Sheep and Wolf

No matter how sad it is, life still has to be lived. After the scene seen outside the bar that night, An Yiyang is basically convinced that Qi Fan and Gong wish him well, and nothing will happen to him in the future, because after that day, Qi Fan Fan never looked for him again, as he said, he never appeared in front of him again, and there was even less news about him on the Internet, it seems that Qi Fan has hardly appeared in front of the media since then.

He and Lin Kexin are still walking on the same spot, and the relationship has not made any progress, but this does not affect Lin Kexin's meeting with him whenever he is free to "enhance the relationship". , No matter how much I persuade you, I will not turn back.He has tried to get along with Lin Kexin as a couple, but he feels that this thing is not something he can have if he wants to. When he is with Lin Kexin, even if he is holding hands, his heart is always thinking of another person, even if he has already He decided not to have anything to do with that person, but he still couldn't stop himself from thinking about him, even when he fell asleep, he was the one who appeared in his dreams.

He is not hypocritical, but afraid. Facing Qi Fan, he already has enough low self-esteem. After experiencing abandonment and second injury, he no longer dares to hope that the other party will stick to him forever, no matter whether it is the indifference or indifference during the reunion. Later, he was chilled by the dramas he played every time, and his memory was still fresh. Even if there was no Lin Wei, there would probably be other people. If there were any misunderstandings, he would not dare to imagine how Qi Fan would treat him. What's more, the world is more attention-grabbing than him. Even if there is no congratulations, there will be other people. With Qi Fan's current status and status, there must be no shortage of suitors, and what should I use to compete with them when I am worthless?In the intrigue and intrigue in the emotional world, he has never been an opponent, not because he doesn't want to face up to his own heart, but because of reality, he can only be a deserter of love.

Fortunately, when God closes a door for you, he will also open a window for you. Although An Yiyang's love life is bumpy, his career is smooth sailing. The sales of "Two-dimensional" have been rising steadily since he joined. Out of stock is a common occurrence, and the circulation and influence have greatly increased. The bimonthly magazine has finally become a monthly publication, and there is a supplement. An Yiyang's workload has increased a lot compared to the original one. The salary and the year-end bonus are so generous without even thinking about it.At the same time, he opened a new hole on the Internet, reviewing manuscripts at work, and writing manuscripts after work. Although he was busy, he felt fulfilled. At least he was so busy that he had no time to distract himself from thinking about other things, and he didn't even have time to be sad. He thought that soon, Qi Fan His name should fade away from his life.But the sky doesn't follow people's wishes, this day when he finished his work and was about to leave work, Gong Zhu stopped him at the door of the office. Seeing his cloudy face, An Yiyang had an ominous premonition in his heart: "Mr. Gong."

"I have something to tell you." Gong Zhu walked into his office on his own, and An Yiyang had no choice but to follow in, "What's the matter? Did something go wrong at work?"

"It's a private matter."

An Yiyang's heart "thumped", don't even think about knowing that the private matter he said is absolutely inseparable from that person.

"I'm looking for you mainly because of Qi Fan."

as predicted.

Gong Zhu had some reluctance on his face, but he still said, "I hope you go and see him."

"Why?" An Yiyang frowned.

"He is very bad now, I mean, worse than ever." Gong Zhu put his hands in his pockets and turned his back to him, "I think only you can make him better."

"What do you mean?"

"Because the reason why he became like this is all because of you." Gong Zhu looked back at him, with more condemnation in his eyes.

"What's none of my business?" An Yiyang felt puzzled.

"An, Yi, Yang." Gong Zhu gritted his teeth suddenly, took a deep breath, "None of your business?"

An Yiyang was scared by the angry expression on his face and took two steps back: "We have already broken up, so his affairs have nothing to do with me."

"I suddenly felt that I misjudged you." Gong Zhu laughed angrily, "Compared to being cruel, Qi Fan is not as good as you!"

"What the hell are you talking about? I'm off work if I don't have anything else." An Yiyang turned to leave, and Gong Zhu gritted his teeth behind him, "Are you taking revenge on him? How dare you say that you have never I thought about torturing him!"

An Yiyang didn't answer, but walked out of the office straight away.

He admits that he is not without hatred, and no one can pretend that such teasing never happened. After all, only he knows how much he suffered while waiting for Qi Fan, and he was treated like that afterwards , he is not the Holy Mother, everything can be forgiven, everything can be laughed off, he does not know if such a selfless person really exists in life, he only knows that at least he is not An Yiyang, he is just a person who has been hurt and treated unfairly He will feel wronged and want to resist. He doesn't know if it is revenge. In short, he will not give others the chance to hurt himself again and again. He is just an ordinary person who knows how to cherish himself.

But then he received a call from Mother Qi again, the content was similar to what Gong Zhu said, but Mother Qi sounded pleading: "Xiaoyang, go and see him! Really, he looks like this now , I'm really worried about what's going to happen."

"I broke up with him." What could happen?The Qi family has everything they should have. Even if they are sick, they can find the best doctor for him. What use is it for him to go?

"I know," Xia Nihong's voice was full of sorrow, completely gone from the previous strength, "but he is not good at all now, when he first went to the United States, he had a period of depression, but later he recovered , and is willing to go back to the company to help me."

She didn't know that the reason why Qi Fan returned to the Qi family was because he wanted to fight for power, because he felt that An Yiyang left him because of money, and he wanted revenge and made him regret it.

"I believe he will be fine now, although I don't know what happened." An Yiyang said lightly.

"No, he is completely different from that time now. He doesn't even care about the company, he doesn't care about everything, as if he has given up everything. You know, Qi Fan has depression, and when it's serious, he even sends him to He has been treated in a special nursing home, and now he seems to be the same as that time again. The point is that he was still young at that time, but now he is so old. If he doesn't cooperate, it will be difficult to even treat him. I really have no choice I will only come to you when I’m here, I know it’s unfair to you, but, I’m begging you, just go and see him! Just one, I won’t force anything else, at least go and see him, okay?”

"Okay." An Yiyang finally agreed, just to take a look and not lose a piece of meat, let's treat it as the last time, so as to save them from trouble.What he wanted was to take a look and leave, but after that look, he never left again.

When going to see Qi Fan, Xia Nihong went to pick him up in person. Although the driver was the driver, she accompanied him all the way and carefully watched his face along the way, for fear that he would change his mind if he was upset.Arriving at Qi Fan's own villa, he smelled a strong smell of alcohol as soon as he opened the door of the living room, An Yiyang frowned subconsciously, and took two steps back, this smell made him feel too bad, The memory of being raped that night surged up again uncontrollably.

"Come in!" Xia Nihong glanced into the room, and said a little embarrassedly, "He won't hurt you, there are bodyguards here."

An Yiyang glanced at the bodyguards behind them, and walked in boldly. The living room was full of rickety wine bottles, some of which were broken, and glass shards were everywhere. An Yiyang looked at the messy ground, cautiously Walking in, a little uneasy: "Where is he?"

"It should be in the bedroom." Xia Nihong led him upstairs, and An Yiyang followed her to the door of the bedroom. The door was open, but the inside was dark. Because the curtains were not drawn, a vague figure could be seen inside. Sit on the floor with your back against the bed, with your back to them.

An Yiyang's heart tightened, Xia Nihong called softly: "Xiao Fan, Fan Fan, it's mother."

The figure was motionless, whether it was asleep or not hearing.

The two stood in place for a while, and found that the person on the other end seemed to move, but did not look back, just picked up an unfinished bottle of beer from the ground, raised his head and poured it down, and then there was a "bang", the glass bottle was smashed He threw it away and smashed it against the wall, splashing glass shards everywhere.An Yiyang took a closer look at the ground, and found that the floor of the room was similar to the outside, with broken glass everywhere, and anyone who was not careful would be cut.

"Xiao Fan, who is here?" Xia Nihong walked over carefully avoiding the broken glass on the ground, and squatted down beside him, "Son, who do you think is here? Look back."

Qi Fan ignored her, sat for a while and suddenly hissed: "Go away!"

An Yiyang took two steps forward unconsciously, for fear that he would be violent to his mother, but Xia Nihong said in a low voice, "Don't do this, okay? I am mother, and mother wants to be with you."

"Get out!" Qi Fanteng stood up from the ground at once, probably his legs were numb from sitting for too long, or he hadn't fully recovered from drinking too much wine, he was a little unstable for a while, and hit the wall directly , almost fell down, An Yiyang couldn't care about anything else at this time, and rushed over to hug his fallen body, for fear that he would lie directly on the glass shards.

"Go away." Before the two of them stood still, Qi Fan pushed him out, and he fell straight behind him. Fortunately, there was the big soft bed behind him. An Yiyang suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. Stand by the wall.

"Xiao Fan, this is Xiao Yang, An Yiyang, haven't you been saying his name all the time? He's here now, how can you push him away?" Xia Nihong sat down on the bed with a sad face, thinking He reached out to touch his head, but he opened it with one hand, and turned his back to them.Then no matter what Xia Nihong said, he didn't respond at all, as if he completely treated her like air.

"You see, that's it. He doesn't care whoever talks to him. What worries me the most is that he hasn't eaten for three whole days. Before, the nanny prepared a meal and put it on the table. He would eat a little when he was hungry. Now he refuses to eat anything, no matter how much he persuades him, he is also drinking too much, he will throw things around if he is not given alcohol, you know he has stomach problems, if this continues, his body will collapse sooner or later." Xia Nihong As she said that, her eyes were already red, as if at this moment she really realized how important her son was to her.

"Qi Fan..." An Yiyang looked at the skinny man on the bed, couldn't help but walked up to him, and called him, but the response was still only silence.

"How can I do without eating?" An Yiyang began to become a little distracted, even he himself didn't realize how nervous he looked at the moment.

"Try calling him a few more times." Xia Nihong encouraged hopefully.

An Yiyang nodded, walked over and sat on the bed, reached out and stroked Qi Fan's hair lightly: "Qi Fan, it's me, I'm An Yiyang."

The man seemed to have finally heard his voice, and his body trembled suddenly, but then he became quiet again, with his back turned to him motionless.An Yiyang's nose was slightly sore, and he couldn't help crawling up to him, and lay face to face with him, Qi Fan opened his eyes and looked at him, without saying a word.Looking at his unshaven face and lifeless eyes, An Yiyang couldn't help reaching out and touching his cheek: "Qi Fan."

The other party just stared at him, looked at him for a long time, then turned his back to him, An Yiyang unrelentingly moved to the other side and lay face to face with him: "I'm An Yang, please say something."

"Qi Fan, say something." Unknowingly, she has already brought on coquetry, "I'm An Yang!"

"An Yang?" The other party gave him a blank look, his dull eyes brightened and then darkened immediately.An Yiyang quickly reached out to touch his face, and called again: "Qi Fan?"

"No, you're not," Qi Fan suddenly pushed his hand away, got up from the bed and retreated to the head of the bed, "Get out! Who let you in!"

An Yiyang turned a blind eye to his resistance, and crawled over, sat in front of him, and looked at him seriously: "I'm An Yang, I really am, An Yiyang, don't you recognize me?"

Qi Fan flinched when he looked at him, An Yiyang sat closer to him, the other party stared at him intently, seemed to be hesitant, and then slowly stretched out his hand towards him as if wanting to touch his face, An Yiyang Yang hurriedly brought his face closer, but the other party shrank back abruptly, covering his head forcefully: "Fake!"

"What's the matter with you?" Seeing him covering his head and shaking his head, An Yiyang was immediately at a loss.

"Fake..." Qi Fan was still muttering to himself, but he never looked up at him.

Xia Nihong, who was next to him, said, "He thought it was an illusion. He's been talking about it these days. When he wakes up, he runs around the house like a headless chicken, looking for you everywhere, and throwing things when he can't find you. Throw everything you can, and say you were still there just now."

"But, he didn't look for me!" Since he wanted to see him so much, why didn't he show up once?

"Because I know you won't pay attention to him. The reason why he entered Donghuan is to get closer to you. I don't want to become like this soon. The doctor said that he had suppressed his emotions for too long before he broke out in an instant." , he may want to see you and has been restraining himself, which finally made him mentally unable to bear the relapse of depression."

An Yiyang's heart sank, could it be because of what he said to him when we met for the last time?

"It was okay to be willing to eat before, but now I don't even want to eat. If it wasn't for this level, I wouldn't bother you anymore." Xia Nihong continued.

An Yiyang looked at the man in front of him covering his head, in a trance, muttering something in a low voice, and felt an unprecedented panic in his heart.