he poked his eyes in, he saw the emperor sitting at the table, frowning, using a small hammer...

Bang Bang Bang smashed the walnuts.

Zhou Xun: ...

"You're back? I smashed it just now. Promise, here it is for your brain!" The emperor happily gave Zhou Xun a plate of walnuts, and took the one he was smashing just now into his hand. "This walnut is relatively hard. Just now I used a little more force, accidentally..."

Zhou Xun looked at his palm silently.

Emperor: "... just smash it into a small pancake."

This rather disgraceful walnut was thrown into the trash can by the emperor.Sitting next to him, Zhou Xun grabbed a piece and ate it. The emperor said: "Before the college entrance examination, my mother asked my father to smash walnuts for me all day long, saying that they were used to nourish my brain, and also stewed chicken soup for me all day long. So then my mother said, I passed the [-] in the college entrance examination, it was all due to her, hehe... We are all busy recently, we have taken care of Xiliang, and the situation in the Northern Wei Dynasty has improved a lot, our Italy The cannon is very useful! Thanks to your contribution to the spies, so eat more to replenish your brain!"

This was the first time Zhou Xun heard the emperor talk about his family.

"The emperor's parents sound very loving."

"They were childhood sweethearts who grew up in a large compound, and later they had me. When I was a child, they would go out to play by themselves every six months, and they would take me there when I was on vacation. I sent postcards back from all over the world, such as Rome, Paris, they even went to Antarctica to see penguins, I saved up a thick volume.” The emperor said, “Only my third year of high school didn’t go out, my dad always said , it’s a man who is going to take his beloved to see the best scenery in the world.”

Zhou Xun looked at the emperor, he always smiled without any haze.The only person who can scatter all the heat and sunshine without caring about rewards is the only child from such a happy family.

"Are you homesick?" Zhou Xun asked.Listening to the emperor talking about that warm and harmonious family, he thought, the emperor would definitely miss...love his parents very much, right?

But he didn't expect to hear such an answer.

"In fact, they have already passed away. When I was in my senior year, there was a car accident and the two of them were together. I saw my dad for the last time in the hospital. He said that he was very happy when he knew that I had applied for a doctorate from a prestigious school with a full scholarship. He is very proud of me. He and my mother are very relieved for me. Oh...do you know the doctor? It’s just a group of bald men doing research, hahaha. I applied for a doctorate directly when I was a senior, it’s amazing!"

Zhou Xun didn't know what to say for a moment, he grabbed the corner of his clothes and whispered, "I'm sorry."

After a long time, he said softly, "You must... be very sad."

Zhou Xun never had a normal family relationship.His father ignored him and despised him since he was a child, while his mother would only heal him when he was injured, and occasionally hug him when he cried.But such hugs and treatments were only temporary and accidental. More often, she would just look at him indifferently, and then push the child who was walking towards her away in disgust.

Then alone, crying in a closed room.Zhou Xun would sit alone outside the room, feeling like it was raining all over the world.

But even so, when he heard the news of his mother's death, Zhou Xun still felt a heart-piercing pain, as if he was being torn apart by the whole world.

No matter how bad his mother was to him, there was only one mother in this world who could prove the meaning of his existence.When she left, he saw himself uprooted from the last meaning, the last proof that he had an emotional relationship to the world.

At that time he felt suffocated, almost drowned in the deep sea, surrounded by strange despair.He even wanted to die because of this... and assassinated the emperor.

And the emperor's family is extremely warm.From the emperor's rambling words, Zhou Xun got a glimpse of the home that existed in another world.The father is funny, the mother is gentle, much more perfect than everything he has, like an unreal dream.

So... what kind of pain should the emperor feel?

He wanted to die then, but the emperor... what would he think?

"Actually, I was fine. At that time, I was very depressed for a month and didn't go to any classes. But when I saw my father's picture later, I felt that I couldn't go on like this. My parents definitely didn't want me to live like this. I think when my dad sees me bringing wine to their graves a year later, what he will want to see is that I am not bald, and I am toasting to them while chatting about the interesting things of the year." The emperor scratched his head. Scratching my head, after a short period of depression, I smiled cheerfully, "So now that I think about it, I just feel very happy to have them by my side for more than 20 years."

"And I read the postcards they sent me, only the North Pole they haven't been to. I made a special trip there once, and then said to the polar bear, Dad, I will help you and my mother fulfill their wish to travel around the world !” said the emperor, “I am the continuation of their stay in this world, they are so reassuring to me, I can’t let them down, and this world is really beautiful, when I saw the aurora, I thought it was them treating me Talked. And I believe that their departure is just the beginning of the next journey, nothing more. It is they who gave me the courage to live alone, and made me believe that my life in this world is happy and meaningful. And the postcards in that book are all great rivers and mountains left to me by my father and mother!"

Zhou Xun couldn't understand some of the words, but the emperor's words made him very dumb.

He heard the dryness in his throat, like a frightened cat, feeling somewhat at a loss: "...Is that so?"

He felt that everything the emperor described was so strange, so strange and illusory as if it were a dream.The emperor didn't want to die, but...

"And now!" The emperor suddenly said seriously, "Fill the blanks in my old Rong's photo album, the task of the white photo album, I leave it to you and me!"

As he said that, he patted Zhou Xun on the shoulder and said loudly: "In the future, when the war is settled and the world is peaceful, it will be our turn to see and travel in this world. How about that? A literati said In a word, this world is beautiful and vast, with scenery, ideals, and me.”

"This literati is yourself." Zhou Xun whispered.

The emperor chuckled: "That's right."

The two slept with their clothes on. In the night, the emperor suddenly grabbed Zhou Xun's hand and said, "Actually, I..."

He stuck and said, "A month ago, I shouldn't have murdered you because you took over the Black Clothes Envoy without authorization."

Zhou Xun thought for a long time before he remembered such a thing, as if the emperor really lost his temper because of it that day.He said: "I forgot, how do you still remember?"

"Of course I remember. I've been thinking about this when I'm free recently, and I always feel that I did something wrong."

"I really don't remember." Zhou Xun said, "And it was my own initiative."

"Yu Gong, you are right to take over the job, you are the best candidate, and the results later proved your ability. So I was wrong." The emperor's voice became very calm, "And Yu private, One, I stopped you from doing this out of irrational selfishness. This is the first mistake. And the second mistake, as your boyfriend, I not only failed to be your solid backing, but also It's also my fault that you have to feel 'ready to be scolded' insecure."

Zhou Xun: ...

He quietly stretched out his hand to grab the emperor in the night, and then found that the emperor was also grabbing here.

Fingers intertwined.

"Besides, you've really done a good job." The emperor grabbed his hand and said, "If it were me, I should have someone torture that... oiran and other spies, so that she can speak Right? Then it is impossible for her to tell so many things. So I think, you are very powerful. By the way, have you ever heard of a word called marginal people?"

"What marginal people?"

"This is what I thought after I heard about Mrs. Lu and Li Aruo. Marginal people are like that. How can I put it better? It's like there are people gathering in the square, and someone is using a camera to film them. Many The cheerful and bright people will stand in the middle of the square with big lights on their heads, laughing and socializing, while those people will stand in the corner, avoiding their eyes. They don't feel that it belongs to them, and they don't feel that they deserve to be big lights. Light up... But you are different, you light up the corner. You are the savior of those marginalized, and you will be in the future."

The emperor said seriously.

"...The emperor's words are too exaggerated, are you praising me?" Zhou Xun said lightly.

"Because you did a good job, I want you to be happier in the future."

"I'm already very happy to be able to help you," Zhou Xun said.

He knew the emperor's dream, the emperor's goal.The emperor came here with the strangeness of another world, and he wanted to illuminate this world.

And he wants to accompany him to realize his dream.

"That's different."

Zhou Xun's waist was encircled, and he felt the breath of a hug coming from behind.The emperor buried his head on his shoulder and muttered, "Being happy for me is not the same thing as being happy for yourself. I want you to know that you have done something worthy of being happy yourself."

Zhou Xun was startled, and he heard the emperor say: "I want you to feel that your own life is very happy. You become an emissary for your own beliefs, not because of the idea of ​​carrying something for me. I want you to feel happy. You feel like you have your own world. So—"

"I want to praise you more!" The emperor hugged him and said with a smile.

Zhou Xun nodded vigorously. Fortunately, his back was facing the emperor, so the emperor could not see his suddenly red eye circles.The emperor said: "You had a hard time when you were a child. Sometimes I always think that if I could wear it earlier, I would know you at that time. But I also know that there are some things that I can't wear even if I wear it." instead, so—”

Zhou Xun turned around and buried his head in the emperor's chest.

The emperor did not finish his next words.

Therefore, he hopes that Zhou Xun can like more things besides liking him.

He hopes that Zhou Xun likes his work, likes this yard, likes those friends and people around him, likes traveling, likes flowers and plants and the world, and finally...

To be able to like, himself.

Like Zhou Xun himself.He wanted Zhou Xun to know, and to be proud of himself, proud of every scar he had.He wants Zhou Xun to see all the most beautiful things in this world and feel that he is worth it.

After all, in his heart, Zhou Xun is so kind and strong.He could see everything Zhou Xun did.

It was getting dark.The two fell into a deep sleep, and when the moonlight fell on Zhou Xun's shoulders, he woke up.

He got up and grabbed the note from the gap at the head of the bed.

The note that made him uneasy, was covered with the handwriting of the person who was supposed to be "dead".

He held the note in his palm, and the deepest thorn in his heart, which had been seriously wounded and suppurated a long time ago, finally fluctuated.

He finally had the confidence to pull it out.

because……

He looked at the sleeping emperor and smiled faintly.

Now he finally has the courage and backing to do this.Even if it was about to dig open his festering sores, it was his deep disgust for his own life experience, and after seeing that note, he sent out from the bottom of his heart, "Why didn't you come to me?" Abandoned?" questioned.

"Mother." Under the moonlight, Zhou Xun held the note deeply in his palm, "I'm about to start."

He took a deep breath, closed his eyes and said, "I will definitely find out the truth and protect everything I want to protect."